Foxonfier - Morgan

the fact that it's been ten years since i started reading warriors is crazy to me. so some part of me wants to make an account dedicated to that but – also, i don't read the series anymore? so mainly i'd just talk about my ocs and random story ideas i have, and some echoclan would probably slip in there, clangen, also maybe fics i enjoy ... who knows! could happen but i'm still thinking about it lol. also, i think i do plan on possibly making a person of interest acc as well, but idk i am debating heavily. i've already made four new accs do i really need to add TWO MORE??? idk we shall see

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hm. little idea batch for some muses i’d like to pick up for indie rp at some point.

frieren — only about ~5 episodes in so i’ll definitely need a bit more characterization before i can even begin to write her. but she’s a high priority muse.

marius josipovic — previously made a chatacter study account for him, may revamp into an honest to god indie rp acc! i really want to explore the (con)man of all time

theon greyjoy — a muse i’ve wanted to pick on for a while now … probably mostly post-ramsay things, or modern aus that are also after the torture. may have a few verses beforehand, but post-ramsay would be a main focus!

john tavner — possible muse. i’ve written him before so i think i’d have a decently good hold on him! will probably need to rewatch the show a bit, but big priority on his relationship with his guitar / his brother / weed lol. also the whole “white torture” thing and being a majorly depressed undercover intelligence officer. but i love the mix of humor and angst with him, so. i’ll probably pick him up!

that’s all i got for now HAHA

Are they… you know… lost?

tfw you get a date with the sexy maid

phewwwww me when one plotline nearly ruins the entire show for me ... sucks because god damn i've been loving the mentalist but this is a genuine comfort watch and i do not want to be sidetracked with dumb writing decision bullshit that only serves to piss me off !!! idek how i'm gonna go into season five. even the thought of continuing is unappealing and for a show that has been keeping my lonely ass entertained ... this sucks!

i'm always into the brian jonestown massacre, but when i'm really into them is when i'm reminded of why i love them so much. how literally no other band in the world could ever mean as much to me as they do ... bc at the end of the day, bjm makes me feel things no other band does. how they inspired me to create my favorite oc ever ( looking at you knox ) and create a sprawling story from that, one i adore. the soundtrack to my life. will forever shout them out because where would i even be today without them!! so many people i've met through them, so much lore added to my life bc of bjm. little lost media searches and random people i love on youtube because of their music ( looking at you, mr. bjm man ). smth about saying they're my fav band just feels right. and i can also flex my special edition dvd of dig! because yes, i am a dvd hoarder. overall just had to spew this out because i'm back on their shit and, tbh, missed this fun little part of my life <3

still thinking about marius and taylor …. the innate hopelessness of a relationship that was always doomed to fail… the way their dynamic could’ve been saved had marius just admitted what he did, but like the stubborn and distrustful asshole he is, he kept that info to himself! and look what happened! taylor honest to god tried to rectify things and was even willing to give marius a chance, was willing to forgive him, but marius continued to lie. i think it’s really interesting because it’s not something that marius would ever be used to…? like, this is a guy who lies to everyone and rarely reaps the consequences of doing so, even with his brother—who also lies straight to his face, multiple times throughout the show. marius doesn’t particularly care if people lie to him and isn’t accustomed to being around people who need him to admit he lied in order to forgive him. either the deed is forgiven/brushed off without another word (such as with marius and eddie), or the relationship is ruined because of the lie. i don’t think there’s ever been any in-between, wherein marius could save a relationship by admitting his wrongdoings. so when taylor offers that as an option, of course marius doesn’t take it! he isn’t used to that, and he’s a skeptic at heart. plus he kinda sorta despises taylor. why should he beg for forgiveness? but what i think he doesn’t realize is that you can’t escape from family, certainly not this one, and when those sorts of relationships are ruined, it ripples through everything and creates lots and LOTS of consequences. and unfortunately, having taylor as an enemy is not a good time!

