I Dedicated My Life To You And All You've Ever Done Is Punish Me For It

The fearmongering around medical transition for transmascs will never not be upsetting to me.

“you’re gonna look ugly as a man” “but you’re such a pretty girl, don’t change that” Wrong. You will look different after T, but you will look happy. You will probably grow hair and gain weight and look pretty different, and none of that is bad or makes you less desirable. You are going to look like you and that’s all that matters.

“T makes you angry” “you’re gonna be a scary man i won’t feel safe around you” Wrong. Testosterone does not “make” you angry. Messing with your hormones will mess with your emotions for sure, but you will not immediately become some scary predator when you start T. Being a man/masculine does not make you a threat, a predator, or inherently angry. That’s radfem shit.

“bottom growth is gross” “no one will want you with bottom growth” Wrong. Bottom growth is cool and a LOT of guys end up loving theirs a lot more than they thought they would. For a lot of people it is a desirable trait, there are people who find bottom growth hot and attractive. And! If you’re sure you don’t want it there’s things you can do to work around that, just talk to your provider.

“bottom surgery is super painful and not worth it” First off, call it phalloplasty, because that’s what you’re talking about. Second, yes it’s painful, it’s surgery. There are risks to it and complications can happen, but that’s true of any surgery. Phallo might not be for you, but it is life saving care for other folks. It is beautiful and should be talked about as life saving care and not as some afterthought thing that no one actually does.

Being transmasculine is a beautiful thing. Transitioning medically is not something every trans person wants, but if you notice yourself holding back for the reasons i’ve listed above (or similar) maybe reconsider.

ranking the best things I have heard surgeons say mid-surgery:

1. "Five second rule!" while scrubbed, after dropping a sterile scalpel on the floor (no they did NOT pick it up again but I swear everyone's buttholes puckered)

2. (spoken during the closing of a particularly long and difficult case) "Nurse - my tunes." :heavy metal starts blasting:

3. Gently to a fretful patient, pre-anaesthesia: "It's going to be okay. I promise, I've dealt with worse." As soon as the patient is unconscious: "This is literally the worst thing I've ever seen."

4. [okay this one was a med student] "Wowwww, that's so gross!!" Reg: "Please remember that [patient] is awake for this procedure." Student to patient: "Oh my god. I am so sorry, that was really unprofessional - " Patient, cheerfully, also engrossed with what's happening inside them on the screen: "Nah - it's, like, super gross, right?"

5. [another procedure where the patient couldn't be put under GA] Patient: *starts singing country roads midway through the procedure* Surgeon: *shrugs and joins in with surprisingly good harmony*

Colin №2 participated as a reference in todays sketch art

the way that you can hear grian scream through clenched teeth HELP

One of my biggest pieces of advice for those taking injectable hormones is to make sure you're injecting at the right angle

For intramuscular (IM), you inject at a 90° angle.

For subcutaneous (SQ), you inject at a 45° angle.

Here is a graphic depicting what the angle of your injection should look like:

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hand in unlovable hand

genuinely bonkers to me that there are people who genuinely believe that gender nonconformity is more accepted in intersex people, or that intersex people are seen as “biologically nonbinary” or whatever. it is so far from the truth that it’s clear they’ve never spoken to an intersex person in their life

personally, I’ve always been seen as “girl with unfortunate medical condition”, and I have been punished for not even trying to become a “normal girl”. the medical system assumes that the end goal is to appear as much like a dyadic woman as possible, regardless of my own identity (as a nonbinary person). regular interaction with systems that are designed to enforce and reinforce the sex binary does in fact not make it easier to be outside of that binary in all possible senses. we are held to ridiculous standards of conformity

but yeah, sure. I’m totally allowed to be “biologically nonbinary”. that’s definitely how it works in all cases

my mom made me watch the last part of stranger things w her last night and she kept getting frustrated that i was laughing every time the evil villain guy showed up because whenever he’d come onscreen i’d think abt this video of his actor in prosthetics trying to drink a bottle of coke and fucking dying and she was like WHATS SO FUNNY HE JUST KILED SOMEONE and i couldn’t form coherent words for liek 10 mjnutes the noises THE NOISES

severely physically disabled people i love you and i hope you have a good day / night. or at least a not bad day / night. things aren’t always easy and you deserve peace.

SAY IT WITH ME: MEDICAL GASLIGHTING IS MALPRACTICE