I Have 25 Pages Left In This Book I'm Reading But I Feel Like I'm Not Ready For Those Emotions Right

when you wake up, your whole world’s flipped. it’s just different, and you know you gotta go with it, and that’s just simply growing up, and not see it in a negative way. you have to see it as it’s been given to you. i mean, as much as times can be crazy, you’re going to feel like that’s where you’re supposed to be, you’re not going to feel out of place anymore, you’re going to feel like that’s where you were meant to be. you don’t have to pretend that it’s easy all the time, you just let it go and grow with it and you can’t hold on to the old ‘you’ or the old ‘this’ or the old ‘that’ because, you know, you change. and its not changing in a bad way, its just changing because thats what happens in life. you grow up, everyone moves on, you’re just learning. you stay true to yourself. changing isn’t a bad thing; it never was, but at the end of the day, you know, you’re the same person, and where your heart is, that doesn’t change.

shawn mendes (from his new song “understand”)

i feel like getting your heart broken could be an interesting experience but i have never even liked anyone so i really don't know what it feels like aside from reading tragic books and listening to heartbreaking songs

I think it’s intoxicating when somebody is so unapologetically who they are.

transparent roses 

One to use for breathing today.

"Love doesn't conquer everything. And whoever thinks it does is a fool."

I've grown kinda resentful of the trope " love can't fix everything" not because it's untrue; to its core, it's not. It just feels...Redundant? Because we KNOW that; We know people need realism and acceptance of bad things in order to deal with said bad things, but love has never been about hiding from consequence or effort. Love, in it's truest, rawest form, is MOTIVATION. It's love that keeps us standing and love that pushes forward. Love that breaks and rebuilds. Love that keeps us surviving.

Love has never been about fixing; Love is healing.

leonard cohen, take this longing

i am a big believer in letting music (and other media) come to you when you're ready for it. you may only know vaguely of an acclaimed beloved artist and suspect that you'd be into them but just... not ever get around to it. and then in 15 years one of their songs just hits you the right way and what a gift to suddenly have all of their works to explore! there is no hurry; what is good is always good.

i’ll never admit how badly i want to be wanted. not out loud, at least. i read books and poetry, and i watch films, all about the kind of love that takes your breath away. i want someone to love me. i want someone to wrap their arms around me, to play with my hair, to rub my back. i want to be wanted. i want to be someone’s number one person, their favorite. i want to be the first person they want to tell their good news to. and i can never admit it because if i did, i’d have to admit that i’m terrified i won’t ever be.

“and just knowing that everything will end should not change our plans” IT ENDED AND I DON’T REGRET IT. IT’S TEMPORARY AND IT’S WORTH DOING. HEARTBREAK IS INEVITABLE AND THE ONLY WAY IS TO RUN HEADLONG INTO IT. WE BEGIN AGAIN