“I Love You, That Means I’m Not Just Here For The Pretty Parts. I’m Here No Matter What.”

Jeene ki tamanna & marne ka iraada be fighting in my brain everyday

Aditya tare

So, if I spend time with people who are nothing like me, it will broaden my horizon. If I think of risk as something to be understood and not eliminated, I draw the courage to act beyond fear. And if I do so in a manner that I am never entitled, I ensure that I grow in the process. This guarantees I am never limited by my self-imposed idea of what I am capable of doing.

“Some people are going to leave but that’s not the end of your story. That’s the end of their part in your story.”

— Unknown

Don't go with the flow, be the flow

- Elif Shafak

It means instead of just doing what everyone else is doing, you should be the one who decides what to do and how to do it. Be unique and make your own path instead of just following others.

Caution: don't get too close with me (I hurt ppl)

Anxiety! Is worse than depression

I think this is because anxiety doesn’t just affect your mood, it affects your physical body, especially your nervous system. When my anxiety gets severe, I can barely breathe. My breath is short. My whole body is tense, especially my chest and shoulders. My forehead feels like it is going to explode. My body sort of quits working. I can’t talk, I can’t think, I can’t process anything, I can’t even move. I don’t expect “normal” people to understand, but when I am THAT bad, I feel like I am going to die. My body is in panic mode and although I know there is no fire, my body doesn’t care. It sounds the alarms anyway. I don’t know how else to explain this to other people, but I seriously can’t function during those times. People always say things like “why didn’t you answer the phone or reply to my text?” The real answer is because I was literally checked out.

Everyone gets anxiety at times. In my opinion, what most people describe as anxiety is just stress. Chronic anxiety is like stress x 10000%.

I generally go into depression after weeks of high anxiety. It’s difficult to focus or get things done when I have anxiety. And as you can imagine, it is VERY exhausting walking around 24/7 feeling like that. Add to that insomnia. In my experience, depression is not really sadness. I either feel nothing at all or I feel a deep sense of shame for feeling nothing at all. I care a lot, then I care about nothing at all, then my body is like WTF get your shit together you worthless piece of shit! It’s a cycle. I think that I become numb because my body is worn out from trying to feel everything at once when I was in the anxiety phase. I feel nothing because the pleasure/pain response is turned off. I become a zombie. I think feeling nothing, although not ideal, is easier than feeling everything at once.

I don't wanna see anyone..nor my mom ,dad or sister...

They never understand me nd never will , but they try to..but I can't help them .

Time(Zorvan) is the ultimate force.

Zorvanism

It teaches that destiny is fixed, and humans can’t change what’s fated.

So, enjoying life through love, wine, nature, and poetry is a rational way to cope with life’s uncertainties