Heh... *brushes Nose And Rubs The Back Of My Head* Well See Here, This Is My Uh... Ponysona.. Heh...

am i someone else because im faking, or because im realizing more?? WHO AM I?? Why am I??? I think Jason and Habit were enough alters for questioning, why am I here?? I'm not them, but I still remember everything. I hate this so much. Am I faking?

-???

took a while, i finally remembered what happened, but it's very hazy.

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😟 i can't remember anything from yesterday other than when Cass came out to our friend and then I switched and got mad. But this is bad because we have a collective-memory. Why don't I remember anything from when I wasn't switched? I only remember a bit of what Habit did a couple days ago (play guitar hero... he SUCKED ASS AT IT)

This is genuinely worrying, where did the memories go?

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i can FEEL jason telling me to shut up... HE SAID IT... 😢 im spilling too many beans ig

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why do i get so happy (LIKE BANGING MY HEAD HAPPY) and then like LOCK IN

BAHAHHAHA

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haha... i think ive accidentally forced my headmates into forced dormancy before. Mostly because I was ashamed (i mean... usually stuff like this is movie-definition insane).

like it's making sense as to why it was quiet for a while, and then theyre back. BECAUSE I REMEMBER them being here before... long before time /ref.

anyways if someone else reads this post it might not make much sense to you, but im sure the rest of my headmates would understand what im trying to say and thats all that matters

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so uh, haha... like always... MORE system questions...

holy shit i have terrible memory. also hello, im the 'alter' in this 'system' who thinks I'm faking this.

Atp might as well just call the people in my head imaginary friends. I hate them for being there and would like them to leave. This whole thing causes me so much distress it's actually insane.

So here are some questions I have as a 'questioning system'

Why am I the only one that can still remember how other alters felt during a memory (IF i can recall it)? But it feels like when someone is telling you something and you share their emotion on it (empathy/sympathy i think)

I have terrible memory, I can hardly remember the day unless I think hard on it. Could this be from staying up too late? Usually I go to sleep around 1 am and wake up around 8-9 am, recently ive been waking up at 7 (for an unknown reason)

Is it normal for headmates not to talk to you/or whoever is fronting unless you interact with them first?

Is it normal for switches to be so often? (usually we have 1-2 switches daily now) but it feels like personality+gender/sexuality change only... like the switch is so unnoticeable we don't even realize there was a switch.

Also, does anyone have any resources we can use to research this further? I really hate having to ask people abt this esp since it takes forever to actually get an answer.

our headspace is okay, it looks like the amongus cafeteria and then a random hallway with our bedrooms... i wanna upgrade it soon, I was thinking about having a shared/public bath house thing, but Cass said she would go in with us... then flashed us with a naked Draculara doll... I think that's how she looks like?

-Jason

Mild Aphantasia, the burger is semi-transparent.

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Create a giant cheeseburger in your headspace and eat it

i like the idea that red hood is to crime alley what daredevil is to hell's kitchen in the dd comics. in the way that:

Jason: *in full red hood gear, walking through an alley* homeless man next to him: hey, todd. how's patrol? jason: *grinning under his helmet* i don't know if you need new glasses---or maybe a memory boost, jimmy---but the todd kid is dead. i, obviously, am not. homeless man: *snickers* yeah sure, sure, jason

Jason: *walking down the street in civvies* passerby: hey! hood! i have some info for you, drug deal goin' on 'round the docks jason: *raises brow* yeah? well, i ain't hood . . . but i'll take that info to him if ya want. he patrols near my apartment passerby: you keep tellin' yourself that, dude

batman: have you seen the criminal Red Hood? crime alley resident: *lighting a cigarette, making continual eye contact with batman* I'm blind. haven't seen anyone batman: *examines the woman* obviously not. you can see me just fine crime alley resident: ya ain't ever heard of selective vision impairment? it's totally a thing batman:

little girl: hey, hood. th' cops were lookin' fer ya jason: hmm. what did ya tell 'em? little girl: t' stick it where th' sun don't shine jason: *high-fives her* i'm going to buy you an entire toy store, kid