Little Outstanding Nail Right There.

Panic attack 2. (Pokémon, Goh angst)

Summary: Okay, the first part was with Scorbunny, now it's with Raboot, (before the apple), so don't expect a lot of comfort. Or any comfort, period.

(This part will either be short or long. I don't know.)

Second time. (Raboot)

”Gah! There are no pokémon here- It's like an abandoned forest!” complained Goh, he sighed. ”Raboot, have you-”

He was about to finish that sentence before noticing that Raboot was walking- not waiting for them. It was not interested in looking for pokémon with his partner.

”Yeah, it is! Like, there's not even any common types!” said Ash. ”Guess, we'll have to part, ei?”

”Yeah, your right,” said Goh, he took out the map and started planning. ”You go right, I'll take the left. We'll meet...”, he searched through the map. ”There!”, and pointed at a location.

”Got it!”, he picked up Pikachu, that started waving. ”See you later!”

He walked away.

(Later)

”Damn, this forest really is deserted,” said Goh, chuckling. ”It's, like, empty. Completely empty.”

His pokémon wasn't listening, Raboot just kept walking in it's normal pace, not even looking back slightly.

Suddenly, quite out of nowhere, he heard a quiet woosh.

”What's that?” asked Goh, getting excited.

Was there something in the bushes?

Oh, how excited he was, maybe it was a grass type, normal type, or ground type?

A pokémon he didn't have just yet?

”Come out!” said Goh. ”If your a pokémon, please, I promise I won't hurt you!”

He walked closer to the bushes, wondering what pokémon could be hiding behind there.

”Raboot, could you wait? Please, there's something here, and it can be really cool, can I just see?”

Luckily, Raboot stopped, and looked at him for a short while.

”Raboot.”

He smiled at Raboot, before turning his attention back to the bushes.

He stepped closer slightly.

And he assumed, that he in some way frightened it, because the pokémon jumped up, and backed away quickly.

In front of him was a white pokémon with a horn, it's tail and mane was made out of fire.

It was a rapidash.

And, normally, Goh would have wanted to catch it... But, he couldn't.

Not that he didn't want to, he did!

But he couldn't, he couldn't... He couldn't move.

It was like his legs were stuck in quicksand.

A familiar feeling settled in his gut, a feeling he had wanted gone.

’No, I can't, I haven't had one in so long...’

That was true, he hadn't had one since Raboot, as Scorbunny, witnessed it.

And that was so long ago.

”Raboot?”

It was probably confused why his partner hadn't caught the pokémon yet, that could run away any second.

”I-I,”

He couldn't speak.

A sob was threatening to escape his lips any second, and then any dam that he had left would break.

”Boot!”, it seemed the pokémon was trying to remind him of rapidash.

”I can't...”

Miguel had a rapidash, that he used to torture Goh, to bully him.

Miguel didn't care about other things, he was cold, and did anything. He didn't care that Goh used to beg and cry for him to stop, to tell rapidash to stop using it's abilities on him.

But he never listened.

Goh will always remember that sick smirk he always had.

Always.

He felt a kick at his leg, it was a rock.

In front of him was Raboot, that was looking at him strangely.

”Raboot- Ra?”

It seemed it was trying to ask Goh if it was happening again.

All he could do was nod.

Raboot wasn't stupid, even if he denied, it wouldn't believe him.

It stepped closer to him, and stood under him, it was leaning against his right leg, holding it.

That was the most physical affection Raboot had gave him since- Well, since it evolved.

(Even later, I know I'm lazy)

It was long- Longer than it should have been.

He was at his and Ash's meet-up location.

But Ash wasn't there yet.

Raboot was standing next to him with a reasonable distance.

”Goh!” said a voice happily, it was Ash.

”Ash! Hey!”

”So, did you find any pokémon? Sadly, I didn't... But did you?” asked Ash curiously.

He was quiet, rethinking what to say.

”No, I didn't.”

I have also always seen myself as a tomboy! I don't even have dresses in my closet but I'm not into sports, which is typically seen as a male thing! That makes perfect sense.

And damn you predictive text-

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Master List Here!!

What Goes Around Comes Around.

I am so so sorry. I truly thought I had uploaded this piece but it was a draft. Then found the finished version was corrupted so had to work off my last saved draft. Haven't a Pokémon fic properly before for Goh and Chloe. So consider this my first published fic!! (Turns out I had really rough drafts for a Sword and Shield based story. So guess what I'm working onnnnn!!😍😍)

This was requested by the awesome @grammarrrrrr, who was kind enough to do a fic for me, "Healing Curses and Trauma." and was kind enough to let me try one (1) for him!!

I hope this is ok, please tell me if you would like it changed or anything to add or take away. Enjoy!!

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The day had started off so well. Chloe and the boys had reunited after the Champions Battle and Mew Expedition respectively with their dreams and goals near enough fulfilled. Ash becoming a Champion after his victory over Leon and Goh finally encountering Mew once more, even getting to "hold it on the palm of his hand!"

