It's time to pack it up Mr, Delulu
LIKE HEAVEN ABOVE âľ F. CASTLE
Summary: After Frank saves your life, youâre there for him through thick and thin.
Warnings: Violence, language, feminine nicknames, implied smut, mentions of death, reader is a teacher, reader wears glasses
Word count: 5.6k (wow)
Authorâs note: Omggg yâall, I dug this up from my Pages app, itâs literally almost 3 years old and thatâs why Iâm a little nervous to post it but I thought it might actually be some of my best writing, so here we go :) It takes place through Daredevil season 2 all the way to the end of The Punisher Season 1, and I have to admit, I honestly feel like Frank was NOT ready for any kind of love interest during Daredevil but I took some creative liberties, anyway. So this is a little out of character on that front. Iâm rambling, I hope you enjoy!! Iâm gonna get back to your requests soon <3
Frank felt like somehow days passed by in a flurry yet every second dragged on like the worst torture he had endured â which was saying a lot considering the literal war he had gone through, and the fact he was currently lying in a hospital bed; broken, bruised and with a drilling hole in his foot. And yet waiting to see you was the one thing that got his confidence to falter, his brain to shortcircuit.
For a man so stubborn and determined to do things on his own, he had crumbled so fast when presented with the opportunity to see you again. He hadnât even realized he had ended up caring about you so deeply, not until the blonde journalist had stepped into his room and the words just poured out of him.
âWould ya do me a favour?â Frank asked as the woman was leaving the room, his gruff voice so uncharacteristically meek and vulnerable, and therefore capable of turning her head immediately. âPleaseâ, he added weakly, âmy girl⌠Iâthereâs someone I need to see. Just once. Please.â
Maybe she was curious about meeting the one person who seemed to mean anything to The Punisher anymore; maybe she felt surprisingly bad for him or maybe it was both, but Karen found herself doing as he asked and tracked you down. She reached out and a few days later⌠you were walking down the hallways of the hospital, uncomfortably shifting the weight of your leather jacket from one arm to the other, your stomach churning in nervous anticipation.
The sight of several armed guards standing outside the room you were being walked to made you gulp, but you werenât scared of the man inside. You were scared to see the kind of condition he was in, to fully comprehend the gravity of the situation, scared of the moment youâd have to walk out in the uncertainty if youâd ever see him again. But not him. Never him.
Something in Frank came to life when you appeared at the doorway; something he thought to be long dead and buried only for you to always revive him. He lifted his head from the worn pillows and sighed in some kind of relief, only for guilt to lodge into his heart when he saw you scanning his body.
He looked awful, no way around it. Littered in bruises so severe you could barely see his face, you struggled not to cry while looking at the multiple machines connected to him and the abundance of bandages on his tired limbs. What really got to you, though, was the handcuffs on his wrists and the straps across his chest and stomach to make sure there was no room for him to move any more than necessary to sit up and lie back down.
âJesusâŚâ, you sighed breathlessly, your hands beginning to shake as you walked over to him with a frown so deep it hurt his heart. He knew he might have been a selfish asshole for dragging you here, for making you see what he had tried to protect you from this whole time, for letting you get attached right before it would all go to shit, anyway. But he wasnât strong enough to push you away. He was capable of enduring much, but he was weak when it came to you. He had tried it, at first, keeping you at armâs length but you got under his skin in a way that was irreversible and it hurt more to resist than it did to give in. For him, anyway.
âLooks worse than it is, sweetheartâ, he rasped, and with a scoff, you finally met his eyes only for the depth of them to catch you off-guard and make you choke on your own tongue. He looked just as attentive and kind as the day you had met him â you swore youâd never forget the way he had hid you behind the counter of the diner, looked right into your eyes and promised heâd make sure youâd make it to class tomorrow; what would the kids do without their teacher, after all?
âThey said your foot was⌠that there was aâŚâ, you stammered, hoping to counter his words with an argument that failed as soon as you tried to get it out. He had never judged you for your tendency to stutter, though, and he didnât do it now, either. Simply nodded and let you process.
âYeah. Yeah, there wasâ, he admitted quietly, licking his split lips as he watched you move to the chair next to his bed and slowly sink down. Even with all the pain in your eyes, you looked so beautiful in one of your worn band shirts and the skirt you had promptly tucked it into, your glasses heavy on your nose and the shimmer of your lipbalm like a red thread for Frank to hang onto like his life depended on it. Amidst all the chaos and ache of his recent weeks, he could just close his eyes and think back to you, and somehow he felt at peace. At least for a second.
âI wish I could⌠make it all betterâ, you whispered sadly, a lone tear rolling down your cheek as you looked at his bruised cheekbones.
Frankâs hand reached for yours only for the handcuffs to stop him, the noise of the movement alerting the guard outside the door and pulling a swear from Frank. When he settled his hand back by his side, the guard seemed to relax a little, making both of you sigh â the man wasnât even allowed to hold your hand.
âOh, sweetheartâ, Frank whispered, âthatâs exactly what you do. You make all this shit better.â He managed a small smile as he tilted his head at you. âI may just make it worse, but you? Christ, youâŚâ, he struggled to put his thoughts into words, keeping you on your toes as he finally decided against it, âIâpreciate you cominâ. I just, uh, I guess I wanted to see you before I get dragged into a courtroom and⌠yeah. Yeah, thereâs no happy ending for me. But for a moment there, you helped me believe there might beâ, he went on, only breaking your heart with each word.
You wiped your eyes and chuckled softly. âYou donât give yourself enough credit, Frankie. Youâve really made things better for me, too. And you deserve a happy ending, however that might look for youâ, you swore, casting your eyes at your trembling hands. âI know it might be weird to say, but Iâm grateful I met you. Life-threatening danger and all. You and everyone else may not see it the same way, but you are a good guy. You areâ, you continued before sniffling and getting up from your chair enough to press a kiss on his forehead.
You were careful and gentle, unwilling to hurt him any more than he had already been hurt. Yet when you moved to pull away, Frank grunted and reached for your wrist, stopping you from leaving. For a moment, you were forehead to forehead, your lips inches away and his breath mixing with yours.
âSit with me for a bit? Yeah?â Frank pleaded, and when you nodded, he swallowed and smiled weakly. âThatâs my girl.â
He didnât see you again until the trial. He spotted you right there in the benches, dressed in your finest red shirt that had his thoughts running a million miles while being walked to the stand. He was dressed in a suit, too, and he almost wanted to laugh at the ridiculous thought of a date swirling in his head. Maybe, in another lifetime, that could have been reality â not him being on trial for murder with you trying to tune out the hate speech spewed at him from the other half of the courtroom.
Most of his bruises had healed by then. You found small comfort in that.
You didnât get to tell him he looked good, though. You didnât get to say a single thing when he was announcing his guilt with a booming roar, and the next thing you knew, he was being walked out of the courtroom with a prison sentence looming over his head. You didnât blame him for doing what he did, and you certainly didnât expect him to choose you over his morals. But nevertheless, you couldnât help but cry as he was taken out of sight and you were left with the realization you may never see him again.
