Something we don’t really talk about enough, and I’ll probably write about more later, is Malleus’ kindness and how, even though at times it’s taken wrongly by others, it persists despite his past and what he went through. He is still kind in his own way and he tries to be.
Can you imagine being a little one and being “cursed” from such a young age? Can you imagine? Watching others receive the love and care you always wanted, and despite it all?? You still try to be kind?
Imagine having to hold your emotions in, practically numbing yourself from everything? Because to feel any emotions would harm others? Do you realize the strength it would take to do that? And still be kind?
To still have the…openness to try and get along with humans even when they tend to see you in an unfavorable light? To hope that someone treats you normally?
By all means, if you think of some of the experiences that he went through since he was a child, someone weaker would not be able to handle what he has.
He’s cursed with powers that he can’t handle by the senate who only want to use him and show their importance. The senate who probably have cursed generations of draconias most likely.
Malleus who had to be careful with the way he laughed or talked in fear of hurting someone accidentally.
He was able to see Lilia who came to visit him and at times sneak in to see him. The one person he can be himself with and even then he accidentally hurt him.
The Malleus, who people said was boring and arrogant, but we know now why he was don’t we? Because he had to be to control his powers.
But also Malleus, who snuck away to see Lilia, who took care of silver because it would make Lilia happy. But also, someone who grows to care for that little babe.
But can we also add on this? Malleus, who was “blessed” with these curses having to see Silver, who was “blessed” out of love. (The silver hair not the sleeping curse) and despite it all, he didn’t resent silver, he loved him. (He still loved him despite knowing the truth about who killed his mother)
Can you imagine the strength it takes to be this kind?? To continue to be this kind? And not let it foster to hate and anger?
In a way, Malleus reminds me of Lilia. His parallels with Lilia is never ending. Lilia, for everything he went through, had all the reason to grow to hate humanity but he changed through his journey.
Malleus, in a way, is also like this. He has all the reason to hate and have anger, but he doesn’t. He shows kindness repeatedly. Sometimes that kindness isn’t translated well, but despite it all, he is kind. He’s not someone who grew to hate and have anger in him. When he had all the more reason too than anyone else.
“how did you get into writing” hey so writing got into me
"every possible kind of content can be found on the internet" yeah sure except for the One fucking thing I'm looking for. why does no one want to talk about the One Singular thing I'm looking for. but yeah other than that everything is on here.
I need to know what Aha's thought process when blowing up the Astral Express was. They spent, what, a year on the train before it happened? That takes planning. That takes dedication. Did Akivili do something to anger them? Aha had to assume that would attract THEIR attention, right? Did they just think, as they often do, "Oh, this is gonna be so fucking funny," and then dedicate a year to this prank? I need to know what was going through their head.
Kaz Brekker would do this, knowing full well he has someone who can get him out of the elevator on speed dial. He just wants to see what happens.
Not following fandoms but having people whom I follow occasionally falling into them, I've noticed a statistically unusually high rates of headcanoning a specific character as trans, in a "I know it's not canon but fuck you I'm having fun" sort of way. And also in horny ways.
So either there is significant overlap between people who are attracted to trans men and people who are attracted to disabled men, and I'd never noticed that before
or there's a significant amount of trans men who'll see a male character depicted as physically frail and vulnerable but mentally unhinged and far too smart to be stopped, and go "oh shit that's me"
nothing fills my heart with more violence than the sight of a naked wrapping paper roll
this is how Cain killed Abel
Yeah Verlaine sulked in a basement for six years but Rimbaud gave up the last scraps of his identity, broke his own self-imposed rule of not having friends/lovers, wrote in his journal like a lovesick teenager about how he would "walk through any hell for his partner", insisted he would bring Verlaine back to France, put Mori's hold on the mafia at risk and attempted to kill two children to find Verlaine, used the last moments of his life to console the child Verlaine had cared so much for and then became a singularity to maybe see Verlaine again.
Bro was whipped
You can't convince me they didn't do it.
Akivili is racing. Aha waits for the moment to crash into Akivili.
I hate having songs stuck in my head because I can have multiple stuck at once and they will overlap. Why is this bad? Because they will mix and as a general rule, they will have completely different vibes.
For example, today: Preybirds by Rabbitology decided to mix with fucking Mambo No. 5, so for a solid hour I just got a bunch of “The heart in your hands drips a little bit of Monica in my life a little bit of Erica by as it crawls from splintered ribs to eclipse a little bit of Rita’s all I need and beg again for revenge”
Officially wrote out the school information. Will probably keep everything for this under the tag "Twining Fates" for the sake of organization.
If I'm not gonna work on my assignments I might as well commit to working on the creative thing. Tumblr I'm relying on you to hold me to keep working until I have a full fic and not give up halfway through.
Basic concept: Fake TWST event ft. new made-up school cause I wanna do SOMETHING with it.
Event plot line goes as follows: Despite the first Promising Young Mage Social ending in disaster, the schools agree to attempt holding it one more time. This time, the hosting school will be Twining Fates Academy, due to the school having a reputation for its extremely safe, controlled campus. Crowley ends up raffling another 10 students, but that number goes up to 14 due to the inclusion of Ramshackle dorm + Twining Fates specifically noting that groups of visitors should come in even numbers.
Note that this would take place in what I am referring to as my "Double-Yuu" AU... hence why the inclusion of Ramshackle brings the count to 14.
Explaining more later
Star - It/its || If you found this blog then congrats I guess. I really don't what I'm doing here this is just a thought dump for my hyperfixations
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