My GW2 Characters By Poe-hax

Guys new Cait Sith plush dropped!

I am having a very rough week mentally and physically. I've also been overeating every day and so that is weighing on me literally and emotionally. My cravings have been terrible, and I haven't gotten myself out and walking like I need to be.

This makes me really upset and depressed. I have to get myself back on track.

It's been a rough two weeks. Today has been the first time I've felt any kind of peace and my mania has settled. I forget that handwriting things is such a treat for me. Though I dislike my hand writing, working slowly and jotting things down in a "pretty" way really gives me a sense of peace and accomplishment. Today I started writing recipes from websites I like down in a notebook. It'll work for now. I even got help.

I know I was going to separate all my FFXIV stuff to a side blog, but my husband and best friend are right (as usual) and know me. I go through phases of wanting to organize everything and then giving up and combining it all again because it becomes a hassle. I think I need to step back from social media for a while soon. I believe it's getting to me.

I think getting more hands on is definitely my goal for the next month. To do more instead of just peering at it from across the table.

We played Mouthwashing!

6/10 was overhyped. It was not a bad game, but eh. In the year of our lord and savior, Silent Hill 2, eh.

artwork by loi-loi

I started a project. Picking up the trash around my building and in this dense area where a lot of our little critters hang out. I filled a single trash bag today before I figured out how difficult it’s actually going to be. This picture is after I finished.

I pulled multiple plastic bags and picked up about twenty discarded alcohol bottles from under the leaves.

Gross. I don’t understand how people can think this is okay. I smartly bought gloves to wear beforehand.

I really want to do something meaningful, and I feel like this is a good deed that I am capable of doing. I do want to purchase a rake to better get under the brambles and to scope for any snakes that might be underfoot.

Not to mention the area between buildings. When my neighbors aren’t parked there, I think I’ll go snatch up all the trash in that area. If nothing else, it’ll make me feel better.

I know this is kind of a medium project that could be done easily with more people, but I don’t have any local friends to recruit. After this, I might start walking the neighborhood to pick up trash off the side of the road.

Anyway, I’m proud of myself for this. Even if I only did one bag, it’s a start to make a difference.

Time to overshare!

Therapy was a bit rough today, but I made it and I have goals to achieve. I'm keeping my head up.

Also considering joining a gym...

I've been binging horror game lore on YT and it makes me want to do more horror writing and interactions on my OCs. But I am always afraid of how far I can go before someone feels uncomfortable or hates it.

When I say "horror game", I mostly mean Fear & Hunger, Darkwood, Bloodborne, and I'm looking for more!

This is so average for most people, but for me... it's quite the difference (as you can see). I am a housewife, and I have a hard time motivating myself to do any kind of exercise, but today I walked. I walked and I enjoyed every moment listening to music in one ear and the frogs singing in the other.

The weather was perfect, and I felt so good about myself. Being outside in nature really cleared my head and I could breathe so easily with the fresh air. I feel so at peace, so calm and content. Fulfilled.

I am proud of myself for taking the first step. My hope is to do this at least 3 times a week, if not more. I would love to do it 5 times a week, but I know I need to start slow. My desire to get to a better weight and further from the diabetes that runs in my family is strong.

I want to be healthy, and I want to love my body.

Worst side quest in the Final Fantasy franchise?