You were sitting outside on the steps of the courthouse when a strange hand extended a tissue for you. Just as you looked up, nearly blinded by the sunshine, you were glad you hadnât said your thought out loud when you saw Frankâs lawyer poke his cane at the steps until he figured where to sit. He lowered himself next to you just as you took the tissue and thanked him for his kindness.
âYouâre the womanâ, he stated matter-of-factly, and when you turned to him in confusion, he chuckled quietly. âI recognize your perfume. It⌠stuck to himâ, he explained â even if his explanation remained vague â but you had no time to present any further questions when he continued. âFrank Castle is not a talkative man. But Iâve noticed whenever he does speak, his words carry meaning. He doesnât do small talk or state the obvious, he⌠he only shares what he considers important. And if that is the case, then⌠you are extremely important to himâ, he elaborated before drawing in a deep breath and sending a small smile your way.
Your heart both broke and leaped at his words. You hadnât exactly doubted it, but it meant a great deal to know Frank cherished you as much as you cherished him.
âAnd he is to meâ, you returned quietly, pulling a slow nod from the man â Matt â who then turned his head at you curiously.
âIf you donât mind me asking⌠how does a teacher find herself with The Punisher?â he wondered, and considering it your turn to chuckle, you turned to your hands and recalled the night that had turned your life upside down.
âHe saved my life. I know thatâs how all the clichĂŠ fairytales go, but he did. I was at my favorite diner to get some grilled cheese after a long day of work. I was so close to making it, too, when these, uh, thugs came in. Looking for him, unsurprisingly. There was only one other person besides us and they managed to escape before the shooting began, so⌠Frank hid me behind the counter. He told me heâd keep me safe, that Iâd get to see the kids I teach again the next dayâ heâd heard me talking to the cashier. Heâd make sure of it. And he did. He took care of those guys and afterwards he walked me home. IâI owed him my life so I figured the least I could do was ice his knuckles. He must have been barely ten minutes in my apartment but it meant everything. We just⌠couldnât get rid of each other after thatâ, you explained, the sunlight suddenly feeling warmer on your skin and the smile on your lips so free of worry. For a second, anyway.
Matt listened intently â not only to what you were saying, but you. And it didnât take him long to come to a conclusion. âYou love himâ, he declared, and with your head snapping towards him, you frowned.
âWe havenâtâthereâs nothingââ, you began, your stutter seeping through again, and Matt smiled.
âWhether or not youâve acted on it, I can hear it. Youâve fallen in love with himâ, he emphasized before humming, âand I think, somewhere deep down underneath all that trauma and guilt and unwillingness to face the facts⌠he feels the same way.â
You stared at him, disbelief all over your face as you thought about Frank and all your brief touches, all your sweet words and reassuring looks.
âCould you tell him Iâll be right here? Please? Just⌠let him know that even if I canât be by his side, heâs not aloneâ, you whispered, and although he seemed to consider it for a second, Matt ended up nodding.
âIâm sure heâs gonna need that.â
And he wasnât wrong. Prison was no easy feat, not even for The Punisher.
He hadnât even gotten to say goodbye to you. One moment he was sitting in court, listening to his vigilante of a lawyer speak on his behalf, and the next he was being dragged out in chains with your worried face amongst the angry civilians being the last thing he saw. And the big bad Punisher had gone so far as to beg Karen to let him see you for the second time; let you see him, but before she could even consider making it happen, he had been shoved into a white onesie and sent on his way to prison with his jagged memories trying hard to recall the last words you had spoken to him.
It had been something kind â that much he had decided on while sitting in his cell. You were always so fucking kind, and so understanding, even when he doubted he deserved it. You were a good person; a troubled one but you had weathered every storm and stuck to your morals, and he admired that to no end. You didnât have a judgmental bone, not a single ounce of hatred for anyone who didnât deserve it, sometimes not even those who did. He thought that maybe he was unworthy of your friendship and sympathy sometimes, but you gave it to him anyway, without question and without expectation. You liked him for who he was, not who he had been, and you didnât try to change his mind and steer his path.
At least he had the message Red had passed onto him to keep him going.
It was those unexplainably good-hearted intentions of yours and the unconditional support he hadnât realized he missed so much, that made him fall in love with you. He struggled with it for a while, wondering if he was ready; if he should have felt guilty, but eventually the desire to keep you safe and the longing to hold you close became too evident to ignore.
And he truly knew when one of the assholes he had put down had taunted him about his lady, only for his mind to go to you instead of Maria.
He had been writing a letter to you when his heart-pouring onto paper was interrupted by a taunting laugh outside his cell. âWriting a love letter to your lady?â one of the gang members in his block teased, and with a grit in his teeth, Frank forced himself to not pick a fight â a successful attempt until the burly man went on. âWould be a shame if anyone got their hands on your girl now that you ainât out there to protectââ, he continued, his words cut off with a wheeze when Frank clamored out of his seat and promptly stabbed the pen into his neck. It was a good thing he had already signed the letter.
Realistically, he knew it may have been an empty threat. Nonetheless, as soon as he was out of prison, the letter tucked in the pocket of his jacket, he made his way to you. Making you were safe was priority number one â and if heâd get the chance to hand over the envelope and open his heart to you⌠Well, that would just be the cherry on top. He had promised to get out and tell you how he felt, to stop being a coward and admit that he wanted to be there for you, that he loved you, and that was exactly what he planned on doing.
Although, things never went exactly as planned.
He had so much determination and courage in his heart when he knocked on your door, but as soon as you opened it and your short figure appeared right in front of him, it all drained from his system. All he was left with was bare amazement and the reserved hope that youâd still welcome him into your home â he knew he had burned more than enough bridges with his little stunt in court, and he had spent many sleepless nights wondering if he had scared you off, too. That worry only now flared into a genuine fear as he watched astonishment wipe across your face, his own expression meek and his large body trying to shrink on itself to seem less intimidating.
âHey, sweetheartâ, he managed, his voice raspy as ever, his dark eyes scanning your face and trying to make sense of the speechless trance you had been stunned into.
It was justified, of course. Who would expect a convicted criminal on their doorstep?
That wasnât exactly what was on your mind, though. You had never doubted that Frank would get back up somehow; he couldnât be kept down â but you couldnât believe he had come to you. A man like him surely had places to be, people to kill, things to do and somehow⌠he was right there in front of you in all his glory, not bleeding out and in need of stitches, either. Just⌠there.
You didnât realize how emotional the sight of him had gotten you until you opened your mouth and the words escaped you with a choke. âIs it okay if I hug you?â you cracked, and with a deep, even relieved sigh, Frank let his tense shoulders drop and his head bob in a nod as he opened his arms.
He welcomed you gladly, his big arms winding around your smaller body to encompass you against his entirely. He realized then that you were wrapped up in one of the hoodies he had left behind, his confidence boosting but his heart breaking just a little at the thought of you sitting at home alone in his clothes, comforted by his scent and wondering if heâd ever come back to you. And right there and then, he knew he had made the right choice in doing so.