To celebrate the occasion, the trio and their Pokémon decided that a camp out was the best way to do so. But it was so Chloe could get Goh to admit to Ash that it may be time to go their separate ways now. Goh has learned all he could with Ash, forever grateful for being able to grow into the researcher he always wanted to be and meeting Mew.

But the young girl could see that he couldn't shake off that feeling of potential betrayal to his friends if he ever did so. After an eventful travel to their campsite, enjoying the berries the Poliwag had given them in thanks for saving it from an angry swarm of Spearows, they began reminiscing about their time together as Research Fellows.

Throughout the trip, Chloe had quietly urged Goh to admit to Ash that now was the time to honestly tell the New Champion about his feelings about separating for his own journey, loosening ties to allow himself to be less dependant on his friends. But just when she thought he could do it, he chickens out. It was then she could have kicked herself when Ash casually announced that he was beginning his new journey with just Pikachu.

She saw how Goh couldn't hold it back anymore, tearily asking when Ash had planned to tell him this or if the year they spent together meant anything to Ash. She couldn't blame Ash, the boy was used to saying "See ya when we see ya" to his former travelling companions, having great pleasure in meeting them herself. But she couldn't help the pang of sadness in seeing her life long friend be upset at this new revelation.

Goh couldn't hold back anymore, declaring that since Ash didn't care about it, then their friendship was over and to never talk to him again as he ran off into the woods, his Striker Pokémon, equally as shocked as she was, followed suit.

"Goh wait!!" Ash called out after him, shock has yet to set in for him at what just happened. "What was that all about?"

It was then that Chloe gave the sternest of looks she could muster to the newly appointed World Pokémon Champion. He didn't realise what his words did to harm their friend.

At the same time, she knew Goh was quite secretive about his past and how he had a hard time admitting that making friends was never easy for him.

It took them this trip to the campsite alone to talk about the Abra that would randomly teleport into his family apartment years ago, after witnessing one (1) getting berries from a tree.

With a deep breath, she finally says,

"You were his very first friend, Ash. I don't think you understand how much that meant to him."

Ash, despite being airheaded, really did seem genuinely confused. She supposes that, as someone who always had travel companions and hardships since literally starting his journey, he can easily forget that that it was a difficult task for Goh and even herself to even start their journeys. But all the same, Ash's big heart for people and Pokémon alike has proven that at the end of the day, they all are just people wanting to reach their dreams. Ash took that hard step in sticking with his Pikachu, and the rewards for it has been substantial. And many links were connected thanks to Ash introducing them all at some point or another. So she decided to do something she wouldn't have dreamt on doing before.

"Ash, I understand how things may have been difficult for you when your journey began, but I want you to understand why this isn also the case for Goh. If not, even more difficult. It's not my story to tell from his point of view. But if you care for him, then please listen to what I have seen myself."

Ash and Pikachu shared a concerned look between each other before facing her again, now with a determination shining in their eyes.

"Ok. I don't know what Goh had been through, but I want to be able to help him. I can't help him if I don't know how he came to this conclusion. So please, help me understand."

"Pika!"

With that, Chloe took a deep breath and began to tell her side of the story.

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*FLASHBACK.*

If Chloe had a dime for every time Goh say "The future is at the palm of my hands!", she is certain that she would have a mansion for herself long before now.

Though that was also something she admire about him as well. But that was also when she seen how much of an outcast he had become. Or maybe it was because they couldn't find a way to understand him, he didn't exactly choose to be one.

A child of a Professor, she understands how people can criticise something they don't understand, even when they are presented with the known and most basic of facts. Her father did many a battle in his field to get to where he is at now.

Goh, despite his young age, already understood plenty. Enough to easily cut off the, thankfully patient, Professor Oak. But why did the other children have to be so cruel when he got praised?

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*CURRENT DAY.*

Ash and Chloe were still scavenging around the woods, both they and their Pokémon calling out for their dear friend and hoping to see some sign of him or Cinderace.

"I didn't know it meant so much to him to have me as his friend." Ash says as he looks around the trees. "Those bullies, you said Joshua had a Squirtle back then. I fought him before?"

Chloe grimaces at remembering finding Goh in such a state seeing him again. While he can handle confrontations better now, Chloe understands why there as some people he would much rather avoid.

"He was arrogant, I had my fair share of rivals but he was just a bully. Even after I beat him, he just wouldn't lighten up."

"He still has an ego. And I'm glad that you brought him down a peg or two (2)."

"What did he do to Goh?"

