2024

ladies, ladies, please- one at a time! i can only block you so fast

Mindhunter so crazy because everyone is eyeing each other with vague disgust and or annoyance while saying I’m nothing like you. But everyone’s home. Is empty.

people fighting tooth and nail to make the human body a pristine, frozen thing when it is in fact ever-changing and often gross by nature… where is the affection. the respect. let that thing breathe

NO LIVE ORGANISM CAN CONTINUE FOR LONG TO EXIST SANELY UNDER CONDITIONS OF ABSOLUTE REALITY EVEN LARKS AND KATYDIDS ARE SUPPOSED BY SOME TO DREAM

May I add, I always found weird equalling the RCM with (what I assume is) the American police system, because such an analogy undermines the colonial aspect that pervades the writing of Disco Elysium. The RCM serves as a police body, of course, but it is still in its foundation a Citizens Militia, an (ostensibly) local organization that emerges in the category 5 catasthrope that is the occupation of Revachol by foreign forces. The RCM is formed because no one, (and could be argued, as is done in Disco Elysium!!! not even the RCM itself), can restore a modicum of order in Revachol. It is not a police body that emerges out of a state machinery with the highest security expenditure in the world.

I’ve always disliked the ACAB in the context of DE discourse because I feel it obfuscates motivations of characters like Kim, who voluntarily choose to join the RCM. A man who wears bomber jackets relics of a revolutionary past, yet sympathizes with moralist rhethoric. Kim is not only proudly Revacholian, he also believes in the RCM despite its multiple shortcomings. At the same time Kim suffers more than most the chauvinistic discrimination that usually pervades police bodies. Such contradictory allegiances only make sense in the context of the colonial condition of Kim and of the city of Revachol.

“ACAB”, “the only happy ending should be leaving the RMC”, “you’re a terrible person if you draw/write these characters enjoying the sort of corrupt cop stuff that they canonically do in-game” discourse is killing meeee

God forbid you don’t performatively remind everyone that you do hate cops, actually; and god forbid that you don’t find that True Healing and Happiness for them can only be achieved by leaving the force.

Metas could be written about how Kim and Harry are actually deeply flawed people who enjoy wielding some form of authority in a way that they actually feel best working as cops

(is it healthy? no. is it Good™? no. Is it true to their character? this is where media interpretation comes in)

Metas could be written about how that doesn’t mean ACAB isn’t real, that just means they’re the kind of shitheads (that we, the players, still love) who enjoy being cops

Metas could be written questioning the amount they’d have to change to adapt to a life as civilians, how much and what kind of a push they’d need to go for it,  if it’s change they could even manage, if they could financially survive it, if they could find fulfillment in any other career, at their age

But no. Why waste time on that instead of easy slogans. I mean, we like them, these characters, and we don’t want to feel guilty for liking them, because what does it say about us, then, that we like flawed cops?

(nothing it says nothing it says we played a good nuanced extremely well-written game that skillfully made us like the sort of character whose past actions include sequestering some woman and beating a dude into disability. that’s what it says. i’d even argue that discomfort is part of the point)

i think about this interview with ikuhara and his commentary for the last episode every single day of my life

cant stop thinking about this

Honestly, one of the things that fuck me up the most about The Brothers Karamazov, is not only that Dostoyevski names Fyodor Karamazov —arguably the most vile character in the novel— after himself; but that he names this character's pure son, mr. little ray of sunshine Alyosha, the same as the son Dostoyevski lost at three years old, a loss that pained him all his life, like????? what did you meant by this sir???? does such goodness only belongs to the realm of death?? of fantasy?? Are we always to taint good works through our polluting influence? what does this mean!!!!

From W. J. Leatherbarrow's "Fyodor Dostoyevsky: The Brother's Karamazov"

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