I Don’t Want Any One Crying At My Funeral. No One. It’s Not Like Anyone Fucking Cared When I Was

Did I write this damn?

i hate this body and i hate my brain and i hate my fucking face and everything about myself

I’m literally about to fucking cry.

My mom just notice I’ve lose weight and I’m dying inside from happiness. But she just told me to keep it up so that means more fasting and working out.

🐝This is the drink water bee

Every time you see it on your dash, you need to go and drink one glass of water!

Reblog to see a lower number on the scale next morning. 🦋

Maybe I’m just fucked up and faking it all ✌️but

Does anyone else have like an Ed mentality but not Ed actions like I “eat like a normal person” but inside I’m screaming you fat pig you know damn well you shouldn’t eat that.

The fact that I found even more to hate about myself today is amazing!

I honestly and truthfully hate myself.

My hair:

I’m black and I get perms and I really wanna go natural. Told my mom and she told me that if u were to go natural all I would do was get made fun of. My relaxed hair grows so fucking slow and turns nappy really quick so when I get sew-ins you can tell the difference and I already get made fun of for that plus my fave is already fat and the only thing that makes it look slightly better is my hair. Yikes

My body:

I’m fat. I have scars everywhere. My thighs look like drum sticks. I have hip dips and that plus the way I already look makes me go from a 1 to a -12. I have stretch marks literally make me look so fucking disgusting and I have so many that I know that none of them are going away even when I lose weight. SOMETHING SO SIMPLE AS MY FINGERS ARE EVEN A FUCKING DISAPPOINTMENT. my fingers couldn’t be fucking normal and straight and have of them if curved. My fucking nails are just annoying. My sister lifted my shirt and goes oh I thought ur stomach plugged out a lot more than that.

My skin:

My pores are fucking huge. Every time I shave you can see the pores in my leg from a mile away and it looks like a have a fucking disease, I have bad hygiene and I don’t take care of my skin and it’s fucking disgusting.

My face:

My acne is so bad. My hyperpigmentation has literally ruined any confidence I had left. My teeth are ducked up and the adults in my fucking house hold refuse to get me a dentist appointment.my nose literally is a pig nose which makes it SOOOOO much better bc I am a fucking pigs. My eyes are this dull dark brown. Not that beautiful hazel color that everyone loves it just plain and fucking boring.

There is nothing for anyone to love about me. There’s nothing for me to love about my self.

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