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*FLASHBACK.*

"Why don't you just fight back against them, Goh?" Chloe asked as she pulled up the boy from the dirt. "You're kidding right?" Goh began to protest as he fails to discreetly wipe the tears from his eyes. "I can't fight back someone who is bigger than me! I'm just lucky their Pokémon are in the Daycare Section." Chloe just sighed. Unfortunately she had come across another harassment against Goh as it was wrapping up. Even her own friends had urged her to try and stay away less she took her caught between opposing sides. Well, she would say it's opposings sides had Goh actually fought back. In this case it's more like avoiding being caught in the bully's cross hair. She can't even say she recognise this one (1) in particular. It wouldn't surprise her, Belle had been spreading rumours lately, something about how Goh would belittle anyone who doesn't know anything about a Pokémon before playing victim to get them into trouble. Outrageous lies! Goh, from what Chloe had observed of her longtime friend and fellow classmate for a few months, he's very introverted. Intelligent for sure, being the son of two (2) system engineers and programmers would do that as she too, is a child of a Pokémon Professor and Illustrator. Both bore the heavy expectations to follow in their parents paths in some way but only Goh bore the storm of others doubts and ill intentions. Focusing back to Goh once more, she could see that his injuries are thankfully at a minimal. It was home time now, so she practically pulled him up and towards the main gates. "W-wha?! Where are we going?!" The dark haired boy exclaims at the sudden pull. "Don't you have to meet your friends after school?" "Plans change Goh, you should know that!" She smiles back at him, it was a lie she'll need to apologise to her friends for it later, but he didn't need to know that. "They cancelled so I got time. Let's get you home. Your grandma is staying over too, right?"

"Oi, we weren't finished yet, brainiac."

Oh no, Joshua! He was back with his Squirtle. She hears Goh beginning to panic but without a second thought or a single second to look in the bullys direction, she bolts to the main entrance located just around the corner. If they could just get to the door -

"Use Water gun in front of them!"

She didn't see the shot pass their heads, or how it muddied up the grass they were running all. But she did see each blade of grass as she face planks into it, Goh landing on his rear just beside her, not losing grip of his hand.

She stood in front of her friend to shield him from his harasser.

"Out the way Cerise. Don't want the precious little professor to get in the way of his target now, would we?"

"Stop it! Goh didn't even do anything to warrant any of this harassment!" She tried to mimick the best protective growl she could manage. She doesn't know why, but she's tired of seeing her friend hurt.

She was thanking any Legendary God Pokémon she can think of when the teacher rounded the corner and began scolding the bully. It resulted in a week's ban of bringing his Pokémon to the Daycare. He asked Chloe and Goh if their were any more, but Chloe had to reluctantly keep quiet as Goh said no, having met Joshua's raging face.

They couldn't get a hold of Goh's parents, typical, but thankfully Professor Cerise was nearby to pick them up. It was almost pitiful watching her dad help him clean up before offering a ride back home. Goh's Grandmother thankful that her Grandson was safe and sound, having argued with the school before about the brats behaviour towards Goh. She offered the Cerises some of her homemade soup for their trouble.

Goh was clinging to every word the professor was saying about his field of work, eventually asking questions and answering in turn, testing each others knowledge on Pokémon and the likes. She didn't miss how Goh perked up when his computer that his parents built him was brought up and how proud he was when proudly showing off his well organised files on it. Each Pokémon sorted by type, quadpedal or bipedal, typings. She can name it and he would have it.

It was no wonder he was ahead of everyone in school!! She suppose she could come over every now and then to learn more with him.

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*CURRENT DAY."

"Now I'm really glad that I dealt with that Joshua. Shame it can't be said about Belle." Ash deflated a bit on that.

"I wouldn't worry about that one (1)." She replies, when Ash looks at her she adds: "Remember when you got me back in touch with Serena after the contest in Lilycove City?"

Ash tried to think back on it, before sheepishly apologising about being late that day. But he was glad to see Serena again and her kindness to help Chloe in the show.

"Ash, it's ok. I had fun doing it. But Belle didn't." She heard Ash say "oh?" And recalls the moment she got to witness karma first hand.

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*FLASHBACK."

"And why does SHE get to preform with Serena and I can't?!" Chloe heard a voice practically bawl out on timing with the stomping heels against tiled flooring.

"Competitor Belle please restrain yourself from lashing out." One (1) of the staff tried to calm her down. "Miss Cerise -"

"CERISE?!" Chloe now recognised that shrill voice anywhere now. "The Loser Crybaby Protector?!

"Competitor Belle!" It was Serena's voice that cut through as she came out of the changing room. "That sort of behaviour is not tolerated in Contests."

"But why?! Why the Crybaby Loser Protector." Belle pushed the topic more. "She was the reason I got suspended for no reason!!"

The rumors continues, even now. Chloe was ready to charge in there and confront Belle, but a hand on her shoulder. Turning to find it had been Lisia who had stopped her, a finger against her lips to signal Chloe to be quiet and watch.

"That was your last warning Miss Belle. Malicious behaviour against other competitors have zero (0) tolerance here or anywhere. But I did have the pleasure of speaking to an aquitance of mine who knows of Miss Cerise and Goh." Chloe could feel her chest tighten and her grip around Eevee cause the poor thing to squirm out of her hold and onto her shoulders instead to avoid being crushed. "And it appears that some of yours as well is still continuing this unwarranted behaviour!"

"I know one (1) of the judges here! I will have you kicked out of this contest before you even set foot on that stage!" Belle cockily threatens. "So it's best you have her drop out before you both get kicked to the curb."

