Hi Love Would You Mind Making A Part For Professor!ellie Where Reader Is Pregnant Again OR When Their
Hi love would you mind making a part for professor!ellie where reader is pregnant again OR when their daughter grows up ?
Amazing work btw
Headcannons: professor!ellie williams x reader
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☆ Aurora’s favorite thing to do is sit on Ellie’s lap during her late-night grading sessions, asking questions like, “Are your students as smart as me?”
☆ She wears glasses just like Ellie now—reader thinks they’re twins.
☆ Aurora mimics Ellie’s mannerisms, like adjusting her glasses when she’s nervous or tilting her head when thinking.
☆ She already knows how to read short paragraphs and corrects people’s grammar—even Ellie’s, which makes her beam with pride.
☆ Aurora's drawings always include three people—Mama, Mommy, and her—but now a fourth baby blob is starting to appear in the corner labeled “Arny.”
☆ When you went into labor, Aurora tried to pack her own bag “to help,” which included crayons, a banana, and Ellie’s old lecture clicker.
☆ Ellie sometimes brings Aurora to campus events. She introduces her proudly with “This is my daughter. She’s smarter than my entire first-year class.”
☆ Aurora makes Ellie bracelets from string and demands she wear them even during lectures. She always does.
☆ Aurora asks science questions constantly. Ellie answers all of them with a whiteboard and diagrams.
☆ You once walked in on Aurora “lecturing” her stuffed animals, using Ellie’s tone exactly.
☆ Ellie writes down Aurora’s quotes in a leather-bound “Aurora Archive” journal.
☆ She refers to Ellie as “the smartest person alive” and you as “the prettiest.”
☆ Aurora’s handwriting practice turned into a full essay on why “Mommy Ellie is too bossy, but I still love her.”
☆ Ellie was obsessively thorough about the IVF process, reading every published study on embryo grading, success rates, and maternal health. She made color-coded charts for each clinic they considered.
☆ The decision to have a second child came after Aurora turned five, when she looked up at them one night and asked, “Why don’t I have a baby brother or sister?”
☆ Ellie wanted a boy this time, not because she loved Aurora any less, but because she was fascinated by how different he might be — still theirs, but uniquely his own.
☆ You carried Arnold, just like with Aurora, and Ellie was even more attentive this time—bringing snacks, checking nutrient levels, monitoring stress like a hawk.
☆ You used the same donor, ensuring Arnold and Aurora were biologically related, and Ellie cried when they found out the embryo had successfully implanted.
☆ Ellie held her breath during every scan, gripping your hand tightly until they saw that tiny heartbeat flicker on the screen.
☆ At home, Ellie converted her study into a nursery months before it was needed, painting it a rich forest green and hanging hand-painted space-themed art on the walls.
☆ She read academic articles aloud to your belly, mumbling about epigenetics and language development, hoping Arnold would be a little genius like his sister.
☆ Aurora would whisper secrets to her unborn brother, telling him what not to do so “Mama doesn’t freak out.”
☆ You and Ellie filmed short video diaries for Arnold, each one ending with Aurora saying, “Hurry up and come out, dummy.”
☆ Your pregnancy with Arnold was harder than Aurora’s — more nausea, more exhaustion — and Ellie handled everything from meals to laundry to carrying you to bed if you fell asleep on the couch.
☆ Ellie barely slept the night you went into labor, pacing in circles around their bedroom and triple-checking the hospital bag every 10 minutes.
☆ When Arnold was born, Ellie was the first to cry, trembling as she cut the umbilical cord and kissed your sweaty forehead, whispering, “You did it. He’s here.”
☆ Arnold was a quiet baby—unlike his fiery older sister—and when the nurse handed him to Ellie, he blinked up at her with wide, moss-green eyes.
☆ Aurora was the first to hold Arnold after them, sitting carefully on the hospital bed, her small arms wrapped awkwardly around her baby brother, declaring, “He smells weird. But he’s cute.”
☆ Ellie took an extended sabbatical from the university, something she never did for herself, but did without hesitation for Arnold and you.
☆ She kept a detailed baby log, recording every feeding, nap, and developmental milestone like it was groundbreaking research. (“He smiled at 4 weeks. Do you know how rare that is?”)
☆ You would often find Ellie in the middle of the night, swaying gently in the rocking chair with Arnold on her chest, whispering about constellations and music theory.
☆ Aurora helped with diaper changes, read bedtime stories to Arnold (whether he was awake or not), and told everyone at school, “I have a brother. He’s gonna be smarter than all of you.”
☆ Ellie constantly takes pictures of the three of you—you nursing, Aurora playing peekaboo, Arnold asleep on Ellie’s chest. She prints them, dates them, and keeps them in a growing archive labeled The Love We Made.
☆ Arnold has Ellie wrapped around his tiny fingers already—she holds him like he’s made of glass.
☆ She was an emotional wreck the day he was born, whispering “You’re here. You’re real,” over and over.
☆ Ellie sobbed in the hospital bathroom, clutching a photo of Aurora and trying to calm her nerves before holding Arnold for the first time.
☆ She made laminated feeding/diapering schedules and color-coded copies for both reader and herself.
☆ Ellie insisted on staying awake every night at first. You had to force her to rest by dragging her to bed.
☆ Her obsession with checking his breathing every 20 minutes has led to installing four different monitors.
☆ Ellie reads academic articles to him during nap time—“gotta start the kid early.”
☆ His nursery is space-themed. Ellie picked every star and constellation herself and even made a mobile from scratch.
☆ She prints out graphs of his growth and annotates them.
☆ You caught Ellie softly kissing Arnold’s forehead while murmuring, “I’ll protect you forever. I promise.”
☆ She calls him “my little theory” because she wants to “test how much love a person can feel before they combust.”
☆ Ellie holds Arnold for hours while writing lectures one-handed, content even if it takes twice as long.
☆ She talks about him constantly at work—“Sorry my email’s late. My son drooled on my laptop.”
☆ Ellie insisted on giving him a middle name that references a philosopher—Arnold Pascal Williams.
☆ She puts little leather-bound books in his crib for aesthetic photos.
☆ Ellie made a password-protected photo archive titled “Arnold Growth Logs.”
☆ She has framed side-by-side ultrasound pictures of Aurora and Arnold on her office wall.
☆ You found Ellie singing lullabies in Hebrew and Latin just for “academic diversity.”
☆ She’s more patient with Arnold than she’s ever been with anyone.
☆ Ellie’s phone is overloaded with baby pics—she has a folder just labeled “Arnsmol.”
