Snowdrop.

No one loves them like I do. NO ONE.

headcanon: Ford's hella ticklish

Me and @ridokichan -s headcanon about "isolation-induced hallucinations" with Stan twins.

First experience with the portal was definitely..... Insufferable. For both of them.

At least someone's looking out after them.

They're so dear to me

Girl-dad gotta do what girl-dad gotta do

INSOMNIA

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OH MY KNEES FOR YOU FINISH THISISSSHHSHSHAHZHAW MY BABBIESSSSSS I CA NK NOTTT T JERLITAS GOT ME IN CLUTCH FOR 12 YEARS NOW LORD HELP

Am I only one who genuinely doesn't understand April fool's?? Like... Looking at everything people are doing...?

It feels like trying to gather some information from a room while you yourself are staring at it through the keyhole, standing close but yet can't gather what's going on. Not that I don't love fun, it just personally doesn't make sense to me

FINNALY SOMEONE TALKS ABOUT ITTTTTT OP THANKKKYOUUUYYYY

way you worded it so amazingly makes me sick.

fandom needs to talk more about the fact that ford phisically wouldn't be able to keep the right track of time. Like, he defenelty kept (somewhat) track of it purely judging by his feelings, but you know, every dimension got it's own time with different pace, you literally can't trust ANYTHING besides your senses. And imagine finding out that even that was wrong.

trying to hold onto something you don't understand anymore, just because you don't want to lose yourself to it.

y'all don't understand how much of an effect can "not understanding" time cause on a persons mind, and now he has to recalibrate his wrongly adapted sense because he's on earth he doesn't have to run and be on the move like always. But even now - looking at the clock still feels so wrong because his body and his sense built over the years tells him OTHERWISE.

Hard to trust something you didn't had for years

he kept his own track of time but if you ask me: he never really fully processed how limited it us for human species (how short human life is, overall. Dealing and facing immortal or long living creatures for a fair amount of time makes you forget that you're absolutely nothing in their presence)

he ran and ran and ran and ran but now he doesn't have to.

Finnaly, now you can actually think through stuff, and slowly realize you spent your given time - surviving, rather than living. and it hurts like hell.

It's really hard to trust something you didn't had for years.

your life, your time and your lifelong plans wasted for what?

For this?

At least now he got someone by his side in the end.

now Stanley finally got his brother back.

he can stop trying to pretend to be someone he's not, and live a life, HIS OWN life. Alongside someone that truly cares and worries about him.

Strange isn't it.

Do you think Ford knew how old he was when he came back? Because I don't think so.

He's been all around the multiverse, in places that definitely didn't follow the laws of physics of his home dimension. Time works differently depending on the place he lands on, and he never gets used to any of them because he knows he'll have to leave sooner or later.

So time passes. He can feel himself age, of course, but he doesn't know how long it's been since he fell through the portal. When he looks at himself in the mirror, he can see wrinkles paired with new scars, and his hair is getting grayer, but that could simply be a sign of stress. And sure, his body hurts when he wakes up, but he's constantly on the move and sleeping anywhere he can, obviously he's not going to be in the best shape! All things considered, he's a pretty fit man for any age, and whatever years he's been alive for is not his priority right now.

When he comes back home, after his first encounter with Stan, he finally gets a moment to think about his new and old family. His brother looks older, obviously, and certainly different from what he imagined (not that he thought about him often, of course not). His hair is whiter than his own, and he has even more wrinkles than him! Just how badly was he taking care of himself in the... how many years... wait, did he say 30?!

I don't think Ford was necessarily thinking of a higher or lower number. I don't think he expected anything more or less: the way he sees it, it could've been anywhere from 10 to 1000 years. Time was meaningless between dimensions. I think that the sole reminder that time still passed was what got to him.

That shock came full force after Weirdmageddon, when he realized that Stan was his same age, despite the differences in their physiques. It was the fact that they were both around 60 years old, and they had been apart for 40 years. Two whole thirds of their lives. They were supposed to grow old together, maybe not in the same house (or boat), but close to each other. That, paired with how old and worn down Stan looks, Ford can't help but feel like he's now years younger than him, and he hates thinking about it because with the way Stan had been living for the last 40 years, just how much longer- no, stop, don't think about it.