âI missed youâ, you whispered into his chest, your heart doing somersaults at the firmness of it, your eyes fallen shut as you breathed him in and basked in his warmth and all his rough edges that only confirmed he was real and not a figment of your imagination, not a daydream, even if he had occupied nearly all of them for the past months.
âMissed ya too, girlâ, he muttered into your hair, and as he held you there, grateful to have you again, the doubt began creeping in and the letter in his pocket started to seem like a bad idea. What if it would simply push you away, just when he got you in his arms?
Swallowing, he then decided maybe it was better not to bring it up.
âHey, I, uhâŚâ, he cleared his throat when you stepped back to welcome him into your apartment. He treaded carefully, like any second now youâd change your mind and turn him away â and he wouldnât blame you, either. Trouble followed him wherever he went, and yet he couldnât stop himself from coming to you every time. âLook, thereâs⌠a lot going on, yâknow? Some shit might go down and I justâŚâ, he continued, uncertain of his own words as his gaze fell to the nervously fiddling hands in front of him, âI donât want ya to look at the news and rethink the kinda guy I am, yâknow?â
Chuckling, you shook your head at him. âThe news couldnât change my mind about you, Frankieâ, you reassured in a way that had his chest tightening. âYouâre my friend andâand a good guy, even if with⌠unique methods. But you are. Just because you have blood on your hands, doesnât make you a bad manâ, you went on, but he could tell you were nervous, too. He just couldnât see past himself enough to understand it wasnât fear making you tremble.
âI think you are loyal and sweet and protective and⌠capable of making people feel safe and appreciated. When Iâm with you, I feel respected and understood. Never judged or unsafeâ, you added, and with an amazed twinkle in his dark eyes, Frank looked up at you. Jesus, that was exactly how he felt around you. His lungs and throat were screaming at him to just tell you, but instead, he gave you a doubtful tilt of his head.
âYouâre not scared?â he confirmed quietly, and with a small smile, you gave him a look.
âIâm not scared of you, Frank. IâmâŚâ, you breathed in, hesitating before widening your smile and shaking your head, âIâm not scared.â What you really wanted to tell was that you were nervous because you liked him â loved him. But you never felt threatened by him.
âGoodâ, he swallowed, defiance suddenly ablaze in his eyes as he seemed to relax. ââCause Iâd never hurt ya. Shit, you make me wannaâŚâ, he laughed, unsure where he was going with that thought. âI just wanna keep you safe, sweetheart. Look after youâ, he finished with a sigh, the kind that knew he was officially in too deep. You got him good.
âThen Iâll look after you, tooâ, you promised, gesturing at his hands, âstarting with those knuckles of yours.â
He was almost amused, but when you seriously dug a small tube of hand cream from your bag and began rubbing the lotion onto his bruised hands, all he could do was stare at you, completely enamored by your kindness and the feeling of your gentle hands tending to his damaged ones.
It was almost ironic, really â you were gentle, he was damaged. In your mind, it was the other way around, and maybe that was why it worked. You were different in so many ways but the bare essentials were still there, making you an undeniable match even if neither of you were brave enough to say it out loud right now. But him being in your apartment and you lotioning his calloused hands spoke in volumes, reassuring you both that it was safe like this.
He hadnât been wrong, though. Shit hit the fan fast and in a matter of days, Frank Castle was a dead man as far as the world was concerned.
Before that, though, he was coaxed further into the realization of just how important you were to him. He was used to nightmares, in fact, he anticipated them each night. And yet, that night, his hands still smelling like your vanilla lotion, he found himself dreaming of you, your big smile, your sweet laugh and your soft lips.
Jesus Christ, he wanted you so bad. All of you.
It was a little harder to go about his mission then. You occupied his mind constantly now, and he began to resent himself for being such a coward and not giving you the letter, after all.
And when he jumped off an exploding ship, he wondered if heâd ever get the chance to tell you. Once he made it out in one piece, he decided he couldnât risk losing the opportunity again.
You had just seen the news on the TV, and as badly as you wanted to believe no body meant no death, your stomach was twisting and turning. The idea of Frank being gone, just like that, was one that began chipping at your sanity. Thankfully, you didnât get to sit with it for very long when there was a knock on your door, and you practically ran to open it, never more relieved to see the hunk of a man.
You tugged him into your apartment and sealed the door behind him before hugging him tight, on the verge of tears as you felt his firm body against yours and consoled yourself. He was there. He was alive. Well? Debatable.
âIâm okay, sweetheart, âm okay. Canât get rid of me that easyâ, he chuckled darkly, his heart skipping a beat when you pulled away and looked right into his eyes. You looked so beautiful yet so vulnerable, and he couldnât put his feelings into words when he realized he had gotten you so worked up. He hated to cause you any pain, but to know you cared that much?
âShitâŚâ, he breathed, licking his lips as he gently placed a hand on your jaw and groaned. âCâmereâ, he whispered before leaning down to kiss you, both your eyes closing as he placed his lips on yours, deep and tentative. You melted closer to him, your hands resting on his vest while he cupped your face and kissed you hard, breathing you in and reveling in the taste and feeling of you.
It was better than he had imagined, all anger and hatred leaving his system for the fleeting moment when he got to have just you, nothing else.
He wanted to take his sweet time with you but the yearning was too great to contain. In no time, you were lying on your back on your mattress with Frank on top of you, trying to hold back some of his weight as he kissed your neck and unzipped your skirt. He muttered words of praise and flattery against your soft skin, eyes blown wide with genuine admiration when he kissed his way down to your thighs and made you repeat his name in desperate begs and pleas.
A part of him was sure he was dreaming again, your head rested upon his bare chest, his fingers carding through your hair as you listened to his heartbeat and basked in the afterglow of the hours spent together. It was the middle of the night by now, the sounds of city never fully gone but toned down, your bed feeling like a safe haven amidst all the chaos around you both.
But Frank knew there was no permanent escape from what he had reshaped his life into. The thing was, you didnât want to be an escape â you wanted to be part of it.
Nevertheless, he spoke up gruffly. âYâknow I canât stay, right?â he was quiet, his words a weak whisper, like a shameful confession he didnât want the world to know. âI mean, Iâmma be with you tonight if youâll let me, but I⌠I canât leave things unfinished. The world thinks âm dead, yâknow, thatâs just⌠Itâs an advantage and I justââ, he went on, but you interjected with a nod and your hand smoothing up and down his chest soothingly.
âI know. I understandâ, you promised before kissing his collarbone softly, âI know, Frank. You donât need to explain any more than you want to.â
He swallowed then, trying to muster up the courage to say what had been on his mind for so long. âI, uh, I canât ask you to hold out hope for me, but uh⌠I just want you to knowâŚâ, he tried to find the right words, licking his lips nervously before sighing and burying his face in your hair with a somber kiss. âYou donât owe me shit. But youâre the best thing to happen to me in a long time. Look, I gotta do my thing, but I donât want you to think itâs easy to walk away from you because, fuck⌠I donât wanna lose ya, sweetheartâ, he explained further, making you smile against his scarred skin.
âI will always hold out hope for you, Frank. My door will always be open for youâ, you replied simply, and even though you didnât elaborate further, it was all he needed to hear. Just knowing you werenât ready to give up on him.
