I Don’t Understand Why Everyone Is So Afraid Of Adult Conversations. You Don’t Like Me ? Tell Me.

That day when I told you about my school days..how miserable I felt when the friends that I called mine neglected and sidelined me..how broken I was to believe them as my friends..how stupid I felt to trust them. How my whole academic years in school was a total hell and the pain I suffered was unimaginable for my younger self to handle at such a tender age...yet I passed through all these difficult phases of my life without sharing it with anyone..or trying to unburden myself from these trashy truths that never left me alone even during good days. I shared all these with the hope that at least you could understand the pain I endured during those shitty days of my life. I felt so relieved that I do have you in my life who's ready to offer a ear to all the agony I had to go through silently. For a second I was relieved thinking that no more teary nights..coz I hav you to share my tiniest problems with you.. for a second I thought..I am not alone . I HAVE YOU to listen and understand me inside out.

I was happy, yk!! Until you just flipped the coin. Until you u used my feelings as ur weapon to attack against me , blame me for being in a certain way and not attracting friends. All of a sudden, i realized that I was wrong about you... you weren't empathomizing with me, rather just sympathizing. I was an utter fool to believe that you would always be there for me.

I lost it...and it's so disappointing that you're no longer the person I loved deeply . I always felt that you would get me more than my parents ever could . I could never hate you because I do love you for being a good human being to others. I no longer wanna keep any kind of close connection with you..but you are so old to handle such a coldness from me.

I don't wanna be like you..nor I wanna hurt you, I will be there for you even if I lost trust in you💔

“I want to write, but more than that, I want to bring out all kinds of things that lie buried deep in my heart.”

— Anne Frank, The Diary of a Young Girl

“I promised no more poetry and I'd rather think of this as a confession: you are still the first person I want to share new things with.”

— Trista Mateer, Honeybee

“Breathe in experience, breathe out poetry.”

— Muriel Rukeyser

“Out of your vulnerabilities will come your strength.”

— Sigmund Freud

It actually feels good when people are around you even if u r craving for a me time, and I realized that having too much of" me time" is depressing af

6/9/23

Its such a difficult time when you realize one of your bad trait and you can't do anything about it.. Not even redumption.. All u can do is.. avoid ppl whom you hurted so that your bad trait won't hurt anyone else again...

Help yourself and others from agony

#helpyourselfrompain

I'm not alrighttt

Anxiety is a cruel tormentor

I am highly gratified and delighted that finally i have to come to know what makes me content and satisfied.

Hanging out with friends, going out for dinner, having a great time with parents. having the best coffee etc all comes second

I wanna stay indoors all day, i dont find enthusiasm staying outdoors or having a dayout with a friend, i wanna paint the landscapes viewed from my balcony, make my own (not best) coffee, getting myself ready to get out of my zone and click the "rare me ".