☆ She wrote a 10-page email to the pediatrician just asking about sleep regression.
☆ Ellie gets extremely possessive when someone other than you or Aurora holds Arnold.
☆ Her glasses fog up when she gets overwhelmed watching both kids together.
☆ Arnold’s first smile made Ellie go silent for ten minutes, then cry like a waterfall.
☆ She lowkey competes with you over who Arnold calms down with faster.
☆ She stares at you when she’s breastfeeding, completely mesmerized.
☆ Ellie reads textbooks on postpartum care so she can understand everything reader is experiencing.
☆ She canceled her own faculty conference trip because Arnold had a cold.
☆ Ellie redesigned her lecture schedule so she never misses bedtime for either child.
☆ Ellie’s gone full mama bear—she snapped at a stranger who called Arnold “it.”
☆ She started a private blog documenting her “Motherhood and Academia” journey, but only you have the link.
☆ Ellie sometimes forgets to eat if the baby’s crying—but never forgets to feed him.
☆ You teases Ellie about her “unofficial PhD in parenting.” Ellie secretly loves it.
☆ Arnold’s first laugh made Ellie record five videos trying to recreate the sound.
☆ She leaves love notes inside your breast pump bag.
☆ She wants to homeschool both kids—your not fully convinced yet.
☆ Ellie smells Arnold’s head constantly. Says it’s “baby serotonin.”
☆ Ellie cried when Aurora said “Arnold is my best friend forever.”
☆ She’s started humming lullabies even while writing lectures now.
☆ She talks to Arnold about how they’ll build rockets or dissect frogs together someday.
☆ Ellie calls Aurora and Arnold her “entire thesis on love.”
☆ She still panics during diaper changes—even though she’s read three parenting books.
☆ Ellie smells like baby lotion, chalkboard dust, and coffee now.
☆ Her voice softens immediately when either kid cries.
☆ Ellie doodles tiny versions of Aurora and Arnold in her margins during meetings.
☆ Ellie sometimes stares at you and just whispers, “How did I get this lucky?”
☆ She tells Arnold he looks like you, then whispers, “thank god.”
☆ Ellie calls their family of four “the most important study she’ll ever conduct.”
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You’re boygenius one is sooo iconic btw
Can you do petals on the moon-wasian project
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Petals on the moon - (ellie williams x reader)
Iconic??? Thank you sm anon, like literally this made me smile but anyway I hope you enjoy<3
This story is inspired by the song Petals on the moon by Wasian Project, if you can please listen to the song as you're reading:)
Pairing: Ellie x fem!reader
remember requests are always open feel free to leave one or just send me a song and I'll take it from there :)
HUGE Warnings: Mentions of murder, kidnapping , descriptions of a dead body, depression, graphic descriptions of suicide and funerals (please don't read this if you aren't in the right mental state)
Summary: In which Ellie regrets her decision
wc: 2.0k
Feeling down
Orange juice
Cigarette
To get me through
As it rains
I conclude
I need help
From someone new
"you know you're going to get cancer if you keep smoking that shit" she heard Joel's voice talk from behind her.
"Getting cancer sounds better than living" Ellie replied as she took another puff.
Smoke filled the air as Joel walked behind her, placing a cup of orange juice next to her.
Ellie looked down at the cup, and she let out a sigh as she remembered the time you mentioned you hated the orange liquid.
"Ellie what the fuck is this?" she heard you talk from the kitchen.
"It's juice" Ellie spoke, eyebrow raised, confused on why you were asking.
Were you really that stupid?
"I know it's fucking juice you idiot, I meant the flavor"
"It's orange juice... it's my favorite flavor"
"Ellie this shit is sour"
"ok so what do you like? apple juice?"
"As a matter of fact I do"
"you are so fucking disgusting" Ellie muttered as she took the box of orange juice from your hands.
She opened the top and she brought the base to her lips as she started drinking directly from the box. Ellie heard you make gagging noises before you walked back to the kitchen. A smile spread onto her lips as she continued to enjoy the juice.
"Ah fuck" Ellie cursed she felt her finger tips burn. She looked at her right hand realizing she was so lost in thought that her cigarette had completely burnt down.
"I don't want this" Ellie said as she pushed the cup back to Joel before she threw what was left of the cigarette on the floor.
She heard Joel sigh from beside her, as he grabbed the cup and gulped down the orange juice within seconds.
The air around them was silent, the moon was already high in the sky, and the light of the stars filled the air.
It was cold, but what else would you expect in September? September was your favorite month. Ellie remembered the day you walked into her and Joel's house wearing a stupid bee costume.
"Halloween is month away, you idiot" Ellie mentioned as you walked in with a huge smile on your face.
"So? I can start preparing"
"Dude you're literally so fucking weird"
You gave Ellie a small smile before saying "but you love me don't you?"
All Ellie could do was chuckle at your antics before you ran out the house screaming "I'm going to try on another costume!"
She heard the door slam.
"Of course I love you, how couldn't I?" She whisperered to herself.
Ellie was snapped back to reality when she heard Joels voice.
"What?" she questioned.
"Are you going to her funeral tomorrow? " Joel asked again.
"Yeah" was all she responded with.
"Ellie-"
"Don't start with your it's not your fault bullshit Joel"
"Ellie but it wasn't-"
"it was!" She almost yelled.
Joel tried putting his hand on her shoulder but Ellie pulled away. She stomped to the front door of their house before she turned to look at him saying: "it was my fucking fault"
Joels eyes softened, and he opened his mouth to speak but Ellie quickly interrupted him.
"I should've opened the door, but instead I was too busy sucking up to Cat"
Ellie took a deep breathe before she continued talking: "She died because of me"
"Goodnight Joel see you tomorrow" was the last thing Ellie said to him before she walked into their home.
So take me in your spaceship
Throw me up into new places
Blast me into silence
Let your guidance get me through this
Gravity is pulling me
Along and I can't find a way
To understand
Why I'm here again and again, oh
Ellie felt alone.
What she's feeling now is something that she couldn't even describe.
It felt like there was a hole in heart that couldn't be filled with anything, it felt like she was walking around without a purpose, without guidance.She didn't have anyone to talk to since you've left.
Ellie didn't know if she's never appreciated you enough. Or if she ever showed you enough love. But now you weren't here anymore, made her realize all the times she has neglected you. All the times she could've spent with you but she was busy with bullshit.
She wish she could bring you back to life, even if it was just for 5 minutes so that you could fill this hole that you left.
Ellie wondered what it would be like to live in space. Floating around aimlessly, wondering if you might see an alien or two. This is what her grief felt like. Like she was aimlessly living her life, like she was floating around hoping that someone would come fill the hole in her heart.
