I’m Not Here

my adhd problems 💔

i’ll never be good enough in my mind

it doesn’t snow where i live but i can’t wait for winter ༺♡︎༻

no matter how hard i scrub i can never get you off of me. you’re touch lingers, it lingers where you tightened your fingers around my wrists and held me down, it lingers in the flesh of my arms and chest that you bit into. i’m reminded every time someone touches me, i have to tell myself that it isn’t you and that im safe now. you changed me, you changed me and i can never be who i was before i knew you. im okay with that now but it still hurts sometimes. did you know what you were doing was bad? do you know how i think of you now? i hope you realise it someday, and i hope i never see you ever again.

im so glad discovering music is endless 

obsessed with this song. and them.

" everything you do, I'm obssessed with you, I don't mean to scare but you're just so cute, every move you make, you're fucking sweeter than a cake, I wanna cut you up and put you in my oven just to bake. "

" And everything you say is like poetry, wanna drop you in boiling water, drink you like chamomile tea. I'd like to wipe these other bitches so it is just you and me, I wanna hug you like a bunny, wanna sting you like a bee. "

it doesn’t feel like halloween

Kurt Cobain