Got Thrown Into An Aib Rp Server And Just Got Reminded Of The Joys Of Rp Who Lowkey Wanna Try Doing Them

sorry ive been gone for so long lol

ove been gone a while and it will probably be an even longer while. it turns out liking people when u have axnious attachment is REALLY bad and now i spend most of my evenings practicing piano or etching his name into a red candle and praying over it like my life depends on it i also recently discovered good weed as after my terrible experience of snooping through the freezer for my dads homemade shit during an anxiety attack scarred me. that strawberry shem hit MAD dawg omg i was metling away lolololololol maybe ill write smthn abt it. everything always turns into smthn i write bc i refuse to get hurt for nothing. all damage is good in my hands bc sometimes the assault is good and sometimes the insane urge to high is good and sometimes the abuse is good and sometimes the irrestable eye gleam that boy gives me at our concert as if he didnt js blck me is good bc i can turn it into art. and speaking of art center marimba got butt dumped on me so now im losing even more freedom from pressure in my arts and i wont even have my big brother there to help me throhg it bc hes gradiating. and big sister cam is graduating and jammy is go bue bye aghhhhhhh its all so sad yk sometimes i like purposelu let myself get hurt or i pirposelu hurt myself emotionally so i can write better. my best work comes when im sad bc i can onlu write sad things well bc how the fuck am i suppsied to write abt sunshine and rainbows and loving relationships when my ever so shitty eyesight is blacking out so everything looks dark and the only rainbows i see are when im saying i hate fags as i write poetry abt my unreauited love for this boy abd theres no loving relationshios cb the last relationship i got FUCKED but its ok bc the dmaga eis good gys i am making art from ut u already saw the shit i did back in february i write ffrom experience so my work is accurate. terribke things arent visualized in my work they are experuenced and thrown onto the page like it will be my last. ad then ppl tell mei should get hep and i should go ti the pyschward like hahaha so funny even if i wanted to i couldnt bc my parents dgaf im literally js a kid. im co28 i should be worring abt like my grades (whch i do) and like playinf valorant or whatever teen boys do. but nof this is mu life but eah my bad for being gone gangalang see yall idk when i js wanted to update my life everythign is great

me each time I see someone have the wrong opinion about AIB: please remember that Arisu is a ♥️ player, not a ♦️ one. Arisu being a ♥️ specialist is VITAL to all his development and to the final confrontation between himself, Niragi and Chishiya because that's a ♥️ player facing two ♦️players The final game within players is meant to be mind and reason vs heart and emotion and one character with a lot of empathy and skills of understanding others facing other two WHO LACK ALL OF THAT

it's not a game between 3 ♦️ players That wouldn't make any sense it's a ♥️ player DOING HIS THING AND "TRICKING" THE DIAMIN PLAYERS INTO CHANGING

You got Chishiya, whose apathy and indiference towards the world made it so imposible for him to undertand others And Niragi, who is so trapped inside his own view of the world and himself who can't also undertand anyone else

And then you have Arisu, who gets BOTH OF THEM, he can understand both CHISHIYA AND NIRAGI BECAUSE HE IS A ♥️PLAYER. WHAT WOULD BE IMPOSIBLE IF HE WAS ALSO A ♦️ ONE

Arisu is not a parallel to Chishiya or Niragi Chishiya and Niragi are the parallels Arisu is the one standing at the edge, trying to choose what route to take just to realize that this is not even his road before turning around and walking his own one

Chishiya and Niragi are narrative foils Arisu is the one who disturbs that weird balance, makes them change and offers them a new way to face the world A new way that Niragi refuses to take but Chishiya does follow

Because both Chishiya and Niragi are completely alone, they both don't want to be anymore, but only Chishiya does something to achieve that in the end You get Niragi saying out loud that he doesn't want to be alone, but doing nothing about it and Chishiya taking Arisu's hand into starting his personal change, even if he never says it outloud THAT ONLY MAKES SENSE WITH ARISU BEING A DIFERENT KIND OF PLAYER

so down bad i started writing a short story about the longing and despair that comes with being in love w a straight man

AIB S3 TEASER IS OUT AND I HAVE SO MANY QUESTIONS.

THIS FIRE SCENE. RECOGNIZE IT??? THAT LOOKS LIKE THE ORIGINAL 3 OF CLUBS FROM THE MANGA, THE FLAMING ARROWS GAME. IM SOSOSOSOS EXCITED TO SEE HOW THEY WORK THE ORIGINAL GAMES INTO THE STORY, ASSUMING THEY ARE !!

THEY'RE BACK IN THEIR ORIGINAL CLOTHES FROM BEFORE THEY LEFT BORDERLAND, BUT IN THE TEASER, THEYRE ALL WEARING DIFFERENT CLOTHES. ALSO, RANDOM DUDE IN WHEELCHAIR?? JUDGING BY THE HAIR AND THE ACKNOWLEDGEMENT OF A LEG INJURY IT MIGHT BE SOME KIND OF VERSION OF CHOTA, WHICH COULD MAKE SINCE, BECAUSE IN THIS SCENE THEYRE CLEARLY STILL IN BORDERLAND.

i am BEYOND excited for this new season. SOMEONE PLEASE HMU IN MSGS AND TALK TO ME ABT THIS BECAUSE OH MY GOD IM TWEAKING OUT

kyuma sketch (colored) baby’s first shirtless drawing how do we feel A for effort??

ladies, ladies, one at a time.. //o_o//

thank you guys so much for all the attention ive been receiving on my work !! you guys are truly the best, all your kind words and your MANY kudos motivate me to keep working and try my hardest for all of you <3 i am forever grateful for all you ! UPDATES : i may be posting something for a more underground fandom that is NOT alice in borderland so if you'd be interested in reading different fandom work, check out bittersweet (AJ's poorly explained oc lore) on tiktok and let me know if you guys would read work related to them :)

men go through a break-up and literally make it everybody else's problem smh 🫤 :

say gex or whatever they call it

this isn’t alice in borderland but whatever in the clerb we all fam, i can make exceptions for the boyfents

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