And that was why he wasnât going to do it, either.
He kept in touch in whatever small, Frank-esque ways he could. A note on your door, a novelty mug on your windowsill, a comforting message from an unknown number. Sometimes all you had was the remains of his aftershave enveloped in the sweaters he had left behind, or the slander of his name on the news even when he was presumed dead â it was small but it reminded you that he was, in fact, alive, and as long as he was that, then you had faith that one day heâd be back on your doorstep.
Sometimes he felt like an irredeemable asshole for making you wait for him. If only you had the chance, you would have told him to get his head out of his ass â you had fallen for him, and whether he wanted you to be there or not, you would have thought about him, worried over him, longed for him. He could have tried to distance himself from you if he wanted to, but he was so deeply entwined into your life by now that all the roots simply couldnât be plucked out anymore.
And he may have been stubborn, but he wasnât stupid. Knowing how he felt about you, how being away from you made him ache, he suspected you shared the yearning and he knew that trying to push you away wouldnât have healed either of you from it. So he kept in contact however he could, but not too close to keep his enemies off your trail.
You checked the news every day. And when you saw Billy Russoâs face plastered across your screen, his arrest making the headlines, you knew it was a good day.
Accordingly, there was promptly a knock on your door, and you felt your heart soar as you peeked through the peephole and saw the only man worth waiting for on the other side. You swung the door open, and in an instant, a smile stretched across his bruised face as he help up a bouquet of daffodils, making you grin, too.
âHey, sweetheartâ, he murmured, pulling you into a hug that shut off your senses from everything but him â all you smelled, felt and heard was him, your systems threatening to fail as you clung onto him like your life depended on it and felt his lips leave soft kisses on your forehead and hair. âThere ya are. As goddamn beautiful as I rememberedâ, he whispered, relieved to be holding you again, even a little proud of himself for making it here.
It wasnât like he needed the extra motivation on all those long nights away â avenging his family was all the fuel he craved, but knowing that at the end of it all, he had someone to fall back on, encouraged him even more.
âI could say the same about youâ, you chuckled while pulling away enough to place a gentle hand on his face and observe all the purple and yellow markings left there. It was obvious he had taken a beating, but if the news was to be trusted, Billy had suffered a fate much worse. And despite all the slowly healing scars on Frankâs sharp features, he was alive, and he was right there for you to admire and tend to.
âThis ugly mug?â he snorted while kicking the door shut and pushing his hood off of his head, his hair grown out again and begging for your fingers to run through. Regardless of the mangled appearance, though, he seemed almost hopeful, a small smile playing on his lips as he looked down at you with a twinkle in his dark eyes. He seemed exhausted physically, but mentally, a little less tired. And that made you indescribably happy for him.
âIâm proud of youâ, you breathed out, a smile crawling to your own face, âyou did what you needed to do, right? You⌠you did good. You deserve to rest now.â
Frank looked a little taken aback by your words. Not in a bad way, but it was obvious no one had told him before nor had he expected anyone to. But the quiet chuckle that rose from his throat was genuinely flattered, as was the squint of his eyes as he leaned forward and gave you a tiny nod.
âThank you, sweetheart. Reallyâ, he rasped before taking in a deep breath, âany chance Iâd, uh, get to rest here? With you?â The look in his eyes was almost boyish, almost nervous, and it made your heart soar the same way his gaze had the first night you had met.
âAlways, Frankieâ, you promised before placing a hand on his chest and beaming up at him, âI was hoping youâd say that.â
He licked his lips and looked down at you, hand coming to your neck tenderly with his thumb brushing across your chin. âI feel like shit for the way I left you back then. I, uh, I hope you didnât feel like I was just⌠tryna get in your bed, yâknow? It was more than that to me. You are more than that to me. Itâs, I dunno, hard for me to put it into words but I care about ya. More than I have about anyone in a long time, I guessâ, he explained awkwardly, but you didnât doubt his sincerity for a single second.
You leaned up to briefly kiss him, and the way he leaned forward to get more made your stomach churn. Nevertheless, you pulled apart to speak your turn, your smaller hand still resting on his bruised cheek.
âI know. I never doubted it. And I donât expect you to be anyone else but you. I want you as you, Frankâ, you reassured, and with a heavy sigh, he dropped his forehead to yours.
âGirl⌠I want youâ, he urged, and you smiled as he briefly touched your lips with the tip of his finger.
âIâm all yours, Frankie.â
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âmy lord, her highness requests your presence in the garden.â
said manâs eyes open slowly, and he narrows them at the servant who instantly kneels to the ground. he scoffs, ârequests? she sure has become impudent.â
the servant trembles, âthatâs how she worded it, my lord. I swear I have no role in it.â
âI didnât speak to you,â sukuna replies as he gets up as places his foot on the servantâs head, pressing into the ground a bit more.
the servant whimpers but tries to be as quiet as possible.
sukuna warns, âand youâre to address her as âher highnessâ or âthe queenâ only. do you understand?â
âbutâbut I did?â he splutters.
â âthatâs how âsheâ worded it?â â sukuna sneers.
âI didnât mean it that way! I am sorry! I am sorry! my apologies, my lord!â the servants chokes out, and sukuna takes it as the cue to kick him out of his way.
he starts walking towards the garden, while stretching and examining his surroundings.
the palace hasnât changed in the time he was gone which was good. at least the human servants are capable of doing one thing right.
the gates to the garden open, and they reveal you.
deep down, the sight brings a bit content to sukunaâs heart, seeing you alive and well. however, that is a vulnerability that he would never admit, so he gets closer to you.
youâre giving him your back despite, definitely, feeling his presence.
he groans, âwhat do you want?â
âwhere have you been?â you reply with the same tone.
he rolls his eyes, arms folded on his chest, âfighting, obviously. I was passing time.â
he hears you take a deep breath before you speak up, âand you couldnât tell me in advance?â
he can tell that youâre trying to sound calm and collected. yet, he still canât pinpoint whether youâre angry or sad. either way, he believes that your attitude is unacceptable.
he chides, âdonât blow it out of proportion, and you have the nerve to ârequest myâ"
âyou have been gone for a month.â
the edges of sukunaâs lips quirk up just a little as he starts to understand why youâre acting like this.
ânot the first time,â he hums.
he sees your shoulders raise slightly, and they seem to get tenser by the second. you speak lowly, âbut you usually tell me before you depart.â
he closes his eyes in annoyance.
this looks like it will drag out longer than he prefers. what he expected when he returned was him spending time with you, his wife, not you giving him your back and seemingly lecturing him.
âstop beating around the bush,â he commands, âwhatâs wrong with you?â
you grip your kimono tightly in your fist and squeeze your eyes shut as you exclaim, âyou had me worried sick!â your voice is watery and is shaky, but you couldnât help it.
you had spent the past month alone, nobody knew of sukunaâs whereabouts not even uraume. were you supposed to just calmly wait for his return?
he may be strong, but is it always guaranteed? especially considering how the sorcerers are always planning a way to lead him to his demise.
you bite your lip as you hold back a sob. meanwhile, your husband quirks a brow, âyou crying?â
you open your eyes and stand up abruptly, âno, I am not!â
throwing the hood over your head, you turn towards the other entrance and announce, âI am going inside!â
you start your march with determination, but as you get close to the gate, you hear your husband sigh and stop you by the arm. he pulls you towards him, tearing off the hood to take a good look at you.
your tears are not plentiful, but he can see their traces.
you frown and try to pull back, âlet go, sukuna!â
he raises a hand to cup your cheek and squishes your cheeks like a pufferfish. your eyes widen, and you furrow your eyebrows in frustration.
