Idek What I Made You Say

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We're endo neu.

Radqueers, racists, transids, homo/transphobes, anti-therian/furry/alterhumans DNI.

Don't force us into syscourse. We don't want to hear it. Tips and resources are welcomed.

This is OUR blog. So we're going to somewhat use this to log symptoms while also doing other shit so this blog will be random.

Sometimes I refer to myself as we/us

Symptoms we have: here

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i genuinely feel like im faking so bad. i feel like im noticing "symptoms" because im researching it, i feel like this whole thing is rlly just a waste.

i feel like i brainwashed myself into believing i was having symptoms, i feel so fake. i feel like the thoughts i thought were others, were mine. i really hate myself. like i was feeling happy, but why??? like this is least thing to be happy abt (having osdd), but it felt so like "wow! that makes sense!" but like, did it actually? or was I just fucking around and happened to convince myself it did?

i cant even get a therapist or anything abt this so i have no one to talk to. if it is actually happening i dont even have like amnesia, or anything super crazy that others would be like "yeah you act very different at times" BECAUSE I LIKE... IDEK BRO IM SO PISSED RN

plus i feel like im just making up alters too. im NOT habit, im NOT jason, but like what if i am? there's hardly much to differentiate between us (other than gender?) but this could all just be jason trying to figure out his genders n shit?? i really really hate this.

-Cass? I think?

we're a questioning system. but pretty much yeah, we have like mild aphantasia and we don't have a headspace since we very much cannot see it

We've also done research on this as well, and there have been multiple (confirmed) systems who say that they don't have a headspace due to having aphantasia as well

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Hi, I have a question about systems! If you or an alter has aphantasia, where you can't picture things in your mind, can you still see your headspace?

Thats actually a good question!! We wouldn't really know since none of us have aphantasia ^^"

hi other systems anyone with have experience with this?

i like the idea that red hood is to crime alley what daredevil is to hell's kitchen in the dd comics. in the way that:

Jason: *in full red hood gear, walking through an alley* homeless man next to him: hey, todd. how's patrol? jason: *grinning under his helmet* i don't know if you need new glasses---or maybe a memory boost, jimmy---but the todd kid is dead. i, obviously, am not. homeless man: *snickers* yeah sure, sure, jason

Jason: *walking down the street in civvies* passerby: hey! hood! i have some info for you, drug deal goin' on 'round the docks jason: *raises brow* yeah? well, i ain't hood . . . but i'll take that info to him if ya want. he patrols near my apartment passerby: you keep tellin' yourself that, dude

batman: have you seen the criminal Red Hood? crime alley resident: *lighting a cigarette, making continual eye contact with batman* I'm blind. haven't seen anyone batman: *examines the woman* obviously not. you can see me just fine crime alley resident: ya ain't ever heard of selective vision impairment? it's totally a thing batman:

little girl: hey, hood. th' cops were lookin' fer ya jason: hmm. what did ya tell 'em? little girl: t' stick it where th' sun don't shine jason: *high-fives her* i'm going to buy you an entire toy store, kid

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as a transmasc Jason... yep.

Random goon: Hey boss, were you the one to pick that name as an alias? And why this one?

Red Hood : I used to have another name, before... A long time ago. But that person is dead now. I get to choose for myself now, they can't take that from me. I won't let them.

Goon: Huh.

***

Random Goon: Say boss, why do you never take off your shirt in front of us?

Red Hood: Well uh, I actually have that really fucked scar on my chest and I'm not comfortable with...

Random Goon: Don't worry boss, we get it, you don't have to explain yourself to us.

***

Red Hood, high on some toxin: God, I wish my family...

Random Goon (on boss-sitting duty): why not try reaching out to them?

Red Hood: They would never accept me as I am now... They wouldn't agree with my so-called "life choices". Besides, they don't miss me, they miss the person they think I used to be... I wasn't even a man when I last saw them.

Random Goon: Damn boss, that sucks.

***

And then the goons throw the Red Hood a party on trans visibility day and Jason is so confused he straight up cries.

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Springtrap has been officially revealed for Dead by Daylight!

The location will be inspired by the first film’s pizzeria and the alt legendary skin will be based on Springtrap’s movie version, including being modeled after and voiced by Matthew Lillard himself!

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imagine the long long conversations

it feels like im two people at once, i keep saying things that I wouldn't say + thoughts feel like thoughts I wouldn't think. GOING INSANE

-🐇???

does anyone feel like they're still in control while switching alters? PLUS it's like you're slowly turning into another alter rather than like being pushed put of your body-switch?

Like the only noticeable difference that we have is, emotional amnesia (so we feel like different people) + personality and likes/dislikes change

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update i just remembered that i wanted to write down is that recently i've been watching Invincible.

Each time I watch the show I feel like a different person... which is kinda weird bc

if this is an alter shift, who keeps doing this? pls lemme watch the show in peace

if it's not an alter shift, what the hell??