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ao3 recs

I’ll be giving brief summary’s because i’m too lazy and have tennis in a hour and because the stories obvi have a description

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Habits of my Heart

-Ushijima x reader, acquaintances to friends to lovers, my favorite fanfic of all time (that sounds corny but idc), i cannot stress enough how good of a fanfic this was, it captures ushijimas character so well, i think this is how he would genuinely be like if he was falling in love. ongoing

Golden Girl

-Ushijima x manager reader, strangers (only for a brief moment) to friends to lovers, another rlly rlly good one, ongoing

You’re not the one

Atsumu x reader/Suna x reader, fake dating trope, by the same author as habits of my heart (that’s how you know it’s good) tbh i think the fake dating trope is rlly overused but that all changed after i read this, this story was so good and well written def recommend, completed

White Noise

Atsumu x reader, best friends to lovers, i love this fic a lot, it made me so frustrated reading because i just wanted them to just shut up and kiss, the ending was so perfect i loved it. also i loved when i would comment and the author would respond to me :))) completed

The Premonition Of Love

Ushijima x reader, friends to lovers, i haven’t read this one in a while since it hasn’t updated since july, but it was so good. it was one of my first fics that i read on ao3 and i need to reread it, i still have screenshots i look back on from when i first read it :) ongoing

The other side of the court

Tsukishima x reader/ Ushijima x reader, this was such an interesting love triangle, don’t get your hopes up it hasn’t been updated since october 2020 but it was so good that i had to share it (you can all suffer with me), its so interesting seeing tsukishima get jealous and see ushijimas feelings develop pls read ongoing

Breath

Oikawa x reader, enemies to lovers, now this ones interesting, it’s a witch au but not hogwarts (which i feel like i never see), and oikawa and reader hated each other all through school until one day (years after they graduate and haven’t seen each other in a while) reader moves into a new house in a forest to reconnect with magic and guess who her only neighbor is ;)) ongoing

Shiritorizawa Antics

Shiritorizawa x manager reader (platonic), such a cute fic, even though it’s platonic i rlly enjoyed this it was so funny, ongoing

Change Of Heart

Sakusa x reader, strangers to lovers, college au, this has only 5 chapters as of oct 1st, but it’s already rlly rlly good, it’s by heartcondemned (who wrote habits of my heart and you’re not the one) so obviously i trust this author sm, pls read it it, ongoing

Managing the Cats den

Kuroo x reader, nekoma x reader (platonic), this fic was actually inspired by shiritorizawa antics so if you read that one you’ll like this one, it’s very similar to it but it’s unique too, i really enjoyed this one, completed

Ghosts We See

Multiple Characters x reader, fantasy/normal au, this one is so interesting omg, SLOWBURN, when i say slowburn i mean it, looooong chapters too, the author also has a tumblr where they post oneshots from the story, i think it’s the same user as their ao3, def check out, ongoing

(un)loving miya atsumu

Atsumu x reader, lowkey made me angry reading this but that’s a good thing, i really did like it just not the ending (it frustrated me) 🙃 completed

Twenty Days

Tendou x reader, i feel like i never see any long tendou x reader fics and this was such a good one, i really enjoyed this one, it was so cute and sweet, completed

Stained

Kageyama x reader/ Tsukshima x reader, mafia au, now this one was a ride, it was sosososos good, i remember back in april when i read it and i was in such shock because of how good it was, you will feel very bad for kageyama in this, completed

i was watching the skz interview with johnathon and now i have the sudden urge to make a dr where i’m johnathons daughter and I have a love story with I.N. 🥸

VOID SUCCESS STORY

I Finally Experienced The Void State

HOW I USED TO VIEW VOID BEFORE I ENTERED

Before I entered it, I viewed the void as the ultimate state of oneness with the universe. I viewed it as the place where I could finally be free from all suffering and limitation. It was a place where I could be at peace and experience the ultimate reality. I also viewed it as a place that was beyond anything I could imagine or describe. It was the place I was drawn to and wanted to experience more than anything else in the world. It was where I knew I could find the ultimate truth and the ultimate peace and bliss.

I was never a fond of it, I just and wanted to feel it, experience it by myself. I don't understand why it's so hyped up after all.

HOW I TAPPED IN

I tapped in by listening to my subliminal. Before putting on the sub I did a special, ancient breathing technique :

Bhastrika or the bellows breath

For this you have to Close the right nostril and inhale twenty rapid bellows-like breaths through the left nostril. Repeat with twenty more bellows breaths through the right nostril while keeping the left nostril closed. Proceed to take twenty bellows breaths through both nostrils. This method helps the body and mind to clear out mental, emotional and physical blocks.