"I have already had the pleasure of speaking to the judges already before today's performances. None have confirmed to even heard of you until now."

"I'm sorry Miss Belle," the staff member says, not sorry at all as she removes her hand from her earpiece "But I'm afraid it's now best you leave the premises now, as word of your unruly behaviour have reached the Organisers and Judges and have deemed you unfit for this competition or future competitions."

Chloe's jaw dropped, Lisia smiling just behind her. She turned, unable to form words as she points to Lisia and back to Belle. Lisia just nods and walks off to next on stage. Well, looks like today's competition will be a lot smoother now, whether she won or not at least the competition looks more appealing than ever.

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*CURRENT DAY.*

"So that's why Goh was grinning ear to ear on the boat!" Ash exclaimed. He recalled meeting his old friend Serena literally moments before the boat had set sail. "Glad Serena was there to deal with that bully too."

"Yeah. Last I heard, Belle was dragged out and on a 'not allowed to compete' list." Chloe said happily, before turning serious again. "Ash, that's what you have to understand. Goh has learned a lot from you. Even I learned from you."

"Huh? I don't think I really taught you guys anything." Ash scratched the back of his head. "I only know how to help with battling."

"Not only in battles. But in understanding Pokémon and even ourselves." She explained. "Before, I had no interest in Pokémon and Goh was bullied relentless for being the opposite of me. He was so determined to have Mew as his first Pokémon, but then imagine my surprise when he's back with a Scorbunny! Then he really opens up and became less stubborn about learning things the only way he knew how. Became part of the Mew Project and met the real Mew!"

Here she grabs both of Ash's hands in her own to emphasize how she feels.

"Goh would never have come this far if it weren't for you. I wouldn't have met Eevee. We wouldn't have met all your friends and learn the world is full of opportunities and that there isn't a bully out there that we can't stand up to."

"But if that's the case, why did Goh get upset? We helped him with his panic and trauma with those bullies? Even if it's just helping him get through the panic attacks." Ash asked, upset at what he could have done to be a new cause for one (1).

"Because he feels like that would be betraying you. You declaring your new adventure was so easy for you, that Goh felt like his announcement to do the same was meaningless." She turned away from Ash, scanning at the treelines for their missing friends. "He's afraid that both sides may have just betrayed each other."

Ash looks at his partner, the Electric Mouse Pokémon looking back at him with dropped ears with a said "Pika."

"I'll help him understand why he's wrong about that. It's never a "good bye" but it's really saying "I can't wait to see you again and hear all about your adventures" kind of thing." Ash calmly explains as he continues scanning as well. With determination burning within his eyes, he adds, "And I'll be sure to tell him that when we find him. We can't let things end on bad terms and misunderstandings."

Chloe looks at him, studying him. His raised clenched fist held up in front of him, a determined expression and looking ready to physically deal with a problem and his Pikachu's matching pose helped her realise she also needed to hear the same thing from Ash.

Both her and Goh journeyed so far to get to where they are now. A simple misunderstanding will unravel and tarnish the very lessons they had learned thanks to Ash, their families and the friends and Pokémon that were met along the way. The rain began to lighten up, as if the heavy burden were finally lifting off of her shoulders and would come to an end when Goh realises the same thing.

"Then let's find him and tell him just that then." Chloe agrees, Eevee matching her determination just as much as Pikachu has with Ash. "And when we do, it will be just the start of something new. For all of us."

Both trainers stare each other in the eyes, scaling to see if their words bore the same strength as their actions have. Then grinned. They continue to search before Pikachu hears something and urges them to follow. They had come so far in this journey. The words of those bullies has come back to bite them and turn them into the very things they called Goh. So as she stands their with Cinderace, Pikachu and Eevee, watching them clear everything up and the rain ceasing, she knows that what it truly meant to be side by side with friends who truly love you for who you are as you grow along side with them.

The future truly is at the palm of their hands.

Curse (pokémon journeys)

Summary; Goh carries a seriously hurt Cinderace to the Pokécentre, then tries to find a way to lift it's curse. (This is an idea from @tumblingdowntheway2019)

Goh bursts through the doors of the Pokécentre with Cinderace, but added with blood all over his almost human-like body, and its face was seriously purple.

”Help! Help!” cried Goh, tears running down his face. ”Cinderace has been cursed! Please! I need help, please!”

Nurse Joy rushed over and took the huge rabbit from him, immediately checking its stats.

She ran over to a hospital room, and Goh followed her. Joy placed Cinderace on the hospital bed and rushed to help it in some way.

”What happened?” she asked worriedly.

Though the boy was way too focused on sobbing.

“I went to check out this haunted house and... and...” cried Goh. ”We stumbled across this strong pokémon, I sent out Cinderace, and we were winning until the pokémon cursed it! It saved me!”

The pokémon had aimed an attack on him, but Cinderace saved him, making itself get hit.

”Don't worry, dear- I'll try my best to help it,” said Joy. “Chansey, heal it!”

Joy's panicked tone was not helping Goh, and it was vice versa.

”How about you go wait out there?”

