It’s Been Years Since I’ve Seen This But Honestly It Really Helped This Time

So I decided to try to do mermay but spent most the time drawing mermaid/ siren gesture drawings cause it’s fun. I was gonna give up on day one and just say there would be 31 by the end but @meredithmcclaren appeared on my tumblr, and I had to art... I put down some color flats on a gesture drawing then doodled on top of it. (Half asleep art is fun)

- 3/16/2018

I have exactly one (1) lifehack for every adult thing and that is “admit your ignorance to customer service people”

no, seriously! I know how nothing in adult life works, but I have learned it by calling up the customer service division of whatever agency I am having a problem with and then just asking about whatever the problem is, emphasizing my complete lack of knowledge about the thing.

my actual literal script for these interactions: “Hi, my name is [name]. This is my problem: [problem]. I don’t know how [adult thing] works. could you explain how [adult thing] works?” it fucking works every time.

me: I keep getting conflicting information as to whether my therapist is covered by my health insurance. I don’t know anything about health insurance, so this is very confusing to me. could you explain why this might be happening? health insurance customer service: it’s because your normal health insurance is X company but your mental healthcare is subcontracted out to Y company, and Y covers your therapist but X doesn’t. just always bill Y when you go to your therapist and you’ll be fine.

me: I accidentally put the wrong date to pay my credit card off and I’m afraid it will post before I get paid. this is my first credit card so I don’t know what I’m doing. could you tell me when it will post? customer service person: it will send a message to your bank today, but your bank won’t respond to it until tomorrow when you get paid, so you’re fine. and even if it does bounce, the fee is only $25 and you qualify for a waiver.

me: I went to an urgent care place that said they’d take my health insurance, but now i have a big bill. I don’t know how billing works: can you explain why the amount is so much for such a routine trip? customer service person: it’s because you were out of network at the time. however, since your insurance hasn’t covered the cost of care, the urgent care people should refund you for the cost of the services you paid for. me: [gets actual check in mail for the $200 I spent on testing my pee]

I would not recommend this method for retail (for the love of god, do not tell a sleazy car dealer that you don’t know how cars work), and sure, sometimes you have to speak to the manager or threaten a credit card chargeback or whatever you need to do. but 99% of the time, speaking nicely and admitting to needing help has worked wonders for me, and means I don’t have to stew in terror over doing some adult thing Wrong.

Oh god this was me. Aka my dad said stop when I wouldn’t at Olive Garden

The sad truth, when hearing about the concept from foreign countries we are all left in shock and awe of how such an efficient system could exist for the people. I’m always amazed how foreign words and concepts in foreign languages effect people. Though in this case it’s mostly a little bit of jealousy and envy of what we could have but don’t for some unknown mysterious reason...

in america there is no word for train

- 3/05/2018

I said I’d be more productive, but instead I just drew 3 faces…

happy stimming

I don’t think healthy people every really get chronic illness.

I have a friend I know from when we were both 6. She is the only person living nearby and so she saw me go from walking through limping to wheelchair on a daily basis. I keep her updated on my health even tho we rarely hang out anymore. She was gonna come over yesterday and I had to cancel. She asked if I can’t hang out later that day. When I said i won’t feel better later, that if I feel that bad in the morning later will only get worse she got annoyed and “joked” that I’m just finding excuses. And I was surprised, she knows all about me being disabled after all? So, a bit taken aback, I told her it’s a normal thing for me.

“But you got the diagnosis now, aren’t you better?? I thought you’ll get better now”

She was honestly surprised and it made me realize a thing. They don’t get it. They don’t get that getting diagnosed only equals benefits like welfare or parking spot for us, and sometimes better pain meds but that is just like pushing luck. That it’s a forever thing. That that one day we felt good a week ago was just a bright spot and doesn’t mean we won’t need our aids anymore, cause chronic illness is not linear and will make a great comeback in next four hours, and the next good day is planned on when we’re 70. Cause when abled people are sick, they get better. And our illness is just an excuse for them. And when we say we will never get better they think we’re being dramatic and pessimistic. And I don’t think they’ll ever get it, cause to get it you need to live it. And I want my friends to stay healthy and not go through hell.

And I have like over 10 individual cup ramens in the pantry plus the whole basic 12 pack thing...

Ramen why

Today is a sad day… Even though I’ve been exercising far more than I used to (like from none to at least 3 hours of DDR per day) and eating healthier (other than ramen) I feel fat. Like I’ve been doing the DDR for like a week and eating healthy for like 3 days plus on top of the healthy food a bowl of ramen as a treat with dinner… Like the only thing that could be making me feel bloated is the ramen. I know having ramen every day is not healthy. I know ramen a not healthy. But if everything else is better I should at least feel the same. Ramen why.