Ponyboy Who’s Not A Mamas Boy.

Ponyboy who’s not a Mamas boy.

Who’s not a Daddy’s boy.

Who’s Darry boy.

Who’s Soda’s boy.

Who’s Steve’s boy.

Who’s Two-bits boy.

Who was Dally’s boy.

Who was Johnny’s boy.

Who would always be Darry’s baby, ticking him awake, spinning him around after track, nearly crying.

Who was Soda’s Pony, the horse he always wanted, slipping him a Pepsi at the Dx, cuddling, crying with him, lying beside him

Who was Steve’s ‘Shithead’, joking around with him, running over to save him when he was jumped.

Who was Two-bit’s kiddo, making sure he’s not sick, putting a smile on his face, who used to tell his mama he didn’t need a baby brother ‘cus he already had one.

Who was Dally’s ‘man’, fighting in a way for him, hanging out with him, trying to keep himsafe.

Who was Johnny’s Pone, confiding in him, listening, always there for him.

And Ponyboy who with all of this still, doesn’t t fit in. Wasn’t quite right, would never be. He’s different.

Who hates that so much. Who couldn’t quite articulate how to fix it.

Who couldn’t fix it.

Who thought maybe killing hismelf would fix it, post book.

It didn’t work. Walking out bloodied right into the living room. Numb. Dull. He hadn’t expected Steve to care so much. He hated him.

He refused to leave him alone though. Pony didn’t even feel alive right now. He’s just repeated the same phrase to every question, “I’m ok.”

Even if it was a complete different question.

Why couldn’t he fuck off and go back to the Dx?? He wanted to be alone. Soda was waiting, it was only his lunch break.

He didn’t understand why he’d refused to leave him alone. Refused to even leave him alone in a room by himself. Much less the house.

Who pleaded he wasn’t a baby anymore.

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