To The Person Reading This, I Hope Tonight Treats You Gently, And That Tomorrow Looks Brighter. 

Unlearning your own toxic patterns to become a better ‘you’ is self-care.

I don’t know who needs to hear this right now, but your progress is not ruined after 1 bad day, 2 bad days, maybe even a month or more of bad days. Everything you experienced and learned during that time is valuable and essential for your growth. Forgive yourself, and try again. 

Accountability Post #1 (Starting Over)

Hey ya’ll....it’s been a WHILE.

Just a few life updates before I get to the health/fitness stuff:

-I have, officially, finished moving out of my apartment 

-I have, officially, finished moving back home (This is going to take some getting used to but I’ll be fine...plus I still have a bunch of stuff in boxes that I have yet to unpack...baby steps)

-I have been getting settled at my new, post-grad job

Overall, I finally feel a bit more grounded now (at least in comparison to the past two months lol). So, I’m ready to get back on track again and start taking better care of myself.

I’ve been putting so much time and energy into other people lately and neglecting myself. I’m disappointed that I let it get to this point, but I’m ready to redirect my focus and start investing some of that time and energy into myself and my goals...not just the health and fitness goals. I have a bunch of personal and professional goals that need attention...

I have not been to the gym in WEEKS. But, that’s okay. The past two months have been extremely hectic and I needed to take some time to deal with a lot of stuff...some of which I’m still dealing with but, everything will be okay in the end.

I didn’t go to the gym today, but I did manage to get over 10,000 steps. This is amazing for me because, usually, I average around 4,000 to 5,000 steps a day (less on the days I’m not working). 

I’m aiming to start going to the gym again tomorrow. With how my schedule is right now, the gym is going to have to be an after work thing. I know this will be difficult for me for a while because I have always preferred getting my workouts done in the morning....I mean I could try to go before work but, with how early I start, I would have to be going to the gym at 4 in the morning...which would mean having to wake up at 3 in the morning (No thank you lol).

Anyway, I’m going to read then go to bed.

Good night, everyone! Sending you all good vibes and energy for the rest of this week. :)

I want more. I deserve more. that’s my final answer.

You are not an inconvenience. You are meant to be here. You are meant to take space, to have a voice, to express your feelings.

You are not an inconvenience.

1 January 2023 - Happy New Year!

Hey ya’ll!

It’s, definitely, been a minute...

I’m really sorry for the inconsistency in posts these past few months. Life got chaotic again, but I’m back (again) and in time for the new year.

I, finally, finished creating my 2023 intentions and vision board yesterday. I made my vision board the background for both my laptop and my phone’s lock screen. To be honest...I did not achieve a majority of my 2022 goals. Looking back at my 2022 vision board was painful. I was extremely disappointed in myself when I realized how little I accomplished on the list I created for myself at the beginning of last year. All that time spent for nothing...

However, I really feel like this year is going to be different. I’m feeling, cautiously, optimistic. I was a lot more specific with the intentions I included on my list, as well as with the images and quotes I chose for my vision board. I think that is going to be very beneficial in the long run. 

Overall, I’m ready for 2023. I’m ready to stop settling for less than what I deserve out of life. I’m ready to stop self-sabotaging. I’m ready to stop getting in the way of my goals. I’m ready to stop letting other people’s opinions and negative energy get in the way of my goals as well. This year is going to be the year of focusing more on myself and putting myself first. This year I’m prioritizing my own needs. This year I’m being more selfish (and there is nothing wrong with that). 

This is going to be a year of healing, abundance, and prosperity. I can feel it in my soul. 

January will be filled with happiness.

January will be filled with blessings.

January will be filled with positivity.

January will be filled with progress.

January will be filled with kindness.

January will be filled with opportunity.

January will be filled with love.

THE SELF LOVE REMEDY

Self love is sometimes taking the time to know thy self daily.

Self love is sometimes standing back and watching the ride.

Self love is sometimes walking away.

Self love is sometimes acceptance.

Self love is sometimes forgiveness (of others and yourself)

Self love is sometimes loving you more

Self love is something putting you first.

Self love is sometimes taking a day off.

Self love is sometimes saying no and meaning it.

Self love is sometimes just asking for what you want.

Self love is sometimes deciding to consciously make moves in silence.

Self love sometimes means telling the truth (to yourself and others)

Self love is the inner understanding that your time will come, so you patiently wait your turn.

Self love sometimes looks like showing up and being yourself unapologetically, no matter how uncomfortable it makes others feel.

Self love is sometimes blocking, muting, unfollowing things and people that no longer service you.

Self love sometimes looks like speaking out.

Self love is sometimes telling people fuck off, when necessary. 

Show up as you are this week. You are enough.🤍

Self care isn’t selfish.💛