After doing this, I put on my subliminal and a blind fold on my eyes and imagined myself walking inside my own mind and it's getting darker and darker as I get deeper into it, exactly like Eleven did in Stranger Things. Okay, so doing this made me super duperr relaxed which got me slept and when I woke up I knew that I made it! and NO, my void was not pitch dark, I don't know but for some reason it was white, pure white. I felt like I'm directly looking into a bulb you know :)

MY EXPERIENCE WITH IT

My void experience was a feeling of emptiness and peace. Not a single thing was there in the void other than my consciousness. I felt completely liberated and at ease when I was in the void. My thoughts were dead silent and I was just being. I felt a deep sense of connection to the universe and a knowing that all is well. It was a feeling of emptiness and unity at the same time. Everything that is, is within me. It can not be described because it is beyond any description. No words and no labels can truly define or grasp the eternal silence of the void. The void I experienced was full of utter peace and stillness. It was the complete lack of self-consciousness and the total realization of eternity. It was pure, uninterrupted consciousness. It was a place of pure awareness and complete freedom from all attachments and desires. It was a place of absolute silence and the absence of all thought and emotion. It was a place of complete and utter bliss and nothingness at the same time. I felt a deep sense of timelessness and immortality. I felt like I was in my purest form. I felt like I was in a state of total nirvana and perfect happiness. It was like being in a state of pure bliss and complete oneness with the universe. I felt connected to everything and everyone, and it was the most pure and peaceful experience I've ever had. However I have entered the void twice but snapped out on incident within seconds. Staying in the void for hours is totally different :)

MY EXPERIENCE WITH THE VOID IS JUST UNDESCRIBABLE 🤍

I really don't know how to put it into words

I just feel COMPLETED now !

WHAT I MANIFESTED

No, I didn't manifest anything in the void. Manifesting something through the void was never my intention because I already have manifested almost everything just by listening to my subliminals and I love listening to them. But if in future if I'll manifest anything in the void, I'll update y'all about it for sure with pictures.

Believe me or not the void is unnecessarily so hyped up in this community, it's so easy to access it. Now with my experience with it I know how I can be helpful to y'all in regards of accessing the void state.

I know people will ask me for the subliminal that I listened to, so first of all I made it myself, because few days back while I was on my journey to entering the void I listened to a subliminal, which made everything worse, I knew that the subliminal maker has used some bad spells in it, so I made my own sub. No wonders tho because earlier I used to make subliminals for myself and they did worked for me and I manifested a lot of things but I was so lazy that I stopped making them :)

But as I really wanted to experience the void within myself, I decided to work a Lil hard and make a sub for myself and after researching deeply on how I can make subliminal work faster, I managed to made it myself.

I have posted it on my YouTube channel but remember my sub will not work for those who have bad intentions! ThankYou.

Here's the video :

Enter the void in the blink of an eye : Use w/ caution

Make sure to hit the subscribe button because I'll be uploading more such subliminals ! 🤍

i’m so maddd. while i was in class chan had his birthday live when i went to check it said HE ENDED IT 41 SECONDS AGO

it’s 2024 and i’m still dangerously obsessed with choso…

tumblr recs🍓

i figured i would make a tumblr recs list since it will be a while till i make another ao3 one hehe

thanks for checking out my list :), i say this everytime but this is important: make sure to support the authors!

also sorry i haven’t made a recs list in a while! i’ve been burnt out from school lately and just didn’t think to make one 🥲

various x reader, unrequited love with the haikyuu boys, made me sad but part 2 fixes it all trust me, 🍓

tanaka x reader, comfort short, so sickingly sweet it hurts, this lil fic is perf for when ur sad and need some love, 🍓

various x reader, how they cope with ur death, this one’s for when you want some angst :/, 🍓

osamu x reader, exes to lovers, this one sorta reminds me of those hallmark movies where the girl leaves her small middle of no where hometown for the big city for work, and leaves behind her boyfriend who stays behind to have a small shop in their hometown, i literally adored this one pls read it, 🍓

sakusa x reader, strangers to friends to lovers, 1930s/1940s au, MILITARY MAN SAKUSA! this one was just… wow, never really have seen an au like this, not disappointed in the slightest, read it now, 🍓

kageyama x reader, childhood friends ish to lovers, love this one, makes you feel all mushy for kageyama :ppp, 🍓

iwaizumi x reader, fake dating trope, literally love this one, i’m such a simp for iwa, if you love fake dating + iwaizumi this is for you, 🍓

kita x reader, fic masterlist, arranged marriage au!, okay so i’m not a big fan of arranged marriage fics, but this… this was incredible. it was so well written and the build up between y/n and kita was so natural and not forced, it’s only three chapters but the chapters are very long! pls check out it was amazing, 🍓

