Summary: Snuggled up between your loving boyfriends, you listen quietly as they argue over who is the better cook. (Steve Rogers x reader x Bucky Barnes)
Word Count: 300+
A/N: I am basically using this as an introductory to more Stucky content without the age regression. I’ve done many with just Bucky x reader, so I am honestly not sure why I haven’t thought of this sooner. Steve would accuse me of playing favorites… (ᵕ•_•)
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You woke up slowly, the soft warmth of Steve and Bucky's bodies pressed on either side of you. Their steady breathing and the sound of their murmurs wrapped you in a cocoon of safety and comfort. The morning sunlight peeked through the blinds, casting a gentle glow on the room, but you were content just being there, between them. No missions. No battles to be fought. Just them.
Bucky shifted first, stretching lazily and groaning. "I’m tellin' ya, Stevie, I make way better pancakes than you."
Steve, already awake, chuckled softly. "You really want to start this again? You burn them every time."
"I do not!" Bucky shot back, his voice filled with playful offense. "They’re crispy, not burnt. There's a difference."
You suppressed a smile, keeping your eyes closed as you snuggled deeper into the blankets, enjoying the familiar rhythm of their playful banter. They had been doing this for months now, arguing over the most trivial things, and yet it always ended in laughter.
Steve let out an exaggerated sigh, clearly amused. "Sure, sure, Buck. Crispy like charcoal. You know, the kind you can’t even put syrup on without it crumbling."
“Better than your soggy mess,” Bucky retorted. “The secret is in the flip.”
You couldn’t help it anymore. A tiny giggle escaped from your lips, betraying the fact that you were awake. Steve turned his head slightly, smiling down at you.
“See? Told you they’re awake.” His voice was soft, warm, full of affection.
Bucky, ever the tease, leaned closer, his lips brushing the top of your head. “Oh, so you’re just gonna let me and him fight over breakfast, huh? Come on, you gotta choose. Who’s the better cook?”
You turned your head slightly to meet his mischievous gaze, then looked at Steve, who was giving you that calm, almost too innocent smile.
"I don’t know," You said playfully, your voice still thick with sleep. "But whoever makes breakfast better today gets the first kiss."
Both men froze. Bucky blinked, a grin slowly forming. "Oh, I see how it is. I can work with that."
Steve’s eyes sparkled with competitive fire. “Challenge accepted."
You laughed softly, content and grateful to have both of them by your side, even as they bickered over something as simple as breakfast. There was no place you’d rather be than sandwiched between them on a lazy morning.
Summary: Sent on a recon mission in the Carpathian Mountains, you treat it like a romantic getaway including but not limited to bath bombs, a sparkly kazoo, and one shared bed. Bucky remains constantly torn between exasperation and deep affection. (Bucky Barnes x chaotic!reader)
Word Count: 1.2k+
A/N: More fun stuff while I think of other stuff. Happy reading!!!
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To be fair, no one explicitly said it wasn’t a romantic vacation. Which is why, when Fury assigned you and Bucky to a “low profile surveillance op” in the Carpathians, your brain heard:
Secluded mountain lodge. Cozy fires. Spy sex.
So naturally, you packed accordingly.
Bucky blinked at the rolling heart-shaped suitcase you proudly hauled to the Quinjet, emblazoned in bold pink letters: “His & Hers”.
“What is that?” He asked flatly.
You grinned. “Our mission supplies, James.”
“I said pack light.”
“I did! This is vacation-light. I only brought four books, one board game, two full sets of bath bombs, a crockpot for ambience and a grappling hook.”
He opened the suitcase, found the glow-in-the-dark stars you planned to stick on the ceiling of the safehouse, and muttered, “We’re supposed to be covert.”
“And what’s more covert than a deeply-in-love couple on a sensual nature retreat where someone might accidentally dismantle a black market weapons trade?” You batted your lashes. “Besides, you love when I do the ‘danger honeymoon’ bit.”
He exhaled slowly. “I never said I loved it.”
“You didn’t have to,” You whispered dramatically, wrapping your arms around his neck and swaying like you were dancing to a song only you could hear. “Your eyes said it. Remember when I threw that flaming fondue pot at that one Hydra guy last time? There were hearts in your eyes.”
“There were burn injuries, sweetheart.”
“Burns of passion.”
He tried, really tried hard to look annoyed, but you saw it. The tiniest twitch of his lips. He kissed the top of your head like he was apologizing to himself for encouraging you.
“You’re lucky I love you,” He said.
“I am lucky. And hot. And very well packed.”
He peeked into the duffel again. “You brought a kazoo.”
“For distraction purposes.”
“You labeled it ‘Sexy Danger Kazoo.’”
You nodded proudly. “It has sparkles.”
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The Quinjet touched down just as twilight was bleeding over the dense Carpathian forest, a soft purple washing the sky. You hopped off with all the energy of a kid who just found out naps were optional as Bucky followed, grim-faced but patient, lugging a backpack that looked suspiciously heavier than your luggage.
The safehouse was an old cabin, camouflaged perfectly by thick vines and the shadows of tall pines. From the outside, it looked like it hadn’t been touched since the Cold War, but inside? Well… that was a different story. Stark had apparently outfitted the place with every modern convenience a couple on a "low-profile mission" might need. You immediately spotted the sleek coffee maker and made a beeline for it.
“Why do you think Fury left us here?” Bucky muttered, peeling off his jacket.
“Because this is the perfect place for a romantic getaway disguised as espionage,” You answered, pulling a ridiculous “MISSION: COZY” banner from your bag and hanging it over the cracked fireplace mantel.
Bucky froze, then rubbed his temples. “You are unbelievable.”
“I’m also in love with you,” You added, flashing a grin that was half apology, half challenge.
He sighed, shaking his head, but the corners of his mouth twitched upward. “Fine. But this is recon. Keep it professional.”
“Professional as in,” You plopped down on the one and only large bed, arms stretched wide, “Professional cuddles?”
Bucky’s eyes narrowed, and then his lips curved into something like a smile. “You know there’s only one bed, right?”
“Oh, I know. It’s your fault for not bringing a sleeping bag.”
“You knew that,” He said, sitting down heavily next to you.
“Details, details.” You leaned your head on his shoulder and pulled the blanket over both of you. “This is perfect.”
The silence that followed wasn’t awkward, it was comfortable. Bucky’s hand found yours, fingers lacing together like they fit perfectly. After a moment, you whispered, “So, what’s the actual mission?”
“Observe and gather intel. Don’t get caught. Probably freeze our asses off.” He let out a dry chuckle. “And babysit you.”
You smirked. “Babysitting, huh?”
“Yeah. Someone’s got to keep you from setting off the alarm with your kazoo.”
You pouted but laughed anyway. “Hey, I’m a tactical genius with a flair for drama.”
“And a flair for eating four bananas in one sitting,” He reminded you, eyes softening.
You groaned. “Don’t remind me. My stomach is still plotting revenge.”
He pressed a gentle kiss to your temple. “I wouldn’t have it any other way.”
The soft crackle of the fireplace was the perfect soundtrack to your “romantic” evening. Bucky, finally starting to relax after a long day of surveillance and your relentless banter, had just pulled the blanket tighter around you when you produced your “Sexy Danger Kazoo” from your jacket pocket. You gave him a mischievous grin.
“Want to hear my latest war tactic?” You whispered, raising the glittery instrument like a weapon.
Bucky’s eyes widened. “No.”
But of course, you played it anyway. A bizarre, off-key rendition of the Avengers theme that sounded more like a dying duck than a call to arms.
His sigh was so long it almost became a sound effect. “You’re impossible.”
“Impossibly in love,” You corrected, settling back down with a triumphant smirk.
Then, just as you were about to doze off, because even chaotic geniuses need sleep, the quiet night shattered.
CLANK.
The sound of metal scraping against metal echoed through the cabin.
Bucky shot up, pulling you with him. “Hydra.”
You blinked. “Already?”
He didn’t wait for you to grab your grappling hook or glitter gel pens. He was moving, fast and silent. You tried to follow, but your pajama pants tangled on the bedframe, and you stumbled, barely catching yourself on the wooden floor.
“Smooth,” Bucky muttered from the shadows.
The door to the cabin burst open, and two Hydra agents stepped inside, rifles raised. But before they could fully process their surroundings, a sudden blaring kazoo shattered the silence. Yours, of course.
“Surprise!” You yelled, charging like a glitter-wielding warrior.
Bucky facepalmed.
Before the Hydra agents could react, you whipped out a handful of glowsticks and started flinging them like grenades, the room suddenly glowing in psychedelic neon colors that were suspiciously brighter than any he had ever seen.
“What the hell is going on?!” One Hydra operative shouted, squinting at the glowing chaos.
Bucky took the opportunity to disable one with a swift punch, then ducked behind the counter to cover you.
“You did say you had distraction expertise,” He hissed.
You grinned wildly, still buzzing with adrenaline. “I’m a tactical genius. Trust me.”
The fight was brief but chaotic, involving a lot of slipping on stray bananas you’d left in the kitchen (don’t ask), glitter explosions from one of your surprise bombs, and a kazoo solo that was definitely more disorienting than tactical.
When it was finally over, Bucky turned to you, exasperated but undeniably impressed.
“You’re the worst mission partner I’ve ever had.”
“And the best,” You said, grabbing his hand and pulling him close. “But hey, if you wanted a boring recon op, maybe you should’ve asked Sam.”
He shook his head, smiling despite himself. “Next time, I’m bringing the actual weapons and leaving the kazoo at home.”
You leaned in, brushing your lips against his. “Now where’s the fun in that?”
Outside, the Carpathian night resumed its quiet, the stars blinking down on a cabin that was very much not low profile. But inside, you and Bucky knew something important:
Chaos was one of the only things you did well and somehow, it was working perfectly.
Summary: You take Steve and Bucky to an escape room for a fun, relaxing evening, but things quickly spiral into chaos. Both somehow ignore the obvious clues in favor of dramatic theories and property damage. You’re just trying to survive until you can successfully escape without a lawsuit. (Steve Rogers x reader x Bucky Barnes)
Word Count: 1.6k+
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You really should’ve known better.
The moment Bucky rolled up his sleeves and said “This’ll be easy,” you felt the first ripple of doom. You’d booked the escape room as a fun, harmless activity. Something like a little post-mission team bonding that didn’t involve hand-to-hand combat or collapsing buildings. You even picked a cheesy detective theme, thinking they’d enjoy something grounded and puzzle-y. Maybe even quiet.
You were wrong.
The three of you stood in the lobby of “The Great Escape,” surrounded by plastic magnifying glasses, dusty fedoras, and a suspiciously chipper staff member in suspenders and a fake mustache. She gave you the usual speech: 60 minutes to escape, no real danger, don’t break the props, yada yada.
Steve nodded solemnly like he was being briefed before an intense mission. Bucky? He crossed his arms and smirked. You could already tell his competitive switch had flipped.
The room itself was dimly lit and lined with fake wood panels. A ticking clock glowed red above the door while there were clues scattered everywhere ranging from files, books, old telephones, and even a fake fireplace. As soon as the door clicked shut behind you, Steve took a deep breath like he was about to deliver a speech at a press conference.
“We should split up to cover more ground. Look for patterns, numbers, keys. And be sure to keep a level head.”
You blinked. “It’s not a hostage situation, Cap.”
But Steve was already kneeling to inspect a lockbox with the intensity of a man deciphering enemy codes. Meanwhile, Bucky was tapping along the walls with the knuckles of his metal hand.
“Could be a hidden panel,” He muttered.
“Could be drywall,” You replied, dragging your palm down your face.
Ten minutes in, you had two clues solved and one increasingly serious argument about whether the bookshelf was a red herring or not. Bucky was now trying to climb it.
“James Buchanan Barnes, get down before you collapse the whole set!” You hissed.
He looked down, half-smirking. “It’s not real, doll. Look.” He gave it a little shove, just enough for it to creak ominously. You glared.
Steve, across the room, had located a cipher wheel and was mumbling to himself. “It’s gotta be a Caesar shift. Or maybe Morse code…”
“Steve, it’s literally a riddle that says ‘Look in the desk drawer,’” You pointed out, pulling it open and revealing a key taped inside.
He looked genuinely offended. “They’re dumbing it down.”
You exhaled through your nose. “Yes, they’re dumbing it down for people who aren’t 100-year-old super soldiers who do escape rooms like they’re battle strategy.”
By minute twenty, you were regretting everything. Steve had taken charge like a squad commander and Bucky had declared himself the “wildcard” of the team, which essentially meant “loose cannon with a metal arm and no patience.”
You were the only one actually reading the instructions on the wall.
By minute thirty, you’d reached the room’s second stage which was a secret chamber revealed when Bucky yanked on a wall sconce you definitely weren’t supposed to touch.
