Now I Want Iced Coffeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

First day of me actually doing school work. I'm really excited but also really nervous for this semester! I'm taking Reading in the Content Areas, Teaching in the Online Environment (how fitting... 😓), Environmental Statistics, and Design and Analysis of Experiment. All my classes are online and 3 are asynchronous. I'm really excited for the two education classes. I'd be lying if I felt confident about the stats classes. I'm not horrible with statistics but there are some red flags about how those courses are set up and I have a really hard time following one of the professors. I know it'll work out, but I'm still worried.

@kopikuestudies that's the worst. Especially since proof writing isn't always the most natural feeling thing. I hope things worked out for you. Just know, math feels like such a horrible and unrelenting subject. If you're struggling, everyone else is or just lowered their standards or already took the class. Please try to find it in you to relax and do something non-math related. Take home math exams are literally torture in a new form.

Yesterday was a very long  day, and was made even longer by attempting to do a math test for a good 6 hours.

Perfect fit

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I have no idea how I got a 5 on the AP Econ Marcoeconomics exam junior year of high school. I'm looking at your notes and recognized I once crammed this knowledge in, but it's now gibberish.

back with economics!!

I was very sick and had to be admitted to the ER Tuesday night. I had a really high heart rate and fever so they told me to treat it as covid despite negative results. I am quarantined now and was told to take it easy and not stress out over things. I already emailed my professors that I will check in on Monday on how to better catch up and keep up. I just started making a list of all that I need to do and I'm beyond stressed out. More is going to be added to that list as this week's modules are posted. I'm also in 2 group projects. I feel pretty OK right now. It just feels like a cold. I'm just getting very stressed. I know it's just a matter of buckling down and cranking out work, but it's a daunting task. Wish me luck.

My grandma is being put into a hospice. I'm not ready to lose her 💔

Any support means a lot. She's been fighting cancer for years now and the radiation and chemo caught up with her fragile body. She originally fell and cracked her hip - first admitted to the hospital. Then she was put into a rehab where they weren't taking care of her incision or giving her the physical therapy they said they were. She developed the worst level bedsore. It went all the way to her tailbone. She was then moved to this new place. They were taking great care of her, but the bedsore never healed. They recommended hospice. She fell out of bed last night. Now she's going to a new facility and they're letting visitors in (double masks, etc). I haven't been able to touch her or see her in person since maybe Novemeber or Decemeber - everything is a blur with my grandpa passing away around then. She never got to see him because of covid restrictions. I 100% agree why they're in place - it's just so hard to watch my loved one dying through a window while assholes continue to walk around without masks on and preaching complete bullshit about the virus.

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A word of wisdom: mind maps aren't supposed to make any sense, they're just suppoesd to get your thoughts down on paper!

I love my houseplants, but I have to say this post resonated a bit

I am very glad to have drawn away from the houseplant hobby before it went... entirely to shit. I'm doing one order of plants online this year because I want to try some fancy gesneriads but my brain is just checked out on houseplants and ready to do some real gardening

I love it

So there’s this artist, Alex Schaefer, who makes a bunch of paintings of Chase Bank burning.

There’s just

so many of these

and I think it’s incredibly funny but

I just read this bit from the artist and

This is a "plein air" painting which means I set up my easel right across the street of this Chase bank in my city and painted it like it had caught fire. The police questioned me on the spot. Three weeks later Homeland Security was knocking on the door to my home. The question they kept asking me was "Do you hate these banks?" I can honestly say yes.

And I just think this is the greatest artist statement I’ve ever read.

I've been a mess lately, but it's a good kind of mess. I actually felt ~happy~ yesterday. It was a foreign feeling. I've been trying to catch myself feeling happy or proud of myself. It's the same idea as trying to catch kids being good instead of catching kids when they're being bad. I had a really good day at work yesterday. Driving home I was a bit stressed, but I heard some great feedback and I was just on cloud 9... well compared to stressy and depressy. I really needed that with the pandemic, online classes, weird hybrid subbing, my grandma, and just everything else.