Knitted A Moth Sweater ✨ Bought The Pattern For It Here!

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hey! yes, you.

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#uggghhhhh i hateeeee it when Art is Good and manages to hit something within you

Ok also I think the reason I Saw The TV Glow is so powerful (and everyone is making jokes like it got them to start hrt) even beyond its fundamental message of hope and There Is Still Time etc is because as a trans person there are so many people and medias that will ask you the question What If You're Faking It. What If It's Not Real. And ISTVG is the first media I've seen that asks What If You're Not? What if you're not and you keep going on like this?

And it gives that question a name and a physical presence and a weight and an aesthetic and a horror. It's like TV static. It's like falling asleep on the car ride home. It's like living with a light inside you crawling to get out. It's like suffocating to death. It follows that thought to its logical conclusion and, in a frankly extremely painful and hard-to-watch but deeply needed way, excruciatingly draws out what that looks like. Suspended animation. Stasis. A life that is not your life.

It says that choosing not to transition is still a choice.

rb this with ur opinion on this shade of pink:

Gender jacket V2: day 8

THE PATCHWORK IS DONE!!

It has been a labour of love but I’m really happy with how it all came out. This is pre-spikes and buttons, all the patches are on there and I even unexpectedly received another “no terfs on our turf” patch that fits like a charm as well.

Bonus pic of the area I’m honestly proudest of ^

If you can read notes, good for you!

The other progress days are in the tag “gender jacket reform”!!

When I was a kid my aunt gave me my sign name in NGT, and I love how she composed it because it's pretty much a pun on both the way my spoken name sounds and who I am as a person. So it looks a little like the words for "sun" ("zon") and "yes" ("ja") put together, evidently based on the similarity to "Sonja". But instead of just combining those two words, or even simply fingerspelling my name which would have roughly given the same effect, she spliced the two. It starts out with a fingerspelled s, then instead of spelling the o, there is a modified sign for sun (facing the viewer, rather than the signer), followed by a fingerspelled n. The closest way I can describe the vibe for hearing people is it looks like this:

s☀️n

This is already objectively great of course, but it gets better. The second syllable starts with the swoop for the finger j. Instead of simply tacking a finger a to the back of it, it then switches into the sign for "yes", but with an additional wiggle, because well, I hardly ever did sit still.

HOW TO FEEL YOUR FEELINGS, 2021, by Yumi Sakugawa

my recipe for drawing hands!

(small note that this is a shortcut that is more abt style and ease than anatomical accuracy. it helps to take time to really properly study hands, makes it easier to bend the rules a bit like this and have it still look good!!)

(learn rules b4 u break them or whatevah)

I had a colleague ask a few days ago about how I felt living in the US and being trans considering all of everything - and I had to explain that right now has been the weirdest time to be transfem because so many people in my personal and day-to-day life are so much more educated on trans issues, and are active and good allies of trans people, than I have ever seen before. My bible-belt grandma can handle the singular 'they' now, which she wasn't for the six years I was out as an enby. Strangers in public compliment my hair and my makeup even when I'm not at all passing. Politicians are becoming much more actively hostile while even the rural areas I grew up in are growing kinder to trans folks.

It's such an intensely strange feeling. And it wasn't one I was able to effectively communicate to my colleague. I don't know that this change will be enough or quick enough. But there is a change happening in the communities I live in.

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