You all froze when the wall creaked and groaned like a bad horror movie. Then, with the slow drama of a B-grade haunted house, the panel slid open.
Steve actually clapped, cheering.
“I knew there was a hidden passage!”
“No, you didn’t,” You said, stepping cautiously inside. “You were still trying to decode that cipher wheel that said, ‘The butler did it.’”
The new room was darker with a desk, some faux-blood splatter, and a very questionable plastic skeleton slumped over a chair. Its skull was tilted sideways with a bowler hat perched on top of its head. There was also a magnifying glass clutched in one bony hand, and a suspicious envelope glued to its chest with “CLUE #6” scrawled across it in marker.
Steve stared at it. “I think we’re meant to… talk to him?”
Bucky narrowed his eyes. “Interrogate the corpse.”
You opened your mouth to say something, then thought better of it. You just took out your phone and started recording. For science… and for future blackmail.
Steve crouched beside the skeleton, folding his hands like he was addressing a witness. “We’re here to help. If you can tell us who killed you, we’ll bring them to justice.”
You bit your lip so hard trying not to laugh, you swore you tasted blood.
Bucky leaned over the desk and yanked the envelope from the skeleton’s chest.
Steve’s jaw tightened. “You’re contaminating the scene.”
“It’s a twenty dollar prop, Steve. I don’t think it’s going to trial.”
Then Bucky poked the skeleton’s head, making it fall off and clatter dramatically to the floor.
Everyone stared at it. Steve looked personally offended.
You raised an eyebrow. “Did you just decapitate our only lead?”
“It… it was barely hanging on anyway,” Bucky muttered, setting the skull back with exaggerated care. “These things happen.”
Steve knelt beside the fallen plastic remains, eyes full of regret. “He served his purpose. We thank him for his sacrifice.”
You threw your hands in the air. “It’s a skeleton, not a fallen comrade!”
The intercom crackled. “Hey guys,” The perky staff member’s voice rang out, “Just a reminder: Please don’t disassemble the props. Sir with the metal arm? Yes, you. Please don’t interrogate the decor.”
Bucky gave a small chuckle. Steve immediately stood at attention. “Sorry, ma’am.”
You looked between your two supersoldier boyfriends and the half-decapitated skeleton, then turned toward the camera in the corner and gave it a deadpan stare. “I just wanted a nice evening. That’s all. Just puzzles and maybe a little fun but no. Instead I get a dramatized cold case and two very intense golden retrievers with trauma.”
“Hey,” Bucky said with a shrug. “You’re the one who invited us.”
You squinted at him. “…You know what? That one’s on me.”
By minute forty-five, you were starting to suspect the real puzzle wasn’t the escape room. It was figuring out how you were going to survive this without needing a drink afterward. Bucky had taken it upon himself to test “structural weaknesses” in the fake brick walls. His version of “testing” was punching one lightly. With his metal arm.
The wall cracked and the room went silent.
From the intercom: “Please do not damage the set. Also, we are not responsible for injuries caused by over enthusiastic participation. Thank you!”
You turned on him like a storm. “What happened to ‘this’ll be easy’?”
“It is easy. The wall just looked suspicious,” Bucky replied, wiping fake cobwebs from his sleeve like a man with no regrets.
“It’s foam!” You yelled. “It’s suspicious because it’s clearly styrofoam!”
Steve, meanwhile, had discovered a locked chest with an old rotary phone on top. He was pacing in front of it like he was expecting it to ring with instructions from headquarters.
“I think it’s a code,” He murmured. “We dial something, and it opens. Maybe if we spell out a word using the numbers-”
“Steve,” You interrupted, pinching the bridge of your nose, “The clue literally says: ‘Dial 911 to unlock the final key.’ That’s not a code. That’s just instructions.”
Steve blinked. “Oh.”
He dialed 911 on the dusty phone. The chest popped open with a ding and a dramatic puff of dry ice that startled all three of you.
Inside was a black keycard and a note that said “Final door: 5 minutes remain.”
Bucky snatched the keycard. “Let’s finish this thing. I’ve got a hot date with a milkshake and a nap.”
Steve furrowed his brow. “We should think this carefully and plan. There could be traps in the last room.”
You looked between them and snorted. “What, like the staff’s gonna throw in a booby trap just to spice it up?”
“…They could,” Steve muttered. “It’d be unexpected, that’s good design.”
You made a mental note to ban both of them from anything resembling a mystery game for the rest of your natural life.
Then came The Moment.
You all stepped into the final room that was all dark with eerie music playing from a hidden speaker, and a blinking red countdown above the last door. Dramatic fog rolled out across the floor.
There was a button on the wall.
Just a red, glowing button with a sign above it that said:
“EMERGENCY ESCAPE – DO NOT PRESS UNLESS YOU GIVE UP.”
You hadn’t even opened your mouth to say “don’t” before Bucky pressed it. The room lights blared on and the music stopped. The countdown froze at 00:03 as you all stood in stunned silence.
The intercom crackled again.
“…So, you technically escaped, but also forfeited. That’s… a first.”
Bucky blinked. “What? It said emergency. I figured it’d blow something up. Or, like… open a trapdoor. Something dramatic.”
Steve looked personally betrayed. “We were three seconds away from winning with full completion.”
“You were still looking for tripwires,” You snapped. “I was reading the last clue. He just wanted to blow something up!”
Bucky looked sheepish. “You can’t give me a glowing red button and not expect me to press it. That’s on them.”
You stared at the ceiling like it might offer you divine intervention. “I invited two enhanced soldiers into a puzzle-themed children’s attraction. This is my fault. I accept that.”
As the final door clicked open and the staff came in to escort you out, one of them gave you a pitying smile.
“Hey,” She said brightly, “At least no one tried to climb into the air vents this time!”
You blinked. “Wait. That’s an option?”
Steve immediately looked intrigued.
You grabbed both their arms. “Nope. Out now. I’m buying you both ice cream so you don’t break anything else.”
hii!
since i saw that you’re taking request, can i request bucky having sex with reader for the first time since he’s free from hydra
thanks alot💕
Hello there, love. I do appreciate the request. However, I must say I’m not the most comfortable (or experienced) in writing hardcore smut or NSFW scenes like that. Therefore, I tried to fulfill your request within the boundaries of what I am capable of and hope you enjoy it!
I did try searching for stories similar to what you wanted. However honestly, if you look up the tag “Bucky Barnes Smut” you’d find a lot of amazing pieces by many wonderful authors. Happy reading!!!
Summary: The first time Bucky initiates something more with you. (Bucky Barnes x reader)
Disclaimer: MINORS DNI. Light NSFW, Intimate Scene(s)/Writing. You are responsible for the media you consume.
Word Count: 1.5k+
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The apartment was quiet in the way only early mornings could be. Still and heavy with sleep, but alive with the promise of healing. You sat cross-legged on the couch with a steaming mug in your hands, wearing a too-big hoodie that didn’t belong to you.
It was his, worn soft at the sleeves, smelling faintly of laundry detergent and something colder, metallic. But it was his. And he’d let you wear it.
You’d met Bucky Barnes six months ago. Not the Winter Soldier, not Sergeant Barnes, but the man just trying to remember how to breathe again in a world that didn’t flinch every time he blinked. You weren’t an Avenger, not some high-ranking agent assigned to keep tabs on him. You were just… you. A friend of a friend. Someone who’d offered him coffee the first day he showed up to Sam’s VA group meeting in silence. Someone who hadn’t looked at him like a ticking bomb.
You’d become something steady in his life, in a time when the ground beneath him never seemed to stop shifting. At first, he didn’t talk much. He just watched, nodded, and occasionally offered a small smile that always seemed to vanish before you could fully register it. But you saw the effort, the cracks in his armor. And you didn’t try to fix him. You just showed up.
Movie nights. Long walks when the city felt too loud. Dinners shared mostly in quiet until he began to speak. Conversations about the 40s. About Steve and Brooklyn. About nightmares that left him staring at the ceiling, heart pounding like gunfire. You never asked for more than he gave. And maybe that was why he gave you everything. Slowly, uncertainly, like a soldier dismantling a bomb he’d once called his own heart.
Now, six months in, he was staying more nights at your apartment than his own. He left a toothbrush here. A pair of socks. A dog-eared paperback he never admitted he liked.
He hadn’t touched you, not really. Not like that. He held your hand sometimes. His kisses were soft, hesitant, like he was still unsure if he was allowed to want something gentle. Sometimes, he’d touch your cheek and linger, gaze so intense it made your breath catch. But when things got too close, when the air thickened between you, he always pulled away. Apologized with his eyes before words even had a chance.
You understood though. He had ghosts, scars beneath the skin that memory could still tear open.
But something was different lately.
He stood in the hallway now, quietly watching you from the doorway. The way he always did when he didn’t want to wake you but couldn’t help himself. His hair was damp from the shower, curling a little at the ends. He wore a black shirt and gray sweats, both clinging to the strength of a body rebuilt for war, but now searching for peace.
“You always get up before me,” He murmured, voice still thick with sleep.
You looked up at him, gave him that soft smile, the one he once told you made his chest feel “too full.”
“You always need sleep more than me.”
He stepped into the room slowly, like he still half-expected something to snap. But it didn’t. It never did. Not with you.
“You’re warm,” He said, sitting beside you, fingers brushing against yours on the mug. “You always are.”
“Comes with being human,” You teased gently.
But he didn’t laugh. Not really. He just looked at you, deeper than usual, his hand now resting fully on yours.
“I think I’m ready,” He said quietly. His voice trembled just slightly, as if he wasn’t sure he had the right to say it out loud. “I want to… with you. If you still want me.”
Your heart beat a little faster. Not with expectation or pressure, but with the weight of the moment. Of everything he had gone through to get here. Of everything he was still fighting to reclaim.
You set your mug down. Reached for his hand. His real one first. Then the cold one, the metal one he always seemed hesitant to offer.
“Only when you’re ready,” You said, voice warm. “Only if it’s what you want.”
He looked down at your hands wrapped around his, one flesh and one forged.
“I want to remember what it feels like,” He whispered. “To want something. And have it… be good.”
You leaned forward, resting your forehead against his. Breathing him in. Grounding him.
“It can be good,” You promised. “We’ll make sure of it.”
His breath shuddered softly against your skin, and for the first time since he came back to himself, Bucky Barnes allowed hope to settle in his chest.
He kissed you like it was the first time he’d ever touched something fragile and wanted to keep it whole.
His lips were tentative against yours, unsure. You could feel the restraint in him, like he was holding back a flood he wasn’t sure you were ready for, but you were. You kissed him back gently, steadily. There was no rush, just the rhythm of shared breath and time-earned trust.
Your hand came up to cup his jaw, feeling the faint stubble under your fingertips. His eyes fluttered shut, and he leaned into your palm like he was starving for human contact. Safe, welcomed contact. You could feel the tension in his shoulders, in the careful way he gripped your waist like he thought he’d hurt you if he pressed too hard.
“You’re not going to break me,” You whispered between kisses.
“I’m not worried about breaking you,” He murmured, voice low and cracked. “I’m worried something in me will break.”
You brushed your nose against his. “Then let me help hold you together.”
That seemed to do something to him. A shift. A crack. A breath of relief through old fear.
He kissed you again, deeper this time. Still slow, but with more confidence, more heat that had been buried for too long. Your fingers tangled in the hem of his shirt, and he let you lift it over his head. The room wasn’t cold, but goosebumps rose across his skin anyway.
His body told a story even his silence couldn’t. Scars, some faded, some newer, moved in patterns across his chest and back like a map of wars he hadn’t wanted to fight. Your fingers traced one near his ribs, soft and reverent, never flinching.
“I’m not ashamed,” He said suddenly, quietly, like a confession he’d never dared speak.
You looked up. “I’m proud of you.”
Something in his throat worked at those words. His hands found the hem of your hoodie—his hoodie, and he paused. Waiting. Asking without asking.
You nodded, helping him lift it off you, letting him see you as you were: unpolished, raw, and trusting.
He kissed you again, but this time, his hands explored slowly. He touched like a man trying to memorize, not conquer. There was no rush. Just quiet understanding. Tenderness in the way his metal fingers grazed your shoulder, the way his flesh hand skimmed your spine like he was grounding himself in every inch of you.
When you moved to the bedroom, it wasn’t frantic. There was no tearing of clothes, no hurried gasps. It was soft. Purposeful. Like the world outside had finally gone quiet for both of you.
He took his time with you, worshiped really. Every kiss he pressed to your skin was a thank-you. For your patience. For your kindness. For being the one who hadn’t given up on him when he couldn’t look in the mirror.
He hovered above you at one point, breath ragged, eyes searching yours like he needed to make sure again.
“Are you sure?”