— FOX MULDER in every episode of The X-Files | 1x15 ‘Lazarus’

actually OBSESSED with this take… glad to see someone else in this fandom rising up to the occasion!! lol fr though this analysis is simply wonderful and i really like the idea that emilia had to escape from an abusive situation which has shaped who they are as a person, giving them some hard edges. emilia is quick to like jerma, but they’re also very critical and defensive - something i think could mirror this theory! like they need to be in control ( maybe because they’ve had a lack of it for so long ) and have a difficult time maintaining the idea that someone likes them for who they are, rather than simply using them. the entire maid service is built upon the idea that the “sexy maid” is used for some sexual gain but as you said, jerma flips the script and doesn’t do this.

emilia has grown so accustomed to people using and hurting them that they are floored by jerma’s behavior. of course, it’s not entirely restrictive - jerma does flirt - but this is something that emilia actually seems partial to in a genuine way! even growing defensive when jerma doesn’t seem to think they’re immediately sexy. maybe this potential ex put emilia down a lot and the maid service is their way of gaining back some of that love / control they never had in that relationship. plus, they seem pretty eager to go on this date with jerma, so i wouldn’t be surprised if they’re desperate to put this past behind them in any way possible and simply move on. and like you mentioned, hearing jerma think they’re beautiful - in every way, shape, and form - is something they didn’t know they needed to hear, and perhaps had never heard in their life.

definitely agree that emilia wanted revenge and was hurt by what happened! jerma never truly apologized, or at least not so soon after what happened, and i think that could’ve made emilia feel like they were used again - something which would hit hard. especially because it seems like they were starting to trust jerma to be a good person. but that trust is broken and emilia does go out of their way to destroy jerma’s life, in a mix of hilarity and tragedy ( as this stream so often shows ). emilia and jerma could’ve been beautiful together, but outside forces tore them apart and i think that’s genuinely sad, when if they had just communicated better i think they would’ve been fine! but that’s a lot of what this stream is about - outside forces - and how they shape you as a person, so i think it makes sense in the end. always gonna hope they have a future in another life though <3

thanks for responding to my info dump and giving me some tidbits on emilia!! this was fun to whip up in response, so if you have anything else, feel free to share! i’m all ears lol. us jerma dollhouse fans gotta stick together yk?

actually so sad that there are no analyses on jerma dollhouse …. aside from the 2 on youtube i saw but they talk more about the general themes of the story / bringing theater to twitch in a creative and successful way. haven’t seen anything on the characters and i’m kinda starved for that rn! i think i’m too stupid to try my hand at an analysis, but a character study on jerma or emilia or even someone like jebediah would be so fun methinks. whether that would be ignoring chat’s involvement in the whole thing or making it a part of the analysis … would be fun to throw that out the window though and treat the characters ( mainly jerma ) as their own people who act on things themselves rather than being told or forced to. like why is jerma so flirty. is this learned behavior? a defense mechanism?? why is he like that??? it puts him in the most awkward, uncomfortable situations and i wanna know WHY !! again shoving chat to the back of my mind here, just pretending jerma has complete self-control and acts on his own whims … why does he act like that.

obviously i’m taking this stream / story way too seriously but i don’t care it’s what i do!! treating comedy and crack as seriously as possible is what i find the most fun in life. and jerma’s story here is a mixture of hilarious and tragic, something i desperately want to analyze, but again, not sure if i necessarily have the capabilities to. though there would be certain things i’d want to comment on, such as : jerma and emilia’s relationship, dying and escaping death ( then ruining your life by adding on some extra years ), jerma’s friendships and interactions with others, and the crushing weight jerma always seems to carry on his shoulders while hiding it all from the world at the very same time. just a few things i really enjoyed during the stream and would love to talk about if possible. hell, maybe i will sometime, if i can actually get my act together and analyze these characters, plots, and themes. not saying it’ll all be correct or canon, but it would be fun! bringing a bit of reality in.

anyway there’s some of my thoughts on jerma dollhouse and how much it already means to me …