No hook ups, no cigarettes, an no amount of orange juice could fill her.
She was supposed to remember the good times the two of you had, but it seems that tonight she was plagued by your last moments.
The way you knocked on the bathroom door that night she and cat were hooking up in, the way she heard you crying and knocking on the door, begging her to open up.
All she did was pull away from Cat's lips and she yelled a quick "fuck off" before her and Cat's lips connected again.
She remembered the loud sob you let out after she yelled out you.
At the time Ellie thought you were being overdramatic. Maybe you were drunk, maybe you had a bad hookup, but she never expected that your body would be found 4 days after that.
If she had just opened the door that day, you would still be here with her. You would still randomly show up to her house to annoy the shit out her and leave.
But now here Ellie lays in her bad. All alone.
Without you.
Yeah, she thinks being sent into space would be better than feeling this empty.
I feel like everybody's singing out of tune
I feel like I can't help but always be so blue
But in the end I know I must keep pulling through
And brace myself for all the hell-like petals on the moon
Ellie felt out of place.
Everyone standing outside your grave deserved to be here. But she didn't. She couldve stopped your death, but yet she was selfish.
She wanted to prove to Dina and Jesse that she wasn't in love with you. Everyone in Jackson knew Ellie loved you, but she was too stupid to admit her feelings, like a fucking pussy.
And now she couldn't even tell you.
If she never decided to prove a point that day, if she never decided to even invite you to that party you would still be here with here and this stupid fucking funeral would not be happening.
Her eyes followed the coffin as it was lowered into the ground.
She knew you were in there, but she didn't want to believe it. The girl she was so helplessly in love with was being lowered six feet under for the rest of eternity.
The crowd erupted in the song "Amazing grace". Some people were singing, some people were crying.
This is all her fucking fault.
Ellie heard Joel softly crying from behind her. And all Ellie did was shamefully look away.
She had to stay strong for Joel.
You were like a daughter to him and he isn't taking you death well. As strong as Joel pretends to be, Ellie knows he's struggling.
She knows he started drinking again. She knows he barley sleeps. She knows he's concerned for her mental health.
Did she deserve it? Did Ellie deserve his love and pity after letting you die in such a gruesome way?
Ellie has your blood on her hands, and yet Joel tells her it wasn't her fault.
Feeling cold
Train delayed
You've gone home
And I'm afraid
Helios
Sun divine
Hold me up
Into the sky
Ellie remembers the day your body way found like it was yesterday.
The night after the party Ellie woke up with a pounding headache.
She groaned when she heard Joel barge into her room with a frantic look on his face.
"What do you want Joel?" Ellie asked through a yawn.
"y/n didn't get home last night"
And Ellie immediately sat up.
"What?"
"Where is she Ellie?"
"I-" she opened her mouth to talk but Joel's phone started ringing.
The only memory she had was you crying and begging her to open the door.
Then the search started. They searched every street, every river and every ditch in Jackson to find you.
4 fucking days.
4 fucking days of searching and interviews, and you still weren't found.
Ellie was on a train when it suddenly stopped, she pulled out her phone to text Joel and to tell him that she'd be late to the search that afternoon.
"They found a body, on the tracks!" Someone yelled from the front.
And Ellie's heart dropped to her stomach.
It was yours.
Your skin was cold meaning you had been dead for days. Your beautiful skin was littered with bruises and cuts. And around your neck were hand prints indicating that you had been suffocated.
Your cause of death was suffocating which means you were alive during the torture you faced.
If only she had opened that door. If only she wasn't filled with lust in that moment.
All Ellie could do was look up to the sky and hope that you were in a better place.
Maybe you've gone to that "home" called heaven religious people keep talking about.
Born again, alone again, again
Home again, you're gone again, again, again
Will somebody be there for me when all my friends have left?
Even if I'm undone in the end, ooh
Ellie stared up into the sky admiring the clouds. She walked towards the huge oak tree that the two of you always hung out at.
"C'mon ellie" you begged her one night.
"Dude it's literally 3am"
"So?" you yelled as you jumped onto the bed.
Ellie let out a groan she pulled a blanket over her head.
"We can go the oak tree and tell eachother scary stories" you told her as you pulled the blanket off of her head.
That night as the two of you lay under that beautiful oak tree and she looked over to you and she realized how in love she was with you.
That day changed everything for ellie.
She stood under the oak smiling at the memories.
Ellie climbed up the tree, as she pulled out a rope from her pocket.
You were strangled to death, she will die the same way.
She tied the rope onto the branch, and she slowly climbed out of the tree.
As she hopped out the tree her eyes landed on where the two of you carved in your initials all those years ago. And for the first time since your death Ellie started crying.
All the emotions she bottled up. All the guilt she felt. All the anger she felt just come out.
Ellie fell to her knees and she started sobbing. With tears in her eyes her hand reached up to touch the marking and a new wave of sadness flooded her.
She doesn't know how long she sat there sobbing, but hours must've went by.
Her throat felt raw from all the sobbing, her eyes felt puffy. Her whole face hurt.
Ellie looked to the rope that was hanging from the tree.
She looked at it, and she heard it calling her. The loneliness she felt and every ounce of pain she currently felt will all fall away if she just hung herself. She knew everything would be ok, and that she'd finally be with you again.
Ellie quickly got up and she gave your initial a kiss, before she got the chair that she secretly stole from Joel earlier that day.
Ellie placed the chair below the rope and she got onto it. She out her head through the rope, and she jumped kicking the chair to the side.
It felt like someone had kicked her in her something, the air was completely knocked out of her.
Is this how you felt in your final moments?
Ellie was in pain. Everything hurt. Now she knows what it felt like. What you had to go through. What she had put you through.
Ellie stared at sky as she felt more and more at ease.
The physical and emotional pain she was feeling this entire time was fading away.
Ellie's eyes rolled to the back of her head she took her last breath. Her body went limp.
She was finally put out of her suffering.
And for the first time since your death Ellie felt free.
Who knows, maybe she'd see you in the after life....
Authors note: well idk why all my work has been so depressing but anyway just remember you are loved and go always be kind....
Yours truly,
Zia:)
𝐍𝐨𝐛𝐨𝐝𝐲: 𝘦𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘢𝘮𝘴 𝘹 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘳
This story is based off the song Nobody by Mitski! If you can, please listen to the song as you're reading:)
Pairing: Jackson!ellie x fem!reader (This story takes place after Joel died. Basically you take Dina's place, so yes Ellie walked out on you. JJ doesn't exist)
Remember requests are always open, feel free to leave one! Or you can just send me a song and I'll take it from there!
