It’s Like 11am And I Still Haven’t Had My Coffee. Ffs.

First Time

This moment when you start having sex for the first time, but you are so afraid and scared and don’t know what to do and feel bad about the boy who is trying to loosen you up and calm you down.

And then you fall asleep and later be afraid of showing that you are awake in the middle of the night.

And then you suddenly realize you’re probably really gay and demisexual (like you have been questioning) and now you just want to run out of his house and disappear but cant because his parents are awake and he is a light sleeper and he is actually one of your best friends and you would feel bad about just running away but also feel guilty for leaving him with blue balls.

I hate myself rn for this so much. Where is my confidence gone? Ah yeah right it always has been a fake mask, I forgot.

Dan Howell has come out…. Happy pride!!

man if u ever in your life have the opportunity to see a therapist i’m literally begging you to do so bc they really do just straighten your stuff out so blunt like when I was 17 my dad died in a fire while he was between life insurance so we had nothing and the bank took our house and we lost like everything and when I was 20 I said I didn’t know why I think the way I do and my therapist said “that’s normal for victims of trauma” and I said “but I haven’t been through any trauma” and the look she gave me was more potent than any verbal wakeup call I’ve ever gotten in my entire life

YEAAAHHH I HAVE THE SAME REACTION OMMFG

OOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

I’m a slut for snoopy aesthetic pictures

It’s so hard to believe that one day I’ll have a future.

I’ll be living on my own, in a house with a person that I’ll love, possibly with some kids, a stable job, a decent social life, a normal income, and tons of beautiful memories that I may remember for the rest of my life.

I’ve spent my entire childhood and teenage years almost certain that I would have killed myself before I turned 20. I was on here at the age of 13 reblogging the most depressing things and constantly talking about how I wanted to die.

Things have gotten better. I haven’t experience a lot of life, but now I still get to.

I’m 21 now and I’ll be graduating college in May. It might not come instantly, but the rest of my life is right ahead of me. This is real.

Life works in crazy ways, man.

Do i need to add more??

Me

One part of me: “I can’t wait to go back to school. I want to focus and study and get a really good paying job and build a stable future.”

Another part: “you’re fine with your current job, just work hard and keep saving and live a little while you can take time off and go do shit since your job is hella flexible.”

Another part: “Fuck everything. Runaway. Becoming a wandering nomad, busk for money, see the world, live off the land, fuck people (but not literally cuz you don’t talk to people what even?)”

… I need a nap.

Capricorn Gryffindor

Out of curiosity people, I’m conducting a survey:

Reblog this and tag your star sign and hogwarts house

I’m a Sagittarius Slytherin

I mean, I am german and even in germany we have this joke “Deutsche Sprache, schwere Sprache” which means “the german language is a difficult language” But even we dont do shit like this. Sure we have like complicated formal and informal forms and like hella big words and stuff But come on we dont say “I am sleeping” we say “Ich schlafe” > “I sleep” This -ing form is driving me mad since 2012 (5th grade), nowadays i get it but its useless

English is such a dumb language like why the fuck do I have to be sleeping

you can't be a verb lmao fuckin clowns