You nodded, holding his face in your hands. “I’ve never been more sure.”
And when he finally sank into you, it was with a soft gasp that cracked at the edges. He stilled, completely overwhelmed by the moment, by the intimacy, by you. You wrapped your arms around his shoulders, holding him to you, whispering soothing things against his ear until he started to move again, slow and unsure, but growing steadier with every breath.
It wasn’t perfect. It wasn’t choreographed. But it was real. Beautiful in the way only hard-won love could be.
He buried his face in your neck at the end, trembling slightly as the world narrowed to the rise and fall of your chests pressed together.
You stayed like that for a while, tangled in limbs and warmth, and your fingers moving gently through his hair.
Eventually, he whispered, “You make me feel human again.”
You kissed his forehead. “You always were. You just forgot for a while.”
His arms tightened around you, like he never wanted to let go again.
And for the first time in what felt like a century, Bucky Barnes fell asleep not as a weapon, not as a ghost, but as a man in love. Safe in the arms of someone who saw him not for what he’d done… but for who he was becoming.
Summary: Thrown into a tense alliance, you and Bucky Barnes clash into a rivalry with cold stares and harsh words. But when a rooftop fall, a late-night patch-up, and a brutal argument strip away both of your defenses, the truth hits harder than any mission ever could. (Bucky Barnes x Super soldier!reader)
Disclaimer: Reader has a similar serum as a super soldier.
Word Count: 3k+
A/N: Apologies if this seems messy. It’s not really a power that gives me much to work with, but it turned out alright in the end. Happy reading!
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You weren’t recruited. You were assigned.
Born from a black-ops experiment the government quietly buried once the serum stabilized, you were a living weapon they kept in their back pocket. A contingency plan. When word came that the Avengers might need more muscle in the field, they didn’t ask. They deployed.
You didn’t come to make friends. You came to fulfill orders and win.
And yet, here you were, staring across the mat at Bucky Barnes, the Winter Soldier himself, while Sam smirked from the sidelines and Steve muttered something about “team bonding.” You were here to train, but Bucky had that look again that said you’re not welcome here.
“Again,” You say flatly, shrugging out your jacket and stepping onto the mat.
Bucky’s jaw ticks. “Thought you’d had enough yesterday when I put you on your ass.”
Your lip twitches. “I slipped.”
“Sure you did.”
He circles you slowly, assessing. His arms are relaxed at his sides but you’re not fooled. He’s reading your stance, waiting for your weight to shift, for your hips to square. You’d be insulted if you weren’t doing the exact same thing. You lunge first, test him. He blocks it easily, metal arm catching your strike mid-air. You twist, pivoting into a sweep that nearly clips his ankle, but he hops back with a grunt.
“Getting slower, Barnes,” You mutter.
“You talk a lot for someone who hasn’t landed a hit all week.”
The sparring sessions had started as training. Then they became contests. Now, it was just war. He didn’t like the way you fought. It was too sharp, too efficient. You didn’t like the way he looked at you, like he recognized something he hated in himself.
You fake going left and land a solid elbow to his ribs on the right. The air leaves him in a hiss. He recovers fast, but not fast enough to stop the cocky grin that pulls at your mouth.
“Gotcha.”
He narrows his eyes. “Beginner’s luck.”
He rushes you, sudden and aggressive. For a moment, you're toe-to-toe, exchanging blows with brutal precision. Metal arm meets gloved knuckles. You both move like predators. Mirrored, practiced, and too much history in your blood to fight sloppy. Eventually, you end up on your back, panting, his knee pinning your chest, breath hot against your cheek.
“Yield,” He growls.
Your fingers flex against the mat. “Not a chance.”
He hesitates for a beat too long and that’s when you slam your forehead into his nose. He yelps, a very undignified sound you wish you had recorded, and rolls off with a curse, cradling his face.
You scramble to your feet, wincing slightly from the impact. “You get distracted too easily.”
He looks up, eyes narrowed, blood trailing from his nose. “You’re insane.”
You toss him a towel. “Takes one to know one.”
For a moment, the room goes quiet, both of you catching your breath. Then he says, “They trained you like me, didn’t they?”
You don’t answer. You don’t have to.
“I can tell,” He continues, voice lower now. “You fight like you’re not allowed to lose. Like you don’t know what it means to stop.”
Your jaw tightens. “Then stop underestimating me.”
“I don’t,” He says quietly. “That’s the problem.”
The air shifts. Charged and uneasy as you both stand there, bruised and sweaty. Too close and too silent. Then Steve’s voice cuts in from the hallway.
“Good session, you two.”
You step back. Bucky wipes his nose. Neither of you says another word. But the next day, he’s already waiting on the mat before you get there. And he doesn’t hold back anymore.
-
The compound is quiet at midnight. The kind of stillness that wraps around you and presses into your bones. You slip into the kitchen in your sweats, body sore from training, head still buzzing from the adrenaline you never quite know how to shake. You don’t bother turning the lights on.
The fridge hums in the background. The tile is cold beneath your feet as you reach for the kettle. Then-
“You always drink tea like you're in a British spy movie, or is this just your midnight ritual?”
Your spine stiffens. You recognize the voice behind you, of course you do. But you don’t turn around, acknowledging him in a flat tone. “Barnes.”
“Didn't peg you for the insomnia type.”
You glance over your shoulder. He’s leaning in the doorway like he owns the room. Loose black t-shirt. Arms crossed. Shadows catch the angles of his face just enough to make his scowl look carved.
You gesture at the kettle. “Some of us have things on our mind.”
He steps into the kitchen, walking past you to open the cabinet above your head. You don’t move from your spot. He reaches over you, brushing against your shoulder on purpose, you’re sure. His body heat trails behind him like a warning.
“Stealing my tea now?” You ask flatly.
“You took my towel earlier.”
“You were bleeding on it.”
“I was using it.”
You roll your eyes and pour the hot water into two mismatched mugs. He raises an eyebrow when you slide one over.
“Poisoned?”
“Not yet.”
You both sip in silence as the fluorescent light over the sink flickers. He leans against the counter across from you, sipping slowly as he watches you. He always watches like he’s looking for something, maybe cracks in your walls.
“You always like this?” He asks.
You tilt your head. “Like what?”
“Walled off and sharp edges. Acting like you don’t need anyone.”
Your jaw tightens, resisting the urge to roll your eyes. “Better than acting like you used to be someone else.”
His expression darkens. The silence stretches. You should apologize, but don’t.
“Right,” He mutters, setting the mug down. “Guess we’re both good at pretending.”
You don’t look at him, but your voice comes quieter than intended. “Maybe we don’t know how to stop.”
He hesitates, and you notice something shift in his tone.
“You hit hard,” He says.
“You go easy on me.”
He scoffs. “I don’t go easy on anyone.”
You glance up at him. “Then maybe I hit harder than you expected.”
His lips twitch, just slightly. “Maybe.”
You stand there for a moment, two supersoldiers in the dead of night, staring at each other over mugs of tea like it’s some kind of game neither of you knows the rules to.
Then he says, voice lower now, “You’re not like them.”
You blink. “Them?”
“Soldiers. The ones they send. You’re colder, smarter. Meaner.”
You smirk. “Flatter me some more, Barnes.”
“I’m saying I know what it feels like to be made for war and expected to act like a person afterward.”
Something sinks in your chest. Deeper than you want it to.
“You think I’m not a person?” You ask.
He looks straight at you. “I think you’re trying real hard not to be.”
That lands too accurately. Way too close to the bone. You grip the mug a little tighter. He notices, but doesn’t push.
“I’m going to bed,” You mutter, setting the mug down.
As you pass him, his voice follows.
“Don’t forget tomorrow. Training at seven.”
You pause in your tracks, glancing back at him with narrowed eyes.
“You trying to kill me?”
“No,” He says with a ghost of a grin. “If I was, you’d already be dead.”
You smirk just a little. “Maybe you’re getting slow.”
His smile fades, but something warm lingers in his eyes.
“You wish.”
And for the first time, your heartbeat feels less like a threat, and more like a dare you don’t know whether to act upon.
-
The comms crackle in your ear as the wind howls around the rooftop. Rain slicks the concrete beneath your boots. Below, the city lights blur and flicker, distorted by smoke, shadows, and chaos.
The mission was to apprehend the target then turn them in. A simple in and out. Something you should have been able to complete with ease.
But you had been ambushed.
You skid across the rooftop, breathe ragged, blood sticky under your ribs. Something’s broken, probably more than one thing, but you don’t stop. You can’t.
Bucky’s voice cuts through the storm as he calls your name, sharp and commanding, “You’re heading for the west corner. That fire escape’s blown out. Stop moving.”
You ignore him. Every second wasted is another second the target might vanish. You need to cut them off. You need to move.
“Damn it—”
The roof crumbles under your weight. You drop.
It’s not far, three stories, maybe, but pain flares bright as you hit a ledge hard, the edge of it catching your side with a crunch. You roll, barely catching yourself before you slide off completely.
And then he’s there. Hands on your arms. Dragging you up, fast, rough, and angry.
“What the hell is wrong with you?” Bucky’s face is too close, eyes wide, rain streaking through his hair. “You were told to pull back!”
“I had them!” You wheeze, swallowing the metallic taste of blood. “We can’t let them run-“
“You can’t breathe.”
You try to shake him off. He doesn’t let go.
You hiss, teeth gritting, “I didn’t need your help.”
“That’s not what it looked like when you were halfway to death’s door.”
His grip tightens on your arms, but it’s not pain he’s trying to inflict. It’s panic he’s trying to hide. His metal hand is cold from the rain and trembling just slightly. You hate that you notice.
You turn your face away. “I’ve survived worse.”
“That’s not the point.”
“Then what is it?”
“That I care, damn it!”
The words slip out hot and ragged, louder than the rain.
You freeze and so does he.
The only sound for a moment is the wind, and your breath, shallow and uneven between you. His hands drop away from your arms slowly, like he’s just realizing he touched you at all.
He backs up a step. “Forget it.”
You stare at him, stunned. Blood is still soaking through your shirt, but your heart is thudding hard behind your ribs and not from the pain.
“You care,” You echo quietly, almost like a question.
He exhales, clearly frustrated and embarrassed. “Forget I said anything.”
“I didn’t think you did.”
“I didn’t want to.”
You look at him. Really look. There’s a flicker of something soft beneath all that steel. Vulnerability edged with guilt. It’s the one of the first times he’s looked at you without his guard up. It’s one of the first times you’ve looked at him without wanting to hit him.
“You should’ve let me fall,” You whisper.
He shakes his head. “No. I shouldn’t have.”
He pauses for a moment before adding:
“And I wouldn’t have.”
You say nothing as he steps closer. He doesn’t touch you this time. Doesn’t need to. But his voice drops to a murmur only you can hear, “You don’t have to keep proving you don’t need anyone. I already know you don’t. But that doesn’t mean I’m going anywhere.”
You hate how much it rattles you. You hate that you believe him. You lower your gaze to your hand, still bloodied, still shaking slightly from adrenaline.
When you speak again, your voice is barely audible.
“Help me back up.”
He does.
This time, his hand stays in yours longer than necessary. And neither of you lets go first.
-
You hate medical bays. Always have. Sterile light. Quiet beeping. That faint scent of alcohol and regret. You had shooed away the staff, saying you could do it yourself and would call if you needed anything.
You sit on the edge of the bed, shirt peeled halfway off, bruises blooming violet-black across your ribs, blood crusted at your temple. You’ve already tried to patch yourself up, but your hands won’t stop shaking and the gauze keeps slipping.
Bucky walks in without knocking.
You glare up at him. “Ever heard of privacy?”
He tosses a med kit onto the table and takes off his jacket. “You lost that privilege when you almost threw yourself off a roof.”
You scoff, but don't argue.
He opens the kit, pulling out antiseptic and gauze, and stands between your knees without asking. You don’t stop him even though you should, his admission earlier still echoing in your mind.
He dips the cotton in alcohol. “This is going to hurt.”
“I’m not new.”
He raises a brow. “Then stop flinching.”
You open your mouth to snap something back but he presses the soaked cotton against the gash on your side before you can, and pain sparks like electricity up your spine. Your hand shoots out instinctively and grips his arm. You feel the muscles tense under your fingers.
“Still not flinching?” He murmurs.
You grit your teeth. “Screw you.”
His lips twitch, barely.
The silence that follows is tight and thick, like something fragile stretched to the edge of breaking. His hand moves gently now, slower, wiping away blood. His touch is careful in a way that makes your chest ache more than your ribs.
You glance up at him. He’s too close. And he’s not looking at the wound anymore, he’s looking at you.
You could lean in. Just a little. You could close that impossible space and finally… you don’t. He doesn’t either.
Instead, he murmurs, “You don’t take care of yourself.”
