[🚧 WIP] Comfort Place

Having a therapist who isn't used to trans patients will truly have you feeling like Koko the gorilla trying to articulate your feelings in a coherent way. "No peepee huge honkers, I cry? Huge honkers no peepee, sadness, doctor."

I'm curious. Reblog this if you know how to cook

I don’t even care if it’s macaroni, ramen or those little bowls you stick in the microwave. Please, I need reassurance that most of the population on tumblr WOULDN’T STARVE TO DEATH if their parents couldn’t fix them food or they couldn’t go out to eat. 

Universe Switch- WIP

(a sneak peak at what I have so far)

This story is where Felwinter from a Universe where lives and Osiris takes his place in Site 6 gets flopped into the normal Destiny universe.

Felwinter groaned as he woke up, his vision spinning as his systems all reset. He had been fighting in the battle against the Witness side by side with Saint when the Young Wolf had dealt the killing blow and he had been blown off the tower falling to what he assumed would be a final death since Felspring had been killed just a few years prior.

He knew Saint would be devastated but he would keep going to take care of the Young Wolf just like Saladin had kept going after losing Jolder and like how Felwinter had kept going even after Osiris had taken his place in Site 6 and died to the SIVA.

Closing his eyes he let his last thoughts be of Osiris and his worst regret. Then he felt something wrench something inside of him and it all went black.

He was surprised when he woke up laying on the ground in Site 6 and winced as he dragged himself to his feet looking around. It was like he remembered it when he had helped the Young Wolf fight off the SIVA infected Iron Lords. He jumped when a ghost materialized beside him before staring dumbly at Felspring as she started talking about how she didn’t know how they were alive after being destroyed by SIVA.

“But… we weren’t here? You were killed by the Celebrant when I tried to kill it alone. Osiris died here. He wouldn’t let me go. Insisted to let this be his test to earn the title of Iron Lord. So I gave in. He never came home again. I moved to the Last City and moved in with Saint-14… don’t you remember?” He asked her surprised.

She buzzed back at him in confusion. “I… don’t. No. I remember you fighting here after a fight with Osiris and he stormed off. We all died when Lady Jolder blew everything up.” The ghost admitted.

Taking that in Felwinter nodded. “Well… we should go to the tower. I’m certain Ikora will help us find answers and I want to see Saint.” He said and she bobbed before coming over and nuzzling against his neck. He patted her gently.

“I missed you too.” He murmured before they started picking their way out to find a ship and get to the last city.

The bustle of the Tower soothed his nerves even if he got a lot of stares. He ignored them and made his way to the apartment he shared with Saint near the hanger glad that the code still seemed to be the same to let him in.

However, walking inside, he immediately felt like he had entered the wrong apartment. Some items were right, like the copper tea kettle from his rooms at the Iron Temple and a few books he knew were his but there were also stacks of papers everywhere, and little trinkets he knew neither he nor Saint had bought.

“It looks like your office when Osiris was in a tizzy over some new topic,” Felspring giggled and Felwinter make a snorting sound as he walked over to one of the datapads. Before he could reach it, however, he felt the cold chill of void energy behind him and immediately summoned a dawnblade and spun just in time to block the shield spinning for his head. It got reflected back to the titan and Felwinter dove to the side as a fist was aimed at him instead.

“Saint! Stop! It’s me!” He yelped and jumped over the couch as Saint-14 spun around glaring.

“You break into my house and you want me to not kill you? I do not know who you are,” He growled

“What do you mean you don’t know me!? So help me if you got amnesia from banging you head to0 hard into a Vex or Fallen again I’m going to bash your head into a wall! Saint-14, I am your husband. I live here! Felwinter? Iron Lord?” He yelled as he continued to dodge Saint’s attacks but the name seemed to draw him up short.

“Felwinter? Lord Felwinter died centuries ago! I only met him twice in temple and never spoke to him directly. I did not marry him, I married Osiris! Everyone knows I married Osiris! You are not even good liar.” Saint snarled at him accent getting thicker with his anger.

Felwinter froze as pain that wasn’t from an injury radiated through him but then the door opened and they both turned to look at Osiris as he walked in.

It was definitely Osiris despite looking older and more haggard. He looked between them eying the dawnblade and Saint’s shield but looking up into Felwinter’s eyes Felwinter was relieved to see a look of recognition.

“Felwinter?” He asked and Saint snorted but let his shield fade away so Felwinter followed his lead and let his blade dissipate as well.

“So he claims! He also claimed that we were married and you died! A fool who doesn’t even know his history well enough to lie! We both know Lord Felwinter died,” Saint huffed walking over to stand protectively near Osiris.

“You died too Saint. In the Garden. We, of all people, should know that impossible things can happen. How did you know the code for the door to get in? It was not forced,” Osiris asked calmly.

Felwinter felt like his heart was being torn to pieces. “I… It was… Our wedding date. I’ll go. Clearly this is not my home. There was a mistake.” He said but Osiris’ hand shot out and he grabbed Felwinter’s arm.

“Your wedding to Saint? Please don’t leave yet. I know this must be difficult for you but I believe you are who you say you are. I knew Lord Felwinter and his light is unmistakable. Your light is unmistakable.” Osiris said and Felwinter resisted yanking his arm back.

“Yes. My wedding to Saint-14. A different Saint-14 it seems. Let me go.” He said the sound like grating metal as he tried not to lash out from the hurt that was building up his chest.

Osiris released him and he cradled his arm to his chest as if it had been burnt as he backed toward the door.

“Fel… You don’t have to go. It was a misunderstanding but even if you aren’t from here that doesn’t mean you aren’t wanted.” Osiris said eyes wide and hand still hovering outstretched.