âstop this,â you shoot.
he looks silently at you for a few moments, and it starts making you nervous. you finally decide to ask, but then he starts wiping your tears.
you blink in confusion as he lightly scolds you, âfoolish girl.â
you register the insult after a few seconds, and it makes you frown and look away while grumbling, âshut up.â
you sniffle lightly and pull away from him. he looks down at you, silently watching you. you try ignoring his gaze, but then you just snap your head at him and huff, âwhat are you staring for?â
you study his face for bit then falter, âif itâs about yelling at you then I am sorry, okay? I was frustrated andââ
he pinches your nose, making you yelp.
âyour worrying is unnecessary,â he says slowly, âI will always come back.â
sukuna, you realize, is comforting you. he lays a hand on top of your head and commands you, albeit gently, âso stop crying.â
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no lube, no protection, all night, all day, from the kitchen floor to the toilet seat, from the bathroom sink to the shower, from the front porch to the balcony, vertically, horizontally, quadratic, exponential, logarithmic, while I gasp for air, scream, and see the lightâŚ
I have been looking at this all day đ
I only took one thing away from deadpool and wolverine and its this image:
I could look at this all day
HIS F**KIN EYES.
HIS F**KIN HANDS.
HIS F**KIN NECK & COLLAR BONES & SHOULDERS.
F**K. ME. SUIT-TURNED-SORCERER.
do you have any other anime men you like besides Levi?
Yes.
This man right here can step on me. đŠ
SOOO đ
Imagine Sanji jumping overboard at the last second because he refuses to sail without youâŚ
The ship was leaving. You smiled as you waved goodbye truly happy for Sanjiâs next adventure despite feeling a heartache in the uncertainty of seeing him again. Zeff and the rest of the cooks had returned to the Baratie but you chose to stay until the Going Merry was no longer in sight.
As you watched, you saw heard a distant shout and a dark figure falling overboard into the water with a splash. There were a few more muffled noises but the ship was too far away to discern it.
You noticed something in the water moving your way so you lowered to kneel on the pier. The visual suddenly disappeared and you scanned the area to try and catch sight of it again. When you couldnât find anything, you convinced yourself that you were seeing things - that is, until you looked more directly below.
Sanjiâs head broke through the surface of the water, blue eyes sparkling against the reflection of the sea. His blonde hair wet and sticking to his face while his darker roots peeked through. It took you a moment to realise that his shirt was absent leaving his skin on display with droplets of water rolling off to rejoin its source.
Lifting his arm, he brought his hand to cup your cheek. He lowered your head to meet his, thumb dropping to your lips and slowly dragging it down while leaving a light trail of sea water. You gripped the edge of the pier with the hope to not fall in after him but Sanji was intoxicating.
He pushed himself a little higher until his mouth was in line with yours and took no hesitation in claiming it. He was gentle, lips warm despite being drenched in the cold sea. Unable to help yourself from humming in bliss, you felt Sanji smile through the kisses at the sound.
Your hands were slowly losing their hold on the wooden planks wanting nothing more than to grab onto him and dive in. Sensing the temptation, Sanji carefully guided one of your hands to his shoulders - and then the other. He was more stable than Zeffâs rickety boardwalk anyway.
Very slowly, he moved back, further into the ocean while still connected to your mouth taking you with him. You let him pull you out to sea and as your chest touched the cold water, you let your legs fall in as well. You tightened your arms around his shoulders and drew your whole body against him until your legs wrapped around his waist.
Sanji had an arm around you while the other was lovingly against your neck. His legs doing all the work in keeping you both high enough above the waters surface to breathe through the love he was pouring into you.
It was unspoken but you both knew that he wasnât travelling the vast sea without you. He couldnât.
A/n: I just woke up and this is what my brain blurt out - I have no regrets. Also, 3,000 followers? I have to do something special for this! Love you all so much x
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SFW Headcannons: Kurt and his Bamfs
a/n: Obviously I love the bamfs, and I had to do some of these with them because I adore them and I want my own army of them, damnit. Depictions heavily taken from Nightcrawler (2014) comic series. Pretty hasty, just a fun little set of headcannons. I hope you enjoy <3
The bamfs were something you hadn't anticipated, there were so many and their origin was difficult to wrap your head around. Kurt tried to explain it, but you were distracted by the curious bamfs staring at you.
They were adorable, about a dozen? Maybe more? They all were curious, they looked at you with big, round eyes. They seemed so innocent, and you couldn't help but smile.
Kurt was skeptical, they usually weren't this well behaved. You adored these little guys, and welcomed them like a horde of puppies rushing to you. They all jumped on you and made cooing noises as they played, like actual puppies. They were so playful, you didn't understand why Kurt was confused.
That was until you realized that the bamfs were as mischievous as they were playful. They were little gremlins, slightly destructive, and they tended to get into trouble like toddlers.
The bamfs don't speak, but they make an array of noises. Coos, squeaks, hisses, trills, etc. They communicate mostly through noises you come to recognize and body language.
They were a handful, they would make messes and look guilty after. You wanted to scold them, but their big round eyes looked up and that guilt got to you. You forgave them of course, Kurt sometimes says you have to be a little more firm with them or they will always guilt trip you to get away with things.
You didn't care. They practically adopted you as their mama.
There are lots of them, but you always show them equal love and affection. They are pretty needy for it, and like feeling pampered in the way that you treat them.
The bamfs get jealous easy too.
They are protective of you, just like Kurt, and they won't hesitate to keep you safe the best they can. They hiss and the fur on their backs raise a little.
Don't be fooled by their small size, they are like blue darts, they are incredibly hard to fight if they attack.
Each one has their own personality. They are all playful and a handful of troublemakers, but each one has something that makes them unique. More sensitive, more artistic, more sneaky, etc.
You love sleeping now because you have a big nest full of small blue bamfs curling up against you. They're so fuzzy and warm, you hold as many as you can to your chest while they rest pile around you.
Some bamfs stay behind when Kurt goes away just to keep you company.
You really do love taking care of them, and Kurt loves to watch you love on the bamfs. He thinks it's endearing and sweet.
He doesn't understand how you seem to get the bamfs to do what you say. They listen to him, but normally he has to say something over and over before they decide to listen. With you, it's instantaneous. You ask them to calm down, they do. You ask them to stop fighting, they do. It boggles him how they just obey you so easily.
Part of him thinks they only obey you to annoy him even further, and that might be true, but they also care a lot about you and they want nothing but to see you happy.
Also these things can EAT. They consume so much food you think their little tummies are going to explode. They have a strong liking for popcorn and sweets, to which Kurt tries to limit because hyper bamfs are extremely difficult to deal with.