You look away. “Don’t need to.”
“Bullshit.” His voice is low. Angry. Not at you, at whatever taught you to think like that. “You treat your body like it’s disposable.”
“Maybe it is.”
The silence that falls after that isn’t the kind you fill. It’s the kind that hurts.
He gently presses a bandage against your ribs, then tapes it in place. His fingers linger on your skin for a moment longer than necessary.
“You’re not disposable,” He says quietly. “Not to me.”
You freeze. There he goes again.
The air shifts. Then you do something you didn’t expect, you reach out and touch his jaw. Just two fingers, gently as if to test the weight of your own choice.
He doesn’t pull away. But he doesn’t move closer, either. You draw your hand back like the moment never happened. But it did.
“I’ll change the dressing tomorrow,” He says, voice rough.
“I’ll be fine,” You reply, just as quiet.
He turns to leave before stopping in the doorway.
“You don’t have to keep doing things alone,” He says without turning around, and then he’s gone.
You sit there for a long time after. Holding your breath like it’s the only thing keeping you from falling.
-
As time passes and you’re assigned to go on more missions, the tension between you and him builds for better or worse.
You had recently returned from a solo mission. The compound is quiet, but the air inside the training room crackles with something volatile. You slam the door behind you, furious.
And he’s already there. Bucky’s pacing with his gloves off and shirt clinging to his back. His jaw is tight and his hands are fisted like he’s been holding back from punching something or someone.
“I told you,” He growls, not even looking at you, “Not to go in alone.”
“I handled it.”
“You were shot.”
“I’ve been shot before.”
He spins on you, blue eyes wild. “That doesn’t mean it’s fine!”
You throw your bag down, with a frustrated sigh. “Why do you even care, Barnes?”
He’s on you in seconds; closer than he should be, breathe sharp with adrenaline and frustration.
“Because I’m tired of watching you bleed for people who wouldn’t do the same for you!”
“You think I don’t know that?” You snap. “You think I don’t feel that, every time I’m stitched up in some cold-ass medical bay while everyone else celebrates the win?”
His face is stone, but his eyes… God, his eyes are raw.
“Then why?” He demands. “Why keep doing it? Why keep throwing yourself at the fire when you know no one’s coming to pull you out?”
You try to shove him hard, but doesn’t move. You hate that he cares. You hate that he can’t just ignore you and view you as a tool like everyone else. When you go to answer, your voice is loud and it cracks:
“Because I don’t know how to stop!”
There it is. The silence after that is explosive. You’re both breathing hard, staring at each other. Daring the other to say something that will break the last barrier you’ve both kept between yourselves. That fragile, stupid boundary you’ve both pretended exists.
He takes a step forward and you match him.
His voice drops, dangerous. “You think I don’t see it? How you act like you hate me, just to keep from admitting you don’t?”
Your heart kicks into your ribs. “You don’t know anything.”
“I know you fight me harder than you fight anyone else.”
“Maybe because you deserve it.”
His jaw flexes. “Or maybe because you’re scared.”
“Of what?”
“Of wanting something real.”
You watches you flinch like he hit you, but he doesn’t back down. “You act like I’m the enemy, like pushing me away makes you stronger, but every time you fall, you look for me. Don’t lie.”
You swallow hard. “Don’t act like you don’t do the same.”
You’re chest to chest now. The air is boiling. You can feel the heat coming off his skin. Your hand is still curled in the fabric of his shirt from when you shoved him, but you haven’t let go.
He looks at your mouth and you look at his. The moment stretches before it breaks.
“You want to hate me?” He breathes. “Then say it.”
You stare at him, trembling now.
Say it, You tell yourself. End it. Push him away for good.
But the words won’t come. Instead, you whisper, too soft, too vulnerable:
“I don’t.”
That’s all it takes.
His mouth crashes into yours like a dam breaking. Like something starved, angry, desperate. You kiss him back just as hard, fingers in his hair. His hands grips your waist, then your back, then your face like he’s afraid you’ll disappear if he doesn’t hold all of you at once.
It’s not gentle. It’s not clean. It’s everything you’ve both tried not to feel. But it’s real.
When you finally pull back, barely, his forehead rests against yours. No words are shared. Just slow shaky breathing and the terrifying, undeniable truth:
You don’t hate each other. You never did.
Summary: You joined a cult. That’s it. (Bucky Barnes x chaotic!reader)
Word Count: 900+
A/N: Same as the unhinged/chaotic reader series, supposed to be shorter but then I added more group chat shenanigans. I wanted something quick while I work on other stuff. Sorry if it’s messy. Happy reading!!!
Main Masterlist | Earth’s Mightiest Headache Masterlist
Bucky Barnes had one job: watch your back on the infiltration mission.
He didn’t know that meant literally watching you disappear into a torchlit temple deep in the mountains and emerge forty-eight hours later in robes, glowing, smiling cheerfully, and being worshiped as the reincarnation of a snake god.
“They call me The Hissening,” You whispered, eyes far too wide, far too smug.
“I told you not to touch the statue,” Bucky muttered, pinching the bridge of his nose as the robed people behind you chanted in perfect sync: “HISSSSSSS.”
-
48 HOURS EARLIER
The briefing was simple. Infiltrate and investigate a rising cult rumored to be a Hydra front. No weapons. No overt powers. In and out.
Naturally, Tony turned to you and said, “You’re on distraction duty. Just… go be yourself.”
You took it as a compliment. It was not.
You and Bucky parachuted into the outskirts of the mountains under cover of night, both in tactical gear. Silent and focused… until you turned to him mid-descent and yelled, “DO YOU THINK CULTS HAVE SNACKS?”
“…What?”
“LIKE HOLY GRAHAM CRACKERS OR- wait, no, Blessed Chex Mix!”
He didn’t respond. He just stared straight ahead, wondering for the millionth time what cosmic punishment he was paying for to be partnered with you on this particular mission.
The problem was never that you were bad at missions. In fact, in combat, you were terrifying. Strategic. Surgical.
But in deep cover? You were yourself, which is how exactly five minutes after entering the temple courtyard, you said:
“Nice snake statue. Can I boop it?”
And when the head priest responded, “Only the Chosen One may lay a finger upon the sacred Fang of Enlightenment,” You touched it immediately, whispered “boop,” and passed out.
When you woke up, glowing faintly with what may have been divine energy (or some type of poisoning), the cult declared you their prophesied leader.
You didn’t correct them.
-
BACK TO PRESENT
Bucky had finally gotten inside. Posing as a new recruit, hood up, mouth shut, inner turmoil vibrating at a ten. He spotted you instantly. You were standing on a golden platform, arms open, and being fanned with palm leaves.
“Hey,” He hissed when he reached you. “Mission. Hydra. Ringing any bells?”
You waved vaguely. “They have really good soup here.”
“This is not the time for soup.”
You nodded solemnly. “There is always time for soup.”
Someone handed you a ceremonial staff. You took it. It was sparkly.
You then whispered to Bucky, “So here’s the thing… I might’ve said we should cleanse our enemies in a fire of spiritual rebirth. Which they interpreted as actual fire. So, like… maybe be cool about that.”
He blinked at you.
“You started a holy war, didn’t you.”
You smiled brightly. “Only a small one.”
That night, under cover of darkness, the two of you escaped; you still in full ceremonial garb, Bucky dragging you by the elbow while you shouted goodbye to your “disciples.”
One of them threw a snake at you in farewell. You caught it. You named it Gary.
Steve, upon your return, asked what happened.
You saluted and said, “I was a god for three days and it changed me. Also I have this soup recipe now.” You handed him a scroll. When he opened it, it was blank.
Bucky looked at you, exhausted, covered in ash, a little bruised, holding a snake in one hand and your glitter-covered robes in the other.
“…You are the weirdest thing that has ever happened to me,” He said.
You winked. “But I’m your weirdo.”
“Yeah, you are.”
-
Bonus Debriefing.
Group Chat:
Tony: Okay, so. Roll call. Who let them start a religion??
Clint: AGAIN?!?
Sam: Are we seriously ignoring the snake?? Why does she still have the snake?
You: his name is Gary, he chose me
Bucky: The snake did not choose you. You caught him and said “I am your mother now.”
You: and he accepted me
Wanda: Did you eat something weird again? The last time you said a goat “chose you” we had to evacuate a whole town.
Steve: Back up. How did we go from “infiltrate Hydra cult” to “being crowned a divine prophet of the hiss age”?
Bucky: Because she touched the sacred artifact. While they were giving a warning not to.
You: i wanted to boop it 🐍✨
Bruce: [Image attached: Security cam still of you dramatically booping a snake statue and passing out like a Victorian child seeing ankles.]
Tony: Okay but why are you glowing in this?
You: i think I absorbed a minor god
Sam: Define “minor.”
You: likeee a demi-snake. A snack god
Bucky: You said, quote: “Let the hiss of salvation whisper in your soul or something.”
Tony: You started preaching???
You: they gave me a podium! what else was I supposed to do? NOT use it!?
Natasha: …Yes?
Clint: wait, so did we ever find out if the cult was a Hydra front or…
Steve: Nope. She gave a sermon and declared Bucky her “divine enforcer.”
Bucky: Yeah. Still mad about that.
You: srry Prophet Punchy
Tony: We are never letting you go on recon again.
Bruce: I still want to know how you pulled off a glowing aura with no tech or magic.
You: I ate three glowsticks on accident.
Wanda: …
Steve: …
Bucky: This is not a joke. I watched it happen.
You: I thought they were minty tubes.
Sam: Was anyone else weirdly inspired by her speech though?
Steve: Sam.
Sam: I’m just saying I felt something 🐍
Bucky: I felt betrayal and secondhand shame.
You: don’t worry guys, the cult disbanded peacefully. i left them a doctrine :)
Tony: A what.
You: [Image attached: Crayon drawing of a snake with sunglasses saying “BE NICE. EAT SOUP. HISS IF THREATENED.”]
Bruce: This is shockingly coherent.
Clint: I hate how effective it is.
Thor: I would like to join this religion. It seems wise. HISS.
[Thor has been muted again.]
Summary: During a meeting, everything becomes too much for you. Your fathers notice instantly, bringing you to a quieter space and reassuring you that you don’t always have to be big. (Stucky x little!reader) [Disclaimer: Age Regression!]
Word Count: 1k+
You hadn’t expected it to be this loud. The conference room at the compound is packed. Agents, teammates, unfamiliar faces. And everyone’s talking over one another. The sound is a rising tide, voices blending into a thick, dizzying fog. You try to focus on Steve’s voice across the table, but his words get swallowed in the noise. Your chest tightens. The lights seem too bright. Everything feels too big.
You shift in your seat and grip the edge of your chair. The room starts to close in. You know you’re supposed to be “big” right now, supposed to sit still, be quiet, and listen. But your hands are shaking. Your breathing gets shallow. Your skin prickles like it’s not your own.
Across the room, Bucky sees it before anyone else does. He watches the way your shoulders curl inward, the way you glance toward the door, your eyes wide and glassy. He doesn’t say anything at first. Instead, he just stands, quiet and steady as he crosses the room.
“Hey,” He murmurs, leaning down beside you, his voice cutting through the chaos like a lifeline. “Come with me.”
You nod quickly, not trusting your voice. Your fingers twitch as he gently guides you out of your chair, one hand warm on your back. No one stops you. You keep your head down as Bucky leads you out of the room and down a quiet hallway. Steve is swift to finish his part, excusing himself from the meeting to follow the both of you to the elevator. His brow creased with quiet worry.
“Too much?” Steve asks softly.
You nod again, clutching your sleeves.
Steve opens his arms. “C’mere, sweetheart.”
You don’t hesitate. You fold yourself into his chest, breathing in the steady rhythm of his heartbeat. He wraps you up without a word, one hand moving gently over your back. Bucky stands beside you both, a silent guard keeping the world at bay.
“You’re okay,” Steve says into your hair. “You’re not in trouble. You didn’t do anything wrong.”
“It was just a lot,” Bucky adds, his voice low and calm. “Happens to all of us.”
Your fingers fist in the front of Steve’s shirt. It’s quieter here. Safe. You still feel small and shaken, but their presence helps ground you, like anchors when everything else is spinning.
“We’re gonna go upstairs,” Steve murmurs, kissing the top of your head. “Someplace quiet. Somewhere just for us.”
Bucky offers you a reassuring look, and you manage the smallest nod. Between the two of them, you’re brought to the elevator and out of the noise. No questions. No judgment. Just warmth and comfort and calm. And for the first time all morning, you feel like you can finally breathe again.
As Bucky presses the button to their floor, the elevator hums softly as it rises, the gentle motion lulling you into a calmer rhythm. You stay tucked against Steve’s chest, your cheek resting against the fabric of his shirt. He doesn’t shift or speak, just holds you close with the quiet patience he always has when you’re in this kind of space. The small, overwhelmed version of yourself you rarely show anyone else.
