My Mind Is So Weak

my mind is so weak

I have been trying so hard. To stay strong, to stay smart, to not stare into a spiral and relapse. But my breaks away from hypnosis are getting shorter and shorter each time. The longer I stay away the more want to listen. I always come back again and again, drain my brain again and again. Even just the thought of slipping back makes me wet and needy, makes me want to rub my mind away for hours until I am a drooling dripping mindfucked mess. I don’t know how much longer I can hold out.

Are you a faggot?

First off, let me be clear that i am not using the term faggot in a pejorative sense. One of the most effective ways of taking the sting out of a word is to re-appropriate it from the haters, and redefine it yourself. This must of course happen in a supportive environment, among those who accept you as you are. That enables you to defiantly and bravely own up to what you are. And to realize that there are appreciative Alphas/Men out there who would love nothing better than to have their own personal fag. Don’t let others keep you from living the life that fits you best. And without shame.

In this re-appropriated meaning, the following are some pretty strong indicators that you are a faggot:

1. Your primary sex organ is not your penis.

Most males (gay or straight) derive most of their sexual pleasure from their penises. Men love to ejaculate, and they find great satisfaction in the power of their ejaculations. They take great pride in their penises and in phallic symbolism.

Faggots, on the other hand, are often embarrassed by their penis. It may be relatively small. Many have weak erections. Some have low testosterone levels. On the other hand, faggots generally take great pleasure in their butts and assholes. They are compelled to play with this area, stimulate it using fingers, dildos, or butt plugs, and learn to have prostate-induced anal orgasms rather than (or in addition to) penile orgasms. For faggots, their asshole becomes their primary sex organ, not their penis. Most regard their mouths as a primary or secondary sex organ.

2. You are unable to top.

In general, Men are born with a natural desire to penetrate and ejaculate. It is their prime instinct. Men love to watch their cocks slide into their partner, love to hear their moans as they fuck them, and enjoy the feeling of pumping their warm seminal fluid into them.

Faggots, on the other hand, cannot see themselves as anything other than a receptive hole for a Man’s cock. A faggot will never penetrate anyone else. The idea has no appeal, and there is no motivation to do so. My penis does not get aroused at the thought. It remains flaccid.

When being fucked, faggots typically feel little or no motivation to touch their penises, preferring instead to focus on the penetration. Many faggots remain flaccid while getting fucked, so focused are they on their asshole as primary sex organ. 3. You dislike receiving oral sex.

From my first sexual experience with another male, I noticed that I did not enjoy receiving oral sex. My penis remained flaccid, and the experience was embarrassing and made me intensely uncomfortable. That is not atypical. There are at least two reasons for this. One, already described above, is that a faggot’s penis is not experienced as a primary sex organ. Another is that the position of power a blowjob bestows upon the receiver is antithetical to the true nature of a faggot.

Almost all Men (gay or straight) love to receive a good blowjob. Faggots are the exception. They typically recoil from the idea. Now that I’ve come to understand my true nature, the very thought of receiving a blowjob fills me with disgust and horror. I’ve heard the same from many faggots over the years.

4. You are service oriented.

All gay bottoms are submissive to some degree; taking a dick up the ass requires at least a degree of submissiveness. But most are submissive only in the bedroom, and their bottoming is how they prefer to get off. In other words, there is a reciprocity. They seek their own orgasm as much as their partner’s. They consider themselves on a level plane to the Man who is fucking them. This is very similar to how most women view their relationships with Men.

A faggot is not only not equal to a Man (except in certain fundamental human rights as a human being), but the faggot itself knows and acknowledges that it is not equal. A faggot doesn’t focus on its own pleasure at all, in or out of the bedroom. At all times a true faggot focuses on the Man’s pleasure. Its own pleasure is merely incidental, and in no way central. 5. You have certain fetishes, and open to deeper forms of submission.

Certain fetishes tend to distinguish faggots from conventional gay bottoms. For instance, almost all faggots seem to have fetishes for aspects of a Man’s body that denote masculinity and power asymmetry.

Faggots tend to very willingly kiss and lick a Man’s feet. They also tend to their lust for the smells of a Man. A Man’s used underwear might disgust most people, but a faggot typically desires these items. Faggots love to sniff and lick musky balls and armpits. While gay bottoms may enjoy such aspects, too, they rarely have the worshipful lust faggots reserve for them.

These fetishes might drive faggots to do things that ordinary gay bottoms would never do, such as swallow a Man’s piss, or get spanked.

6. You derive satisfaction from service.

Faggots achieve emotional satisfaction from serving a Man through menial tasks. A faggot finds great satisfaction while cleaning a Man’s bathroom, doing a Man’s dishes, or washing a Man’s laundry. Very few women or other gay Men exhibit this level of servitude, nor do they seem to derive pleasure from such tasks.

In addition, a faggot does such chores without the expectation of reward. Contrast that mentality with women and gay Men, who often perform chores for a Man in the expectation that they will be rewarded in some way. Faggots do not have such expectations. Their reward comes from performing the service itself for a special Man.

Summing up, you are a faggot if: • You are more interested in your ass as your primary sex organ • You seek only the sexual satisfaction of the Man, not yourself. • You are attracted to the power of a Man • You are attracted to a Man’s intimate scents and, and not repelled by his spit and piss • You can derive pleasure from serving a Man through menial tasks

(Note: This post is heavily indebted to a previous one by @fagsworshipstraights. I did not reblog that post because i disagreed on a number of crucial points. So i’ve rewritten it to remove those points, add some of my own, including the all-important introductory paragraph, and make the argument more concise. Still, he deserves most of the credit.)

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fagstevie

2 years ago

oh my yess.....id so kiss him too