At The Collision, Johanna Scowled, Words Of Spite About To Part Lips When

{ meng ziyi, cis woman, she/her } have you heard that ( feng min ) from ( dead by daylight ) appeared in town?  i know, i can’t believe it either.  she is ( twenty-one ) years old and is a ( professional gamer ).  I’ve heard that she has a tendency to be ( competitive & adaptable ) and ( fickle & calculating ), and they have ( all ) of their old memories.

BASICS

name: feng min nicknames: shining lion, min, lone wolf age: 21 astrological sign: virgo hometown: beijing, china height: 5′ 2″ occupation: professional gamer gender  /  pronouns: cis woman  /   she/her orientation: raging lesbian

PAST

{ tw: horror themes ( pretty much everything is in dbd, so please be mindful <3 ), alcoholism, neglect }

feng found video games at a young age. she loved the fact that she could become anyone she wanted. hours turned into days spent online && eventually her parents attempted to put a stop to it. they wanted feng to focus on her studies, to do something productive with her time. feng however saw how technology was changing, how there was a future in video games. in turn feng spent most of her time in internet cafes, pushing herself to get better && in turn slowly gained a following through streaming && competitions. 

respect — something she never had from her parents but did in the gaming world. less time was spent at home, only seeing her family on the holidays && even then she wished the time away. as the shining lion, her nickname && gamer tag, she was invited into a prestigious e-gaming team called the laser bears. a chosen family, they traveled the world, filled up stadiums with fans together && separately. 

but feng soon became obsessed, aiming for nothing less than perfection. she barely slept, with that her performance suffered. it got to her more than she let on, losing. she felt like she was not only losing competitions, but the respect && love of her peers, fans, parents. instead of spending sleepless nights training she went out to bars ; apparently games weren’t the only places one could be whomever they want. more often than not feng woke up in strange places ... only one day it was somewhere she had never been. the fog.

a place controlled by an entity, a place of nightmares — filled with horror icons && some she had never heard of. at first feng was cold to the others, never the most altruistic ( still wasn’t up until she left. especially to newer survivors. they had something to prove, didn’t they ?? ). feng spent her time observing, calculating. while terrified of what this place was, she soon discovered in reality, it was almost like a new game for her. one that she was determined to win. for her, that meant getting herself out of each trial by any means necessary. it wasn’t until she learned that it was better to work as a team, as she slowly let herself open up to the others, that she started looking out for them too. like her e-sports team the others became a sort of family even in their current chaos. 

IVYWOOD

she hasn’t been here for very long, but already she feels rather bored — though she’d never admit it. of course it’s better than in the entity’s realm, but when not focused on surviving it’s easier to let her mind wander && all the more difficult to not go back to old habits. but she’s trying™. despite how hard of a time she gave some of the other survivors, she misses them, hopes they’re alright && somehow end up here too. until then she’s content to get back to video games, to see all that she’s missed && attempt to help meg learn how to play too. 

- Isabel Allende

                    seeing familiar faces around ivywood was becoming a more common occurrence. it was always a bit of relief, regardless of the individual. regardless also, if what they remembered && what luna did some of the time differed. despite how troubling the times were, luna did miss home, especially their dad. so if he couldn’t be here, it was nice to at least have a few people from back home. “hermione !!” smile genuine, warm. “it’s so nice to see you too. what a surprise, though a very good one indeed !!” they chimed, gaze moving between her && the ballroom. “i love your dress. seeing you && being in this place, reminds me of home in a way, you know ??”

Other than a few of the adults and Ginny and her kids, and Draco of course, Hermione really hadn’t seen anyone from her hometown here. The adults were all off doing their own things and Hermione was still trying to remember exactly what had happened over the past years of her life. So to see Luna there at the ball made things feel calm, for the first time in awhile. Even if Hermione found the girl a bit odd, she was a welcoming presence. “Luna! Look at you! You look wonderful tonight.” Hermione said walking up to her. “It’s so good to see you, you wouldn’t believe how much of a sight for sore eyes you are.”

beverly 📲 ben👷🏻

ben: oh my god you're kidding

ben: i've gotta find somewhere to hang it up, i'm sure my clients will love that during video calls

ben: i promise, i'll act as surprised as i can

beverly: oh for sure. it'd scream professionalism.

beverly: but i understand if you still wanna hang it behind your door🤣

beverly: you also have to promise you'll listen to them with me.

fadedlustre​  /  mike hanlon * !!

it was weird. getting hugs from any of the losers was… it was an experience. he really hadn’t realised just how much he missed his friends over the last few years even if apparently he’d seen them until they all came back. he laughed at her comment, although it was a surprise. did… was bev affected like he was? “i’ve been good,” he replied, shaking his head as he took a step back and just took in the woman for a moment. “i mean, you know, aside from being dragged into another strange town and everything. how have you been?”