When the doors slide open, the light is different. Softer. Warmer. Bucky steps out first, leading the way down the familiar hall to one of your favorite quiet rooms. Not particularly a bedroom, not an office either. Just a little tucked-away space with soft blankets, shelves of books, and no expectations. It's a place meant for slowing down and today, that’s just what you need.
Steve gently sets you down on your feet but doesn’t let go of your hand. “We’re here,” He says softly. “You did good.”
Bucky’s already over by the low couch, pulling down your weighted blanket from the shelf and setting out your favorite comfort item. A soft, floppy stuffed dog you’d once found in Steve’s old storage trunk and quietly claimed as yours. He lays it down like it belongs in your hands.
You cross the room slowly, not quite ready to speak yet. The buzzing in your head is starting to fade, but your body still feels too big and too small at once. You curl up on the couch as Bucky drapes the blanket over you. It smells like the laundry soap Steve uses. Like safety.
Steve kneels in front of you. “Do you want us close?” He asks gently, “Or some space for a bit?”
You pause, then mutter out the former. He understands instantly. He always does. Within seconds, both of them are settled nearby. Bucky sitting at the foot of the couch, his arm resting along the cushion behind your legs, and Steve sitting on the floor with his back against the couch, one hand resting where your knee peeks out from under the blanket. They don’t ask you to talk. They don’t ask you to explain. They’re just there. The chaos of the meeting long forgotten.
You clutch the stuffed dog in your hands, the weight of the blanket pulling you back into your body, little by little. You can hear Steve hum softly, a melody you can’t place. Something old and calming as you feel Bucky’s thumb draws quiet circles against the side of your calf.
Minutes pass. Maybe more. Eventually, you whisper, “Sorry.”
Steve looks up at you, soft and warm. “For what?”
“For… needing to leave.”
Bucky’s voice is gentle but firm. “You don’t have to be sorry for listening to your body. You told us without even using words. That’s brave, doll.”
You blink, eyes stinging again, but not from fear this time. From relief.
“You don’t have to be big all the time,” Steve reassures as always, tilting his head to meet your eyes. “Not with us.”
You nod slowly, the tension finally slipping out of your shoulders. You’re not sure you’re ready to go back downstairs. Maybe not for a while but right now, here, wrapped in their quiet protection, you feel safe and that’s enough.
Summary: Things start to shift as Captain Bucky Barnes begins offering quiet comforts, protecting you more than necessary, and ignoring chances to trade you for riches. As time progresses, he slowly begins to reveal the possessive intensity growing beneath his calm exterior, insisting he won’t give up something he now considers his. (Pirate AU! | Soft!Dark!Bucky Barnes x reader)
Word Count: 2.6k+
Main Masterlist | Part 1
Four days passed.
Four sunrises since they’d taken you. Four sunsets since the Captain handed your letter off to a quiet courier ship that slipped away before dawn. You'd watched it from your cabin window, how quickly freedom could vanish over the horizon.
You didn’t beg, didn’t plead. You stayed sharp. Quiet. Unshaken.
You were worth more that way anyways.
Bucky didn’t speak to you every day, but you always felt him. Heard his voice outside. Saw him at a distance on the deck, barking orders, speaking low with Natasha or Steve. Always in motion. Never laughing. Never smiling.
He didn’t treat you like a prisoner, but he didn’t treat you like a guest either.
You weren’t chained, but you weren’t free either.
Instead, your days began to take on a strange routine. Natasha brought you food. Sam taught you how to climb to the crow’s nest, “in case of emergency,” he said dryly. Clint started tossing you small knives like a game, and after catching one, you earned a surprised look and a rare grin.
But it was Bucky who lingered in your thoughts, even when he wasn’t near.
Because when he was, when he did appear at your door, or pass you at the railing, or glance over during a storm briefing, something inside you tightened. Not in fear.
In something… else. And that scared you more than the pirates ever had.
It was the fifth night when the storm came.
Not the kind you could plan for. The kind that crept up and swallowed everything.
The sea rose in black walls. Rain fell sideways. Sails groaned and snapped. The deck became a blur of boots and ropes and shouted orders.
You were in your cabin until a hard knock nearly broke the door open.
“Move!” Steve Rogers barked as he shoved it wide, soaked and scowling. “Below deck’s flooding. Captain wants you up top!”
You didn’t hesitate.
Water slammed against the ship as you emerged. Wind tore at your hair. Salt stung your eyes. You tried to move, but the deck was chaos. Voices screamed. Ropes whipped past.
And then, suddenly, you slipped.
Your foot went out from under you and your body slammed hard against the slick wood. You skidded dangerously close to the railing, heart in your throat.
A flash of silver.
Then, arms. Solid and unyielding. A metal hand grabbed your wrist, hauling you upright.
Bucky.
“You alright!?” He barked over the storm.
You could barely hear him, but you nodded, coughing.
“Stay by me!” He ordered, pulling you toward the center of the deck. His grip was strong, possessive. Protective. “Don’t go near the railings again.”
“I can handle myself!” You shouted.
Lightning flashed. He yanked you closer, face inches from yours.
“Not out here, you can’t.”
You didn’t respond. Couldn’t. Because in that moment, between the thunder and the crashing waves, you saw something raw flicker across his face.
Panic.
Not rage. Not annoyance.
Real panic.
For you.
But then it was gone. Buried beneath that cold command again. His hand stayed tight on your arm until the sails were secured and the wind began to calm.
By the time dawn broke, the storm had passed. Half the crew collapsed where they stood. And you? You were back in your cabin. Drenched, bruised, exhausted, and alive.
And not alone.
Because Captain Barnes was still there.
He sat at your desk, staring out the tiny window in silence. Rain trickled down the glass. His coat was soaked through, his hair curling at the edges.
You were the one who broke the silence.
“You didn’t have to pull me back.”
He didn’t look at you. “Yes, I did.”
You hesitated. “Why?”
His jaw ticked. And then, finally, he said it:
“Because I need you alive.”
For the ransom. You told yourself that. You repeated it. Over and over.
But still, you couldn’t shake the feeling that something in his voice had cracked just a little.
Like maybe the ransom… wasn’t the only reason anymore.
The aftermath of the storm was worse than expected.
Sails had torn straight through like paper. The main mast groaned each time the ship tilted, splintered deep at its base. The lower deck reeked of damp wood and blood. Two crewmen were injured, one hobbling with a splint, the other stitched along the thigh by Bruce’s shaking hands. Everything was heavy, slow, and weighed down by exhaustion.
Everyone looked to the Captain for rest.
But he never took it.
Bucky Barnes hadn’t stopped moving since the storm broke. He bled from a shallow cut above his eyebrow, his shirt clinging to him with seawater and sweat, his left arm glinting faintly beneath the torn sleeve where metal met flesh. He worked beside the others without pause, pulling down ruined rigging, knotting new lines, and securing down crates that had nearly gone overboard.
He snapped orders, yes, but took the brunt of the labor himself. Anyone who tried to help him too long was pushed away. He only let Steve in briefly. Sam was told to “get some goddamn sleep before you fall.” Even Clint got barked at. Twice. Loud enough for the whole ship to hear.
You watched it from the shadows of the main deck. No one told you to stay inside this time, but it didn’t matter.
No one approached you because no one dared.
Because wherever Bucky was on the ship, his eyes found you. Every time. A flick of his gaze across the chaos, checking to make sure you were still there. Still standing. Still breathing.
You weren’t stupid though. You knew you weren’t here by invitation, but the way his attention lingered like he was measuring every step you took, every glance someone else gave you, it felt like more than caution.
It felt like possession.
By the time the sun began to sink beneath the horizon, bleeding gold across the sea, most of the crew had slumped into hammocks or curled up against the railing. Their strength was spent. Their hands were blistered. Natasha was sat cross-legged by the stern, boots off, and sharpening a blade. Steve had a rag over his shoulder and blood on his knuckles.
But Bucky?
Still moving, walking, and silent. And still looking at you.
You didn’t expect him to stop and you certainly didn’t expect him to approach.
But he did.
He didn’t speak at first, just reached into his long coat and pulled out something wrapped in cloth. He held it out to you like it was nothing. Like it was just another piece of rigging. No ceremony. No explanation.
Your brow furrowed as you took it, and paused. It was a bundle of tea leaves. Expensive. Familiar. Yours.
The very same kind you’d rationed in private aboard the merchant vessel. The one your father had specially imported from the southern ports. You hadn’t seen it since your capture.
Your breath caught. “What is this?”
Bucky met your eyes, his voice calm and low. “It’s what you drank. Every night. You had a tin in the third drawer under your bunk.”
Your fingers curled tighter around the cloth. “You went through my things?”
His expression didn’t change. “No.”
There was a heavy pause.
“I watched.”
He said it without shame. Without even a flicker of hesitation. Not as an apology, but a statement of fact. Like it was perfectly acceptable for him to have memorized your nightly rituals, your favorite comforts, your private moments. Like remembering your tea preference was as natural as remembering your name.
You didn’t know what to say.
So you said nothing and took the tea.
That night, while the crew slept on soggy hammocks and patched sails above deck, you returned to your small cabin and hesitated at the door.
Something had changed.
You stepped in slowly. The air was warmer, more lived in. A single candle flickered on your writing desk, its wax halfway down. Someone had been here. Not long ago.
Your cot had a new blanket, thick, woolen, and dark red. The kind only traded in coldwater ports, expensive. There was a tray on your desk: warm food, not salted rations. A bowl of soup, still steaming faintly. Someone had left a small pile of books beside the basin of clean water, all untouched. All clearly brought for you.
You moved through the room like someone sleepwalking, fingertips brushing over the thick material of the blanket. The stitching was tight. Professional. Not stolen, but commissioned.
Your gaze went back to the tea in your hand. This wasn’t care. This was curation. A room transformed not for comfort, but for keeping.
The next afternoon, Clint dropped beside you on the steps of the upper deck without asking. His bow was slung lazily over one shoulder, and he had a half-smile that didn’t quite reach his eyes.
“He’s gone full beast-of-burden over you, y’know,” Clint muttered, cracking his neck.
You gave him a sidelong glance. “Over me?”
He jerked his head toward the main area. “Split his side open on a broken hook this morning. Refused stitches. Nat tried and got yelled at. Steve tried, got decked.”
“I didn’t ask him to–”
“You didn’t have to,” Clint cut in, low and dry. “He doesn’t do this. Not for anyone.”
You looked down at your hands, then back toward the bow of the ship, where Bucky stood in the light with his coat snapping in the wind, shirt sticking to his back, and movements deliberate. He was tired, controlled, and still working. Always working.
Clint watched your silence for a long beat, then added, “By the way, the courier returned.”
Your stomach turned.
“What courier?”
“The one from your ransom letter. It came back yesterday morning, just before dawn. You were asleep.”
You froze. “And?”
Clint scratched at his stubble. “Your father agreed. Said he’d pay double if we delivered you before sundown. Yesterday.”
Your heart stopped cold.
“…And Bucky?”
Clint gave a single, humorless chuckle. “We’re still sailing.”
You sat very still, fingers clenching in your lap.
It wasn’t about ransom anymore.
It hadn’t been since the night he pulled you from the storm. Since he started bleeding just to keep your world warm. Since he began rearranging his entire ship not for profit, but for you.
He was still calling you a prisoner. Still keeping his voice calm and his gaze cool. Still pretending this was about leverage.
But deep down, somewhere twisted and raw, you knew.
You weren’t being held. You were being claimed.
And Captain James Barnes was going to ruin himself to make sure the sea never got close enough to take you away again.
The silence between you and the Captain had changed. It wasn’t the kind that came from two strangers occupying different corners of the same ship. It wasn’t even the kind that hung between captor and captive, like smoke refusing to clear. This silence had weight now. An edge. A sharpness that pricked at your skin the longer it stretched on.
You hadn't spoken to him since Clint told you the truth. That your ransom had been accepted, that your father had offered to pay double for your return, and yet… you were still here. Still breathing sea air, still wrapped in expensive blankets, still sipping the tea he brought you with hands still bleeding from work he refused to delegate.
It wasn’t about money anymore.
It was about you.
And now, as the stars blinked into view and the crew fell into the hush of exhaustion, you found yourself climbing the steps to the quarterdeck where Captain James Barnes stood alone, silhouetted against the darkening sky.
He didn’t turn to acknowledge you. His posture was rigid, boots planted wide at the helm, coat rippling faintly in the breeze. You saw the faint shimmer of sweat clinging to the back of his neck. He hadn’t rested. Not since the storm. Not since you.
“Captain,” You called out, voice steady despite the tightness in your chest.
