C&D Original Book Update #2

Perfect!!

Full offense but your writing style is for you and nobody else. Use the words you want to use; play with language, experiment, use said, use adverbs, use “unrealistic” writing patterns, slap words you don’t even know are words on the page. Language is a sandbox and you, as the author, are at liberty to shape it however you wish. Build castles. Build a hovel. Build a mountain on a mountain or make a tiny cottage on a hill. Whatever it is you want to do. Write.

Ok just figured it out: I'm hearing Tchaikovsky from now on

Omg I'm here wanting to cry. Why? Because I'm hearing lo-fi & eating nutella. Somehow that's cry-inducing to me now.

And you can't even say that it must be 'that time of the month' cuz I'm not a woman, technically. What's wrong with me. WHY does lo-fi makes me want to cry. What do I even hear if not lo-fi to relax?? I tried 3daysgrace, for hours, then Bullet for my Valentine, then back to 3daysgrace, now I got no idea what to listen to. Also, I have to work, so I can't just go home and bury myself in a tower of blankets like I'm rebuilding Babel.

Never gonna hear lo-fi again.

(Make a bet on how long it takes for me to listen to it again.)

Fav bands/singers

6arelyhuman

Three Days Grace

My Darkest Days

Matt Walst

Lady Gaga

Sid Dorey

Marina

Halsey

Inuday

Expelled from Word, he is now trying to contact you through other programs...

Best thing about music:

When I have no clue what to write next, I just throw on a carefully curated playlist, hit play, and dance so silly the gods cringe from the heavens.

The ideas come.

Every. Time.

(If they don’t, keep dancing. Sometimes it takes 15 hours or so)

IT'S LIKE A HUNDRED NINETY NINE DEGREES, WHEN YOU'RE DOING IT WITH ME, DOING IT WITH ME

What are books but a fanfiction of reality?

Older Disney movies, too.

They were heavy on the marriage trope, as well...

C&D Book Update #7

So, I arrived at chapter 51/70 (second draft).

The plan is: 1) finish second draft (it's only about fixing things in red), 2) redo three specific things that aren't working, two of them entire chapters, 3) finish third draft (actually and seriously re-reading everything again), 4) finish the fourth draft (after at least a month of not reading anything).

But what I wanted to write here is this: I know, everyone must know this, but I feel like I'm feeling this in my bones now. How every character, even the minor and evil ones, are really a part of me. How I bled into every single one. And I realize now that THAT is what made writing C&D so painful. It made me raw, as if I picked up a sword and slammed it into my heart again and again, until I had enough blood to form a being. It damn hurts. But maybe that's why this book ended up so precious to me. Later chapters (I think 55+?) are my best writing ever, by far. And it's entirely because I dropped pretense and wrote with the worst of the shadows I've ever faced.

Maybe that's why writing the final chapters was so difficult. I procrastinated for like, 2 months?

But 2 needed months. If I had rushed, the ending would be shitty. "I have to trust the process..." a friend (who passed away) used to tell me this all the time. I guess he was right in ways I couldn't even fathom. I hope that smug bastard is smiling at me from whatever plot smug bastards go.

TCIK Original Book Update #4

Give your book time.

This is the best advice I can give, really.

With just a few days of... not working on my book, at all, and doing other writing stuff, one character changed and became completely different than what I was going for at the beginning.

Frankly, it's WAY better.

I think I'm also grasping now my main character's feelings and actions, too. At another update, I said she read as this foolish girl that I was beginning to hate with passion. Now, I think she's found her footing at last, and the dialogue I'm tentatively putting out makes more sense, feels more in character with her.