However, a dozen or so begging you with their eyes is so hard to say no to.
And thus, you have a house full of bamfs bouncing off the walls.
You have a lot of fun with the bamfs, they can be a bit overwhelming from time to time, but at the end of the day when you get into bed and they all come snuggling close to you, you know it's worth it.
Thanks for reading.
*BAMF*
dividers by @/adornedwithlight
Cover photo from Nightcrawler #1 (2014)
Do I have kids? No. Do I want kids? Fuck no. Did I still write this because dad logan makes me feel a certain type of way? HELL YES
Pairing: Worst!Logan x single mom!Reader
Summary: It's late and your little daughter Laura won't stop crying and screaming, no matter what you do. You take her to your best friend Wade, who lives in the same apartment buildung. Will he and Logan be able to help you?
Wordcount: 3.4k
Warning/tags: english is not my first language, fluff, slight missunderstandings, Wade bc he needs a warning, implied sexual themes, friends to lovers, just cuteness, Laura doesn't exists as an adult like in the movie, rushed ending?, leave me alone I finished this at midnight
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Logan was snoring on the couch in Wades apartment when loud, frantic knocks sounded on the door. He grumbled in annoyance as he turned, pulling a pillow over his head.
He heard Wade skip to the door in a pair of white underpants with hearts on them and a loose, grey wolverine fangirl shirt. "Must be the horse dildo I ordered" he spoke happily as if it was the most normal thing to say. Once Wade opened the door, the piercing shrieks of a baby crying echoed through the apartment.
You held your one year and a half old daughter in your arms, her face red as she cried into your shoulder. Wade noted that your hair was a mess and you seemed awfully tired. Well- it was late and on any other day, you and your daughter would already be sleeping. But there was clearly something that bothered her. She had been crying and screeching and in discomfort for an hour without you finding what caused it or how to fix it.
You tried feeding her, but she wouldn't open her mouth for the spoon. You tried reading to her, but she would always push away the books. You changed her diapers in case her sensitive skin was irritated by the dampness, but she hadn't peed. You didn't know why she was so distressed and nothing seemed to distract her from whatever it was that made her cry.
You were desperate. And while your best friend Wade wasn't really...fond of kids, which you couldn't blame him for, you still went to him for help. You never truly wanted kids yourself. But when the condom broke and your ex left you upon finding out you were pregnant, you were stuck with your baby. And now you wouldn't trade her for the world. Except in times where she was screaming with no appearant reason. "Hey Wade, I'm so sorry to bother you guys this late at night, but Laura, she won't stop crying. I've tried everything and I don't know what to do" you croaked, rocking the small child in your arms, shushing her to no avail.
Wade brought you inside so you wouldn't stay outside in the hallway any longer. No need for some neighbors to peek their head out of their doors to see what was going on.
In situations like these, Wade could be oddly serious and actually tried to help. He knew you were insecure because of your baby. You didn't want to be a nuisance or burden to anyone because you knew that your daughter could be a lot. Kids were high maintanance and you didn't want to make people feel like they were obligated to make room and drop everything once you arrived with your child. You couldn't expect from anyone that they were okay with you bringing your kid over. But Wade wanted you to know that even though he didn't like kids, you were his best friend and Laura had been nothing but a sweetheart so far. You were always welcome in his apartment.
Wade kicked Logan from the couch "Get your fat ass off the couch, the Lady needs a place to sit" he loudly said over Lauras crying. Logan groaned. You sat on the sofa and tried to take up as little space as possible. "Im sorry Logan, didn't want to disturb your sleep." you apologized meekly. "I can..I can move to the chair here" you muttered, pointing to an uncomfortable-looking wooden chair that replaced an armchair, which had recently been thrown out of the apartment due to mysterious stains and various rips and cuts in the fabric.
You had met Logan a few times since he lived with Wade and Althea. And you would be a liar if you said he didn't catch your eye. He was tall, broad and very handsome, pretty much right up you alley. But there was no way he was looking for a chaotic single mother that barely had her life together and struggled to raise an unplanned child because her ex left her. Yeah, no. You were miserable. Logan didn't need any of that.
Adding to that, he always seemed to avoid you when Laura was near. You just thought he didn't like kids, which was totally fair. Truthfully, Logan liked kids and had always wanted some of his own, but it just...never happened. With him being the worst wolverine and all.
Then why did he avoid you and your baby?
Simply said, he didn't want to scare her. Most kids looked at him like he was some sort of big, bad monster. Some ran away, some started crying, others hid from him behind their parents when he walked by. He wasn't good with children either because they never let him close enough before getting scared. He was afraid that Laura would react the same way like all children did. He didn't want you to back away once you realised that Laura didn't approve of him.
He couldn't bear only seeing you from afar.
As you were about to stand up from the couch, Logan stopped you. "No, its fine. Stay on the couch. I can move" he replied and you felt another pang as he moved away from you again.
Wade leaned over the couch, looking down at Laura who was still wailing uncontrollably. You sighed deeply, a throbbing ache behind your eyes. "Why won't you stop crying? What's wrong, sweetheart?" you nearly sobbed as well. You were so tired of this, so tired of this sound. You felt so helpless and stupid. "Maybe she wants some food? We have some left-over pizza, I can grind that stuff up into a slurry for her or something" Wade suggested.
You softly shook your head. "She doesn't want to eat, I tried. I also tried to read her a bedtime story, but she just push me away. I also changed her diapers but nothing helped" you rasped, ready to just fall asleep on the spot.
Wade reached down to get your crying daughter out of your arms. "How about you get some sleep while Wolvie and I take care of Laura? Maybe we'll find out what's rubbing her the wrong way." Wade said, cooing to your crying baby. You fell onto the couch, closing your eyes. "I can't just sleep when she is crying" you mumbled, clearly deadly tired.
"We'll take care of her. You go sleep" Logan drawled and his deep voice soothed you even more, made you even more sleepy. It was so easy to let your body betray your mind and you hated it. "Okay..." you whispered, too tired to argue. And before you could snuggle into the couch cushions, you felt two strong arms slip under your body and lifting you up as if you weighted nothing. You were so tired, you couldn't even gasp or protest as Logan brought you into Wades room, your senses enveloped with his scent.
He carefully lowered you down onto the matress, covering you up with a blanket. "Sleep tight, love. We'll take great care of your little one, so you don't have to worry about a thing" he drawled softly and only after closing the door behind him did he hope that you hadn't catched his slip-up, that he had called you love.
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In had been another two hours of constant crying and screaming. The kid must be exhausted from all the crying, but she still didn't stop. If you asked Logan, it became even worse.
"God, can you shut up for a minute? I am trying everything here!" Wade stressed, bouncing Laura in his arms and patting her back. "Don't tell your mom I said that" he whispered right after. Laura wailed and pushed herself away from Wade with her tiny hands, which were surprisingly really strong. She squirmed in his grasp, desperate to be set down.
"This is how you thank me? I've worked my ass off the past hour to get everything to your liking and now you push me away?" he grumbled, but set her down with a loud 'ouch!' after she started to scratch him.
