Simon Alexandre-Clement Denis - Study Of Clouds With A Sunset Near Rome (detail)

i honestly believe human beings are not meant to live like this. we are meant to live in loving communities and be around nature every day and grow our own food and create art and not work day and night until we die. this longing for another life is not human nature, it’s a symptom of modern society.

if we’re mutuals, and I don’t care whether we’ve been mutuals for twelve (12) minutes or three (3) years, you can send me a message any time about any thing. family life is shit? bitch, tell me about it and even if I can’t help, I can listen. struggling with mental illness and feel like you can’t talk to anyone? talk to me. literally. you always can. saw a cute cat? SEND THAT BITCH MY WAY

i have thought a lot about censorship and what is “appropriate”. not a lot of people know this, but lolita was written to show what we allow on our bookshelves: there being no swear words in it meant it was free from censorship. a book about child molestation was allowed because it didn’t explicitly use the word “fuck”. he wrote it to show we don’t really care about protecting children, and it ended up being seen as a romance.

someone once told me - actually, many people have - that lgbt content isn’t appropriate for children. any content. not just kissing. i’m drowned in questions: “won’t the parents have to explain it?” “kids shouldn’t be thinking about sex at this age, or do you think differently?” “what will the kids think?”

at six i saw disney movies. people kiss and get married. i didn’t ask “what does that mean.” i didn’t ask “are those people going to have sex?” i didn’t ask anything, because i was six, and no six year old thinks twice about these things. nobody ever “explained” being straight to me, it was a fact, and it existed, and i was fine with that. why would being gay require a thesis, i wonder.

someone once told me that the one of the reasons people hate lgbt individuals is because they can’t see us as anything but sexual. we’re not people, so much as sinners. that they don’t see love, they see sex. just sex. it’s perversion, not a matter of the heart. only of the body.

i think i was in my early twenties before i saw someone like me. 

how old were you, though, before you saw violence? before you saw sexual assault on tv? i think something like that is only pg-13, and if it’s implied, they can get away with anything. i remember watching things and learning about blood, but knowing sex - sex was what was really wrong. sex was always rated r. sex was always kind of a bad word. i was told a lot that i wasn’t ready.

i had a dream last night that i made a site where people could ask any question they wanted about sex and get answered by a professional. it was shut down in moments because 15 year olds wanted to know if it should hurt, if “double-bagging” was a real thing, if this, if that. we shudder. don’t let the children know about that! 

but at thirteen i had seen enough violence it no longer struck me. i couldn’t say “fuck” but i knew that if you break your femur, you can bleed out internally in under half an hour. in school i wasn’t allowed to write about loving girls because what would the administration think - but i could write about wanting to kill myself and people would say how lovely, how blistering.

i have thought a lot about censorship. sometimes people on this site try it with me: don’t write this, don’t be so nasty. some of it is intrinsic. we know as people with a uterus not to complain about “that time of the month”, we know better than to talk about sexual assault (how shameful), we know that talking about a vagina is somehow scandalous. i can say “dick” and nobody questions me. some people only refer to the bottom half of me by “pussy”. they won’t wrap a mouth around “vagina” like it’s poison to them. even discussing this, that the language halts, that there’s an intrinsic desire to say “girls” instead of “women” - feels naughty, illicit. not for children.

the other day someone suggested i make my blog 18+. i said, okay, it deals a lot with depression and other problems that might be for a mature audience. oh no, they said, that’s not it, i think that’s helpful. i said, okay. so what is it then. well, you’re gay. you write about loving women. and i said, i don’t write about sex often and they said. it’s not about the sex. but wlw isn’t for a general audience. teenagers aren’t ready.

oh.

lolita is recommended for high school and up. i think about that a lot. i know girls who love it, who say it speaks to them on a deep level. it’s beautiful prose, after all. that was the whole point of the novel. something that looked like a rose but was intrinsically awful. i think about how if i was a model they’d want me to look young, thin, prepubescent. how my body would be sold and how through the mall i walk by images of barely-clothed women while mothers cannot breastfeed in public without fear of retribution. 

i think about how i can write a novel about violence and it will be pg-13 but if my characters say “fuck” twice it’s inappropriate. i said fuck three times so far in this post, which makes it only appropriate for adults. 

i think about that, and how my identity is something that people suggest lines up with a swear word. that people shouldn’t talk about it. that it’s a vulgarity. bad for children, harsh, confusing.

fuck. i love women. which one makes this only for those over eighteen.

all fanfiction is funnier and sexier and vastly better-written when you read it at three in the morning, in the dark, lying on your side, tucked into bed, with screen rotate turned off. that’s just how it works. that’s just facts.

