I Love Being Alone Most Of The Time. It's The Only State Of Being I Know Of How To Be. Like A Concrete
I love being alone most of the time. It's the only state of being I know of how to be. Like a concrete flower. There, but not noticed, or acknowledged. Crying alone when nobody else is awake or around. Never having space to myself. Everybody wants to be involved now for themselves. I'm just tired, really. Tired of never feeling like I can achieve a deep emotional connection to anybody, or being completely myself because of things I can not help. It's just something too far out of my reach. I have to just accept my role of being the called upon one, who nurtures and cares for somebody, and being ditched when the person they really want comes back, but still being there. It's my birthright. My curse of life.
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I think I have DID or a OSDD, and I think it's becoming more prominent. I forgot that I have looked at it a handful of times, and forget until the symptoms become bad again and I go to look for therapists (which I cannot find any given my location/insurance. Hate living in the south istg.) It also hurts to not have anybody to talk to about it just to have somebody who understands or just to discuss things with for an idea. I've tried talking to a friend who is far mentally typical, but he's also judgemental of me it feels like so, oh well I guess. I just wish I didn't feel so different, or didn't feel like I should talk to anybody about it.
AND SHES DONE!
i was able to find a little bit of the leftover fabric from my raggedy ann doll so they match :)
i think she came out appropriately cute and i plan to make a matching andy once i find some good plaid fabric
:) thank you
can I have a headpat :( It's been a rough week
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