Her tiny feet waddled against the livingroom floor as fat tears rolled down her chubby cheeks. She had a tummy ache, but she couldn't communicate that with anyone. There were a few words she knew and could say- cat, dog, mama. But she didn't have the words to say that something was hurting.
Logan sat on the couch and watched her as she stood a few feet away from him with her red face, screaming together the whole neighborhood. He sighed deeply, the sound making his ears ring. Then, out of nowhere, she waddled over to him.
"No, no, bub. Not a good idea. Get back to uncle Wade" he told her, scooting up the couch a bit more. He could have just stood up and walk away- why didnât he? Laura stood between his legs now, demanding uppies from him as she cried. Logan shook his head, ready to call Wade from the kitchen, when Laura began screetching, stretching herself to Logan, standing on her small tip toes.
With a huff, he picked her up, his big and warm hands eveloping her small body. He leaned back against the couch with her on his lap. To his surpise, she quieted down. "You okay now, bub?" he asked her, jumping as she snuggled herself against his chest. Due to his mutation, Logan was always very warm. His whole body was like a heater and that warmth soothed Lauras tummy ache, unbeknownst to him.
The apartment was quiet now, only a few hiccups and sighs coming from Laura as she let her stomach ache be washed away by Logans cozy warm body. He didn't know what to do! One minute he was tortured by her screams and now she was napping on him. On him! Out of all people, she chose to rest on him.
"Is she dead!?" It was now Wades turn to yell as he came stumbling into the kitchen because it suddenly went all quiet. Logan didn't answer him nor did he move a muscle, too scared to wake your baby up.
"What the fuck" Wade blurted out upon seeing something he had never thought he would ever witness in his entire life. Logan shushed him, making Wade frown. He came closer, his face next to Lauras sleeping one "You little cheating slut" he sharply whispered, earning himself a shove from Logan. "Seriously, did you knock her out? Why is she sleeping all of a sudden?" Wade asked with crossed arms.
"I don't know. She wanted me to pick her up, so I did. Then she stopped crying and fell asleep" Logan explained, a warm feeling spreading in his chest as he watched the slow rise and fall of Lauras breath, her tiny hand tightly holding onto his shirt.
"Wow" Wade said. "You're the baby whisperer" Logan shot him a glare.
Wade went on a rant about how everything would have been easier if Logan took Laura from the start before finally falling asleep draped over the chair, leaving Logan alone with his thoughts. For a moment, Logan thought about bringing Laura to you so she could sleep with her mom. But as he tried to peel her off of him, she started fuzzing and whimpering until she was laying back on his chest.
He sighed deeply. Well, gotta make the best of the situation, huh? With a grunt, he made himself comfortable on the couch and fell asleep with a broad hand securily holding Laura on top of him.
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You woke up well rested. Weird. You haven't slept this good since Laura had been born.
Laura!
You jumped awake, stumbling over some stuff in Wades room before you reached the door. It was quiet as you opened it and you were met with the sight of Logan, the fucking Wolverine, sound asleep with your daughter cuddled up on him as if he was some kind of big teddy.
Your heart soared in your chest, your stomach did flips and summer saults. And your pussy throbbed. Couldn't help it, seeing him with your baby did something to your ovaries. It was...so cute. You wanted nothing more than to snuggle up with them, trace patterns onto his pecks while Laura would squeak out an adorable smile-
"Mama" Laura squealed suddenly, flashing you a smile with her few teeth. "Hey there, baby" you cooed to her, kneeling down next to the couch to be eye-level with her. She smiled brightly, whatever it was that had bothered her yesterday completely forgotten. "You seem happy using uncle Logan as a pillow" you said to her, kissing her chubby cheek.
Logan started waking up, only registering Laura at first. "You slept well, bub?" he muttered with a deep sleep laced voice, gently rubbing Lauras small head with his large hand that easily fitted around the back of her head.
"Yes, I did. Thank you for asking" you giggled softly, amused by the way Logan nearly jumped out of his skin upon noticing that you were there too, witnessing how he went soft for your daughter. An embarrassed blush krept onto his face and he cleared his throat, sitting up and avoiding your gaze. "Sorry, she...she only stopped crying when she sat on my lap"
You smiled softly at him. "Seems like she really likes you, then." and I like you too, you wanted to add, but didn't. "She is usually not that touchy with people she barely met" you said and hearing your reassurance- the fact that Laura seemed to like him- it warmed his heart. But he would never admit that.
"Well, I guess I'm flattered" Logan replied with the hint of a smile, his gaze soft as you lost yourself in his eyes, Lauras babbling fading into the background. For a moment, you let yourself think about what could have been. This baby, it could have been Logans and yours. She could have been born because two people truly loved each other. Did Logan love you? You doubted it. But when he looked at you like that, you allowed yourself to be fooled.
"I don't know how you manage to fuck each other just with your eyes, but get a room. There are children present" Wade suddenly said outraged, covering Mary Puppins eyes.
You picked up Laura from Logans lap, holding her against your hip to bring distance between you, Logan and Wades teasing. Logan cleared his throat, clearly disappointed.
"I am so, so thankful that you guys helped me. I don't know what you did or what was wrong with her, but she seems all better now. Is there anything I can do to show my gratitude? you asked, gently bouncing Laura in your arms.
Logan shook his head "No need, bub" he grumbled in his deep voice. He would have done this a thousand times if it meant he could hold your baby in his arms as if it was his. "Make that creamy ass mac and cheese and my life is yours. That stuff tastes and sounds better than any pussy" Wade chimes in, making you laugh. You promised to invite both of them over for dinner sometimes this week and they happily agreed. Laura squeaked out a cute "bye!" before you went back to your own apartment again.
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Ever since that day, visits to either Wades or your apartment became more frequent and Laura couldn't be happier seeing Logan pretty much every day. She would stick to his leg from the minute she saw him and to the last second before he left. It was adorable and made you fall even deeper in love with someone you could never have.
Wade made it his mission to steal Laura away from you and Logan. Partly because he wanted you to spend more time alone, and to teach her some words since he was her 'uncle' after all.
Laura sat on his lap, staring down at Wades phone. He looked over her head. He had a picture open that showed you, Laura, Logan and Wade. "And who is that?" he pointed to you, earning a delighted squeal from Laura as she pointed to your smiling face on the picture as well "Mama!" she babbled. Wade cheered her on, applauding her. "That's right, and that is Dada. Dada" he pointed to Logan. Laura recognized him, smiling brightly and giggling, but she didn't say anything. "Can you say that? Dada?" Wade asked in the best baby voice he could muster. But still, Laura wouldn't say anything. "Come on, say Dada. Da-da" Wade tried one last time, but Laura unwrapped himself from his arms to go and play with some toys scrattered on the floor. He huffed in frustration. It was easier to teach kids swear words than this.
Two days later, the day for the dinner came and someone rang your doorbell. You left Laura to play on her playmat and went over to the door, opening it a slit before realising that it was Logan. You fixed your hair with flushed cheeks, you hadn't expected him to come this early, you had just started the dinner preperations. "Oh, hey Logan. What are you doing here? Dinner was planned in two hours" you said, gingerly letting him into your apartment which you hadn't had the time to tidy up yet. Logan wasn't the guy to judge, but you still felt insecure.
