Not sure how long I can pretend I am good. I may have crossed my mental limit and not realized it. Two days ago I found myself opening the window of my hotel's room and almost climbed it to jump... Until I realized what I was doing and stopped myself... I can't think of how much pain that would cause the ppl around me, so I try to stay sane and not think of THAT again but pressure is growing more and more... People leaving me, people wronging me, and pressure from work. Idk what else can I say? I feel a little betrayed by some, longing for others, pressure from my kin and their lack of acknowledging my situation doesn't help. In short, I feel like I'm trying to hold onto a small statue of sand... Whataver i do, it's falling apart, and I'm slowly saying "what's the point of keeping it together now?" and slowly wanting to let go more and more. I try to keep up for me, for my friend, for my religion... But until when?
After some good thinking, I came to a conclusion. I've had kinda enough of suffering and tormenting my mind, so I thought maybe having a good talk with myself. Through it I decided that, even if it was hard to admit it, it was time to let go of some people, and of old pains. Yes, I've been hurt, and I did some mistakes in the past cuz of it, and I don't justify them. But now? I know I'm fighting, and so I'm sure it'll hurt (like every war does) but samewise, I know it's for a good cause and reason, so I'm ready to smile at the pain and take it out, and find peace in my endeavors. And yes, I'll miss some people, but I gotta accept I'm not responsible for everyone's fate, so I'm happy I got to share a part of my life with them. There's no denying that it's hard to accept the pain, especially when pressured, but it's the only way to let go and move on from it. And accept that ur trying to do better. Be at peace that rn, ur a better person, and u wanna fight for good...
This person has pancakes eating koalas with a level of wisdom that somehow impresses Doctor Strange's opinion about me.
OC presentation:
Name: Nitham
Race: Outcode monster
Gender: Male
Age: A bit more than 3000 years
Weapons: Sword + Axe 🗡️ 🪓
Powers: The spells and abilities he can use depend on the "side of the body" that casts them. The spells he can cast from his right arm aren't the same as those he can use with his left one.
His right side's color patterns symbolizes destruction and chaos (hence the red), so it's very offensive sided. He can use his right arm to shoot energy beams, enhance his punches and make his axe (when wielding it) more solid and sharper. When he stomps his right foot a shockwave is created around him. He calls them all "Red Abilities".
His left side's color patterns symbolizes creation and order (blue in contrast with red). He can use his left arm to use telekinesis on inanimate objects, heal others wounds and create spheric shields around him. He calls them "Blue Abilities".
He can only use one side's powers at a time. Meaning if he uses his Red Abilities, he can't use the Blue ones, and the other way around.
He can also teleport.
Weaknesses: When using his shield sphere, Nitham is unable to move from his place, and those shields are not very very strong. Two Gaster Blasters is enough to destroy one.
He can teleport only once every three minutes, meaning he can't just spam it.
Relationships (Current):
Core!Frisk: Best friend
Fresh: Finds him weird but doesn't mind his companionship.
Ink: Annoyed by him a lot.
Error: Same.
Likes: Reading and playing chess
Dislikes: Vegetables.
Looks:
Give meeeeeeeeee
every single person who reblogs this
every
single
person
will get “doot doot” in their ask box
up
r u ok?
drunk and in love and full of food i think only the torturer eel could harm me
NO WAY.... TWO OF MY FAV FANDOMS IN ONE IMAGE :O
And a little extra, hm.
Thanks @pink-november.
Maybe. Just maybe. I'll ride on it