Felwinter looked between him and Saint, violet eyes now looking appraising instead of angry.

“I… I should go.” He said and wrenched the door open and ran. He could hear, briefly, Osiris turn on Saint and start hissing at him like an angry cat but he quickly put too much distance between the apartment and himself to heard anything. He found a dark corner he knew no one would pass by and let himself curl up starting to sob into his knees. Felspring did her best to nuzzle in to his neck to offer him some comfort but it was all so much.

Lord Felwinter 🩸

Barry: Where's Hal? Ollie: Don't worry, I'll find him. Ollie, shouting: Kyle sucks! Hal, distantly: Kyle is the best person ever! Fuck you! Ollie: Found him.

I apologize for my horrible sense of humor

So having O14 discord going great guys

There is one other thing to talk about in regards to the dungeon, and that's Osiris, who is on comms for us.

First of all, he was absolutely ready to go there himself. Ikora tells us as much.

She tells us that he's wants to go, but that she's afraid of him hurting himself so that it would be best if we went instead. Because he trusts us. This is enough to make me cry all day, but it's not all.

Once in there, he leads us through. One of his comments in the middle of the dungeon:

This is huge for him. He never does anything for himself. He never says that he needs help for something that sound even remotely selfish or that would be perceived as selfish. But here? He said "I need this." Not "we," not "Ikora," not "Guardians." He. Only he.

He needs to be able to convince others to trust him again. He needs to be able to convince HIMSELF to trust himself again. And the way he says it? He says it almost like he's ashamed of admitting that this is something he needs personally.

And that makes me wail and sob and throw things. Osiris, you are allowed to ask for help and to do things for yourself!!!!

But that's not all! At the end, he makes the following comments:

I will never be a normal person again after this. He and Saint had plans, back in the day, back before the Infinite Forest, that they would go explore the universe together. But not before they made the City safe for everyone else.

They took it upon themselves to do this. To make the City safe, first and foremost, before they can detach and go do things by themselves, for themselves. Securing everyone else took precedence. A job for a thousand years, or more, of making everyone else safe; Osiris and Saint sacrificed everything to make it so.

Only after they finish the most important job, only then are they allowed to leave and do things they want. And nobody would've faulted them if they just left at any point in time. Nobody would've even known. Nobody except them. They couldn't handle thinking selfishly and leaving everyone to struggle while they frollick around the universe.

To them, the first and most important thing is to make sure that everything else is done. Their personal lives and personal wishes and fantasies and dreams come second. That is why they ended up separated. That's why Osiris was exiled, that's why Saint died, that's why Osiris had to move time and space to bring him back, that's why Osiris messed with Hive gods, that's why he became Lightless and kidnapped and in a coma.

Because the most important imperative to them both is to save the world.

And now Osiris is coming to terms with mortality for the first time and he is thinking about what could've been. But even then, he STILL wants to put himself in danger to protect us all.

And I am simply crying super hard on the floor.

Additional cute info to help us from crying, after we returned and Ana wanted to run more missions for extra data, Osiris wanted to himself. AGAIN. She stops him (dungeon helmet lore):

I LOVE the lore about how everyone in the Tower apparently has scheduled watching Colonel time.

"No!" Ana dashes passed Osiris, "It's your night to watch the Colonel. I'll outsource a posse."

Besties, I need help. Especially people who have a lot of reach on twitter.

Two of my friends had their Destiny names forcibly changed at the roughly the same time. Their Destiny names were "bisexual mara sov" and "trans king oryx." They just logged in and got a pop-up saying that for some "crossplay" reasons their names were changed to a default Guardian####. None of them are using crossplay. Both are on Steam only, if that's important.

One of them posted to Bungie forums and got this reply:

Both of my friends suspect that they were mass reported. Obviously falsely. Their names are not breaking any rules and are in fact canonical statements about the characters. They always play together so if some homophobe sees them, they would report both, so it would make sense why this happened to them at the same time, possibly (the other option is that there was a wave of forced name changes happening recently that caught them both, but for all intents and purposes, their names should not be subject to change).

This upset both of my friends quite a lot. It means there's enough homophobes out there falsely reporting their names. It's also upsetting to think that these reports were reviewed and then accepted. I genuinely don't think there was a manual review. If there was, I think everyone would like to know which rules this is breaking and why.

Another friend tried raising this issue on the official Destiny 2 reddit, but his thread was not approved by moderators because of "politics":

Thanks reddit! /s My friend also messaged the moderators, but to no avail.

The only thing that remains is trying to raise this issue with the community managers somehow, but clearly this isn't possible on reddit, so we want to try twitter. Unfortunately with the way twitter works, unless you have the reach, nobody will see it. One other friend literally made a twitter account for this to tag the Destiny 2 Team, but as expected her attempt has zero visibility. These are her two tweets. I'm not sure what would be better; to just boost this existing tweet or to make new tweets tagging Destiny 2 Team, but if anyone knows and thinks they could help, feel free to do either!

I don't expect much to happen, but I would like to at least try bringing some awareness to this because it's quite upsetting if homophobes can just mass report a completely innocent name, while absolutely gross names are allowed and visible every day in the game. It's also not a good look if these mass reports are acted on without review, and they are worse if they were acted on WITH review.

A lot of people have usernames that are about in-game characters; I think a lot of us would like to get some information on why these aren't allowed anymore. Both of my friends have had them for years.

Anyway, if anyone knows something they could do or has the ability to get this visible somehow, it would be appreciated!

Illustration for "State of Radiance" - @zalia's amazing fic with some Unorthodox training methods (it's T-rated gen btw)