Goh complied, he stepped outside without a complaint- there he sat on one of the waiting chairs.

God, he was so stupid. Why did he decide to go alone without Ash or Chloe?

(Flashback)

He looked around the ruined house, for stuff or maybe even pokémon, but more specifically ghosts.

The house was known to be haunted, and he was set to prove it either wrong or right.

Cinderace was with him.

Then, a shuffle was heard and a pokémon jumped down in front of him.

It was a normal-sized, black pokemon with dark pink stripes, along with long, thick and scary-looking horns as the same color of the stripes.

It had blood red eyes and sharp fangs that could easily draw blood if given the opportunity.

And Goh just guessed that it was a darkness or ghost type pokémon.

He picked up his rotom phone to find out what it was.

”No data exists for this pokémon.”

Omg, a new kind of pokémon?!

It looked like the pokémon wanted to battle, so Goh got out Cinderace, who looked ready to battle.

”Cinderace, use Pyro Ball!”

Cinderace used the move but the pokémon dodged it.

The pokémon used some attack, a new one, which made a ball of darkness come at Cinderace, which it quickly dodged.

”Cinderace, use Quick Attack!”

Cinderace ran towards the pokémon quickly and kicked it, hurting the pokémon.

”Bell- Bellace!”

Goh smirked, and got out a PokéBall, ready to catch the new pokémon.

”Bellace, huh?”, he threw the PokéBall. ”PokeBall, go (goh)!”

Bellace dodged it,

(Later)

Joy stepped out of the hospital room, and went up to the distressed boy.

Chansey's healing powers hadn't worked, it seemed Cinderace's curse was too strong- and if they didn't get the pokémon to reverse it, then there was a chance Cinderace could die.

He had tear marks on his face, that was messy, and he was hugging his knees.

“Goh,” said Joy. ”I'm afraid you'll have to find the pokémon again, and have it reverse the curse. Because even without the curse, Cinderace has very bad injuries.”

Goh sighed and stood up, then nodding.

The frowning boy stepped out and made his way to the lab.

(Drizzile's POV)

It threw another water ball, Drizzile was training. Now was the perfect time, nobody was there, as it was late.

The sky had a redish hue.

”Driz-!”

It was training to become like Inteleon, and make Goh proud.

But then suddenly, it started feeling like someone was watching it. Drizzile turned around and saw Misdrevous.

”Mis, drevous-” said Misdrevous, saying ‘something has happened’. ”Misdrevous- mis.”, saying ’Cinderace is hurt and Goh is sad’.

Drizzile was shocked.

And suddenly it had many memories about Cinderace- it had always been so nice.

It had to help them.

”Misdrevous,” said Goh, suddenly, and he looked like a mess. ”We have to go back to the haunted house.”

Drizzile looked up at Goh, determined.

”Drizzile!”

Goh looked confused.

”Drizzile, you wanna come?”

It nodded quickly, and Goh put it in its PokeBall.

(Later)

On the way to the haunted house, they had seen Chloe and Eevee. And somehow, Chloe had seen he was upset. He told her and she insisted on coming with.

”You don't stand a chance towards that pokemon alone,” had Chloe said, eagerly. ”But Eevee and I can stand our ground- and together we could actually do some damage.”

Chloe was right.

Then, when they got there, it was cold and empty.

”Bellace! New pokemon! Hey-y! It's the dude with the fire Pokemon you fought!”

Chloe sighed at Goh's foolishness. (Though, she understood he was desperate.)

”Ee-Eevee!”

Eevee exclaimed on Chloe's shoulder, jumping up and down.

Suddenly, a familiar (to Goh) pokemon jumped down, and they both gasped.

”Bell-Bellace..?” muttered Goh, shocked.

A scared and sad look was evident on his face, before he shaked it off, now looking determined.

”Reverse Cinderace's curse!”

He brought out Misdrevous and Drizzile, that looked very ready. While Chloe chose Eevee, that also looked determined.

”Drizzile-”, its voice had a not so noticable spark in it.

It was ready to fight.

”Misdrevous, use Shadow Ball!”

The pokemon used the move, but Bellace dodged it, though then Eevee did the same move and it hit.

Kolla in min profil på Wattpad, jag är Isabella Karlsson https://www.wattpad.com/Grammarrrrrr?utm_source=web&utm_medium=tumblr&utm_content=share_profile I'm twelve years old, I go to school. I get irritated easily! Especially by these three girls in my class who are so irritating, but they're likable so I'm the only one who thinks this way. English is actually not my native language, but English is my favorite subject in school! I wanna be a writ...

I probably have.

ok wait, reblog if you’ve cried at least once because of math, doesn’t matter which grade i’m trying to prove something 

list 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the ask box for the last 10 people who liked or reblogged something from you!

Thanks for the ask, I guess? Gah, this has never happened to me before! 5 things that make me happy, in no particular order:

•My grandparents' dog

•Making fun of fictional characters

•English in general

•Stranger Things (a show whose fandom I recently joined- yes, this is me coming out as a Stranger Things fan!)

