#this is tragic alexa play this is how you fall in love
gemini & fourth (in every universe) ↳ li ming vs. gun vs. atom + perspectives on love
"Do dreams carry any meaning without someone you love to share them with?"
COLOR RUSH | EPISODE 5
Where flowers become you and you become flowers. let me escort you to that very world.
“What’s bothering you? Did I do something wrong? No. You didn’t do anything wrong. You did great, actually. You’ve been very nice to me. But…You don’t need to be this nice to me anymore. Why? Don’t you like it? I do. I like it very much. I like it so much that I thought I was special to you. But I just found out that I’m your peer mentee. Yes, I’m your peer mentor. It’s my fault to think of you more than just a peer mentor. It’s true that I’m your peer mentor. But I had to fight everyone in our faculty to get you to be my peer mentee. The whole faculty. I have always had eyes for you. I just wasn’t sure what you thought of me. Since when? High school.” - Bad Buddy (2021)
when he wants to give you something, but you’re a dumbass
patpran's notes to each other (cr. @ohmnanoned)
It's definitely related to his trauma.
But he just... he's absolutely terrified of putting words to his feelings.
There have been at least two direct occurrences of him using his knowledge of exactly how soft and caring Shi Lei is to manipulate him into giving him affection.
We've seen him ease into affectionate looks and initiate touches and clutch Shi Lei tight to him because he craves that contact so deeply.
But he never uses words.
He steps into the coffee shop after taking a deep breath and still only manages to point at Shi Lei.
Shi Lei asks for time to himself and Yu Zhen panics so hard he fakes an allergic reaction just to bring Shi Lei back to his side.
He cannot bear the thought of their separation but also cannot face the peril of putting words to feelings, of saying what he feels.
His pride, his fear, his control, his past... everything is catching up and crashing down around him.
Shi Lei can only do so much if Yu Zhen won't tell him anything. And he'll really only do so much without the words he wants, without the confirmation of their relationship.
Three more episodes and the pain has begun and I don't think will be going away any time soon. Each young man sleeping in their own room next episode... ooof.
BOKURA NO SHOKUTAKU [EP 6 vs CH 3] Manga by Mita Ori
Softness attacked us today. Along with a bunch of my favourite panels.
□ a bl sideblog, because yes, it reached that level◇▪︎ ♡🏳️🌈☆
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