Every Time I Consume Caffeine

I don't wanna die by suicide

I want an accidental death. I don't wanna bring shame to my family by killing myself, becoz if ppl find that I killed myself, they ll cook up numerous false theories and even blame my parents for their lack of attention. When it is accidental, nobody is gonna know what I went through, why I was yearning for an end..it was just a instant untimely death, might even sympathize with my parents, gossip a Lil about me and my family and will leave the hell of outta my home after those funeral functions.

Idk abt my family, ig they shud be fine, mom will prolly despise me for being selfish enough to think that I wanted an end. After all, she did say that you get all that you prayed for.

please don’t let the darkness overcome you, because your Shams is on his way and will reach you soon.

This time, i am going home with zero expectation from my people.. Coz ik only i can make me jovial

“—I want to change: I want to stop fear’s subtle / guidance of my life—”

— Frank Bidart, from Half-light: Collected Poems; “California Plush” (via luthienne)

“It had been a long day, and I don’t mind saying that I cried a little bit. There is nothing wrong with crying at the end of a long day.”

— Lemony Snicket

Have the freedom to fail bbg

I wanna call someone and share what I feel without them asking me anything back

Don't go with the flow, be the flow

- Elif Shafak

It means instead of just doing what everyone else is doing, you should be the one who decides what to do and how to do it. Be unique and make your own path instead of just following others.

I am attractive when I am with people and i am often looked down by me when I am alone .

Why is it like that?