Warnings: mentions of death, and a brief mention of violence
Summary: Ellie's biggest fear becomes a reality...
(I deeply apologize for the ending....)
My God, I'm so lonely
So I open the window
To hear sounds of people
To hear sounds of people
Ellie sighed as she opened her bedroom window. As she opened the window she was met with a cool breeze against her pale skin. She heard sounds. The sounds of people talking. The sounds of horses. The sounds of laughter, something she hasn’t done in a while.
After Ellie attempted to kill Abby, she returned back to the farm house in hopes that you were still there. She already lost Joel, she couldn’t lose you too. She knew leaving you to find some random blonde was selfish. She knew the second she walked out of that house she made a big mistake. But never in a million years did she think you would leave.
When Ellie arrived back at the farm house it was empty. Cold. The life that the two of you had built was there no more. The house was as empty and lonely as the day the two of you stumbled upon it. All your belongings were gone. Any trace of your existence was gone. It was like you never existed.
Ellie tried, she really tried living alone. But her thoughts consumed her, every single day her mind was filled with regret. Retting the fact that she didn’t kill Abby. Regretting the fact that she left you.
If she could go back in time she could protect Joel, she could make sure he didn’t die and none of this were to happen. Everything would have been ok.
So Ellie made the wise decision to back to Jackson.
It was a quite road. Ellie was alone on that journey. And when she arrived to Jackson everyone was happy to see her but Ellie didn’t care about them. Because they weren’t you. They weren’t Abby. They weren’t Joel.
As much as Maria and Tommy tried Ellie isolated herself. Ellie was lonely. She was consumed by anger, guilt. Regret. Ellie was filled with hate. She lost herself.
Ellie knew isolating herself was a bad idea but she did it because nobody would understand what she felt like. There was nobody apart from you and Joel that understood her, and you were both gone.
And now here Ellie sat. Looking out a window, listening to the sounds of people, trying to listen to anything else but the voices in her head.
Venus, planet of love
Was destroyed by global warming
Did its people want too much, too?
Did its people want too much?
And I don't want your pity
I just want somebody near me
Guess I'm a coward
I just want to feel alright
Ellie hated it when people sympathized with her. She remembers the first few days after Joel's passing, the way people were trying to comfort her pissed her off. Every time someone said stay strong, or he's in a better place, Ellie wanted nothing more but to grab her knife, and plunge it deeply into their throats. The only persons comfort she looked for was yours.
The weeks after Joel died, Ellie remembers all the nights she spent at your house sobbing. The nights you held her and sang her to sleep. The way you would never judge her, when she showed up at 3am . You were loving. Caring. Soft. Too pure for this fucked up world. Too pure for someone as fucked up as she was.
Right now in this moment, as she sat at the window she couldn't help but miss your comfort. The way your skin felt against hers. The way you could easily bring a smile to her lips.
The same way people destroyed the planet by killing each other during the apocalypse, the same way Ellie destroyed, your relationship. The way world went to shit in one day, the same way your relationship went to shit in one night. The same way she decided to destroy her relationship with Joel because she was mad.
She lets her anger get the best of her. she let her dark thoughts consume her, control her. She went from a women who had everything, to the women who had nothing.
All Ellie wanted was 5 more minutes with you. She just wanted to feel your touch again. She wanted you to tell her that was going to be ok.
Ellie just wanted to feel ok...
And for her to feel ok, she needed you
Nobody, nobody, nobody
Nobody, nobody
Ooh, nobody, nobody
Nobody, nobody, nobody
Nobody, nobody, nobody, nobody
Nobody, nobody, nobody, nobody
Nobody, nobody, nobody (nobody)
(Nobody, nobody)
Nobody, nobody
Nobody, nobody, no
"When can I see her?" Ellie asked
"You know you can't" Maria said
"Please just let me see her, its been months Maria" Ellie spoke up, looking at Maria with pleading eyes, voice laced with frustration.
Maria stared at Ellie, eyes wide.
"What?" Ellie questioned
"Ellie are you sure you don’t remember what happened between you and y/n…"
Ellie quickly shook her head confused
"Ellie you killed her"
Silence filled the room as the words fell from Maria's lips.
"I killed her" Ellie whispered "no I didn’t"
"Ellie-"
"No Maria don’t lie, she's ok, she's fine, she has to be" Ellie said trying to convince herself that what Maria was saying isn’t true. It can't be true.
Loud sobs echoed through the room as Maria slowly walked out to give Ellie the space she needs to process the news.
And like a wave crashes on a shore, the memories came crashing back.
Ellie was about to leave Jackson, and you held her hand, eyes filled with tears, you begged her no to leave.
"Ellie please" were the words you muttered over and over again.
Ellie was in auto pilot, as she was getting her horse ready. She completely dissociated from the world around her. She couldn't think. She couldn't feel. The only thing she had left in her mind was getting revenge.
She had to take revenge. Revenge was the only thing on her mind. It has been the only thing on her mind since Joel died. She had to kill them. They hurt her Joel, and she was going to make sure none of them got away with it.
In a moment of rage Ellie grabbed a wooded stick that was used to close the stables and and she hit you with. You let out a terrified scream at the sudden action.
Screams of fear filled the stable. You soon fell to the ground bleeding but Ellie didn't stop. The memory of that blonde hitting Joel was replaying in her mind over and over again. Ellie saw her. The blonde on the floor. She was imagining her.
Blood splattered all over the walls and horses, as she hit you, over and over and over again. At some point you stopped moving you stopped breathing.
You had lost your life the same way Joel lost his. But you weren't killed by a stranger, you were killed by the girl you loved.
Ellies mind was blank as she stared at the body on the floor.
"Ellie" she heard Tommy spoke "what did you do?"
Ellie got up from the body, with no emotion, no remorse. And by looking at her eyes Tommy could tell didn't know what she just did. He wasn't looking at Ellie, he was looking at a monster.
"Y/n and I are leaving now, she's waiting for me at the gates" Ellie spoke quickly, hoping on her horse she rode away, in fear that Tommy might convince her to stay.
The last 5 months Ellie wasn't with you. She was imagining you were there. She was hallucinating. You weren't there anymore, and Ellie's brain blocked out the memory of her murdering you.
You weren't real. You weren't there. You were dead.
And the worst part is, Elie was the one that took your life.
So there Ellie lay. Sobbing. She was alone.
Her biggest fear was to end up alone one day. And look at what has happened.