🎈❤️🔥

                    bev’s smile faltered at his words. “bill mentioned popping up outta nowhere ; did that happen to you too ??” it was indescribable, how it felt to remember them && to have them here with her. but she didn’t want it if it meant this place was anything like derry. ivywood once felt like the HOME she never had. but now it’d be a lie to say she wasn’t worried. regardless, a grin once again tugged at her lips. “i’ve been alright. managed to miraculously make it through school && have been trying this fashion thing out.” eyes bright, brow arched at a thought. “drinks to celebrate ?? besides i wanna hear everything. how’s the farm ?? && florida, right ?? please tell me you went somehow, someway.”

wxlksxflxfx​  /  scorpius malfoy * !!

“Who would want that?” Scorpius commented, laughing once more. He wasn’t sure who the person in front of him was, but he was thankful for them. Even in the short conversation they had so far, it was starting to make him feel better about the day. Listening to them, the young wizard couldn’t help but tilt his head in thought before speaking. “Are you just some mysterious person who walks around town granting everyone with some grand wisdom?” He asked, letting out a smaller laugh this time. “But you’re right. Going around and learning more about the town might actually help me out.” 

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                    luna’s genuine grin only widened all the more, a meek shake of her head. “i wish i was that cool. && had all the knowledge of the world at my disposal.” if they did, they certainly would then understand the mysteries of this place, be reunited with their father && chosen family once again. “but i probably just people watch more than most. && i like to read. books have a lot of wisdom. even books of fiction can have valuable lessons in them.” expression turned sincere, “i hope you do find whatever it is you’re looking for. or it finds you, life tends to work out that way too. don’t worry, that’s the last bit of wisdom i have left.” luna jested with a slight, warm chuckle. “i’m luna lovegood. thanks you know, for talking with me.”

wxlksxflxfx​  /  bill denbrough * !!

Bill looked at her at little confused before responding. “What do I mean about the town? I mean, all these people randomly popped up here, including us. I don’t understand how these people just showed up. Like, it doesn’t make sense unless you want to believe in the idea of a parallel universe or something.” He offered, shrugging his shoulders as he thought about it more. “It’s not bad, but I don’t trust.” He continued. “They’ll catch us soon enough, unless we all stay apart. No groups bigger than three. Then it’ll be harder for them to find us within the crowd.” 

🎈❤️🔥

                    “wait—” a pause as gaze lingered, attempting to decipher it all. “you’re serious ??” if it were anyone else but one of the losers beverly wouldn’t believe it. but they had gone through so much in that summer, have seen inexplicable things. she didn’t doubt bill’s words. “i wouldn’t say anything is impossible anymore, unfortunately.” she muttered, lips pursed in thought as she tried to understand. “but we still have some TIME. before — you know. && we’re not in derry. It can’t leave.” hopefully. even in the midst of confusion there was comfort in the jests, smile once again crossing her lips. “good plan, big bill. we can create new identities, give ourselves whole new backstories so they’ll never guess such losers are crashing their party. it’d be like we were never here.” 

A BEVERLY MARSH PLAYLIST  ・。・

below the cut are lyrics of importance from each song, plus a few extras ❄️🔥

001. BAD REPUTATION - JOAN JETT

“a girl can do what she wants to do and that's what I'm gonna do. and i don't give a damn 'bout my bad reputation.”

002. LIABILITY - LORDE

“so they pull back, make other plans. i understand, i'm a liability. get you wild, make you leave. i'm a little much for everyone.”

“the truth is I am a toy that people enjoy ‘til all of the tricks don't work anymore, and then they are bored of me.”

003. YOU’VE GOT IT (THE RIGHT STUFF) - NKOTB

“you're the reason why I sing this song. all that I needed was you.”

004. LOOKING TOO CLOSELY - FINK

“the devil's right there, right there in the details and you don't wanna hurt yourself, hurt yourself. looking too closely.”

“put your arms around somebody else. don't punish yourself, punish yourself. truth is like blood underneath your fingernails and you don't wanna hurt yourself, hurt yourself.”

“so don't kid yourself, kid yourself. it's you right there, right there in the mirror.”

005. LOSER - BECK

“ soy un perdedor. i’m a loser baby, so why don’t you kill me ??”

006. FORTRESS - BEAR’S DEN

“nothing could ever make me more frightened than the thought of hurting you.”

“this is how it's meant to be. this is where we're supposed to be. i don't think anyone could ever love anyone the way I love you.”