•All the other shows I like

”Mom.” (pokémon journeys)

Summary; Camille, Goh's mother, gets woken up by a scream at night. It turns out her son had a nightmare.

The apartment was a quiet place, they had neighbors, after all. So hearing screams was not normal. Especially hearing her son, Goh, scream. He was a quiet kid.

So, she was confused when that scream woke her up from her slumber.

She looked out the small windows and saw that it was still night. She had a late shift at work, some old couple, so she needed her sleep, her husband did too.

But she dusted off dust from her sleeping gown and got up. She let her husband sleep, leaving the lights off.

She walked through the living room, searching for the location of the scream. While looking, she also heard shuddered breaths, filled with cries.

Soon enough, she had searched almost the whole apartment, except her son's room.

Now that she thought about it, the scream sounded like Goh's voice...

But her son was asleep, wasn't he?

As she got closer to Goh's room, the shuddered breaths got louder.

She slowly opened the door, and inside she saw Goh, sitting up, with tears running down his eyes.

She put on a little light and went over to him, hugging him tightly.

”Goh, sweetheart,” she started off softly. ”What's wrong? Why aren't you asleep?”

Goh cried, wiped his nose, and leaned against her.

”Mom,” cried Goh. ”I-I had a nightmare.”

Nightmares could be tough, she knew that.

Goh cried louder, and she just hugged him tighter, then sitting down on the bed with him.

”My sweet baby,” said Camille, and Goh blushed from embarrassment at being called a baby. ”What happened in your nightmare?”

She called him her baby sometimes because that's what he was, he may already be a pokémon trainer, but he was still young. It simply didn't matter that he had gone through a lot alone.

Her work, after all.

But Goh had turned out amazing, and the fact that she worked a lot didn't change that. He had been alone for so long, so she was gonna give him some love. It's what he deserved.

”My old bullies were in it,” answered Goh. ”And it got me thinking about how I don't deserve Ash.”

Ash, her son's crush...

She brushed her son's locks, especially his red highlight.

”Of course, you deserve Ash, baby. Those bullies are wrong,” said Camille. “okay?”

(A while later)

Her son's soft snores were heard and she tucked him in, kissing him on the forehead.

She then left and went to her bed again.

And as she was laying down, she wondered how she couldn't realize that her own kid wasn't okay.

Panic attack. (Pokémon, Goh angst)

Summary: 4 times Goh has had a panic attack. Around the same pokémon; Scorbunny/Raboot/Raboot/Cinderace. And to his surprise, each time it helps him.

(Goh has a panic attack around Scorbunny one time, Raboot two times, and Cinderace one time. He has it around Raboot twice because there are like two phases there, before Raboot gave him the apple, and after.)

First time. (Scorbunny)

”But there's so much to choose from!” whined Ash, looking at the food stands in front of them.

”Well you have to,” said Goh, sighing. ”We can't buy them all.”

They were in the Sinnoh region, in an old stone fortress, one each sides where food stands with delicious sweets. They had money to get from ONE food stand. But Ash couldn't choose.

That boy sure did like sweets.

Not even Pikachu could decide.

”Pika...”

”C'mon Pikachu, let's take a closer look.” said Ash, he took Pikachu in his arms and started walking.

”Pika- Pikachu,”

He walked over to the food stands.

”Welp, that's Ash, he loves food. Pikachu too.” mumbled Goh, giggling slightly.

”Scorbun,”, Scorbunny agreed.

”Brake, wait for me!” called a foreign woman in front of him, she was running after a man, who supposedly was Brake.

’Brake, huh?’ thought Goh. ’Why does that name sound familiar?’

Had he met someone by that name? Brake? The more he thought about it, the more it sounded familiar.

‘Brake, Brake, Brake, Brake,’

”Hmm,”

Suddenly, quite out of nowhere, he remembered the name.

He gasped.

Brake was the name of his old bully.

His main one...

Something settled in his gut, a familiar feeling.

He would have gulped if there now wasn't a lump in his throat

”Scorbun- Scorbun?”, he felt a sudden tug at his pants, as he looked down, he saw that it was Scorbunny.

It shot him a concerned look.

He crouched and picked it up.

”Yes?”

It pulled closer.

”Scorbunny-”

He looked up again, his stomach was beginning to feel queasy.

He blinked, trying to stop the liquid from coming, but it began to form in his eyes anyway.

’No, not here, not now,’

He couldn't have a panic attack in the middle of the street, where anyone could see it.

”No...” mumbled Goh sadly, his voice shaky.

”Scorbunny?”

It looked at it's owner and frowned.

Goh began to walk to a corner, away from the public.

Maybe there he could get it over with, without alerting Scorbunny, he couldn't worry it...

But it seemed Scorbunny had already realized that something was up.

He sat down and held his fire-type pokémon.

The tears collected in his eyes, and as much as he tried to keep it away, one lonely tear escaped his eye and rolled down his cheek.

Scorbunny realized it.

it used it's paw and wiped the tear away.

”I'm fine.”

But now he wasn't as sure.

”Scorbunny-”

It hugged him back.

