Isn’t It Weird How It’s Already February But It’s Also Only February

rediscovering my love of french and wanting to pick it up again, i used to hate it in school but now i realise how the structure of school and exams just ironically kills of the feeling of wanting to learn. please interact and tell me your fav methods of learning languages? or just your experiences with learning french in general?

it's 00:06 am and I'm 18, I can't stop crying over this email from my sociology teacher lol.

gettin that  a e s t h e t i c wardrobe (so you can feel like the real deal)

hey hey hey! so i was holding off on this post since at first i didn’t really want to just tell you what to buy and you go off and get it.  n o.  n o.  n o. that’s not how we do it here. instead i’m going to make a few suggestions and things that may aspire you so you can adapt and play with these to suit yourself! alright so first things first: c o l o u r s - think autumn (the season where all dark academics come out from their  underground hideouts and late night cafes and explore the surface) - think maroons and dark plumes, oranges and mustards, reds of all different   shades (we like to keep it diverse here) and dark greens next things next: items of clothing i think as long as you stick to the color scheme most things should work out fine but a lot of people seem to think turtlenecks and expensive tweed jackets are a must when in reality that’s not the case (tbh all i have is one turtleneck) - think blazers and plaid shirts and denim jackets with wristwatches and pendants - think mom jeans and thin belts and sweaters (mixing it up a lil) or even an     off-white tshirt with a fitting print

and last things last: y o u so as much as the dark academia fandom distinctly wears and deems as dark academic i think you should be able to wear whatever you like -you’re here because you like the look and feel of it but what about those who  can’t afford it or just don’t feel comfortable? those are my exact thoughts honestly wear what you think suits you at the end of the day stick with the basic colours and/or vibe and boom! academic

just in case your still a bit stuck:

a few people i get inspiration from

-  bestdressed

- sichenmakeupholic

- deaddsouls

- alexandrasgirlytalk

i hope you all liked this post!

~Amimi

update: kinda late but oh well, exam was alr but not as good as i wanted - at first i was really distraught but then i reminded myself of those supposed literature nerds who write Scrooge/Marley fanfics on ao3 and how failing literature meant i was definitely not one of them :D

English teachers, You either did something incredibly right or incredibly wrong when teaching A Christmas Carol in GCSE English because there is 34 works under the tag Jacob Marley/Ebenezer Scrooge on ao3. A few of them are tagged with references to GCSEs.

Shut the hell up …

i be like “damn i got a lot of shit to do” and then go lay down for 17 hours

december daze (depressing af)

Wed, 22 Dec 2021 - 11:28pm -11:57pm 

damn that

alliteration

decembers been kinda dismal ngl,

(take a shot every time you read a word beginning with d on this post)

feel like i’m in a daze, these past 5 days of christmas break have been lying in bed and listening to p!atd and maggie lindemann on repeat.

(productive i know)

it’s crazy to think i’ll be finishing secondary school within the next few months 

i feel like i was robbed of two years of my life and it’s so weird because it’s like how can you feel nostalgic for something that was never there? 

nostalgia in definition is 

a sentimental longing or wistful affection for a period in the past 

that’s not quite what i feel. i have a longing for a period in my past that never happened. i don’t feel wistful affection. i feel grief and loss for a time that never was. i’m almost 16 but i don’t feel that way. i feel like i lost what would have been two of the greatest years of my life and it’s like damn, 2020 and 2021 happened in a blur. where did they go.

(love that over dramaticness for me)

exams will be done and over with within the next 6 months, i’d like to make the most of that time inbetween studying to experience what i lost in that time stolen by covid.

NOTE:

i’d like to do monthly diary posts like these as something for my future self to look back on - from now on i’ll be including the date and times i started and finished writing posts at the top.

til next time  ~Amimi

i just wanna throw it out there that louis partridge would be amazing as darlington if there was ever a movie or series. I NEED HIM AS DARLINGTON. like...

tell me he isn't him.

hi its 30 mins past midnight, I'll be sure to post the rest of the updates and recaps soon! I've been occupied with ppe revision and I'm getting really humbled rn over crying over a guy I haven't even dated or spoken to for that long so yay ig, I'll see you all next week

help i'm crying

like today i had to make a doctors appointment and go to the doctors on my own for the first time ever because my parents were busy. that sounds childish but as a 16-year-old hermit it was painstaking. like the doctor asked me a very embarrassing question and i turned to the chair next me and then realised my mum wasn't there.. and then slowly... turned back to the doctor. she was so nice, asking about a levels and trying to make me comfortable. still, never seeing her again.