ALR I'm Rereading It If I Pass Away Know It Was While Doing What I Love Most

James and Regulus have a little boy. His name is Leo Soleil Potter. He's got grey eyes that look like stone but chocolate curls that cover them sometimes. He's tan but has the roseyist cheeks. He's got freckles across his nose and a dimple on the left side that only comes out when he really smiles. He's got James laugh but Regulus smile so he always looks like he's up to something or has a secret he's not letting on. He's got a birthmark on his right shoulder that peakes out of his shirt collar if you're really looking. He's a gentleman, opens the door for little girls and calls adults ma'am/sr. He's left handed but ambidextrous in sports. He likes cats over dogs (don't tell padfoot) but his favorite animal is really a turtle.

Jeggy Date

James is pacing around the room in nothing but his pants a pair of socks and a open Hawaiian shirt "What about this one?" he asks looking around at his friends. "Reggie would like this right? I think it's great"

"a Hawaiian shirt? Are you being seri-sincere right now?" Remus throws a questioning look at him

He looks down at his shirt again "What-I okay your right it's stupid" he takes the shirt off and is digging through the clothes on his bed again. "What about this one?" He asks as he pulls out a yellow jumper. "Yellows a good color right?"

"yeah if you're a flower" Peter chucks on the side of Remus "You're gonna blind him mate"

"Okay-okay what about this one?" He throws on a navy blue flannel " It's nice right?"

"are you gonna leave it open like that?" Sirius asks

"I can pull it off open rights?" He's shaking his head

"Reg would love that" Remus chuckles quietly

"What-no James change please for my baby brothers innocence" he says while gagging

"Okay fine what about this one" he pulls on a white t-shirt and looks at his mates

"it's see through James" Peter kindly says

"What no it's not" me looks at the shirt and presses it into his chest "Damnit it is"

"You're really overthinking this mate. If you waste anymore time you're gonna be late" Remus says while Sirius starts gagging again dramatically

As if on cue Regulus interrupts from where he was leaning against the door frame with his arms crossed "Yeah you don't wanna keep your date waiting do you Jamie?"

James whips around so hard he thinks he gave himself whiplash. He can barely make out Regulus shape if he squints due to the fact his glasses are on the bed from all the shirt changes. "How long have you been standing there" He asks embarrassed.

"Around the opened flannel" James groans and covers his face.

Regulus walks towards the bed where all James clothes are, and picks out a red shirt along with a pair of brown trousers that are so dark their almost black and hands them to James. "Remus is right you're overthinking this; change darling" he says as he pecks him on the lips erupting a groan from Sirius.

He walks towards James's night stand where he keeps is jewelry and comes back with a necklace just as James finished putting the clothes on. He turns James around after putting the necklace on him and holds his face in place as he pecks him again. "Now I'm gonna go down stairs and wait outside of the portrait for you. When you come out I'm gonna complement your outfit and act like I wasn't the one who picked it out okay?" All James can do is nod.

Regulus waves to all the guys and goes to walk out of the room. "Where the black shoes please not your red ones the red ones will clash" He says as he closes the door. As soon as the door shuts and he hears Regulus foot steps fade away he looks at his friends. "I'm gonna marry him" he says with a absolute blisses out expression. Sirius gags are getting drown out by laughter.

Brain dump

Okay, we all know that sound off TikTok that says something similar to "it didn't matter how many times he changed the introductions or rewrote the story Aaron always fell in love with her.... Everytime". Well my brain refers everything back to Jegulus and I'd quite literally die if there was a fic written in the similar format about those two oblivious in love 70's boys. So hear me out.

Regulus oblivated James after Christmas hols because he was forced into getting the dark mark and couldn't stand putting James in danger in case he stayed or hearing James break his heart in case he left so in a act of selfishness and bravery he oblivated him that night in the astronomy tower. What regulus didn't know was that James had fell in love with him third year. He fell in love with the stories Sirius would tell, the picture that Sirius would proudly show off, and the rude spiteful little boy who he only met a handful of time. In the fear of losing his best friend he raised his wand to his temple and muttered the obviate spell in front of the mirror out of pure childish stupidity. He realizes now that it could've gone terribly wrong if he lost control of is magic or didn't focus on what exactly he wanted to forget but now he knows that when you're young and you're not rehearsed in a spell the images and thoughts come back with time. It lasted till fifth year till he started to hang around regulus a lot under the disguise of trying to bring both black brothers together again. They dated in private in fear of regulus's parents only allowing close friends in on they're secret relationship until that fateful night in the astronomy tower.