Her father figure was murdered right before her eyes, and she murdered the love of her life.
Maybe some people deserve to die alone
Authors note: I really hoped you enjoyed this one! I wanted to have a happy ending where they reunite and they live happily ever after, but I realized it would be out of character for me to write a happy story... Remember you are loved and to always be kind to one another! Please leave requests (if you want to obviously) its is always open!
Here's a edit of our wife:
Yours truly,
Zia :)
Okay so kinda a old song butttt it’s my favorite can you do something with laugh it off by Chelsea jade it’s kinda a breakup song to me
Laugh it off - (ellie williams x reader)
Hi anon! Firstly the intro of this song is so fucking good, and also real! I thought it was a break up song too.... I hope you enjoy<3
This story is based off the song, Laugh it off by Chelsea Jade! If you can, please listen to the song as you're reading:)
Pairing: ellie x fem!reader
requests are always open, feel to send me one or a song and I'll take it from there:) Just a reminder that if you request something and you want something specific to happen you should indicate it in your request.
Warnings: meantions of cheating and sex
Summary: In which Ellie tries to fix your relationship after she was unfaithful
wc: ???
about me the request playlist
You're coming in hot, but not so bright
Making a meal of any appetite
Just take it easy
'Cause if I held you up against the light
I could see clear enough to cut right
To where you're weakest
"just take it easy" Ellie spoke to you as she reached across the table to grab your hand.
You felt a shiver run down the spine, at the small contact. You and Ellie have not touched each other for months, and you weren't going to lie, you've felt empty and cold without her.
Ellie hesitantly interlocked her fingers with yours. A surprised look overtook Ellies features.
You let her hold your hand? For the last 6 months you made her life a living hell, depriving her from touching your and finally, finally you let her touch you.
It's crazy to think that the person you once knew so well, became someone you don't recognize.
The Ellie sitting infront of you wasn't the girl you fell in love with two years ago. And the way you were acting right now wasn't the sweet girl Ellie met and once loved.
The Ellie you fell in love with would never cheat on you.
It's crazy to think the person you once knew from the inside out wanted nothing to do with you.
Ellie knew your hopes and dreams, she knew your fears and she knew what kept you up at night. But the person she was sitting across was not that person anymore.
You weren't the girl that used to scream everytime she saw a spider. You weren't the girl that looked at Ellie with so much love and care, now you stared at her with a cold and icy look. A look of hatred, and anger.
There was no love left in you.
You weren't Ellie's girl anymore and she realized she fucked up everything.
"So...." Ellie started.
The air surrounding you was tense, your hands were still interlocked. You felt Ellies hand became sweaty, you felt the table moving due to her leg bouncing up and down.
She was nervous.
The future of your relationship depends on what you had to say. Ellie couldn't take the suspense.
Were you actually going to forgive her after what she did?
Ellie believes everyone deserves a second chance. She deserves one. She made a mistake. It's not as if you've never made one over the last two years you were together.
"Are you enjoying dinner?" Ellie asked awkwardly.
She watched you look up from the plate of food and you simply replied with "no".
Ellie frowned at your response, she thought you liked spaghetti?
"I thought you loved spaghetti?" she asked, confused.
"I don't like it anymore"
"what? Since when?"
"Since you fucking cheated on me"
Ellie went quite after that. She stared at you with glossy eyes, she hated when you brought this up.
"That night..." you started "it was our anniversary and I made spaghetti, and guess what Elie?" You asked her.
"My girlfriend was fucking someone else when I decided to suprise her" you started laughing as if it was the funniest joke ever.
Ellie started sweating with embrassment.
The room felt hot and stuffy.
Ellie waited for you to keep quite before she spoke again, "it was a mistake"
"This relationship was a mistake" you replied.
Ellie looked at you with her eyes wide "you don't mean that" she said softly, as the tears glossed her eyes once again.
"You said you loved me, you said we were meant to be" Ellie spoke.
"Maybe I was lying" you answered as you removed your hand from Ellie's grip. You got up and you walked out of the restaurant, not looking back at her.
Maybe trying to fix this relationship was a mistake. Maybe she should stop trying.
But you were worth fighting for.
I can tell that
You wanna laugh it off, but you're lazy
And I've been trying to make amends with you lately
But you're difficult to reason with and maybe
Just maybe
Want my chest to keep it heavin'
On the lighter side of feelin'
I'm not going into grievin' for you, for you, for you
So i'm just gonna laugh it off
"you can't keep ignoring my calls" was the first thing Ellie said as she walked into your apartment.
She heard you close the door as you walked towards her, and all you could said was "I can".
Ellie let out a groan of frustration. She was trying. She was really trying to fix things. To earn your trust again, but you were making it so fucking difficult.
Ellie tried taking you on dates, but you leave her alone at the end of every night. She tried to call and text you but you would never answer.
"How are we supposed to fix things if you keep ignoring me?" Ellie asked.
"Who said I wanted to fix things?"
Ellie opened her mouth in suprise.
"If I remembered correctly you came to my apartment crying, literally begging for me to take you back. To give you another chance" you spat out at her.
Ellie looked down at her feet before she quietly muttered "I came back because i love you".
You let out a laugh. Ellie loved you? If she did she would've never cheated on you.
"Love is about forgiveness" Ellie interrupted your laughing session.
You stopped laughing and you just stared at her. "For fucks sake Ellie, you cant mess something up and expect everything to be ok"
And once again you left Ellie speechless. "Now get out of my apartment" you yelled at her.
How long does one fight for something before you give it up? How long does Ellie have to fight to get you back? How long was she still going to be punished before you'd forgive her?
Ellie used to think that you're trying to hurt her on purpose. But the more Ellie thought about the more she realized that she deserved it. She was the one who cheated and she needs to suffer the consequences of her actions.
Ellie went back to you because she realized her mistake. She realized that you were the only woman for her. And she fought really fucking hard to get you back, and now that she has you she realizes what she did has caused deeper problems than what she initially thought.
You weren't being difficult on purpose, you weren't trying to hurt her. You were treating Ellie this way because she hurt you.
Ellie wishes you'd just listen. That you'd hear her out, that you'd let her explain. But what was there to explain? She cheated because she was drunk? She imagined she was fucking you instead?
But she couldn't blame you, because if you did the same thing Ellie wouldn't even accepted your apology.
If she had a time machine, Ellie would go back in time, to make her not go out that night, she wish she could back and stop herself from drinking so much, she wishes she could go back and stop herself from bringing that girl home.
So many regrets, and so many mistakes, but yet she could do nothing to fix it.