"I thought I'd help you with the cooking and all. Look after Laura so you can work in peace" he said, knowing that he was just here to spend more time with you and Laura alone to give him the feeling of having his own little domestic family that he will never actually experience.
You smiled at him "That's very nice of you, but Laura is actually being very umcomplicated today" speaking of which, you showed him that your kid was silently playing with her toys. Upon noticing you and Logan, she squealed and stood up slowly, trying to keep her balance, before she waddled up to him excitedly. "There's my little pumpkin" he drawled, bending down to pick her up swiftly.
"Dada!" she giggled, making you an Logan stop in your tracks. "Did you hear that?" he asked you, looking over at you with a shocked expression. You frowned. You had never taught her to say that. "Sweetheart, who is that?" You asked the little girl, tapping Logans arm, just to be sure you hadn't heard her incorrectly. "Dada" she squeaks again, playing with his coarse beard.
You both looked at each other in disbelieve and for a second, you feared Logan woulf shove Laura into your arms and leave. "Look, I'm sorry. I don't know where she got that from" you tried to apologize, but the rejection from Logan never came.
He held her lovingly to his chest, giving her forhead a kiss. It made your heart pound faster. "No, it's okay" he reassured you, his large hand enveloping the back of Lauras head. "I...I could be her dad. If you want me to be" his question struck you like lightning, it was like a damn marriage proposal.
A marriage proposal you would never say no to. He looked at you with hopeful eyes, waiting for your answer and worrying he had overstepped.
"Yes. Be the father she never had. And please be the love I always wanted" you whispered, leaning up to kiss him. The kiss was soft, your lips brushing against the other and it was nothing you had ever felt before. You had kissed your ex- but never did it feel like this. So right. His free hand snaked around your waist, deepening the kiss until Laura decided to pull at your shiny necklace.
You smiled at her, taking her into your arms. "Do you want to play with daddy while I make mac and cheese?" you asked your daughter and minutes later, Logan had brought her playmat and some toys into the kitchen to sit beside her on the ground to watch and entertain her. It was like nothing had changed. Little did you know, Logan had accepted the little girl as his daughter way before today, even if you guys had never confessed.
And as you stole glances down to Logan, who was already looking at you with these half lidded bedroom eyes, you knew that after dinner, Logan and you would be trying for Lauras sibling.
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I really hoped you liked this, I feel like I've rusted a bit. Still got a lot of smut ideas and fics open that I need to finish. Wish me luckâš if you saw any grammatical mistakes, no you didn't. Leave me alone im tired
Btw, thanks to @buck-star for motivation me to finally finish this <33
love...
Holy shit y'all I can't breathe bitch gimme an inhalerâ
i like this sukuna...
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featuring: protective!heian!sukuna, kindhearted!servant!reader. slight angst/hurt -> comfort. synopsis: you're sick. to your surprise, you're rescued by the man second closest to death himself. masterlist
you should've known he wouldn't come. sukuna has never set foot in the servant's headquarters in his life, let alone to chase after a sick servant. you lower your head, trying to ease the headache that has plagued you through the day.
sukuna loves his bloodshed and his gore. him and death would be good friends, you think to yourself. he wouldn't care if your body was burnt or buried, you think to yourself; wouldn't care if you died at all.
the room the others put you in is empty. ash spreads neatly over the cold floor. the scent of kibble haunts the atmosphere. it's where they put the dogs before sukuna killed them.
ever since you took care of the king of curses while he was sick, the other servants had been careful in keeping a distance from you. not in ill of heart; they're simply terrified at what you must've done to survive in your week long stay with the monster. honestly, you don't blame them.
but now when you're laying on the freezing ground, struggling to breathe, it's hard not to.
'this is where you live?'
your eyes look up. shock. then, with all the strength you can muster, you heave yourself one step away from the man at the doorway, which only serves to piss him off more.
sukuna ryomen, in all his glory, looks down at you. bending down to pick you up like a limp doll to be seated against the wall, he seems to revel in his regained strength. you can't help but feel happy for him, to have survived this fatal disease. not many men can attest to that...
then again, he is no ordinary man.
'i asked you a question.'
you nod, a small thing, barely a movement. he seems to clench his teeth.
he takes off his long white coat, flaunting a layer of dried blood, and drapes it over your shoulders.
yet it doesn't end there. he retrieves from his pocket a bottle of what looks to be a golden syrup.
you know exactly what it is.
he takes your hand and wraps it around the flask, making you hold it, sparing, not one, but two of his eyes, to stare at you, making sure you do as he commands.
'swallow.'
you shake your head. you know he's asking you to do. this is a medication is so rare for your disease that no sorcerer has found in over a hundred years. he's brought this thing of myth right to your very lips. now he's asking you to drink it, and thus take away any chance of it saving anyone else's life.
you scowl, but the tickling sensation in your throat grows stronger, eventually erupting out of your mouth in a harsh cough. you look away from sukuna.
'leave,' you whisper, weakly. 'don't wanna infect you.'
'i survived the illness already. i've developed an immunity.'
you shake your head again. you couldn't threaten your king's health with your own weakness. you just couldn't.
'i can't take this.'
he growls. without any notice, he swallows your lips in a kiss. in the momentary haze, you could hardly resist, fisting the front of his kimono to ground yourself. then, you feel something sweet, honey-ish, hit your tongue.
with his hand locked on your chin, it forces you to swallow.
you pull back, pushing him away. he groans.
he wipes his mouth, still with two eyes staring.
no... no, why did he do that?
'y-you- how? no... why did you waste it on me?' you whisper, desperately searching his face for an answer. 'i'm just a servant. you could've given it to a princess, or a scholar, or priest-'
he grabs you by the arm and forces you into his arms. its heat astounds you, and you find yourself crawling closer. a vague thumping sound seems to press against your ear-
oh. you calm your breathing.
it's his heartbeat.
alive.
'sleep in my room tonight,' he demands.
what did he say? you strain your mind, trying to replay what he said earlier. no... maybe you heard correctly.
'but i'm no concubine,' you respond, instantly.
his arm supports your waist, helping you up effortlessly to your feet. he then directs two of his eyes to the doorway, his cadence low and domineering.
'it doesn't matter.'
he leads you placidly through the servant's quarters. you notice all conversation cease at your entry, bodies dropping into a low bow. a small voice in you whispers that it's where you should be too. you tug at sukuna's arm.
'i'm only a servant, sukuna.'
you know what it looks like, a servant clutching onto a man, more god than human. a man who has slaughtered villages, blood staining the base of his kimono crimson, and turned half a province on its head, just to save you.
'whatever you are in my eyes is what you are to the world,' he states, his expression unchanging. 'if i deem you a queen, that is who you are.'
exiting the servant compound, you know you can't say no- not like you wanted to. the wide expanse of his chest is comforting.
yet however sweet this feeling remains, you can't help but gulp. perhaps this is the closest a human has ever come to courting death.