Experiment-48 - Failed Experiment

Dissomutant

[PT: Dissomutant]

Dissomutant, An Dissospecies(link) subterm connected to thinking one is an Mutant and makes the person, whether it be because of delusional or IRL attachments, being an alter that species differs from the body, psychosis, etc., feel disconnected from their external species. This is not for "fun" or voluntary "I wanna be this ✨️", this also doesn't override the external species the person has.

Note: This is not relating to Mutants form the X-Men series, rather Mutanted by radiation and biohazards.

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Shartash Granite Quarry. Yekaterinburg, Russia

The Wolves in Wolf Blood (1925)

i think that when the scientists released me, they put a radio collar on me. idk how it would track me cause im sure the fact that i am highly radioactive would cause issues with any sort of tracking mechanisms. but maybe the radio calls and such i hear in my head from the scientists is that radio collar.

i just remember wearing something that had a blinking light on the end of a short antenna.

i can hear the scientists making observations about me still...even though in this body, i do not wear the collar physically.

maybe they somehow modified it to transmit messages through my brain as well? so that they can communicate with me even if the collar is gone?

its too soon to try and wear collars again even if i feel i should be wearing one. even if it was myself putting the collar on me, it feels too connected to all the trauma.

im not a pet, i don't need a collar. i have too much..pain associated with being made to feel like a dog. i dont wanna trigger that stuff to the surface even if i think having a collar would be affirming in some ways.

im sad that there is so much grief and pain connected to my dog side. i want to embrace it. i want to love being a dog as much as i am a wolf. but right now is not the time and i do not have the mental strength to process that trauma.

sorry for rambling about this constantly. trying to process my thoughts and writing it down helps me process things. talking it out and such.

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If it’s not at 12000cps of radiation, I’m not eating it. I know people are gonna get mad, but I’m a picky eater and you just have to accept that.

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