Dear deities, I just CAN'T get over Charlie's performance in episode 79. I could ramble on and on about how the trials and how emotionally devastating it is... But nothing, NOTHING beats Gillion's monologue.
It's the way it starts off being quiet and Gillion's voice slowly creeps up in volume. The way it builds until the first "I hate you" and then EVERYTHING comes out, like the floodgates were just opened and he physically can't stop. It's painful for him to recall his memories as a child, failing over and over again. It's so agonising for him to describe his banishment, which must be so loaded with conflicting emotions. When he asks to be failed as Gillion Tidestrider, it's DESPERATE. And the fucking closing line...
"I'm sorry I couldn't be the chosen one you wanted. I'm not even the chosen one I wanted."
It's so cathartic yet it's not triumphant. Because Gillion has finally given himself some more room to express his own emotions after episode upon episode upon EPISODE of repressing it, making this a very satisfying moment!!! But uh, yeah, when you examine everything about the scenario and Gillion's own wording it's far from being happy. And I just think that's very neat because not every story takes that kind of care with their characters - they'll just expect characters to get over their trauma in one big hurdle and that's very much not how trauma works...
So anyhow just another messy tangent about the trials because I'm a Gillion fan so of course I'm gonna obsess over the segment that's just Gillion Tidestrider mental breakdown. Love this campaign. :)) My tormented blorbo. :))))
I have brought him to the third dimension
If you’re bringing this art back I’m bringing this fanart of your fanart back
Guys, you think she's projecting (me I'm projecting)
happy appreciate a dragon day!
maybe I shouldn’t be listening to jrwi out loud in the break room at work, I realize, as gillion tidestrider says “big daddy blast” in a booming voice
the parallels between jay and gillion's backstories are so important to me. being told your whole life how youre going to grow into something you dont have any control over and constantly training for it. being oppressed by a title, a name, something that determines your every action. having no choice over your future, your autonomy.
and yet when they leave, when theyre exposed to the rest of the world, they see how the environment they grew up in was flawed. what they learned was from such a severe perspective, and having the space to grow and change let them see the true beauty of the world.
anyways listen to the song fish in a birdcage
ITS SO HIM but he also made like wolf life let’s plays no one watched
based on this post by @plantwriting !!!
i imagine before he did ghost hunting his channel was all gacha life mmvs and the like. he abandoned the channel until he got his first emf reader at 15 and it all went downhill from there
(also, do we ever meet any of the other kids in the unwitness protection program?? i couldnt remember that happening so i just made up some designs)
“When I was a little guppy, they told me humans were greedy, self indulgent, destructive creatures who live their lives recklessly at the expense of others. But when I came here, I chose not to listen — when I boarded your vessel, when I was invited upon it by you and Jay, you took me aboard and I felt as if I could trust you.”
“Anyway, they told me a lot of things — not all of which have been true. The more time I spend up here with you, even Caspian, everyone I’ve met- even Edyn, the more I realize that they raised me to be a weapon.”
gillion in episode 15 vs in episode 63
I need to get ahold of myself because I almost just impulse-bought a life-size cardboard cutout of gillion tidestrider
got cups on my earsa tiny komodo dragon that enjoys jrwi a normal amount
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