He didn’t turn.
“You’re not supposed to be up here,” He replied coolly, eyes fixed on the horizon.
You took another step closer. “We need to talk.”
“I’m busy.”
“No.” You exhaled slowly, letting the truth gather at your tongue. “You’re stalling.”
He stilled, if possible, even more. The tension in his frame told you he knew what was coming and that he’d hoped to avoid it.
“The courier came back,” You said, watching him.
He didn’t respond. The ocean moved rhythmically against the hull in the stillness.
“My father,” You continued, “He offered the ransom. You got your price and could’ve handed me over. Sailed away, bought a new ship, and paid your crew for months. But you didn’t.”
Still nothing.
You stepped closer, until only a foot of space separated you, and the smell of salt, leather, and blood clung to the air between you. “Why?”
A long, heavy beat passed.
Then he said quietly, voice so low you nearly missed it: “Because I don’t take payment for something I’m not giving up.”
The world slowed.
Your breath caught in your chest, stuck between a heartbeat and something more dangerous.
You stared at him. “I’m not a thing.”
At last, he turned to you. The moonlight caught his eyes, blue-gray and unreadable. There was no smile on his lips, no mockery or cruelty. Just something deeper. Something darker. A quiet, burning want that he didn’t even bother trying to hide anymore.
“I know,” He murmured.
You felt your heart thrum faster, uncomfortably loud in your chest. “Then what am I to you?”
His gaze dragged over you slowly, like he was memorizing every line of your face. His voice, when it came, was quieter than before. More raw. “You were leverage. Then you were a risk. Now…”
He paused, jaw twitching as if the words cost him something.
“Now you’re the only thing on this ship I give a damn about.”
It landed in your stomach like the drop of an anchor. You could barely breathe around it.
You backed up half a step. “I’m not yours.”
A flicker of something passed through his eyes, regret maybe. Pain. But it vanished just as quickly, replaced by something steadier. More resolved.
“No,” He said, softly. “Not yet.”
The quiet between you stretched taut, like the edge of a blade held between steady hands.
He wasn’t threatening you. Not physically. But there was no mistaking it. This man who killed for coin and bled for reputation was unraveling all of it at the altar of you. Quietly and willingly, with the same discipline he commanded his crew with. He was turning that need inward, carving out space in his world that only you could fill.
You tried to look away, but you couldn’t. Not when he looked at you like this. Like he already belonged to you and was just waiting for you to realize it.
That night, your cabin was still warm from the candle someone had lit. The blanket still soft beneath your hand. The tea already steeped, left in silence. But it felt different now.
Not like comfort, like a gift. Like a man who didn’t know how to love gently, but was trying anyway.
You moved to the window of your door and pulled back the curtain.
And there he was. Outside your door, seated on a barrel with his sword laid across his lap, the shadows swallowing the lines of exhaustion in his face. He wasn’t guarding the ship anymore.
He was guarding you.
And as the wind picked up, tugging gently at his coat, he looked up, eyes catching yours through the window, steady and unblinking.
He didn’t nod, didn’t speak.
But in that stillness, you understood.
This wasn’t about gold. It wasn’t about power, pride, or war. It was about you.
And if someone came to take you now, even if they offered kingdoms in return, he’d burn every last one of them to the sea to keep you.
Can you write a Bucky x reader fic that has the red string of fate/invisible string soulmates theory? I haven’t seen anyone write these and I think it could be kinda angsty and fluffy
Hello there, dear! I loved this idea, very unique. I think this turned out more angst than fluff, but I can definitely write additional follow ups to include more fluff later on! Hope you enjoy it and thank you for the request! Happy reading!!!
Summary: You’ve always felt the red string of fate for better or worse, but when it finally leads you to Bucky Barnes; both of you avoid each other, too afraid of ruining the other. Over time, the unspoken tension wears you both down until a forced confrontation finally brings the truth out. (Soulmate AU! | Bucky Barnes x reader)
Word Count: 3.4k+
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You’d never believed in soulmates.
Not really. Not the way some people did, anyway. Like the ones who walked around with hearts in their eyes and poetry in their throats. The ones who would obsess over the faint, red threads that sometimes coiled around their pinkies like destiny’s leash. Or those who made dating decisions based on whether the string tingled or tugged, like a compass spinning toward fate.
You didn’t have the luxury of romantic idealism. Not when your string had spent the better part of a decade ruining your life.
Every time you tried to date someone or every time you flirted with a guy in a bar, went out for drinks, or even let someone kiss you, the string would pull. Tug. Burn. Like it was punishing you. And worse than the pain, worse than the guilt that bloomed inexplicably in your chest, was how it always ended the same way.
Knots. Tangles. Snaps.
The relationship would basically implode. The person would leave, or you would. One guy had even blamed you for making him feel “haunted.” He said he felt like there was always someone watching him when he was with you. Another girl you tried to date had burst into tears during dinner and said she couldn’t stop thinking about someone else, someone she’d never even met.
You didn’t know who your soulmate was and honestly, you didn’t want to. It wasn’t romantic, this invisible leash tied around your soul. It was exhausting. Unrelenting. And frankly? It made you bitter.
So you stopped dating. You stopped looking entirely and threw yourself into work.
As fate would have it, that’s when you were recruited to work logistics for the Avengers.
It was supposed to be your fresh start. You handled team schedules, mission support, resource allocation, and emergency routing. You kept your head down, did your job, and ignored the fact that the red string on your finger never stopped humming faintly.
But then came James Buchanan Barnes, arriving late on a Thursday, trailing quiet steps and old guilt. You watched his arrival from the corner of the control room, fingers curled around a lukewarm coffee mug. He didn’t smile and he barely spoke. He was all shadow and silence, hunched shoulders and downcast eyes. You tried not to look. Tried not to care.
But the moment he entered the building, your string flared. It was like someone had grabbed it from the other end and yanked.
You had gasped as the mug fell from your hand and shattered on the tile.
Everyone turned toward the sound, but you didn’t see them. Your vision had narrowed to the throb in your finger, to the ache in your chest, to the man who hadn’t even looked your way. A stranger. A storm in a suit. You turned and fled the room before anyone could stop you.
That night, you stared at your ceiling, wide-eyed, red string pulsing faintly under your skin. You knew what it meant. Knew it in your gut. Knew it the way birds know where to fly in winter.
Your soulmate had arrived. However, you told yourself it was just a coincidence.
The red string pulsing against your finger? It was reacting to stress. Nothing more. You’d been tired lately, maybe spent too many long nights in the compound and dealing with too many high-stakes missions on the board. That had to be it.
But that lie didn’t hold when Bucky walked by you for the third time that week in the hallway, his steps heavy, his eyes fixed straight ahead; and still, the string pulled.
And it wasn’t subtle. Not the kind of whispering ache you were used to. No, this was worse. The thread practically yanked toward him like it knew him, like it had been waiting years to be close again. Every time he got near, your body reacted before your brain could stop it. Your heart would race. Your lungs would freeze. And that thread would burn under your skin like fate was trying to dig itself out.
So you kept your distance.
You shifted your schedule. You took your lunch breaks earlier. You stopped using the gym after hours and switched to morning training, even though you hated mornings. You turned the other way when you heard his boots in the hallway, and when you had to be in the same room whether it be for briefings, tech updates, or field intel, you sat at the opposite end of the table. Silent and still.
You didn’t speak to him. You didn’t even look at him. Not that he noticed anyways. Or so you thought.
What you didn’t realize and what you couldn’t see, was that Bucky was avoiding you too.
He had noticed you the moment he arrived, even if he hadn’t looked. Not directly. Not openly. But he’d seen you. You were the one in the back of the room with the broken mug, eyes too wide, mouth set in a line too tight for a casual expression.
And then you’d vanished like a ghost.
He felt… off after that. There was a sensation in his chest he couldn’t name. A quiet wrongness. Something half-forgotten and buried deep.
So he started walking different routes through the compound. Skipping meals he didn’t want just to stay out of the kitchen when you were there. Ducking out of gym sessions early. He didn’t speak to you either. Not because he didn’t want to, but because he couldn’t. He didn’t know why he felt so tense around you, so hyperaware, but it made him feel cornered.
And afraid.
He’d spent years under control, under programming, under orders. Soulmates were a fairytale. A luxury. Not something made for someone like him, someone HYDRA had hollowed out and filled with blood.
And still… the red string that had dulled during his Winter Soldier days now hummed faintly every time you passed. He refused to look at his hand, refused to follow the string. And maybe you mistook that for indifference. Maybe he mistook your silence for hatred.
So the two of you danced around each other like gravity and defiance, orbiting but never colliding.
But the string? The string never gave up. It tangled tighter. It pulled harder. And it waited for one of you to give in first.
-
When you weren’t avoiding Bucky, you did get to meet a lot of the people you worked with and for. Of course, you weren’t close to many people at the compound.
But Sam?
Sam Wilson had a way of sneaking into your life like sunlight through blinds. He didn’t try to crack you open or ask too many questions. He just showed up.
You bonded over coffee at first. Both of you were early risers, though for very different reasons: you, out of anxious insomnia; Sam, out of habit built in warzones and battles. Eventually, those quiet mornings became more than just caffeine. They became small check-ins. Casual jokes. Breakfasts shared across mission briefings. Banter that made you feel less like background noise and more like a person.
He never pushed. But he noticed. Especially when it came to Bucky.
At first, Sam chalked it up to coincidence.
The way you’d leave a room the moment Bucky entered. The way Bucky’s shoulders would tense whenever he sensed you nearby. How neither of you ever looked at each other, even when seated at the same table. At first, Sam thought maybe something had happened between you like an argument, a disagreement, or maybe even a past mission gone bad.
But then he started noticing the timing.
The way Bucky took the long route to the gym. The way you checked the corridors before turning into them. The way your fingers would twitch toward your covered hand like something itched beneath the skin. The way Bucky kept glancing at his hand when he thought no one was watching.
That was when Sam’s brow started furrowing.
Because he’d seen the red string of fate work before. He’d seen it between two agents back in his SHIELD days, an unspoken bond visible only under certain lights, but always felt. He remembered the tension, the ache, the gravitational pull people fought even as it dragged them closer.
And he saw that same tension between you and Bucky, but worse.
Because you weren’t just soulmates avoiding each other. You were ghosts haunting each other. Two people pretending not to bleed from the same wound.
Even Steve noticed too.
The Captain didn’t say anything outright, he rarely did honestly, but he lingered longer in rooms where you both occupied opposite ends. His gaze flicking subtly between you. He frowned when Bucky avoided eye contact. He narrowed his eyes when you left too quickly, your knuckles white around your clipboard.
Natasha, on the other hand, didn’t bother pretending.
“You’re not subtle,” She told you one evening, arms crossed as you reviewed intel in the common room.
You blinked at her. “About what?”
She raised an eyebrow. “About him.”
You flushed. “I’m not… there’s nothing-“
Nat cut you off with a shrug. “You can lie to yourself. Just don’t expect it to fool anyone else.”
And then she walked off, leaving you burning with the realization that the others weren’t just noticing, they were waiting. Waiting for the moment the string snapped or finally pulled taut enough to bring you both crashing into each other.
However, it was Sam who decided he was done waiting.
You hadn’t noticed how often he brought Bucky into conversations with you. It started off casual at first, asking your opinion on mission tech when Bucky was in the room, suggesting both of you work on the same security drill. You kept dodging it. Sidestepping the awkwardness. Swallowing your discomfort. But Sam wasn’t blind.
One morning over coffee, he finally leaned in across the table and said, “You know… you can’t outrun a red string.”
You stiffened before slowly looking up.
Sam didn’t smile. He just looked at you in a calm and unbothered way, but his expression was knowing.
“Is that what this is?” You asked quietly. “You think he’s…?”
“I don’t think,” Sam said. “I see.”
You looked down at your hand, hidden under your sleeve.
“It’s been burning since the day he arrived,” You whispered.
Sam’s voice gentled. “Then maybe it’s time to stop pretending it’s not there.”
You didn’t respond. You couldn’t.
So Sam just nodded once and added, “If you won’t say something, I will.”
You thought he was bluffing so you changed the conversation and let it go.
-
Meanwhile, Bucky was having a considerably hard time as well. He didn’t mean to notice, but he did.
He noticed everything, really. Supersoldier senses, it was a curse he couldn’t shake, a leftover from too many years being trained to sense threats before they moved. But you? You weren’t a threat. Not to anyone but maybe him.
You were the one person he hadn’t been able to read. Not because you were guarded, though you were, but because being near you made something in him short-circuit. Your presence wasn’t like anyone else’s. It was too still. Too loud in a way that had no sound. Like something had been missing in him for years, and you were the reminder of it.
So he continued to avoid you, but he didn’t stop watching.