bokuto x reader, oneshot from the story ‘The Ghosts we see’ which i have on one of my recs lists here 😚, i actually really enjoyed this one since i adore the fic it’s based on, for-warning, pretty smutty😉, 🍓

iwaizumi x reader, this is by augustine!! i love all of her works, they’re like a pick me up, iwaizumi literally gives you sm butterfly’s while reading, in short, 3 of the valentines days you’ve spent with iwaizumi :), 🍓

sakusa x reader, ENEMIES TO LOVERS ROYAL AU!!! guys. i passed out from pure joy when i discovered this story. three of my favorite things in one fic: haikyuu, enemies to lovers, and royal aus. such a pleasure to read. trust me on this one and read it rn!!! 🍓

ushijima x reader, ushijima comfort ushijima comfort ushijima comfort ushijima comfort!! if you know me you know i love this man. so when i see beautiful comfort fics about my fav?? i lose it. 10/10 made me happy when i was sad. 🍓

akaashi x reader, angst. so much angst. it’s actually not really angsty with akaashi but with his current girlfriend (lil spoiler: she’s a fucking cunt). but the ending is so rewarding after reading it. it’s also by demxnsxcous which if you haven’t been to her page then go immediately after reading. have never read one bad work of theirs. 🍓

ushijima x reader, r-royal au, royal au!!!! king ushijima 🥴, i love this man. and this man as your protective king husband is more than i could ever ask for. this story gives me butterfly’s when he’s being protective hehe, 🍓

suna x reader, KNIGHT SUNA AND PRINCESS READER!!!! i think you guys can tell of my everlasting love for royal aus. this link will take you to the masterlist for this little miniseries. i really love this one. the relationship with reader and suna makes you so happy and sad. happy because seeing how happy they are and how much they love each other makes your day. but sad because they can never really be together becuase of social and class standards. 🍓

iwaizumi x reader, i LOVE this one. it’s about a rich girl going off on her own and leaving her old life behind. and guess which tough bad boy she meets? mhm. it’s not done yet but i’m so excited for the next chapter, i’m on the taglist and everything ;)) 🍓

osamu x reader, fake dating, friends to lovers <333 this one only has 2 chapters out so far but i just know this one’s gonna be good. i cant wait for more and more chapters to come out and for this story to develop. i’m already in love with half the characters. adore this so far. 🍓

hinata x reader. i actually barley if ever read hinata fics. this one’s timeskip and i was pleasantly surprised. it’s such a satisfying read. i very much enjoyed it. the ending is also very sweet;) 🍓

kuroo x reader, angel reader and demon kuroo, half modern/half magic au. read this one a little while back, loved it. lot of smut hehe. definitely a guilty pleasure. the ending made me smile since it perfectly ended the game of cat and mouse kuroo and the reader were playing. 🍓

semi x reader, rockstar semi eita… much i say more? exes to lovers. oh my god. i remember when i read this for the first time, i could not stop reading it. i re read this over and over again. i don’t really wanna give too much away, but i’ll finish off with this: fuck semi eita ;)) 🍓

this is the cutest thing ever

✩ ‧₊˚ ✩ FIRST KISS — GOJO SATORU.

contents. fluff + mutual pining if you squint, it’s literally just you being satoru’s first kiss <3, he’s just a loser boy beneath all his facades !!

it’s summer the first time you kiss satoru. his lips taste like the lingering sweetness of kikufuku. the cicadas are calling, and the sun finds every crevice of your skin to hug.

it’s hot outside—but you don’t mind the heat so much when it’s the fan of satoru’s breath against your skin. you can feel his hands tremble as they finds your hips. hesitant, you note as he pauses a moment before finally letting them rest against you.

“you’re eager, sweetheart,” he hums—because satoru, even dazed from the taste of you, is still persistently himself. large hands are gently cradling the curves of your waist—he’s warm there too, where he holds you and pulls you closer to his chest. he grins when you press a kiss to his jaw, rubbing circles into your hip with his thumb.

“it doesn’t feel like you’re kissing me while held at gunpoint either, gojo,” you roll your eyes. your hand cups his face, thumb tracing over the swell of his cheek gently.

gojo—his lips, rosy and just a bit swollen, pout at the use of his surname. surely, now that you’ve stolen the innocence of his lips, you can spare him a bit more than that. surely, the intimacy of his given name doesn’t outweigh the intimacy of exchanging breath.

satoru—he imagines the way the name would sound from you, carefully whispered like a secret. everything you do is careful, he’s noticed, everything about you is thoughtful and soft.

more than anything, you’re careful in the way you touch him. you’re delicate in the way you let yourself explore his skin, like he’s fragile and easy to hurt. like all he’s ever known is pain. it’s ironic—someone like satoru should know very little about pain, should never feel the devastating blows at its hands when infinity leaves more than enough room for him to remain untouched.

but you’re funny like that; take him by surprise as you carve out the slant of his cheekbone with your thumb slowly enough that you might almost think your touch is enough to slice the skin.

it’s nice, he thinks distantly, being handled with care is nice. it’s not something this world affords so easily.