I wanna be wrong, but it don't feel right
Lighting my name up with an exit sign
You got me leavin'
You're pushing me into this falling out
And the moment that I watch my mouth
I lose the feeling
Ellie went out with a bunch of coworkers that night.
Ellie wasn't stupid, she knew she was an attractive girl, and where ever she went heads turned in her direction.
That night Ellie drank more than she normally did due to the amount of stress she was under.
Her boss was breathing down her ass, giving her assignment after assignment and she just needed a break. As Ellie kept taking shot after shot, feeling the liquid burn her throat, her eyes landed on a tall brunette.
The girl winked at Ellie, and all Ellie did was give her a smirk as she walked towards her. One thing led to another, and Ellie took the girl home.
It was about 1:00am when Ellie heard her front door open, but with her head between the girls thighs she couldn't focus on anything else.
The girl put her hands into Ellies hair as she threw back her head letting out a loud moan. "You like that?" Ellie chuckled as she went up to kiss the girl.
As they were making out Ellie heard a familiar voice from behind the door.
"your kitchen light was on so I assumed I'd come say happy anniversary early even though it's 1-"
Ellies head snapped towards the door, as she heard a glass fall onto the floor. Heavy breathes fell from Ellies lips as she looked at you staring at her with tears in your eyes.
"On our fucking anniversary?" You cried loudly as the tears fell from your eyes. You ran out the house, and all Ellie did was watch you ran away.
She watched you cry. She watched you walked out.
The girl Ellie was hooking up with, was grabbing her clothes and yelling at Ellie for being a piece of shit. But Ellie wasn't paying attention to her.
The girl walked out the apartment, and Ellie was left there. Alone and half naked.
All Ellie could do was stare at the broken plate, and her floor filled with spaghetti.
'Cause I got the good sense to laugh it off, but this is crazy
You make it seem like I'm the one who's being shady
But your love is in the liminal and maybe
Just maybe
"what the fuck Ellie?" You yelled.
Ellie had shown up to your apartment, once again, drunk and saying random things.
"Hi" she slurred before she put her arm around your shoulder.
"Did you know, Jesse cheated om Dina and she laughed it off?"
"Are you saying I should pretend you never cheated, and just laughed at it like it was a joke?"
Ellie hummed.
All you could do was let put a sigh as you removed Ellie's jacket before you placed her on the couch.
You left Ellie blabbering on the couch as you walked yo her room to get her a blanket.
You felt guilty for wanting to leave Ellie. You felt like you played a part, in why she cheated on you.
Maybe you didn't give her enough attention? Maybe you didn't treat her right?
Ellie never knew this, but you blamed yourself for a long time. You felt like you were the reason she cheated. But after a while you realized that it wasn't your fault.
You knew you deserved better. You deserved to be in a happy relationship and that person wasn't Ellie.
You grabbed a soft blanket that Ellie had gotten you for your 5 month anniversary almost two years ago, and you brought it to her.
You covered her with the blanket, as you looked down at her beautiful face.
She looked so peaceful. So innocent.
"I love you" Ellie whisperered, before she fell asleep.
If only you still felt the same
Oh, oh
I'm just gonna laugh it off
Oh, ohh
'Cause the air's got a weight right now
And I can't help but feel out your heavy breathing
I'm only teasing
You and Ellie sat in awkward silence in her apartment.
You cleared your throat as you looked at her: "I've made my decision- about us"
Ellie let out a sigh of relief. Finally, you were finally going to talk to her, you were finally going to forgive her and things would go back to normal.
Ellie stared at you with a smile on her face, waiting for you to say that you'd forgiven her.
"I think we should break up"
"what? No"
"Ellie please let me go... you know this will never work out" you whisperered.
And Ellie let out a loud sob at your request.
How could you ask that from her? How do you give up someone you love so much?
Ellie started sobbing because she realized there was no going back from this because she had truly lost you forever. This was all her fault.
You got up as Ellie continued to cry. And you walked towards the door, before you looked back at her, as she sat there sobbing like a baby.
"Ellie remember when you said that love is about forgiveness?"
You heard Ellie sniffle before she looked up at you with swollen but hopeful eyes.
She nodded as an answer to your question.
"If you love me, you'd forgive me for leaving you"
And with that you walked out her apartment, closing the door behind you.
And once again Ellie was left alone. Her sobs filled the room, as she fell onto her knees.
Maybe she should've let you go the first time.
Authors note: guess who's back, back again! I hope you enjoyed! Remember my requests are always open, feel free to leave one! Remember you are loved and to always be kind!
Yours truly,
Zia <3
Omg if you’d be willing to do another boy genius song I loved the first one so much could you do cool about it it’s my favorite from them 🫶
Cool about it - (ellie williams x reader)
hi anon! I would love to do another boygenius one, I literally love them and thank you for the compliment! I hope you enjoy:)
This story is based off the song Cool about it by Boygenius, if you can please listen to the song as you're reading:)
Pairing: ellie x fem!reader
requests are always open, feel free to send one! you can send me a song and I'll take it from there!
HUGE Warning: mental illness, murder, descriptions of murder, gore, mentions of touching a body, a small description of a dead animal, and Ellie being unhinged (as per usual)
Summary: if Ellie couldn't have you, she'd make sure no one else ever will.
wc: 1.7k
Met you at the dive bar to go shoot some pool
And make fun of the cowboys with the neck tattoos
Ask you easy questions about work and school
I'm trying to be cool about it
Feelin' like an absolute fool about it
Wishin' you were kind enough to be cruel about it
Tellin' myself I can always do without it
Knowin' that it probably isn't true
When Ellie met you, she knew her life was going to change. Whether it was for better or for worse, she didn't care.
Dina recently came out as bisexual and according to her, she needed to "meet hot girls". She dragged Ellie to a local lesbian bar and Ellie hated every fucking second of it.
She wanted to go home so fucking bad. She wanted to sleep-
"hi"
Ellie's thoughts were interrupted when she heard a voice talking from behind her. The voice of an angel, she would describe it. That voice that changed her entire life, from that moment on.
Ellie turned her head to see you.
And yeah maybe coming to the bar that night wasn't such a bad idea.
The two of you talked for hours about how shitty your college is, you talked about how Ellie wanted a promotion at the Café she was currently working at. The two of you made fun of the bartenders neck tattoos.
It was a really a night to remember.
Ellie had gotten your number and she immediately asked you out on date. And you quickly said yes. I mean, who wouldn't? It's Ellie Williams.
You made Ellie feel like a fucking fool. You were making her do things she's never done before.
