I’m So Pissed Off Mixing Vocals Is Difficult And I Have A Dog Shit Mic Haha

“You are very intense about things” yes and I will continue to be so going into the next year!!! I’ll fall in love w strangers and write them love letters I will never send!!!! I’ll cry for hours listening to music I loved when I was 16!!!!! I’ll mourn lost friendships and things that never came to be!!!! I’ll pick up 8987 new hobbies 92727 new languages and 68194 books!!! I will not allow hurt over severed connections to stop me from loving & living to my fullest capacity!!!!!!!

Had a shocking revelation last night, maybe this insight will help somebody else. I don't know how to ask for what I want. It seems so silly and ridiculous in my head, just use your words just ask for what you want. I think it's been so beaten into me time and time again that what I want comes second to everybody else in my life. The world has often required me to be stronger than I am, and to make up for it I tell myself I don't need or want anything. To want is to burden another person with the expectation of fulfilling that want, and that's selfish and wrong no matter how small of a task it is. But maybe I'm past the point of needing to be strong. I think I might be the only one still fighting, and at this point I'm only fighting myself. I need to start asking for what I want, and trusting the people around me to fulfill that desire.

I had another nightmare, I was in the dream version of the house I grew up in. It doesn’t look like what it does in real life but in my dream it always looks the same. I pulled up to the open garage, it was the only light source around as it seemed to be the dead of night. People I knew were in the garage, I couldn’t see their faces but I recognized their silhouettes. Old friends from high school who I hope I never have to meet again. I walked up to the front door and somehow as I went to open it I accidentally broke the Christmas wreath decoration on the front. There wasn’t a single light on in the house but I could make out the outlines of all the furniture. I was the only person in there. I ended up in my room, pacing circles as the dark trying to remember why I was there in the first place. I started to get the feeling that I wasn’t alone in the house so I tried to hide.

And that’s where I woke up! a lot of my nightmares are reoccurring, but this one was new. it wasn't really all that bad but maybe if i hadn't woken up early I wouldn't be saying that.

This is so goooood T-T

I kinda fucked up this art, but ok. Heavens arena, Hisoka vs Chrollo battle inspired. Love the moment with the judge hahahahaah.

I'm also on twitter

Are tummy pics against tos

Kevin the Kitten and Satan the Cat 🖤 Artist: 📸@vanessastockard

i think i hate all of my friends. Growing up i only ever wanted to have friends, to have a group, to belong. But now that its here I can't help but feel like I'm still alone. They call on me with the tone of a man calling his dog, while my words seem to fall into a black hole between their ears and my lips. I don't know why. Nobody ever seems to want to hear me, I know I'm quiet and weird sometimes but surely i'm worth at least listening to right? I think im better off alone i think i hate all my friends.

Well I’m 8k words into a Chrollo fic, but my fear of putting my work on display is getting the better of me T-T

websites i like

ill try to continually update this

https://en.picmix.com/ blingee alternative

http://www.mazeguy.net/smilies.html a collection of smiley faces and pixels

https://www.internetbumperstickers.com/frontbumper/ bumper stickers

https://openings.moe/ anime opening database (contains nsfw/hentai material, 18+)

https://pixelcanvas.io/@-179,-22 online collaborative pixel art

https://excalidraw.com/ another online whiteboard

https://www.my90stv.com/ hosts a bunch of 90s tv, including cartoons

https://kidpix.app/ kidpix in browser

https://wiby.me/ search engine for the old web

https://poolsuite.net/ 90s inspired radio

https://vole.wtf/ a collection of silly games

https://doodad.dev/dither-me-this/ online dithering tool

http://www.blog-switch.com/ a ton of cute effects for blogs

https://www.beepbox.co/ in browser music tool, great for chiptune

https://www.404pagefound.com/ a collection of vintage websites that are still active

http://www.phocks.org/stumble/creepy/ a list of the creepiest wikipedia articles

https://everynoise.com/engenremap.html a virtual map of music genres that you can preview, great for finding new sounds

https://littlealchemy.com/ a game about combining elements

https://play2048.co/ a game about combing numbers

https://www.retrocrush.tv/ free retro anime streaming site

http://elouai.com/candybar5/dress-up-girls.php anime inspired dress up game

https://derpy.tv/ a 24/7 hour livestream of mlp fim

https://tss.asenheim.org/ play pc-98 visual novels in browser

https://anilinks.neocities.org/ collection of anime sites, including personal and fan sites

http://panther.audio/ endless music recommendations based off of your taste

https://mynoise.net/noiseMachines.php create your own background noise

https://www.glitter-graphics.com/ old school glitter graphics

https://learn-anything.xyz/ finds the best ways to learn new skills

https://sandspiel.club/# an in browser sandbox