He noticed how often you sat with Sam in the mornings, how the two of you laughed over quiet jokes and mismatched mugs. He noticed the way you let your shoulders relax around Wilson. Like relax, in a way you never did around Bucky. Not when you saw him. Not when you passed each other in the hall and he kept his eyes on the floor.
You looked safe with Sam.
And it twisted something in Bucky’s chest that he didn’t like to name.
He told himself it was good. Better, even. That you should be around someone like Sam who was someone stable, someone warm. Someone who hadn’t been forged into a deadly weapon like him. You deserved easy mornings and easy friendships. You deserved a soulmate who didn’t have a kill list longer than your entire history. You deserved someone who wasn’t haunted.
He told himself the ache in his ribs every time you laughed with Sam was just guilt. That it wasn’t jealousy. But the thread on his finger tightened every time.
And when he caught the way Sam looked at the space between you and Bucky; the unspoken one, the thread-pulled one, he knew.
Sam knew.
But Bucky still wouldn't do anything about it. Because if he acknowledged it, if he gave in, what then?
What if you hated him for it? What if the string only existed to remind you both that fate was cruel? That the universe thought it was funny to pair a bruised heart like yours with someone who'd broken a hundred others with his bare hands?
So he didn’t speak, didn’t reach out, nor explain why he left every room you were in like it was on fire.
But the rest of the team saw it all. And Bucky could feel the confrontation coming. Like thunder in the distance.
-
It was Sam who finally shattered the stalemate.
You were in the tech wing, running diagnostics on the quinjet for tomorrow’s mission. The lab was quiet, humming with low light and LED glow, and you were just beginning to enjoy the silence when the door hissed open and you heard his voice.
“I thought this hangar was clear.”
Bucky’s voice. Dry, flat, and instinctually distant.
Your head snapped up and there he was. Standing in the doorway, a tablet in one hand, brow furrowed in that perpetually tired way of his. His eyes met yours for half a second before you looked away.
“Sorry,” You muttered. “I’ll finish later.”
You started to pack your tools, but Bucky didn’t move. He didn’t walk in but he didn’t walk out either.
Then, suddenly:
“Oh, for God’s sake.”
Both of you turned, just as Sam Wilson stormed through the opposite door.
He looked between you like a fed-up parent catching two stubborn kids refusing to apologize.
“I knew it,” He muttered, pointing a gloved finger between you both. “You two. You’re doing it again.”
“Doing what?” You asked sharply, far too quickly.
Sam gave you the flattest look imaginable. “That ‘I’m avoiding him but also vibrating like a tuning fork every time he enters the damn room’ thing. You’ve been doing it for weeks.”
“I haven’t-“
“Yes, you have.”
He turned to Bucky. “And you. Man, you’ve been walking the long way around the building just to dodge someone you haven’t even spoken to.”
Bucky’s jaw tensed. “I didn’t-“
“Don’t.” Sam cut him off. “You two are tied together like moths to a flame and it’s getting real uncomfortable to watch. Just talk. Ten minutes. That’s all I’m asking.”
You opened your mouth to protest, but Sam was already stepping out the door. The door closed behind him like a gavel.
Silence followed, thick and immovable. You didn’t dare move as you were still gripping the edge of the diagnostics console like it could anchor you, but it couldn’t stop the sting behind your eyes.
You could feel him.
Even with your back turned, you knew Bucky hadn’t left. You could sense him, feel him, just like always. That subtle magnetic pull low in your gut, the electric hum at the edge of your skin. The red string wasn’t just glowing now.
It was buzzing.
You didn’t need to look to know it arced across the space between you like a live wire. Still, you didn’t move. You couldn’t. Because you weren’t ready to hear what he might say. That this wasn’t real. That he didn’t want it. That you weren’t enough.
“…I didn’t mean to make you uncomfortable,” He said, voice rough.
The sound of it broke something open in you.
Your throat tightened. “You didn’t. I just…” You swallowed, still not turning around. “I figured you didn’t want anything to do with me.”
A pause.
Then, quieter: “That’s not it.”
You turned slowly.
He was standing near the wall, not quite meeting your eyes. His shoulders were tense, jaw set like he was bracing for a punch. Your voice came out in a whisper.
“…You feel it too?”
God, your voice. It hit him like a bomb shell.
He nodded slowly. “Since the moment I saw you.”
You flinched, like that was worse. Like it made things harder, not easier.
“I didn’t think I’d ever feel it again,” He said quietly. “HYDRA… what they did to me, whatever magic’s in this string, it… it went silent for a long time. I thought it broke. I thought I broke it.”
You stepped closer, the red between you pulsing brighter. Bucky’s chest ached with the way your eyes held sorrow instead of hope.
“It came back when I showed up,” You stated, not a question. A fact.
He nodded again. “And I ran from it. From you.”
“Why?”
He looked away.
Because I don’t deserve a soulmate, he thought. Because I’ve hurt too many people to believe someone could be mine. Because if I touched you and you pulled away, I think it would kill me.
“I thought…” He exhaled shakily. “I thought the universe was playing a joke. Giving me something good just to watch me ruin it.”
Your gaze softened. That pain in your eyes, that was familiar. Too familiar. He saw himself in it. All the years of pretending you didn’t need the thread. All the little heartbreaks you must’ve carried in silence.
“I thought the same thing,” You said quietly.
You stood inches from him now. The string was glowing full-force, twisting gently between you like it had been waiting years for this moment. You could both feel it pulsing like your hearts hammering in your chests.
You lifted your hand. So did he. And then, finally, you both touched.
It wasn’t magic. Not really. There were no sparks or flashes of light. But the moment your fingers brushed in that slow, hesitant, gentle way, everything settled. The ache. The noise. The burning uncertainty.
It went quiet.
The thread between you pulsed once, deeply, and then simply rested as though it had been holding its breath this entire time.
You exhaled. So did he.
“Hi,” You said softly.
His voice broke around the answer. “Hi.”
Neither of you moved at first. Your fingers were gently wrapped around Bucky’s, his calloused palm tentative against yours, like he wasn’t sure if holding you would make the thread vanish or knot tighter. You half-expected to feel overwhelmed. But instead… everything in your chest finally stopped clenching.
Even though you felt peace, still, you hesitated.
“Just because we’re connected…” You began quietly, eyes flickering to the thread that now glowed with an even, steady rhythm between your hands, “…doesn’t mean we have to do anything. We don’t owe it anything… or each other.”
Bucky’s eyes lifted slowly to meet yours. You expected resistance, or maybe guilt. But instead, he gave you the smallest nod.
“I know.”
You blinked. “You do?”
His jaw worked for a moment like he was chewing on the words before speaking them aloud.
“I’ve had enough of people making decisions for me. I’m not gonna do that to you.” He swallowed. “If you want to take it slow—or walk away, I won’t stop you.”
You could see it, feel it in him. That deep, worn-in belief that letting go was the only good thing he had to offer. The way he held your hand like he expected you to pull away at any second.
But you didn’t.
“I don’t want to walk away,” You said. “I just… want to breathe for once. And not feel like I’m ruining something just by existing.”
That caught him off guard. He flinched, not from your words, but from the echo of them.
“Yeah,” He whispered. “Me too.”
And the thread didn’t demand anything. It didn’t pull you closer or tighten like a leash. It just existed as a steady tether, a presence, like the quiet hum of a heart still beating after the worst of it has passed. Still glowing. But content, now. Patient.
“I don’t know what we’re doing,” You admitted quietly.
“Me neither.”
You hesitated. “But I’d like to figure it out.”
Bucky didn’t say anything at first. But after a long moment, he held your hand a little tighter almost as a confirmation. You gave him a small smile, finally feeling like you didn’t have to rush toward something. You could just… sit in it. Let the connection exist without a name. Without pressure. Without promises you weren’t ready to make.
The string between you flickered once. Steady and. Not binding. Not demanding. Just waiting. And for the first time, you weren’t afraid to wait with it.
Summary: You finally get to meet a talking raccoon whom tries multiple times to bargain for your boyfriend’s metal arm. (Bucky Barnes x chaotic!reader)
Word Count: 1.3k+
A/N: Requested by @daystarpoet and @michaelfuckinglangdon which was super fun to fulfill and imagine. Happy reading!!!
Main Masterlist | Earth’s Mightiest Headache Masterlist
You were mid-bite of a bagel (untoasted, cold, probably two days old, yet still incredible) when a voice said, “You gonna eat that, or are you just giving it mouth-to-mouth?”
You froze.
Your eyes scanned the room. Empty except for Bucky, still in the hallway arguing with Stark about defensive systems. And then, sitting on the counter next to the coffee pot like he’d always belonged there, was…
A raccoon.
A small, vaguely pissed-off raccoon standing on two legs, holding what looked like a plasma rifle, wearing a jumpsuit, and staring at your bagel like it owed him rent.
You blinked.
He blinked back.
Then, with the certainty of someone who’d clearly never interacted with you before, he added: “You alright there, human? Or did you have a stroke while chewing?”
You stood up slowly, eyes wide. “You can talk.”
Rocket snorted. “Wow. You must be the brainy one around here.”
“Okay, no like- I knew there was a raccoon on the ship. Bucky told me. I just thought he was exaggerating. Or having another weird Winter Soldier-flashback dream thing.”
“Ex-cuse you,” Rocket said, leaping off the counter and stalking toward you. “I’m not just some Earth-trash mammal with a vocabulary. I’m Rocket. I’ve broken into more heavily-armed fortresses than you’ve had dumb thoughts.”
“That’s a bold claim,” You said. “Because I believe the moon is just Earth’s emotional support rock and thunder is just the sky clapping for itself.”
Rocket squinted at you. “…okay, yeah, maybe I underestimated you.”
You leaned forward slowly, eyes narrowing in awe. “You’re so small. And yet, the homicidal energy is enormous. You’re like if Bucky had fur and worse impulse control.”
“Hey-“
You turned to where Bucky had finally entered the room and was already sighing. He didn’t even look surprised. “Yeah, that’s Rocket. Rocket, this is the disaster I’m dating.”
You beamed. “He talks! He walks! He’s a death machine in a jumpsuit! I love him. This is so validating.”
Bucky rubbed his temples. “Please don’t encourage him.”
Rocket perked up immediately. “Wait… you’re dating the arm guy?”
You paused. Looked at Bucky. Then back at Rocket.
“…Yeah?”
A slow, terrifying grin spread across Rocket’s face.
“You got any plans for the arm?” He asked casually. “Like… long term?”
You tilted your head. “Other than excessive touching and probably biting it during arguments? No.”
Rocket rubbed his furry little hands together. “Because I have a few ideas. Think we could reach a business agreement? Little trade? You get, say… a box of Kree tech I may or may not have stolen, and I get to borrow the arm.”
“Borrow?” You asked. “Like, while Bucky’s still wearing it?”
“Oh no,” Rocket said gleefully. “I mean borrow in the very permanent, kind of dismember-y sense.”
Bucky crossed his arms. “You touch the arm, you lose yours.”
Rocket scoffed. “Killjoy.”
You grinned, still watching the two of them bicker like this was the most normal day of your life. Honestly, it was close. You had once gotten into an argument with Sam about the physics of penguin knees for forty-five minutes. This? This was pretty average.
Rocket narrowed his eyes. “You sure you’re not a Guardian? You’ve got the same mix of brilliant and brainless I usually work with.”
You put your hands on your hips. “You think I’d survive five minutes on your ship? Clint holds it against me that I once put a Pop-Tart in the microwave in the wrapper. I’m a walking OSHA violation.”
Rocket smirked. “I like you.”
You beamed. “I like you too, murder rat.”
“Raccoon.”
“Tomato, to-mah-to.”
Bucky, in the background, stared into the middle distance like he was reliving every bad decision that led to this exact moment.
-
While the two of you clicked in some strange way, it became increasingly exhausting when you realized Rocket was not a quitter. Not when it came to schematics, explosions, or black-market tech auctions. And certainly not when it came to Bucky Barnes’ vibranium arm.
The first time he brought it up again, you were eating spaghetti with a fork that bent mid-twirl because you'd put it in the dishwasher with an experimental metal compound. You stared at the spiraled noodle carnage with mild offense.
Rocket, perched on the back of the couch, cleared his throat. “So. Hypothetically. If someone were to give you a fully operational piece of alien tech that projects holograms and can play music through bone conduction-“
“No,” You said without looking up.
Rocket scowled. “You didn’t even let me finish!”
“You said ‘hypothetically.’ That’s code for ‘I want to take Bucky’s arm again.’”
He grumbled something in what might’ve been space-raccoon swear words.
You smiled faintly. “Also, holograms and music? Tempting, but I already built something that projects TikToks onto the wall when I whistle the opening to Phantom of the Opera.”
