Just Some Proof That I’m Still Alive. 

Riku Appreciation Week | Day 2: Quote

I gave in to darkness once and ever since it’s chased me in one form or another.

The Seeker of Darkness who stole my body. A puppet replica of the shadows in my heart.

And now … I’m facing me.

AKUSAIMONTH: BERSERK Day 2: SET C - “Only You or Except You”

Everyone knew to keep their distance to me. Just ignore the strange kid. It's impossible to talk to him anyway. Just what is wrong with him? He's creepy, isn't he? Everyone knew.

Except you.

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Lea & Isa

When I was playing 358/2 Days for the first time a few years ago I suddenly wondered what Axel's real name would be, so I started turning around the letters of his name. I got to the conclusion, that it's probably Lea very quickly - simply and plainly because Lea is a girl's name. I was laughing my ass off, when I realized that I was right. When I started to get an interest in Saix I did the same thing for his name. I thought matching to Lea he should have a girl's name too, so I decided for Isa as my guess. The joke wasn't nearly as funny the second time.

Really, who gave them those names? And was he aware that they are girl's names? ö _ ö" (even though they are pronounced in a different way) Well I knew a Lea once, I knew a Isa once, so ever since BBS I wanted to draw a genderbend version of Lea and Isa influenced with features of the Lea and Isa I knew. Yup, here they are :D

"But I promise to be there one day to wake you up." 12 Days.

Okay, imagine how different everything would have been if Aqua hadn't sacrificed herself for Terranort. It's sad that it was an act of deep friendship that paved the way for so many bad things ...

(Based on this post.)

I just ... I’m really sorry for all of the sad AkuSai stuff I’m usually producing. By the way, no, I’m still not dead. I hope you’re all doing great? :’)

„What?! Again?! You’re cheating, just admit it!!“ „As if anyone had to cheat to win against you.“ „Oi! Now that calls for a rematch! Just you wait, you’re done for this time!“ „Well, 21-0 says differently.“ „Y-you --- STOP COUNTING ALREADY.“

(Headcannon: Isa has always been better at anything that has to do with computers or the like, including video games. He still is.)

Five more days till AkusaiMonth! I can’t wait! (Should I keep this one for it as well? Probably. But I’m not, huhu. Oh my … I’ve got a plan, wish me good luck everyone @_@”)

AKUSAIMONTH: BERSERK Day 10: SET C - “FREE SPACE”

“It won’t be.” "Huh?" "It won't be okay, unless we make it. "You have a plan?" "Not yet. We don't know enough. Our only chance at the moment is to play along." "So, you do have a plan." "I doubt it's worth calling it that." "Pft, whatever. Don't be so grim, Isa. We can do this, right!"

I felt like falling. It was a vertigo, things were keeping to blur before my eyes. It was hard to keep myself together at that time. Being with you helped. Apparently I was the only one struggeling with this. I know for sure that you didn't. Then again, I was also the only one who had had an X carved into his forehead. 

It was incredible how fast the wound had healed – or rather, how fast it had scarred.

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A super quick sketch for the bEGINNING OF AKUSAIMONTH 2021!!! No "official" list unfortunately, but that won't stop me! :D

AKUSAIMONTH: DAYTIME MOON Day 3: Let me clean your wounds.

(can be seen as a continuation to this)

Everything was spinning, at least that's what it felt like when he woke up. Lea just lay there, waiting for his world to calm down again. He made it, didn't he? He had seen Isa's heart … Isa.

Ignoring his dizziness, he opened his eyes and looked up. Isa lay barely an arm's length away from him. Still … … unconscious. At least, that's what he hoped it was.

In a sudden panic, he got to his knees and grabbed his shoulders. "Isa!", he called out his name, shaking him at the same time.

It felt like an eternity before Isa opened his eyes. There was no trace of yellow left in them. Only the greenish blue he remembered from so long ago. Lea felt himself breaking into a smile. All the tension and anxiousness that had kept him on edge this whole time simply fell away from him. He really made it.

His relief didn't last long once Isa reached out to him and … shoved him away. His voice sounded hoarse and weak and he didn't look him in the eye. "Don't touch me," he said. Lea felt his heart clench.

"Come on, Isa," he tried again, reaching for him one more time, only to get hold up by an arm, that certainly shouldn't be doing that. Everything went numb for him.

He had imagined this moment a hundred times. Heck, a thousand times. He didn't really expect Isa to fall around his neck or something, but this … this was nothing like what he thought. He saved Isa, didn't he? Why was he still acting like this? … Like … Saïx.

He just looked at him for a moment, trying to regain his composure. There were traces of the fight they had before all over him. It hadn't exactly been easy to enter Isa's heart.

Isa hadn't even gotten up. Apparently he was even worse off than Lea himself. "You're hurt," Lea stated in a firm voice, "Let me help you." He took hold of Isa's arm that was still trying to keep him away from him and pushed it down with mild power.

Isa still refused to look at him.  "No. Just … leave me be." But this time Lea heard his voice crack. He sounded … sad.

For some reason, it irritated him.

"Leave you be to do what? Die?" He grasped both his shoulders. Isa tensed up and tried to push him away again, but Lea didn't let him. "Do you really think I went through all that trouble, learning how to use a keyblade, waltzing right into a war, fighting you, just to let you die now?? No, Isa, I will bring you home and if I have to drag you all the way there."

Just then Isa suddenly stopped struggling and looked up to him. For a moment his face was full of disbelief, then he made a sound that was a mixture between an exhale and a laugh, and even though it sounded so sad, Lea felt happy about it. Because it was a reaction to him. And because there was the hint of a smile on Isa's face. It had been too long since he had a chance to see that.

"You're still … as stubborn as ever." His voice was quiet, but it wasn't cold. Not anymore. For the second time within a few minutes Lea felt relief wash over him. This wasn't lost, not yet. They could still go back to the way there were, it just'd take a bit longer than he thought.

"See, that's more like what I wanted to hear," he chirped extra cheerfully. He smiled at Isa, then he tightened his grip on his shoulders. "It's good to have you back. Isa."

The Black Paladins.

(He deserved at least a hug… I’ll miss him.)