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[3.1.25]

Setting up my monthly mood tracker and commonplacing thoughts on my art practice.

| 29 april 2025 |

wow april is almost over... trying to balance end of the semester TAing and studying for final 🤪 also the cherry blossom picture is from like a week ago haha

🎧 1x1 — bring me the horizon, nova twins

13.05.25 —Working on a presentation rn that needs to be done by 8 this evening and it reminds me of what I don’t like about university. First, I have to do it alone, despite the fact that the prof said it would be groups of two to three. Just no one else was interested in the topic I volunteered for so now I'm the only one working alone while everyone else in the seminar will work with two partners. Prof could have done something about this but I guess they didn’t care. I also have to present it all alone later, which is never something I look forward to, but it becomes a whole lot worse when I have to do it all alone. Nice.

I have to read six whole papers in the span of a weekend when everyone else has to read just two. And I have to figure out an outline for the presentation completely by myself and then judge which aspects to allocate what amount of time to. Something I could use critical feedback on. And half assing it feels so bad when I'm the only one who worked on the presentation. Life could really be better at the moment.

physics grind RAHHHHHHHHH

April 10, 2025

14.05.2025 // catching up with readings

love all the reading I've been doing lately. it is also exciting to see my library build up over the years, especially now that I can afford to buy some of the books I have wanted for years. recommendations from friends and acquaintances have also helped me expand my reading choices beyond my usual categories and genres. the tbr list keeps growing and it's a reason to live for.

[01/05] life has been so peaceful lately. (maybe because I have been neglecting the 7 courses I have to attend to. maybe).

participated in my first undergrad research conference🖤

25/03/29

I've pulled a few really long office days this week.

~Thursday, September 12th, 2024~

It’s very hoa-hoa today and I’m enjoying it. I’m hoping it’ll motivate me to do some studying tonight. I only have 15 more days left to finish my statistics class and I’m struggling hardcore. Math is not a strong subject for me at all. Send me some good vibes

📖: Snow Crash by Neal Stephenson

To Do

Finish reviewing module 2

Review 1/3 of module 3

Watch module 7 lecture videos and review slides

Academic advice that you must remember while you follow the "aesthetic"

romanticising school and studies by using aesthetics (i.e. Dark academia, art academia, chaotic academia, etc) is really helpful for motivation, but there are many things you must keep inmind

★ Stop romanticism of insomnia. I mostly blame dark academia fanatics for this (not all, but most). in order to remember what you have studied properly as the brain absorbs the information you studied while your sleeping and it maintains a good mental health. Put an end to the "sleep is for the weak" mindset. Cause no sleep actually makes you weak.

★ stop worrying about not having aesthetic notes with colourful pens, heading and doodles like you see in the "study with me videos". It doesn't matter how it looks, as long as you understand, that's the whole point of having notes in the first place. To study, it's not an assignment or project for you to spent hours switching between pens and markers.

Partly people are so deep focused on making everything look "aesthetic" and forget to study, which was supposed to be the main priority.

★ if you get a bad grade once in a while, don't get demotivated. Sometimes no matter how hard you study you won't get the result you want, it might sound cliché but all you can do is try again. No matter how good someone's grades are, these is always a moment where they get a low grade for wherever reason, instead of taking that as a cue to give up, take it as an opportunity to bounce back

(remember, some study hacks may work for some people but it won't work for everyone, so try to find a method that's best suitable for you)

★ Put you phone away when your studying, it's a huge distraction (wow mom was right) now, if your study materials are in your phone or you study through YouTube, then i suggest you turn off you notifications of social media apps (i.e YouTube, Instagram and even Tumblr)

Also not a study advice, but avoid using your phone when your eating, pls it's for you own good, and stop creating fake scenarios when you sleep, it's the reason you can't sleep dummy