I Recently Got Noise Cancelling Headphones Because I Have A Lot Of Sensory Issues And Misophonia. I Have

(Badly) Explained PDs

Cluster A

SzPD: I am so Normal right now :) *feeling Nothing at All, trapped inside the Meat Prison*

StPD: 'Got a little bit too eccentric' disorder

PPD: Constantly checking behind them because the fear of getting backstabbed is just Too Real

Cluster B

BPD: *intense FP-related sobbing* *goes back to watching TV like nothing happened a few seconds later*

NPD: I may not be God but Goddamnit let me have this moment

HPD: Please look at me please talk to me please compliment me please I am so pretty

ASPD: Fuck around and find out

Cluster C

DPD: where are all the people. help. I could go for a Person right about now

AvPD: That one social reject kid that freaks out during a Powerpoint presentation

OCPD: *does a thing* Wait *does the thing again* I am performing this Task so incorrectly right now wtf *does the thing

Other

PDNOS: That moment when not even you know what's wrong but clearly Something is up

I can't figure out if I'm genderqueer or nonbinary y'all 😭

Sameeeeeee

I know SEVERAL afab nonbinary people who, as soon as they came out as nonbinary - immediately began dressing in ridiculous hyper-femme outfits they never would have worn before.  A lot of people see this and say shit like “Theyfab” or say they are only nonbinary for attention.  After all, look how femme they are.

But to me, this makes perfect sense.  When you are forced into the category of “woman” against your will, femininity is a chore.  It’s a job that you have.  As soon as you say no, I’m not a woman, suddenly femininity isn’t your job anymore.  It’s not a requirement.  It’s just a fun hobby you can get into.  Or a little treat sometimes.

if one more person tells me I'm stable when on abilify I haven't cried or felt excitement in MONTHS I'm gonna snap shut UP

they should make a version of grad school that doesn’t exacerbate your mental illness(es)

If there’s anything I have no patience for, it’s other bipolar people saying deadass that bipolar people shouldn’t have kids. Like maybe YOU shouldn’t. You’re free to make that decision. But don’t let your internalized ableism label me, because most of those people assume that every other bipolar person is as dysfunctional as they are and that simply isn’t true. For example, maybe you struggle to hold down a job? I don’t. Maybe you don’t like children because they are difficult. I do. Many bipolar people are capable of being good parents. And if your argument is that we shouldn’t bring more bipolar people into the world, just fuck you. To say that a bipolar life is worth less than an abled one is pure eugenics mindset, period.

Ableds be like, if I eat this diet/do this exercise/wear or don’t wear these clothes/live this lifestyle I’ll never become disabled!

Buddy have I got some harsh news for you…

I literally cannot overstate how important creative hobbies are when dealing with mental illness. If you can’t draw, there are coloring books. If you can’t write a novel, you can write in short journaling bursts. If you can’t sing in the shower, you can listen to music. Sometimes with mental illness it feels like we have this dark presence inside of us that is bumping around in our brain and organs, causing problems. It helps immensely to let it out.

having that silly little thought that everyone is tired of me cause no one's texted me like all day

"I know someone else with this disorder and they're nothing like you!!!"

Maybe that's because we're entirely separate fucking people who have lead different lives, are at different points in our life, and literally have different brains, not because I don't actually have the disorder.