More tears escaped his eyes.

It wiped his tears again.

”Thanks.”

”Scorbunny!”

He smiled slightly, lucky him that his attacks usually weren't so long.

His stomach recovered, no longer feeling queasy.

(Later)

”Okay, I've made my decision!” said Ash. ”I chose churros! Apparently, their spanish or something!”

”Cool,” said Goh.

He stood up and wiped away any hint of sadness.

”Let's go!”

Scorbunny jumped up on his shoulder as they started walking.

It smiled at him, and he smiled back.

It may not have done much, but it helped.

(I'll continue this another day.)

Bakugou has PTSD: A headcanon or possible?

So, as anyone might, I have stumbled across people talking about Bakugou's breakdown- I don't really know what to call it, but during his fight with Deku and he bursts into tears, admitting he blamed himself from All Might retiring and for being kidnapped- and saying he seemed to have symptoms of PTSD.

Personally, I don't have anything against this like I did with 'Kaminari has ADHD'- I actually find it rather interesting- so with this I'm taking the 'I don't know if he does but it'd be interesting I guess' way to do this. I'm either trying to disprove or prove with this, depends.

So as you might guess, this is going unedited; I will not change what I wrote here once I have the answer. Let's start then, shall we?

Causes

So if you're wondering why I'm choosing to talk about causes for PTSD it is because I want to see if Bakugou has reasons to have PTSD. Has he been through something traumatic enough? (Kamino and/or The Sludge Villain Incident.)

According to the article I'm reading (Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD)- Symptoms and causes: Mayo Clinic) PTSD develops when you either go through, seen or learnt about an event involving death or threats to it, serious injury (presumably to either oneself or others) or sexual assault.

Now does Bakugou check any of these boxes?

Death or threatened deaths? Well with the Sludge Villain Incident; no. With Kamino; nobody died (as far as I remember) but somebody certainly could have. I believe that falls under threatened death, then?

Serious Injury? Well, Katsuki didn't go to the hospital with neither of those incidents, as far as we're aware. I believe he probably did for Kamino, at least but once again, we can't know.

Sexual assault? No.

Let's go to risk factors now:

•Have severe or long-lasting traumatic experiences.

I would count getting kidnapped and getting trapped in a person made of sludge that was set on stealing his quirk (and breath) as a traumatic experience.

•Were physically injured during the traumatic event.

Not as far as we know but probably as I have already covered.

•Have been exposed to other trauma earlier in life, such as childhood abuse.

No (as far as we know.)

•Have a job that exposes you to traumatic events, such as being in the military or being a first responder.

Does being a hero in training and going through, like, two wars count?

•Have other mental health problems, such as anxiety or depression.

Not as far as we know. But anxiety may be possible, have you seen how he worries?

•Drink too much or misuse drugs.

No.

•Do not have a good support system of family and friends.

Well considering he has a mom who's okay with blaming him for being kidnapped (I will probably make a post about how problematic that is another time) and a dad who doesn't really seem to do a lot, I wouldn't really say he has a good support system. But maybe Kirishima, Deku, the rest of class 1-A, (maybe his old middle school friends) would be a good support system for him?

•Have blood relatives with mental health problems, including PTSD or depression.

Not what we know of.

I've searched up if you could get PTSD from kidnapping and, just as I expected, the answer was: 'Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) can occur after you have been through a traumatic event, such as a kidnapping.'

Yes, in short words, getting kidnapped could realistically cause PTSD to develop. So; Could the events of Kamino lead him to developing PTSD? Yes, check.

And while I don't know what the Sludge Villain Incident could classify as- a hostage situation? Attempted murder? (Bakuogu was stopped from breathing, after all) Something else?- but presumably it could be traumatic, even though we don't know if it was for Bakugou. So; Could the events of the Sludge Villain Incident lead him to developing PTSD? Probably, maybe.

Now that we've covered if he has the reason; yes. We can move onto if he has the symptoms!

Symptoms

So in the article it says: '

Post-traumatic stress disorder symptoms may start within the first three months after a traumatic event. But sometimes symptoms may not appear until years after the event. These symptoms last more than one month and cause major problems in social or work situations and how well you get along with others. They also can affect your ability to do your usual daily tasks.

Generally, PTSD symptoms are grouped into four types: intrusive memories, avoidance, negative changes in thinking and mood, and changes in physical and emotional reactions. Symptoms can vary over time or vary from person to person.'

Is this important to know? Maybe.

Intrusive memories

Symptoms of intrusive memories may include:

•Unwanted, distressing memories of a traumatic event that come back over and over again.

Based on his line ”I can't get it out of my head! It's like it's constantly playing on loop!” then yes, he has been experiencing this.

•Reliving a traumatic event as if it were happening again, also known as flashbacks.

Yeah, once again based on the line I previously quoted.

•Upsetting dreams or nightmares about a traumatic event.

Not as far as we know but probably.

•Severe emotional distress or physical reactions to something that reminds you of a traumatic event.