“this your first kiss?” he asks shamelessly, throwing you that lopsided grin of his.

am i your first? is what he means to ask. what he wants to ask. what he aches to ask.

is he your first? or are you only his? has anyone else tasted the strawberry of your chapstick? was it a different flavor before it was ever strawberry? satoru hopes he’s the only one to ever explore the flavors your lips might come in—maybe you’ll try cherry next. he’d like that.

“it’s certainly your first kiss,” you giggle, thumb moving down to trace his bottom lip, “i can feel you trembling, y’know.”

not many people catch gojo satoru embarrassed—you do, though. that enough should make you feel like god, perhaps. who else is powerful enough to feel the strongest quake? who else feels the quivers of his hands and the uncertain hesitance under his touch?

no one but you—and you’d like to keep it that way.

his face flushes a little, against his control. even gojo satoru is not above the rush of blood rising to his cheeks, even he cannot stop the hue of color that paints across his face. he’s human, after all—and he deserves to be treated as such: with the fragility of being human.

“no it’s not,” he scoffs, “i’ve kissed plenty.”

“yeah?” you chuckle, admiring the rosiness of his flesh, “name one person.”

“i don’t recall anyone’s name,” he shrugs, hands still making sure to keep you painfully close. if you pull away, satoru thinks he might die—thinks he might never recover from the aftershocks of such devastation. “no one was ever worthwhile enough to remember.”

he’s too much sometimes—but never less than enough. you snort, huffing out a small laugh that rings in his ears and makes him gulp.

perfect—you sound and look and feel and taste perfect. gojo satoru is the strongest, but is he deserving of the one thing this earth has that’s devoid of flaws? he’s not so sure. but he can try to be worthy, and perhaps that’s enough.

“well, then tell me, gojo,” you murmur, gently slipping the bandages from his forehead to fall to his neck. he’s only recently left the sunglasses behind—you like him better this way. you can see the outline of his features better, even if you do miss his eyes.

“hm?” he quirks a brow, breath almost hitching when his eyes meet yours—since when have you looked at him like that? since when have your pupils housed so much affection for him? have you always done so, and he’s never noticed?

it would be a crime to not have noticed before this, he thinks, a cruel and terrible reality of missing every soft and affectionate gaze.

“will i be long forgotten after this kiss? or has this one finally caught your attention?”

there is no prior kiss to compare yours too—but there never needs to be one after, either. this is the best kiss he’ll ever have, the only kiss he wants to have. no one will ever feel like you, he’s sure of it. no one will ever make him feel what you do, and even infinity is something that cannot protect him from the risks.

but satoru is not scared, not of you—and never with you.

so he grins, tapping his chin in thought as he hums, “give me another, and i’ll decide.”

you scoff in disbelief—amused, if anything, before shaking your head. he can’t help the chuckle that escapes him.

“you never change, gojo,” you say fondly, “do you know that?”

“say satoru,” he says quietly. it’s almost a plead—it sounds like a plead.

you smile. it’s an innocent little thing, untouched by the cruelties of life—or maybe it has, and you still find a reason to stay pure. maybe it’s the latter, he realizes, maybe you’re just resilient enough to remain unwavering in the way you love so unapologetically.

“come here, satoru,” you whisper, gently pulling his face closer as you hold his cheeks.

desperately, he needs to taste his name rolling off your tongue—so he comes closer, bridging the gap and kissing you again. and again—and he can’t find it in him to stop.

the same day satoru has his first kiss, you call him by his first name. it’s summer. the flowers smell sweet as the cicadas call, and you put the sun’s heat to shame.

he’ll always stay warm wrapped in you.

tbh this was supposed to be y’all fucking for the first time but then it just turned into this. alas, we prevail

OMG YOU GUYSSSSS!!! This is my first time making a dr from scratch, like my own characters and plot line and everything. I’m writing the dialogue and stuff and I KNOW THIS DR IS GOING TO EATTT LIKE I HAVE GOOSEBUMPS READING THIS!!!!

Absolutely no one:

Me: scripting a deep British accent on my s/o just cause even though my dr has nothing to do with British people.

i don’t think anyone understands how hard klance hits for me, and the fact that i have no one to talk about them with irl makes me cry everyday.