Send Me An Au And I’ll Give You 5+ Headcanons About It

        wow, it’s been a long time since i’ve done a text...thiiiiing for any of my tmnt muses, huh? guess no better time to start than now!

        ijounakame is a blog for a heavily au, canon-divergent donatello from tmnt 2012! i’ve been playing donnie for around a year in total, and i’m glad to get back onto him. i used to have the aliases of envy and tc, for those of you who’ve known me before now ---- but please, call me spring!

        this blog is temporarily dash-only as i get my theme together, so please be patient with me as i do so.

tell me, where did you go? i only see you in my nightmares now

The Empress of China starters

“Aren’t you worried I’ll tell her everything?”

“Aren’t you worried we’ll kill her?”

“I think it’s a blessing in disguise”

“I should have killed you to be safe.”

“Except for taking a peek in distance, what have you done for her?”

“For me, to love someone means giving them the right to choose.”

“Don’t sell yourself short and miss a perfectly good chance.”

“When the flowers were blooming, we were passionately in love. When flowers were dying, why did you disappear like the tide?”

“For survival, I buried my dreams.”

“For a good night’s sleep, I never stopped sharpening my sword.”

“Never leave today’s work for tomorrow.”

“You lucky devil! You have no idea how lucky you are.”

“Why do you want to stay?”

“In front of that man, you’re not happy. You have no dignity.”

“Why do you ask me to see who you have become? Why can’t you see for yourself what has become of you?!”

“Perhaps you’re right. Neither of us is who we used to be.”

“This is what ruined me. I forgot love is a gamble.”

“[Name], take me away, as far away as possible.”

“I’ll be leaving soon. I hope you can go on living and be happy like today.”

“Believe it or not, I wanted to help you.”

“No doubt you have paid the price, but at least you’re alive today.”

“If I were you, I’d make myself useful again.“

“Listen to me, the day is long, don’t be disheartened by a temporary setback or admit defeat.”

“I don’t get to choose my own destiny.”

“[Name], promise me, no matter what happens in the future, I hope our friendship will never change.”

“Don’t ask what the future lies for you, as long as you have no regrets when the curtain comes down.”

“How dare you stand in my way!”

“I’m trying to help you.”

“If you harbored ill intentions, why did you save me?”

“I envy him. He’s free to love and hate, and leads a carefree life. To be in such a place is like a dream.”

“I still can’t see what’s going through your head.”

“From now on we should avoid seeing each other.”

“To you, I carry no weight at all. Not even that of a weather. No wonder you’re tired of me.”

“How you wish to live your life, it’s your decision to make.”

“I’m sorry I let you down.”

“I can only hope to repay your love in another life.”

“Let me go with you.”

“Nothing is going to stop me! For love I’ll burn ‘till my last breath.”

i want to write relationships that are complicated.

i want to write the on-again-off-again relationships. i want the screaming matches and the cancelled dates and the hurt feelings and the second guesses and second chances. 

i want to write people who completely shake up each other’s daily routine and flip their entire world on its axis. i want them to drive each other crazy and question why they bother sticking around and then remember the way their partner laughs or see them in a moment of vulnerability that tells them ‘this is is why i stay. this is why i love you.' 

i want to write relationships with struggles. with class differences and financial divide. two people who are so completely different they somehow complete each other. i want the jealousy and the feelings of inadequacy that goes with it. 

i want to write people who aren’t afraid to be honest with their partner. who aren’t afraid to say 'yeah you’re being an asshole’ followed by 'but i still love you, you idiot.’

i want the first time they see their partner cry and the morning after their first intimate night when everything feels so right.

i want people who get so used to one another that they stop going the extra mile. i want the ‘you don’t make the effort because you already have me’ argument.

i want relationships that challenge each other to be better people and make each other question their beliefs and moral compass. 

but most of all, i want to write relationships that are real. that make you feel something. i want to go on the emotional rollercoaster right along with them.

that’s what i want.

