Highandscared - Hi!

Staring at giant clouds far off into the horizon is always such a weirdly calming feeling. For some reason more than anything else it reminds me of how small I really am. I don’t get the same feeling from looking at a giant sky scraper or a where the ocean meets the sky. It’s only ever with clouds that my problems seem to melt away for a moment as they pass.

I had another nightmare, I was in the dream version of the house I grew up in. It doesn’t look like what it does in real life but in my dream it always looks the same. I pulled up to the open garage, it was the only light source around as it seemed to be the dead of night. People I knew were in the garage, I couldn’t see their faces but I recognized their silhouettes. Old friends from high school who I hope I never have to meet again. I walked up to the front door and somehow as I went to open it I accidentally broke the Christmas wreath decoration on the front. There wasn’t a single light on in the house but I could make out the outlines of all the furniture. I was the only person in there. I ended up in my room, pacing circles as the dark trying to remember why I was there in the first place. I started to get the feeling that I wasn’t alone in the house so I tried to hide.

And that’s where I woke up! a lot of my nightmares are reoccurring, but this one was new. it wasn't really all that bad but maybe if i hadn't woken up early I wouldn't be saying that.

me turnt off of a mug of warm milk

As an alternative to 'sugar, spice, and everything nice'

I present: 'salt, vinegar, and everything sinister'

i've started streaming and im using it as an excuse to buy more legos and magic cards

I HAVE NEEDED THIS FOR SO LONG!!!!

and summore

i love her T-T

I survived because the fuck it we ball inside me burned brighter than the it's so over around me

For everyone of us US Folks that are going to have to live through the next four years of hell, I just want to remind you that it's perfectly understandable to invest in any and every one of your offline interests going forward. Doomscrolling the next four years of our lives isn't going to help us at all, especially with TikTok essentially becoming a right-wing leaning platform overnight and Meta doing whatever they can to fall in line with Trump. Invest in yourself and your people (friends, family) by investing in your own offline interests and hobbies. Create that small little comfort zone and world that'll help you and your people get through the next four years. Buy your favorite movies (physically!), buy more books (physically!), rebuy those childhood consoles or video games you no longer have, build up a stock of LEGOs to build or collect whatever it is that'll help bring you a sense of joy and escapism. Do whatever it is you need to do to in order to create an offline world or ecosystem that makes you and your people feel a sense of safety.

i dont feel so good anymore