Fuck It

thinking about "everyone hit me I was annoying" and how all the violence we've seen between the siblings involves Roman. likely because they saw their own father "beat him with a slipper until he cried" just for ordering lobster (though I think the real reason Logan targeted Roman with so much violence is obvious at this point), thinking about how they claim he liked the violence too because it became so normal for them that it was mythified into a joke, into something so unremarkable they claim not to remember. Roman's pain is a joke at most, something for Kendall to use against Logan when Kendall chooses to acknowledge it all. so, he tries to beat them to the punchline, beat them to the insult, to the abuse with loud vigour, but sits quietly in fear when there's no garuntee someone won't hurt him and deny it if it goes wrong. Roman isn't going back to Logan because he has some hope Logan is changed. He's going back to Logan because Kendall and Shiv assumed he would. Not only did they not trust him, but they threw his greatest pain and shame in Logan's face, not out of a sense of justice, but just to spite Logan. He's going back to Logan because he knows to expect that kind of unpredictable cruelty from him and so it hurts less than staying with Shiv and Kendall and getting it from them. He's not going back to Logan looking for denied love, he's gone back because he's given up on believing anyone in his family can give it and better the devil you know.

idk about you but recently i’ve been enjoying the slow rise of very particular “food themed” genre of cinema(?)(idk how else to describe it) where food must go on par with some sort of psychological thriller; bonus points if creators manage make it funny or weird, or both. main examples are The Menu (2022), The Bear (2022- ) and  Drops of God (2023- )

and of course there is also subcategory devoted to cannibalism: Yellowjackets (2021-), Gannibal (2022) and upcoming tv-series The Horror of Dolores Roach (2023)

Ted Lasso + Reductress Headlines (Part 1/?)

I love that Rosie knows LGBT+ sexualities, but Alastor is too "old-skool" to probably care

no monster this ep, but something even scarier, learning how to fucking drive.

i want to live in the peaceful feeling you get underwater where everything sounds softer and the lights are all tinged blue and the world feels silky and light and surreal.....

so hold me like a grudge

PLEASE TELL ME NO ONE ELSE MADE THESE FIRST

the severance finale really said humans find beauty and meaning everywhere despite of it all and that doesn't justify the existence of the system that opresses them but also doesn't negate the worth of the life that has been carved out of it despite of it all and fuck you for creating and maintaining and profitting off the very same system that abuses and exploits me and those I love while saying our lives are too miserable to have worth and meaning. they do. no matter how small. despite of it all. despite of it all. I am chewing through cardboard.

captain nemo doodles