Scared

“I’m scared” “You’re not scared, are you?” “Are you frightened?” “You can’t frighten me” “There’s nothing to be afraid of” “Are you scared of me?” “I don’t want you to be afraid of me” “You don’t need to be afraid of this” “Why are you so scared?” “I’m scared to death” “Doesn’t anything scare you?” “I’m not afraid” “I’m not trying to scare you” “Do I frighten you?” “Why aren’t you afraid of me?” “What’s your biggest fear?” “You gotta be afraid of something” “It’s designed to scare you” “There’s no need to be afraid” “I don’t want to scare you away” “Are you scared?” “I don’t scare easily” “There’s nothing wrong with being afraid” “You terrify me” “Don’t be scared”

PSA

Hey followers. I’ve seen a couple of call-out posts on my dash over the past couple of weeks, highlighting the alleged bad behavior of certain roleplayers. Whether these posts contain truth or not, I just want to share this with everyone:

It’s OKAY to say NO. It’s okay to block someone the moment you feel threatened, uncomfortable, scared, or manipulated. 

Yes, it’ll hurt their feelings. They might get upset. But your safety is more important. Don’t write/do/participate in anything you’re not comfortable with. If you’re terrified or anxious of confrontation, just block them and let it be done!

Your concerns are vallid. Your fears are valid. This person might be triggering you and sure, they might not have the context! If you feel comfortable with explaining it to them do it. If you don’t, or if you do and they don’t seem to care or understand, block them. Say no. Cut out what you can in life that makes you upset or anxious, because you will have a lot to deal with offline already.

Please be safe. Please use the block button. Please turn off anon if you keep getting garbage anonymous messages. Please say no.

If you don’t know how to “soft block” people –

Block someone, then unblock them immediately. This will make them unfollow you unknowingly and simultaneously have you unfollow them, too.

If you need to block certain words/phrases/usernames from your dash – use the extension tumblr savior . 

And the most powerful tool of all –  If you’re scared, upset, triggered, feel guilted or uncomfortable – 

LOG OUT. 

It doesn’t have to be forever and you don’t have to delete your blog. It doesn’t have to be for very long at all – you don’t  have to announce it! 

But Tumblr should not affect you once you sign out. It is a website. You have higher priorities. You are a living, breathing, beautiful human being who deserves to be treated with respect and cherished. It’s so easy to see people as simply text on a screen when you’re online, even subconsciously; that anonyminity can encourage people to be mean, to take out their problems on others.

Don’t be that person and don’t be the victim of that person. You deserve better. You deserve to enjoy Tumblr as a hobby and a place you visit online. Do not feel bad about saying no or using the block button – that’s what it was created for!

Take care of yourself and your friends. You’re going to be okay.

starters based on things my group chat has said.

❛Shit, I’m being attacked by porcelain clowns.❜

❛I think ___ and I just cringed from how white that was.❜

❛I’m fine with you punching me in the nads, but don’t you mess with my Pepsi.❜

❛I need to like, cry.❜

❛My beautiful voice mimics the words everyone is thinking, but is too shy to say. ‘Fuck you, ____’, I whisper into the air. A sigh of relief fills the audience. They all nod their heads in agreement. Hushed voices all around the auditorium, all carrying the same message. ‘Fuck you, _____’.❜

[TEXT] Stop with the :3c face. Nothing good ever happens when you do the :3c face.

[TEXT] andnlifhtbg3ts mad [TEXT] grts mad [TEXT] gets mad [TEXT] that one

❛We have to put a warning label on _____.❜

❛What? Is my three-inch thruster too much to handle?❜

❛Yeah, but isn’t your ego as big as your dick? WAIT, FUCK.❜

❛If only you knew I made 32k since June. Then you would treat me differently.❜

[TEXT] _____, will you space succ me?

❛I can’t believe that ______ is going to space suck ______.❜

❛______ is a tranquiliquest.❜

❛______ doesn’t feel pain. You know, because he blocks the pain out with testosterone.❜

❛Once I got punched in the dick and I didn’t even give a fuck. I have really high pain tolerance.❜

❛Nootnoot. The musical.❜

❛I want ______ to go to Cowboy Camp.❜

❛Eternal suffering isn’t as bad as they all say!❜

❛I can’t believe ______ is fergalicious.❜