i am so so so so so sorry for going AWOL, it’s just that i’m focusing on a few projects, one of which i want to see through before anything else. so, mostly, @despairmade, with a couple parts “for funsies visual novel project” and “i am more than likely going to reboot one muse and combine them with another for a trio-muse blog”.
sorry for the lack of responses! it might be a while before I’m back active on this blog, it’s just that I want to finish despairmade while I’m putting myself to the grinding, you know?
ETA: oh i’m gonna drop my discord while i’m thinking about it. zetsubou. 🐻#4473
“ don’t stop ”
“ please don’t ”
“ don’t shoot ”
“ give it ”
“ shut up ”
“ damn it! ”
“ stop it! ”
“ you’re crazy ”
“ that’s insane ”
“ get out! ”
“ don’t leave ”
“ i’m tired ”
“ that’s bad ”
“ be honest ”
“ be careful ”
“ be nice ”
“ you’re wrong ”
“ go home ”
“ watch it ”
“ fuck me ”
“ kiss me ”
“ we can’t… ”
“ we shouldn’t… ”
“ you’re perfect ”
“ that’s awful ”
― aesthetic for the survivor;
Temper us in fire, and we grow stronger.
When we suffer, we survive.
i want to write relationships that are complicated.
i want to write the on-again-off-again relationships. i want the screaming matches and the cancelled dates and the hurt feelings and the second guesses and second chances.
i want to write people who completely shake up each other’s daily routine and flip their entire world on its axis. i want them to drive each other crazy and question why they bother sticking around and then remember the way their partner laughs or see them in a moment of vulnerability that tells them ‘this is is why i stay. this is why i love you.'
i want to write relationships with struggles. with class differences and financial divide. two people who are so completely different they somehow complete each other. i want the jealousy and the feelings of inadequacy that goes with it.
i want to write people who aren’t afraid to be honest with their partner. who aren’t afraid to say 'yeah you’re being an asshole’ followed by 'but i still love you, you idiot.’
i want the first time they see their partner cry and the morning after their first intimate night when everything feels so right.
i want people who get so used to one another that they stop going the extra mile. i want the ‘you don’t make the effort because you already have me’ argument.
i want relationships that challenge each other to be better people and make each other question their beliefs and moral compass.
but most of all, i want to write relationships that are real. that make you feel something. i want to go on the emotional rollercoaster right along with them.
that’s what i want.
Change them however you want.
“All I wanted was for you to stay.”
“Can’t we just talk?”
“Don’t treat her the way you treated me.”
“Everybody tells me you’re no good.”
“Found out you were lying when you told me you were trying.”
“Hate to complain, but she’s a bitch.”
“He’ll hurt you. I know so, he got me before you.”
“He’s dragging me down.”
“He’s just telling you what you want to hear.”
“How long is this going to last?”
“How many times do I have to apologize?!”
“I don’t think I can stop.”
“I don’t want you, but I do.”
“I love you, but I’ve got to watch out for myself.”
“It’s me or him. Make your choice.”
“I wanna hurt you just to hear you screaming my name.”
“I was always there for you, but you were never there for me.”
“Look, I gotta warn you about your new girlfriend.”
“Nothing could kill me like you do.”
“Nothing ever gets me high like this.”
“Only you can ease my pain.”
“She took everything that ever meant something.”
“She walked away without a second look.”
“The passion just… died.”
“There’s nothing left.”
“We need to talk.”
“What do I gotta do to make you treat me right?!”
“You’re no good for my health.”
“You’re the most jealous person I’ve ever met.”
“You think you can handle me?”
aka my life and yours are two parts of a whole
“I can’t do this without you.”
“Don’t let go of my hand through this, please.”
“If you walk away everything will fall apart.”
“All I want is your lips against mine right now.”
“It wasn’t just a one off for me; it was me hoping you’d see the connection.”
“We’ve been through everything else together. This is no different.”
“You’re my other half.”
“There’s no one else I’d rather have with me than you.”
“You need to help me, I can’t do this alone.”
“I’ve never felt alone since you came into my life.”
“What am I supposed to do if you walk away?”
“This distance is killing me.”
“Don’t let this distance tear us apart.”
“I need you as much as you need me.”
“Letting go was never an option.”
“All the time did was make me realize that you’re supposed to be with me.”
“I’ve made so many mistakes, but you’re not one of them.”
“I need you to help me reach the top shelf.”
“Two people aren’t this made for each other so easily.”
“You’re worth any fight.”
“I’m crying on the floor and nothing’s right, but I know you can make this better.”
“I’m way too drunk to be driving, so I was gonna walk home– stay on the phone with me, okay?”
“There’s this couple’s contest, and I know we’re not dating, but the grand prize is this big ass load of food– help me.”
“It doesn’t matter if you need me; you broke everything.”
“Everything’s really shitty right now. So how about you get in this car with me and we drive to wherever for however long?”
“I’ll go if you go.”
“I’ll only do this if you help me.”
“I can’t depend on anyone else, just you.”
“Thank you for always being here for me.”
“You could call be at any time and I’d drop anything if you needed me.”
“All you have to do is show me that you feel the same.”
“I know that I need you, but sometimes the feeling doesn’t seem reciprocated.”
“I’m pathetic, because I go to you for everything, but you’d pick someone over me any day.”
“Can you give me a ride?”
“I didn’t tell anyone else I was leaving… You deserved to know though.”
“I’ll still be here when you get back.”
“Isn’t in terrifying that we both couldn’t go without the other?”
“This ring proves that I’m always here for you.”
“Come here, let me give you a hug.”
“My date stood me up, can you come with me to egg his/her car?”
“My date stood me up, can you come pick me up?”
“The lights don’t shine as bright when you’re not here.”
“I can’t deal with us drifting apart anymore.”
“I feel like I’m gripping with all my might and you’re not even lifting a finger.”
“My friend locked me outside naked. Help.”
“My friend needs to see I’m dating someone so they’ll stop including me in blind dates–yes, I know we’re not dating, but still.”
“I don’t call you my partner in crime for no reason.”
“Can you come over so I don’t feel so alone anymore?”
“You ran to get here this quickly?!”
“I need you.”
reasons i haven’t replied back:
- i’m socially exhausted - i don’t have the time right now - i don’t know how to reply - i have a bad memory and got distracted - i’m having a depressive episode and don’t have the energy to socialise
not reasons i haven’t replied back:
- i’m ignoring you just because - i hate you - i’m fed up with you - i don’t want to be your friend anymore
Apparently “spite” is not an ‘appropriate answer’ to “What motivates you?”
ijounakame. ind. priv. highly sel. au. 2k12 donatello.brought to his knees by decay.
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