Well, would his whole fight with Deku count? Because didn't he fight with Deku because he couldn't stop blaming himself and thinking about Kamino? I'd say he was in severe emotional distress and was reacting rather physically. And it's not just that; when Monoma mentioned both the Sludge Villain Incident and Kamino, he reacted physically.

So far, he's checked three of the boxes (I, of course, don't count the probably with him having nightmares)

Avoidance

Symptoms of avoidance may include:

•Trying not to think or talk about a traumatic event.

Well, he definitely was trying not to think about it (or talk about it) considering he said ”I can't get it out of my head! It's like it's constantly playing on loop! So what the hell am I supposed to do?!” so clearly he was doing everything not to think about it. I count it.

•Staying away from places, activities or people that remind you of a traumatic event.

With Kamino, I don't think we've seen it. But dropping Kamino for a second and instead talking about the Sludge Villain Incident; many think the reason his UA uniform is so baggy (he probably ordered it double his size or something) is because he tries not to remember the Sludge Villain and how stuck he was then. There is strong proof of this because his middle school uniform was his size so he hasn't just always liked to dress like that. There is strong proof that he checks this proof, though nothing confirmed, I don't think.

He checks maybe both of these boxes (still not sure on the last one.)

Negative changes in thinking and mood

Symptoms of negative changes in thinking and mood may include:

•Negative thoughts about yourself, other people or the world.

Yes, he thought being kidnapped was his own fault for ’being weak.’

•Ongoing negative emotions of fear, blame, guilt, anger or shame.

Yes.

•Memory problems, including not remembering important aspects of a traumatic event.

Oh I think his problem is remembering too much of it. No.

•Feeling detached from family and friends.

We haven't seen it, I don't think.

•Not being interested in activities you once enjoyed.

We haven't seen it.

•Having a hard time feeling positive emotions.

He's always struggled with this so that's not because of Kamino or the Sludge Villain Incident.

•Feeling emotionally numb.

Definitely not.

He checks 2- maybe 3- of these boxes.

Changes in physical and emotional reactions

Symptoms of changes in physical and emotional reactions, also called arousal symptoms, may include:

•Being easily startled or frightened.

We haven't seen it.

•Always being on guard for danger.

I don't remember a specific instance but yeah, he definitely seems on guard.

•Self-destructive behavior, such as drinking too much or driving too fast.

Yeah, in the form of running to the danger instead of away from it like a normal person would.

•Trouble sleeping.

We haven't seen it.

•Trouble concentrating.

We haven't seen it.

•Irritability, angry outbursts or aggressive behavior.

Oh yes but then again, this is Bakugou. Do I count it? Did his anger worsen?

•Physical reactions, such as sweating, rapid breathing, fast heartbeat or shaking.

We've seen it from him before; when he had his panic attack after losing to Deku (yes I count that as a panic attack) but this was before Kamino and we know why so we can't tie it back to the Sludge Villain Incident. Ugh, do I count it?

Checks 2- maybe 4- of these boxes.

That's all the symptoms listed but before I come to the conclusion I do need to say this:

Did his behavior change? Yes, I recall Deku pointing out differences in his behavior after the Sludge Villain Incident. So that's one more box he checks.

Now:

Conclusion

He checks 9 boxes IF I don't count the maybes but if I do he checks 13 boxes.

Bakugou- drum roll, please- could have PTSD.

I asked the AI on Snapchat- because I was too lazy to search it up and read some article- and this was the interaction:

How many ’boxes’ (symptoms) do you need to check to have PTSD. How many are required?

To be diagnosed with PTSD, according to the DSM-5 (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, Fifth Edition), a person needs to experience a certain number of symptoms from different categories. Specifically, the DSM-5 outlines that a person must have symptoms from each of the following four categories: intrusion, avoidance, negative alterations in cognitions and mood, and alterations in arousal and reactivity. The exact number of symptoms required for a diagnosis can vary, but typically, a person needs to exhibit a certain number of symptoms from each category for a specified duration to be diagnosed with PTSD.

Yes, what is this certain number? Is there a specific one.

In the DSM-5, to be diagnosed with PTSD, an individual typically needs to experience at least one symptom from each of the four categories: intrusion, avoidance, negative alterations in cognitions and mood, and alterations in arousal and reactivity. So, in total, that would be a minimum of four symptoms from these different categories to meet the criteria for a PTSD diagnosis.

Do you need to check all of the boxes from each category?

You don't necessarily need to check all the boxes from each category to be diagnosed with PTSD. The important aspect is that you have a minimum of one symptom from each of the four categories: intrusion, avoidance, negative alterations in cognitions and mood, and alterations in arousal and reactivity. As long as you meet the criteria of having symptoms from each category, the specific symptoms may vary from person to person.

And, considering Bakugou checked at least one (sometimes multiple) of the boxes from the categories then yes, he very likely could have PTSD.

Now, something to remember that this is NOT a professional opinion, this is just an opinion from an overanalyzing idiot from the internet who thinks it's fun to diagnose characters. So I might do this more; either disprove or prove.

As a way to end this; Yes, Bakugou could very likely have PTSD.