@myheartinherhands

You encouraged her to cuckold you. You helped her find the perfect man. Not only one that she connects with passionately but also emotionally. He has a lot of the same qualities of you. Of course like you he has his flaws too but she is an able to over look those. The same way she did when she fell in love with you even though you have a sexual inadequacy.  A small dick, shame you feel because of it that makes you submissive. You have learned through experience your little dick inside women does not pleasure them the way they need. Something you can see in their eyes, how they respond to you when you are inside. So you learned how to pleasure them other ways. With your tongue, toys, and fingers. So good she could overlook that flaw, fall in love and marry you. At least for a while. You knew she would cheat, at least you expected it. After all you have a history with women that cheat on you, all of them, why would your wife be different. That fear, that feeling inadequacy, humiliation. With your wife it was different, the thought of her cheating was not painful, it was arousing. Because you love her so much, worship her, want the best for her and want to make her happy. So you encouraged her to cuckold you. Eroticizing your feeling of inadequacy, getting off on the humiliation. You witnessed with your own eyes other men fucking her. How they use her body for their pleasure. The way they pull her hair, slap her ass, push their thick cocks into her mouth, so thick, longer than your small dick causing her eyes to water and her to choke. Something you have never experienced giving a girl. She can suck your dick with ease, it doesn't even hit the back of her throat. Then watching a cock that is not below average penetrate her. How it splits her pussy lips open and makes her gasp. How quickly she orgasms and her body trembles. The first time you saw it, it was too much to handle, you thought then you lost her to another man. It made you even cry. Yet today you still masturbate about that experience. Today you are emasculated and feminized, a sissy cuckold husband who would suck the same cocks of the men that fuck your wife. You didn't lose her that first time you watched. Yes you got into a fight. Her pissed, it was your idea after all. You made up, you licking her used fucked pussy. Enjoying the cuckolding you encouraged her to continue to fuck better men. You never can reclaim her so you reconnect by licking her sore, used cum filled holes. Even licking another mans cum out of her ass. She knows she owns you. So of course she is excited that she has found a guy that she has fallen in love with. A man she wants has her primary partner. Not only does she desire him emotionally and physically, she trust him and now confides in him. With him she gets everything you give her but she also gets sexual fulfillment. You helped her find the perfect man for her. You always knew that couldn't be fully you.

She Wants to Know

She wants to know how much you miss her pussy and how much you still cum to thought of her knowing it's owned by another man now who cums in her daily. How much does that drive you wild to know he's filling her with his warm cum as you fap to the thought of them together.

She took you to a nice restaurant to ask your thoughts on her leaving to be with her boyfriend who shes fallen in love with. Knowing how happy he makes her and being in public, you agree to let them be together, she is dying to call him and let him know the good news right in front of you.

As a cuckold, it excites you. That next level of cuckolding. It’s no longer just about your wife being fucked by other men for physical pleasure and fulfillment. Now, she has emotional feelings and fantasies with this man, needs and desires she hasn’t felt in years. That intoxicating new relationship energy.

But it scares you too. That fear that she might leave you for him, the nagging thought that you aren’t enough. It breaks your heart a little, knowing her heart is no longer exclusively yours. You now have to share her, both emotionally and physically.

And yet, you can’t help it. You’re different from many men, wired in a way that you can’t control and you shouldn't even try to. That arousal you feel. That intense, overwhelming arousal, takes you to a whole new level of sexual fulfillment, without even being the one having sex. Only a cuckold can feel and understand it and crave it.

Blog went public???

November 10th 2018, I started this second blog and during the purge it got perma private.

I log in and I see a picture in the little title area. (A feature banned to private blogs). While my main blog still remains perma private, this one is now public.

Why is it a big deal to me? Well now I have access to the "Archive" feature and can see all my posts in one screen and the dates I posted them. For some reason this feature is banned in perma private, maybe as a punishment?

Either way, welcome new guests! I am sure more traffic will now flow though.