She showed up to the restaurant 2 hours early, so she could choose the best table, so she could make sure the area was safe.
Her palms were wet with sweat the closer as she watched the minutes go by as she was waiting for you.
Ellie's eyes lit up when you walked info the restaurant, the air in her lungs were knocked out as you walked towards her.
You were beautiful.
"Hi" you gave her a small smile before she got up to hug you. As Ellie wrapped her arms around you, the scent of your perfume overtook her senses.
The two of you fit together like a puzzle pieces.
The date was amazing. You talked like you had known each other for years, despite only knowing each other a week at that point in time.
As the evening came to an end you told Ellie something she didn't want to hear.
"Look I'm not looking for something serious, just casual hook ups that's all. No feelings attached"
"no feelings?" Ellie asked in shock
"Yeah" you replied. "Just be cool about it"
How could she be cool with only hooking up with the girl, she thought was her soulmate?
I came prepared for absolution, if you'd only ask
So I take some offense when you say, "No regrets"
I remember it's impossible to pass your test
But I'm trying to forget about it
Feelin' like I'm breaking a sweat about it
Wishin' you would kindly get out of my head about it
Tellin' myself one day I'll forget about it
Knowin' that it probably isn't true
Ellie hoped that one day you'd call her and say that you regret only hooking up with her. She hoped that you'd tell her that you wanted more than sex.
But at this rate Ellie doesn't think that will happen.
You'd only call her when you were alone or bored, and Ellie being stupid and in love, always went.
She'd drop everything for you.
She knows this is toxic, being in love with someone you know will never fucking love you is bad.
But Ellie hoped this was a test.
She hoped you were testing her, testing her loyalty. It was unlikely, but she always had hope.
You were in Ellies mind, like a fucking plague. Like a fly that wouldn't go away.
Everything she looked at, everything she smelt or touched reminded her of you. And she was sick of it.
She saw you in her dream, and in her nightmares. Ellie saw you everywhere.
She already couldn't have you, now you were haunting her.
Is this some kind of joke? Did you ask a spell on her?
She'd beg the stars above to have mercy on her. To make her even forget about your existence entirely. But she couldn't.
You were there to stay. To haunt her. To mock her. Maybe one day she'll move on, but for now she has to deal with being with your side chick.
If only you'd given her a chance, you'd still be alive right now.
Once, I took your medication to know what it's like
And now I have to act like I can't read your mind
I ask you how you're doing and I let you lie
"Ellie when last have you taken your medication?" Joel asked as he walked into Ellie's room.
Empty plates and cups littered the room as he saw a few bugs run around.
Ellie's head snapped towards the door when she heard him talk.
"Ellie you know you need it" Joel tried talking with her again
"I dont"
"you'll hurt someone if you don't drink it" he tried reasoning with her
"I'm fine, I won't hurt anyone"
"don't lie Ellie"
"Joel get the fuck out" and with a sigh Joel left the room.
"I need to get into her mind" Ellie spoke aloud even though there was no one there.
"She left me Barry... why would she leave me for her?"
She needed to know why you didn't want her. She needed to know why you chose some blonde bitch over her.
She was cool with the arrangement that the two of you had. Strictly sex and nothing else. She got to see you, she got to spend time with you, but now that you have someone else.
You stopped seeing her.
What made Abby so special, that you could commit to her and not to Ellie? What was wrong with her?
"What can we do?"
"Hurt her? No that's not nice Barry" she told him.
"Wait so you're saying if we kill her no one will touch her?" She asked him.
"If she says no i'll hurt her...yeah thanks Barry"
Ellie excitedly got up from her bed as she reached out to grab her phone. She quickly texted you asking you to come over because the two of you had to talk about something important.
You said you'd be there in an hour and grin spread across Ellie's face.
Joel had left the house to go to see Ellie's therapist. He was very fucking concerned and he was afraid for his own safety.
Joel knew there was something wrong with Ellie since she was 5 years old.
She was playing out in the garden, before Joel called her in a for dinner. But Ellie excitedly told him "come look, I made a friend!"
With smile Joel walked out, but his smile was soon overcome with pure horror and shock.
Blood littered the grass a squirrel lay there cut in half.
Joel turned to Ellie as she looked at him with a big smile.
"Barry made me do it!"
Therapy session after therapy session, but yet no one knew why a 5 year old was killing animals.
They told Joel he was being overdramatic, that she was just acting out. But the older Ellie grew, the more violent her acts became.
She killed animals, she hurt her friends. She wasn't a kid acting out, she was a girl with a serious problem.
They gave her medication, to keep whoever Barry was quite. Without barry Ellie lived a happy life. A peaceful life.
But now, because of you, for the first time in years, she heard Barry talk to her again.
Barry always knew best in Ellie's eyes.
Ellie quickly cleaned the living room, before she hopped into the shower. All you needed to do was say yes, and she wouldn't hurt you.
Just say yes.
But we don't have to talk about it
I can walk you home and practice method acting
I'll pretend being with you doesn't feel like drowning
Tellin' you it's nice to see how good you're doing
Even though we know it isn't true
"please give me one chance" Ellie begged.
She watched you lower your heard as you let out a sigh.
"Ellie I can't, you know I don't feel the same way"
"Please try" she begged.
She hoped you would say yes. She didn't want to hurt you. You would be ok, you would walk out of here alive if only you said yes to her.
The love Ellie had for you was killing her. It felt like she was drowning.
Either you let her love you or she'd make sure nobody would ever love you again.
Ellie felt the cold blade of the knife dig into her back. She had hid the knife behind the chair she was sitting at and all she wanted was for you to say yes.
She needed you to just give her a chance and everybody would be happy. Everybody would be safe and you would leave alive.
"Ellie I said no"
Ellie's eye slightly twitched as she took a deep breathe. She closed her eyes lowering her head into her hands.
why didn't you just say yes?
She got up grabbing the knife, hiding it behind her back as she made her way towards you.
With tears in her eyes, Ellie looked at you and said "you should've said yes"
You looked at Ellie as she towered over you, you opened your mouth to say something but you suddenly felt something cold in your shoulder.
You looked to your seeing there was a knife, with eyes wide you looked back at Ellie as you let out a whimper.
"Why?" You asked her, as you felt the unbearable pain in your shoulder.
"you should've said yes" Ellie repeated, as she removed the blade from your shoulder.
You let out a cry, when the blade was pulled from your shoulder.
You tried moving away from Ellie, but she was bigger than you and much stronger. You had nowhere to run and all you could do was accept your fate.
Ellie brought the knife down as she stabbed you in the stomach.
