Idk If Thats A Bpd Or A Me Thing

bpd culture is getting told “just keep going and it will be fine”- i’m tired. i’m so goddamn tired. i’m exhausted and i feel pointless. how much longer can i just push it through and wait for better days? i’ve been waiting for so long and it doesn’t seem to end, ever

I hate how obsessive I get. It isn’t normal, it isn’t healthy. And it does me more harm than good. You’d think though, really, that being obsessed would make someone flattered. Apparently not.

i hate that BPD gives me such a lack of emotional permanence.

you can spend hours describing the ways in which you care about me, yet the moment you stop my brain will immediately decide you hate me and are destined to leave me.

please i want to be someone's priority please answer my texts eagerly, cling to me, kiss me, be desperate as much as I for contact, call me and let's talk for hours (what was the last time someone called me?), please i want someone, superficial friendships aren't enough i want more, i want to know you'll always be there no matter what and that you know i will be there for you too, im begging, i am on my knees, i want reciprocated, unshakeable devotion

im so tired

realizing that you can never be truly loved by someone and will always be the 2nd choice.

Not my brain basically acting like they’re a god!!! But they basically are so like tf, and I really should stop being this selfish and taking everything for granted when they’re the most amazingest person ever and I don’t deserve them at all whfhwihdjwje

"You're unlovable." WOW CRAZY I DIDNT KNOW.

I need friends man, if you're okay with me messaging you to start a friendship, please reblog this post (':

Story of my life

For once, I want someone to be scared of losing me. To fight for me to stay when I try to leave. Why am I always the one scared? Always the one fighting for someone to stay?