Rocket blinked. “…You need to be studied.”
You stuffed more spaghetti in your mouth and spoke through it, “I have been. Briefly. They sent me home with a helmet and a fidget cube. 2/10. Never again.”
The second time was more of a performance. Rocket had dragged you into a secure SHIELD hangar with a tarp over something massive.
“This,” He said dramatically, yanking the cover back, “is a rebuilt Sakaarian battle drone. She sings, flies, and makes waffles. Trade you for the arm.”
You took one look, gasped, and immediately sprinted past him.
“Oh my god! She has a toaster slot!?”
Rocket beamed. “So we have a deal?”
You turned, clutching the side of the drone with wide, reverent eyes.
“No,” You said, “but I will name her Beepie.”
Rocket’s face fell. “You’re not even gonna run this by him?”
You gave him a look. “Rocket. I love you. You’re the first talking raccoon I’ve met that wasn’t a hallucination and validated my belief that half the raccoon species are murderous. But if you think I’m trading even one bolt of Bucky’s arm, which, by the way, I have kissed more than I care to admit, then you don’t understand the depth of my insanity.”
There was a long pause. Then:
“I’ll throw in a jetpack,” Rocket muttered.
You gasped. “With adjustable altitude?”
“Yep.”
“Still no,” You said even though your answer sounded like it physically hurt you.
The third time, he got sneaky.
You were tinkering in the lab late at night, hunched over a circuit board, tongue sticking out in deep concentration, when Rocket skittered in and dropped a sleek metal glove onto your desk.
“Custom-made,” He said nonchalantly. “Enhanced dexterity. Built-in taser. Perfect for a girl with too many ideas and not enough restraint.”
You barely glanced at it.
“Rocket.”
He leaned in. “You could build anything with this. A gravity-flipping belt. Portable wormholes. A coffee maker that actually respects you. All I need is-“
“Bucky’s arm. I know. I’m not stupid.”
“Debatable.”
You gave him a tight-lipped smile and leaned in conspiratorially. “Here’s the thing, furball. That arm? Not mine to give. I didn’t build it. I didn’t earn it. I just kiss it sometimes and occasionally let it hold snacks. I love him. I’m not trading a part of him. Even for cool stuff. Even for toaster robots.”
Rocket looked genuinely surprised. “You’d really pass up a Sakaarian war-toaster… for him?”
You nodded. “Yeah. Even when he leaves wet towels on the bed. Even when he sighs like an old man every time I rewire the TV to play Jeopardy in reverse.”
There was a beat.
Rocket groaned, flopping onto the table in defeat. “You’re the worst. The absolute worst.”
You grinned and patted his head. “Thanks, murder rat.”
“Raccoon.”
Bucky appeared in the doorway then, raising a brow as he took in the scene: Rocket sulking, you cradling a vibro-glove like it was a puppy, and your very serious expression of moral superiority.
“I don’t wanna know,” He said dryly.
You beamed. “Good. Because if you did, you’d probably start sleeping with your arm chained to your chest.”
Summary: After being kidnapped, you resist at first by giving them the silent treatment, wary of your captor’s friendliness. However, their subtle kindness, attention, and respect slowly chip away at your defenses; leaving you questioning where you truly belong.
Disclaimer: ANGST, Mentions/Alludes of Kidnapping aftermath.
Word Count: 2k+
Main Masterlist | The One You Don’t See Masterlist
They didn’t come in with threats. No electric shocks. No screaming demands. Just a door that opened with a soft click and a chair across from yours.
The man who sat across from you wasn’t in tactical gear. He wore dark slacks, a black sweater. Not unlike someone who might’ve passed you in the Tower lobby. He smiled like he already knew the answer to the question he hadn’t asked.
“You were with the Avengers for how long?”
You didn’t answer. You moved your gaze back down, not even looking at him.
“Certainly long enough to know where the mission reports were stored. Long enough to predict patterns in deployment rotations. Long enough to keep the Tower from burning down with its own disorganization.”
He leaned forward slightly. Not threatening. Not close. Just… present.
“But not long enough,” He added, “for any of them to remember your birthday.”
That made you flinch, just slightly. And he noticed. You hated that he noticed. He didn’t press the moment though. He didn’t need to.
“They talk about being a team,” He continued after a pause. “A family. But families don’t let people like you walk out the door unnoticed.”
You clenched your jaw. The silence between you curled tight.
“You kept them alive more times than you probably realize,” He added, tapping the table once. “And they never even learned your name.”
Still, you didn’t speak. And still, he didn’t stop.
“That report you corrected on Sokovia’s evac timeline?” He said. “Saved twenty-seven lives. And that comms system update you suggested but didn’t get credit for? We used it. Works better for us, too.”
You looked up at him then, and he smiled like he’d won something.
“You were never invisible,” He said. “Just standing in the wrong light.”
Even though you didn’t grace him with a response, he didn’t seem to mind. Instead, he presented you with a terminal. No shackles. No threats. Just a system full of flaws you could fix with one hand tied behind your back.
You didn’t touch it the first time it was offered. You stared at it with your fingers curled tight in your lap and your spine straight, refusing to lean forward. The screen glowed a soft blue. It was familiar, not unlike the ones you'd sat in front of back at the Tower. But here, it felt wrong. Even if no one had tied you down, it still felt like a trap.
So you said nothing, did nothing. And they didn’t push.
The man, he hadn’t given his name, only offered you a shrug and stood. “Suit yourself,” He spoke, easy. Like this was your choice.
When he left, the door clicked closed again. No lock that you could tell, but you knew better.
The next day, they brought coffee. The kind you always got back at the Tower, from that place three blocks over no one else ever remembered. It was stupid that they got it right. It was also… unnerving.
“I figured you were probably tired of the protein bars,” He had said casually, placing the cup down like it was nothing. “Not everyone likes being caged with nutrition paste.”
You stared at the cup in silence then looked away.
“You’re not a prisoner,” He said simply, like it was obvious. “We’re not interested in forcing anyone to work with us. But we do value skill.”
He gestured at the untouched terminal. “And you? You’ve got more than most of them ever realized.”
You’ve yet to give him a proper response, not even blinking at him. Yet, he took the silence in stride.
Before he left, he glanced back and said, “You’d be surprised how many people here were overlooked first.”
That night, you stared at the terminal for three straight hours. Not because you were curious. Not because you wanted to help them. But because… what if it was true? What if all the things they said were things the Avengers just refused to see?
However, you still didn’t open it.
The next day, they brought a chair with better back support. It was stupid. It was small. It was intentional.
“You always sat weird at your desk, looked uncomfortable,” The man said, not unkindly. “Thought you might want something a little better.”
That was the first time something in you cracked, not all the way, but enough to where you looked at him. Really looked at him. And you hated that he was right. You hated that someone had paid attention.
That night, you hesitantly approached the computer and opened the terminal. You didn’t touch anything at first, more so just reading, scrolling, looking. You found various files, patterns, and outlines you could’ve made better in your sleep. And a part of you itched to fix them. You told yourself it was curiosity. Just that and nothing more.
The next day, he didn’t ask you anything. Didn’t comment or show any indication that you finally did something. Imstead, he just handed you a pastry with your coffee. The one you always got on Tuesdays.
“Did you know we used to intercept intel before it even reached your department?” He asked casually. “We'd look at the files and laugh sometimes, because they were such a mess until you rewrote them.”
You didn’t laugh, you just stared. But something in your chest twisted, low and tight. Because you remembered working late and alone. Always alone doing something whether it was reformatting, correcting, or smoothing over data others had fumbled only to watch someone else get all the credit or your work to go unnoticed.
And now, someone finally acknowledged it. They weren’t cruel. They weren’t threatening. They were kind. Kind in the way people are when they want you to stay, not when they want to break you.
And maybe that was worse. Because part of you started wondering, if being good meant being invisible, forgotten, alone…
Then maybe being bad meant finally being valued.
Even if the warmth they offered was manufactured, it was still warmer than the silence the Avengers left behind.
And so, you told yourself the terminal was just a distraction. That fixing their data was no different than solving a crossword in a waiting room. You weren’t joining them. You were… coping. Keeping your mind sharp and staying sane.
But soon enough, someone left a stylus beside the terminal, one of those nice ones that were weighted and smooth and happened to be the kind you always preferred but never let yourself buy. You didn’t even ask for it, but they left it anyway without expecting anything in return.
A few days later, another face showed up. A woman this time, younger than you expected, with dark curls pulled back and a quiet, dry wit.
She brought you a small stack of files.
“You don’t have to look at these,” She said, grinning as she laid them out beside your coffee. “But if you do, we might actually stop getting our drones blown up every time they try to cross Stark-issue fences.”
You raised a brow. “You’re assuming I want your drones to survive.”
She smirked, leaned against the wall. “Honestly? That’s fair. But I figure you might be tired of pretending you’re not three times more efficient than half the people who used to ignore you.”
You blinked. Slowly. But didn’t reply.
She didn’t push. Just winked and walked away. You came to realize her name was Maren. She started dropping by daily. Sometimes with questions. Sometimes with snacks. Sometimes just to talk.
She never asked about the Avengers, never brought up your past either. Instead, she talked about books. About music. About her annoying roommate before she joined the organization.
You hadn’t realized how long it had been since someone just talked to you without needing something.
Soon enough, others followed. People started greeting you in the hallway. Saying your name. Remembering it.
One day, a nervous, red-haired technician peeked into your space and handed you a soldering tool.
“You mentioned the other one was misaligned last week,” He said. “This one should be better. Also- uh, your breakfast order’s on the counter. Hope I got it right.”
You blinked at him. You hadn’t even realized he’d been listening.
It wasn’t much. None of them fawned over you, but they saw you. You’d spent years in the Tower as a ghost in plain sight. Yet now, for the first time, people paused when you spoke. They remembered what you liked. They asked how you were.
You hated how easily you started to relax. How good it felt to be called a peer. How you caught yourself looking forward to the next day, the next problem to fix. Not because you agreed with their side, but because they asked you like you mattered.
One evening, you stood by a long window looking out into the dark. Rain blurred the horizon, city lights distant and soft.
The man from the first day stepped up beside you, hands in his pockets.
“I don’t expect loyalty,” He said. “Not from someone like you.”
You didn’t respond.
“But you don’t owe them anything either.” His voice was calm and level. “Not after how they treated you.”
You swallowed.
He didn’t press. Just patted your shoulder gently and walked away. And yet, the silence that followed wasn’t empty anymore. It was quiet. Comforting. Like something inside you had finally stopped being so tense.
Maybe you hadn’t chosen this side. But this side had chosen you.
And in all honesty, you could still leave. That was the truth. They hadn’t locked the doors. Hadn’t chipped you. Hadn’t twisted your arm behind your back and made you sign anything in blood. You weren’t a prisoner here, not exactly, and that unsettled you more than any chains would have.
On some nights when the hallways were still, you would sit on the edge of your cot with your shoes on, fully dressed, and staring at the door. You’d check your pockets. There was always a keycard. Yours. Allowing unrestricted access to almost every level.
They hadn’t taken anything. Not your autonomy. Not your mind. And that was the part that made everything worse. Because the question echoed over and over:
If you’re free to go… then why haven’t you?
You told yourself you were gathering intel. You told yourself you were playing the long game. You told yourself you were buying time, waiting for the Avengers to reach out, to realize something was wrong and to bring you back.
But they didn’t.
There wasn’t a ping nor a whisper. You bet there wasn’t even a raised eyebrow. And that little crack inside your chest… widened.
Maren still showed up most mornings. She started leaving jokes on sticky notes under your coffee mug. Sometimes crude. Sometimes clever. Always personal. She knew your humor now and you knew hers. She also knew when to talk, and when to stay quiet.
Meanwhile, the others greeted you by name. They made space for you at the long table during planning sessions. They asked for your thoughts and they listened. Sometimes, they even debated you, and you didn’t have to raise your voice to be heard. You felt like you actually mattered for once, like you were someone worth paying attention to as well.
And that made you start wondering: Was it really so wrong to want to stay where you were respected?
But then you’d go back to your cot and remember everything they’d done. The files you’d glimpsed. The agents they’d taken down. The systems they were dismantling. You hadn’t helped with anything directly. At least, not yet. But… you were here. And that meant something.
Didn’t it?
You still told yourself you hadn’t chosen a side. You were just… drifting. Floating in a quiet current no one else seemed to notice.
But some nights, you would stare at the ceiling and feel it. The undeniable weight of the truth:
You could have left on Day 1. Day 3. Even today. But you didn’t. You haven’t.
And that, more than anything, frightened you. Because maybe it wasn’t that you couldn’t escape. Maybe it was that, deep down, you weren’t sure you wanted to.
Because this place made you feel more real and alive than anywhere else ever had.
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