Ford's paranoia turns into hypochondria, but towards his brother. This translates as Ford desperately trying to cut Stan's bad habits (such as alcohol and smoking), making sure he eats well (Ford can't cook for shit) and semi-forcing him to do some exercise. Stan is not on board with these measures, and he lets his brother know just that because he's being bossy and annoying and he would like to enjoy his amnesia in peace please. Ford is as stubborn as a mule, but eventually he gives up and just begs Stan to please consider some of his suggestions because he wants him to be better. Stan still refuses, but every once in a while Ford catches him doing some exercise by himself or ordering a non alcoholic drink, and it makes him happy.

When they return to Gravity Falls, the twins look the most identical they've looked since they were like 10: Stan's eyes have a shine that Soos had never seen before, and his new and improved posture makes him look taller, like the weight of the world had been lifted off of him. Ford, on the other hand, has a fuller face and body, his expression is now softer and somewhat kinder, and he walks much more carelessly, like he's strolling instead of marching.

Ford doesn't care how old he is anymore, because now he's growing old next to his brother.

Stanley pines I'll always love you. this feels personal. Too personal. Both Stanley and stanford. That's where my life headed at this point ☹️

Something I think about so much is just how different the Stanley Pines we see in ATOTS is from the Grunkle Stan we know in the rest of the show.

Like, have you ever noticed just how much more expressive Stan is in 1983? The guy wears his heart on his sleeve so much more than he does later on. At almost every moment you can tell exactly what he's thinking and feeling just from his face, something that will become a lot rarer for him. Even setting aside the portal incident scene itself, have y'all ever watched the Dusk 2 Dawn scene and just watched Stan's face? He looks so… openly sad.

It's not just his expressions. Here's a detail that only just occurred to me: you guys ever think it's weird that Stan doesn't just try to steal the bread from Dusk 2 Dawn? Like, you'd think his stealing habit would've originated from his years on the street stealing to survive, but no— he tries to pay for the bread, and then when he doesn't have any money, he figures out how to get some. It's surprisingly honest.

And just like… I don't know, his whole vibe is so different. He's come from this life of hardship completely willing to talk things through. He's emotional, he's open, and not exactly what you'd expect to see when you imagine what a younger Grunkle Stan might have been like. In fact, his vibe is so different that, in Journal 3, Ford writes that when he first saw Stan, he assumed he was just in another alternate dimension rather than the one he came from.

Anyway, it just makes me think about the transition of how, exactly, he went from one to the other. How we go from the "stubborn, frostbitten vagabond" to the "carnival barker" he is by the show's present. I think about that in-between Stan a lot. Realizing that the hole in his heart, the one he thought was caused by his circumstance for so long, hadn't disappeared even now that he had money and a steady place to live. Growing more bitter and grumpy by the day, learning that maybe it's just better if he shuts himself off from the world so nobody has a chance to hurt him. Seeing himself aging and finding himself no closer to saving Ford. Ship of Theseus-ing himself into the carefully curated asshole that maybe even he thinks he is.

"Twin!Delusion AU" by me and @ridokichan (from our previous post)

(their dynamic in nutshell, basically.)

Besides them being "isolation-induced hallucinations" - This is also partially based on bereavement hallucinations disorder (it is not nessesary for a person to be "passed" to fall under such diagnosis. but considering how on other side of the portal Stan didn't even knew if his brother is alive in there - name still works.)

Realistically speaking - those kind of hallucinations are a response to an overwhelming emotions, a coping mechanism & form of isolation formed desperation.

Stan is so desperate to fix the portal, to get his brother back/fix this mistake that mind will willingly make it seem like everything is alright.

You supress your emotions because you got more important things to focus on? Oh trust me they will find the way out.

Now a question: then why are they in a form of children?

Childhood represents innocence, unconditional love, and a time when they were truly happy together. Subconscious will always choose this form because it literally offers protection, allowing to mentally escape into the past rather than face the unbearable present. After all, Stans character is about partially clinging to the past while Ford was one that wanted to move forward. (i am not talking about Ford holding grudges from the past like a dead dog he is, no)

Seeking comfort in purest and safest version of your brother, one that never looked at you wrong, one that never pulled the curtains on you when you asked for help....... Sounds right to me.

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