Friends to lovers prompts please?

Friends - To - Lovers AUs

“I can’t keep doing this!”“Doing what?”“That’s exactly what I’m talking about. I can’t keep ignoring what we have.”

“I refuse to go from being friends from one minute to your lover the next. It’s tearing me up inside.”

I’m sorry. But I can’t stand watching you with them, they’re not good enough for you.

I can’t believe I’m lucky enough to have fallen in love with my best friend.

I was having a really shitty day and you turned up at my house with all my favourite foods and just said all the right things. Wow, why have I never seen you this way before?

It makes me feel sick to my stomach listening to you coo over your new partner. And the worst part is that I have to smile and nod like it’s not killing me inside. 

Something happened and we agreed to never discuss it again. For the past two months, you keep trying to bring it up but I shut you down every time. I don’t want to ruin what we have. 

“I’m a little bit nervous. I’ve rehearsed this in my head a lot and I just didn’t think I’d have the chance to say it.”“Well, why don’t you let me talk?”

“You knew? All this time you watched me get nervous and flustered and embarrass myself in front of you and you knew? Do you know how many times I laid in bed regretting every embarrassing thing I had said?

I only found out you were in love with me because your mum let it slip over dinner; and seriously??? you’ve loved me for that long?

This is possibly the worst way for you to have found out and I’m never going to live this down.

I didn’t have a date to prom so I joked that we should go together, I wasn’t actually expecting you to show up on the night in a dress/tux with flowers and a limousine??? you really went all out?

“so are you guys friends?”“yes.. no! yes — no. yes. it’s just complicated right now.”

You refused to tell me who your crush is so when you went to the bathroom I decided to read your diary because, as your best friend, I deserve to know. haha, I’m gonna find out who your crush i— holy shit, it’s me.

now that I know you have a crush on me, I’ve been debating whether to bring it up for the last half an hour and analysing every little thing you do and Jesus Christ, I don’t know if I can wait before you tell me.

“Let’s just pretend this never happened.”

“I’m not okay with just pretending.”

I never would’ve played that game of Spin the Bottle if I knew it’d change everything so much.

“It was just a game. It didn’t mean anything.”“It did to me.”

“No, we’re not dating. Why would you think we were?”“Have you seen each other together? Strangers probably think you’re married!”

Yeah, so I had a dream about you once and I keep thinking about what it’d be like if that was a reality.

Is that what my subconscious has been thinking about this whole time?

We’ve known each other for years and I can count on my fingers the number of awkward silences we’ve had. Why has that suddenly changed?

Ok, maybe talking about whether fish have feet would’ve been acceptable when we were friends but I think it’s just considered weird as a couple.

We never touch each other so when you patted my arm lightheartedly, I literally think my heart leapt out of my chest and danced. Please do that again.

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- Jess

♡ cute asks ♡

angel; do you have a nickname?

awe; how old are you?

baby; favorite color?

bloop; spirit animal?

blossom; favorite book/movie/song?

blush; what was your stuffed animal as a child?

breeze; most precious childhood memory?

bright; mermaids or fairies?

bubbles; do you have a best friend?

buttercup; showers or baths?

butterfly; dream destination?

buttons; are you religious or spiritual?

calm; favorite scent?

candlelight; what did you dream about last night?

charming; have you ever been in love?

cozy; eye/hair color?

cuddly; what’s your favorite time period?

cupcake; favorite flower/plant?

cute; what did you get on your last birthday?

cutie pie; most precious item you own?

cutsie; what makes you happy?

daisies; describe a moment when you felt free.

daydream; how do you want to be remembered?

daylight; favorite album of all time?

dear; zodiac sign?

delightful; concerts or museums?

dimples; have you ever written a letter?

dobby; dream job?

doll; how do you like to dress?

dovey; any paranormal/magical experiences?