Ik this is only thought up half way and there is 100% plot holes in this. But I honestly think it would be a grate read especially if after the war James ends up falling in love with him again. I headcanon that Reggie is trans so I think it would be cool if James had fallen in love with him before he transitioned and even more after without realizing it to show the whole "rewrote the story" aspect.

I like to think that when James found out he fancied Reg he didn't pull some dramatic ask out or serenade him on top of the Gryffindor table. He kept it quiet and showed love through actions whether it be on purpose or not. Loving is a second nature to James so whether he wants to keep his crush quiet or not he just can't.

When someone found out James had a crush on Reg they immediately went to warn him of whatever James future plans could be. And when it never came Reg started to wonder if James truly liked him at all.

Regulus Black is such a "fuck around and find out" kinda person...yk?

Y'all remember crimson rivers??

I'm talking no hesitation. When someone asks I know he wouldn't answer to keep the peace but deep down inside who do you think crosses his mind first?

Jamie is Regulus's thing. Everyone knows that nickname is off limits, including James. So when someone calls James "Jamie" everyone gets quite and waits for all hell to break loose.

R&J. Romeo and Juliet? WRONG!! Regulus Black and James Potter. Are we gonna talk about how they mach up perfectly? No, there is enough angst in this fandom.

James would wear one of the girls shirts. The tatered ones that you only wear to sleep, that they cropped and cut off the collar to. And he would flex in it 100%

The common room was empty only occupied by the marauders, and a couple random Gryffindors who were working on homework on a Friday night in hopes of going to Hogsmad in the morning. It was peaceful with Remus reading and Sirius leaning against his shoulder flipping the pages when he'd finish. Peter laying against the couch James was also occupying until he got up to thoroughly reenact a story.

The portrait opened up the common room breaking whatever peaceful moment that was unraveling. A boy with curly hair and gray eyes stepping through.

James eyes zoned in on him completely forgetting whatever story he was in the middle of "Hi love" his lips tugging on the corners threatening to already pull into the doppy smile he constantly carries around Regulus.

"Hmm" is all the younger boy says as he steps into his boyfriend's space. James arms automatically wrapping around his middle while his go up to hold the Gryffindors face in place and bring they're foreheads together. Recharging. It goes without saying.

"Thank you for loving me" He whispers into the small space eyes still closed and foreheads still pressed together. James doesn't respond just pulls him in closer by the waist and leans in even more kissing Regulus and humming into it. A silent continue.

When the kiss breaks apart Regulus takes soft breath before continuing. "When we were younger Sirius used to say that he wouldn't make it to 18, that our parents would kill him before then. I'd tell him to stop being a dramatic cunt because I knew if anyone was gonna get out it'd be him." It's not just James listening now Regulus has caught that attention of every marauder in the common room but he doesn't even notice because James is rubbing soft circles under his shirt easing him to continue.

"and he got out. Not unscathed but alive. When I was younger I didn't think I'd make it to 18" He takes a deep breath before continuing his sentence. "I didn't think I'd make it to 18 because I was sure I'd kill myself before then if my parents hadn't done yet." Everyone takes a sharp inhale at that. Everyone except for James who slowly breaths in through his nose and pulls Regulus impossibly closer.

"You saved Sirius he turned 18 this December. I've got two years left before my 18th birthday but that's closer than I ever thought I'd make it. Thank you for loving me because I don't think I'd be here if you didn't. You saved me." He says with a shaky breath.

"Oh baby, I didn't save you. You saved yourself." He breaks they're faces apart to kiss his forehead before pulling him to a hug Regulus goes willingly. "You have so many people in your life that helped you. Don't give me all the credit."

Regulus shakes his head before he continues talking. "They're people that I'd die for. But I want to live for you. And it's so hard and it's exhausting because my entire life I was ready to go so willingly. But now all I want to do is stand here with you because the thought of being somewhere without you is so much worse. So thank you for loving me."

"Hmm thank you for loving me too" "It's too hard not to" is the reply James gets in return which makes them both chuckle even with watery eyes. "It's easier than breathing"