007. FATHER DAUGHTER DANCE - KESHA

“it was always drama. i’m sorry i’m always so anxious and numb. just sorry i’m fucked up. i really just don’t know how to love, how to trust. i try, but when i talk about him i should probably cry but he’s nothing, he’s no one, a stranger.”

“oh, i wish my heart wasn’t broken from the start. i never stood a fighting chance. in all my days from my cradle to my grave, i’ll never have a father daughter dance.”

008. BEVERLY - IT (2017) SOUNDTRACK

(  vibes™.  )

009. UNBREAKABLE - FIREFLIGHT

“where are the people that accuse me? the ones who beat me down and bruise me? they hide just out of sight, can't face me in the light. they'll return but I'll be stronger.”

“god, I want to dream again. take me where I've never been. i want to go there, this time I'm not scared. now I am unbreakable, it's unmistakable. no one can touch me. nothing can stop me.”

010. THERE IS A LIGHT THAT NEVER GOES OUT - THE SMITHS

“take me out tonight where there's music and there's people and they're young and alive. driving in your car, i never, never want to go home because I haven't got one ... oh, please don't drop me home because it's not my home, it's their home and I'm welcome no more.”

011. LOVELY - BILLIE EILISH FT. KHALID

“oh, i hope some day i'll make it out of here, even if it takes all night or a hundred years. need a place to hide, but I can't find one near. wanna feel alive. outside i can't fight my fear.”

“isn't it lovely, all alone? heart made of glass my mind of stone. tear me to pieces, skin to bone. hello, welcome home.”

012. HANG ON IN THERE - QUEEN

“don't let go, don't lose your mystique. wait a little longer; tomorrow brings another feast. don't let go, don't lose your reputation. thank God you're still alive, ha. you're still in one piece.”

013. CHERRY BOMB - THE RUNAWAYS

“can't stay at home, can't stay at school. old folks say, ‘you poor little fool.’ down the streets i'm the girl next door ; i'm the fox you've been waiting for.”

edgcofgreat​  /  draco malfoy * !!

                Draco  had  to  admit  that,  although  he  was  trying  to  give  himself  a  fresh  start,  he  really  didn’t  believe  that  anyone  besides  Hermione  would  give  him  the  chance.  Of  all  people,  though,  he  supposed  Luna  would  be  most  likely  to,  and  clearly  that  was  the  case.  ‘  That’s  how  I’ve  chosen  to  see  it.  ”  He  spoke,  hand  absent-mindedly  going  to  the  spot  where  his  dark  mark  once  was.  His  tattoo  was  covered  by  his  tuxedo  sleeve,  but  still.  “  I  can  think  of  about  a  hundred  places  that  would  be  worse  than  this,  surprisingly  enough.  ”

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                    well, make that another thing the two apparently agreed on. they wouldn’t have believed they ever would a few years ago. but people evolved, luna would be one of the first to agree with that too. how dull, being the same person throughout one’s entire life. “well, college is certainly better than high school ever was.” luna may still be an  o u t s i d e r  to most, a friend a RARITY, but it was more common to see people being their true selves && not be questioned for it. “&& the states have way better food, even if we never went hungry back home either.” luna mused, attempting to lighten the air.

fadedlustre​  /  mike hanlon * !!

“real actual silverware? damn, bev, you’re putting me to shame,” he teased back, shaking his head. he’d been here longer than some of the other losers, but he had to admit, he’d never fully settled in. he’d been waiting for something to happen, never knowing what. but now… maybe he could begin to settle down. he shrugged, looking down at his mug. “yeah, been here a little longer than the rest of you. it’s really not all that different to derry. quieter, somehow.” not as scary in other ways, like a lack of alien clowns, and significantly less odd looks when he walked around. “gotta have the good times while they’re here. maybe we can take actual swimming gear to the lake this time,” he laughed.

・・・・・・

                    “don’t feel shame. i will never be the prime example of an adult, ever.” usual grin remained at his words, even if the mere mention of derry always rose goosebumps along her arms. “you’re right as usual, hanlon. it’s weird ... after living anywhere besides derry it’s even easier to see how fucked it was. children going missing shouldn’t feel fucking NORMAL.” ginger brows furrowed, a slight shake of the head to rid herself of those thoughts, to focus on what positives could be found. “oh hell yeah. no we’re really talking. snorkels, goggles, all of it. maybe the water will actually be clear enough to see shit in.” dirty water, another lovely thing about derry. “i just hope they’re more good times ...” words trailing off, curiosity getting the best of her as it usually did. “—have you, i don’t know, remembered anything new ??”