dreams; do you want or have any tattoos?

drizzle; do you believe in aliens?

euphoric; talk about someone you love.

fairy; do you have a pet?

fluffy; ocean or mountain?

forever; where do you feel time stop?

froglet; are you a good plant owner?

garden; how many languages do you know?

gem; who are your favorite tumblrs?

giggles; what is your aesthetic of choice?

glittery; do you like anons? why/why not?

glow; list the top 5 things you like about yourself

heart; silk or lace?

honey; coffee or tea? how do you take it?

hugsy; do you enjoy people watching or bird watching more? why?

hunnybunch; what sounds help you sleep?

jewel; what’s your favorite kind of weather?

jiggly; what do you usually like to do on weekends?

joy; do you laugh loudly or giggle more?

kinky; do you blush easily?

kisses; what romantic cliché do you wish for most?

kitty; what’s your favorite time of the day?

ladybug; what’s your favorite artist to listen to when you’re sad?

love; what is your favorite season and why?

lovey; what is your favorite flavor of macaron and ice cream?

magic; what are five flaws you have?

moonlight; do you prefer soft pastels, warm neutrals, or cool darks?

munchkin; what do you look for in your significant other?

paddywack; how would you describe a perfect date?

pebbles; how do you spend free time by yourself?

precious; what is something valuable that you learned in your life?

pretty; do you like to cook or bake more?

prince; how would you describe your handwriting?

princess; do you play any instruments? if not, are there any you wish you could play?

prinky; how do you relieve stress?

pumpkin; what is your favourite kind of fruit/vegetable?

rainbow; what was the last line of the last book you read?

roses; what is the most significant event in your life so far?

smile; what is one thing that has greatly affected you?

shine; art or music?

shimmer; do animals tend to like you?

smitten; do you collect anything?

smoochies; how many pillows do you sleep with?

snuggle; what is your favourite candy?

snuggly; do you have a camera? if so, what kind?

sparkle; do you wear jewelry?

spooky; sunrise or sunset?

sprinkles; do you like to listen to music with headphones or no headphones?

starlight; what was your favourite show as a child?

soft; describe your favourite spot in your house.

soothe; digital or vinyl?

squeezed; who do you miss right now?

sugary; what traits do you value most in friends?

sunshine; do you prefer for things to be practical or aesthetically pleasing?

sweet; do you find it easy to open up?

sweetie; do you like kids? if so, do you ever want to have any?

thimble; is there somebody you look up to? who are they?

toot; what is something you find unique about yourself?

tootsie; what kind of friend are you?

treasure; what was something that made you smile today?

velvet; are you an early bird or a night owl?

whiffle; if you could have a magical power, what would it be?

whimsical; do you prefer doing stuff at home or going out?

whiskers; do you usually wear makeup?

wiggly; are you a messy or tidy person?

wispy; do you like the place where you grew up? do you think you will live there when you get older?

wobbly; have you ever wished upon a star?

“They say nothing lasts forever but they’re just scared it will last longer than they can love it.”

— Ocean Vuong, On Earth We’re Briefly Gorgeous

Hii!! I just want to ask if you have any tips or resources in writing character relationships?? Like I want to build a relationship between two characters in a relatively short time but i dont want it to feel rushed,,,,thank you so much!! Your blog has helped me alot!!

I have quite a few resources and advice on the topic of building romantic relationships in a story, so I’ve linked some relevant resources below that you might find useful:

How To Fit Character Development Into Your Story

Creating A Love Interest For An Introvert

 Writing Opposites Who Attract

Resources For Plot Development

Guide To Plot Development

Describing Heartbreak

 Developing Complicated Plots Around Characters

Writing Great Fanfiction

How To Write The Perfect Kiss

On Romantic Subplots

Resources For Romance Writers

Tips On Writing Skinny Love

Guide To Writing Friends To Lovers

Guide To Writing Enemies To Lovers

Guide To Writing Faded Love

Resources For Writing YA Fiction/Romance

Guide To Writing Will-They-Won’t-They

Rivalry vs. Abuse

Guide To Writing Forbidden Love

20 Mistakes To Avoid in YA/Romance

Balancing Fluff and Conflict

 Best Friends To Lovers Resources

How to develop an Emeies-To-Lovers story

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