"You should've said yes" she repeated.
The knife was pulled from my stomach, and she slashed your left cheek.
"You should've said yes"
She brought the knife directly into your eye socket.
"You should've said yes" she repeated as she slit your throat.
"You should've said yes" Ellie yelled as she repeatedly brought the knife down, stabbing you all over your body.
Blood spattered everywhere, and there wasn't an inch of your skin that was left uncut or without blood.
The last words you ever heard that day was "you should've said yes"
maybe you should have.
Ellie threw the knife somewhere in the room as heavy breathes left her mouth. Ellie looked down at your body, with a small smile on your face.
"We did it", she muttered to herself.
Ellie gently placed your still warm, and still bleeding body onto the floor, before she got onto her knees to give you a kiss on your forehead.
"I'm sorry I hurt you" she brought her hand up to wipe the blood from your lips.
"but it had to be done"
She lowered herself onto your chest. Ellie lay there cuddling with your dead body, she closed her eyes and she let out a hum of approval.
She's definitely has to thank Dina for taking her to that bar.
Authors note: well I've been posting everyday for the last 4 days and I'm so sorry for spamming, but I have so many requests and I'm trying to get everything done for yall. So just know for the next few days, I'll be feeling you with ALOT of content lmfao.Remember you are loved and to always be kind. I love you all.
Yours truly,
Zia:)
Ellie Williams x BPD! Reader please 🙏
Split Edges - ellie williams x reader
hi anon! i hope you enjoy:)
Pairing: ellie x fem!reader
requests are open! send me your silly thoughts
Warning: Intense emotional themes, self-sabotage, swearing, dark thoughts, panic attacks, co-dependency, manipulation, and one shocking betrayal
Summary: in which you needed help
masterlist
“I’m sorry I go from loving you to hating you in minutes.
I’m sorry I can’t tell what’s real.
I just don’t want to lose you.”
Ellie met you when she was at her worst.
And you?
You were a wildfire in human skin.
Charming one second. Distant the next.
Your moods didn’t shift—they switched. On and off. Light and dark.
And Ellie, for all her trauma-hardened edges, found herself drawn in.
You saw her, truly saw her. Not as a weapon or a survivor.
But as someone worth loving. That scared her.
But not as much as how fast she fell.
You loved hard. That’s the thing no one tells you about BPD.
It’s not drama—it’s devotion.
When Ellie laughed, it filled every empty part of you. When she touched your hand, it was like being stitched back together.
But the fear was always there.
She could leave.
And if she left, you’d unravel. So you tried to hold tighter. Love harder. Be perfect.
But no one can be perfect forever.
Ellie started pulling away after you had your first episode in front of her. You saw her glance at someone else for half a second too long.
Your stomach dropped.
Your heart snapped.
“You’re bored of me,” you said. “You’re already looking for someone else.”
“What?” she laughed, confused. “I just asked them for extra ammo—”
“No,” you snapped. “I saw you.”
The fight lasted hours. You cried. Screamed. Threw your knife into the wall.
Ellie didn’t leave.
But she didn’t touch you either.
And that’s when you knew:
She was starting to fear you.
And that made you hate yourself.
So you punished yourself. Silently. The way you always did.
But Ellie noticed the new scar.
One night, she sat across from you, voice low.
“I want to be with you,” she said. “But not like this. You have to get help.”
“I am help,” you hissed. “I’m the only one who’s stayed.”
“You love me so much you’re destroying me.”
That shut you up.
Because maybe she was right.
So you made her a promise: you’d try.
You’d get better.
For her.
And for a while, you did.
You journaled. You started meds. You smiled more. You apologized when you snapped instead of vanishing for days.
Ellie let her walls down again.
And things were good. Too good.
That’s how you should’ve known something was coming.
The knock at the door came on a rain-heavy evening. You opened it to find Dina.
Alive. Shaking. Pale.
“She told me you were dead,” she said to you.
You blinked. “What?”
“She said you lost it during a raid. That you bled out in her arms.”
“I’ve never even been in a raid,” you said slowly.
Dina stared at you.
Ellie had lied.
Not about you.
About Dina.
Because while Ellie had been healing you…
She’d been hiding the fact that she never stopped loving someone else.
You confronted her that night.
“You said she was gone.”
Ellie sat still, jaw clenched.
“She was. I thought she was—”
“Liar,” you whispered. “You wanted her gone. You wanted me to replace her.”
“You’re not a replacement,” Ellie snapped. “You’re... you're worse.”
The words left her mouth before she could take them back.
And just like that, the switch flipped.
You were done.
You disappeared the next morning. Vanished into the woods.
Ellie searched for days. Weeks. She cried. Screamed. Left notes carved into tree bark.
But she never found you.
Because you didn’t want to be found.
Until the next season, when Ellie found something under her bed.
A recording.
Your voice. Calm. Unstable. Honest.
“If you’re hearing this, I’m gone. Not dead—just done. You didn’t break me. I just finally saw who I was when I wasn’t trying to hold you. You were always scared of losing me. But I think I was more scared of losing myself.”
Ellie sits on the porch every dusk now. Alone. The wind carries echoes of your voice. Not real. But not gone either. She doesn’t know where you are. But part of her knows she’ll never find you. And for once, it’s not because you’re lost.
It’s because you finally let go.
Douchebag Ellie supremacy!
Headcannons: douchebag!ellie x reader
☆ Douchebag Ellie who was the most hated girl on campus because she was literally a bitch.
☆ Douchebag Ellie was in the same class as you and who treated you like shit.
“I thought you were smart dude, I got higher than you”
☆ Douchebag Ellie who would yawn loudly as you try and present. Or she would literally just make random noises. She was trying to get under your skin.
☆ Douchebag Ellie who would boo every time your lecturer asked you to answer a question.
☆ Douchebag Ellie who bumps into you on purpose, making you drop your books and then she walks away laughing.
☆ Douchebag Ellie who would insult you on a daily basis, when in reality she was looking for ways to talk to you.
“You look fucking disgusting”
“you’re seriously going to wear that?”
“No wonder your ex cheated on you”
☆ Douchebag Ellie who thrives off the attention you give her when you yell at her. Or when you tell her to fuck off.
☆ Douchebag Ellie who sits directly behind you and throws notes at you and who thinks it’s funny when you flip her off.
☆ Douchebag Ellie who gets defensive when her friends say she has a crush on you.
“Dude you’re literally fucking in love with her! You already act like a dick in general but you act like a bigger one around her”
“Shut the fuck up Jesse, this is why Dina left you”
☆ Douchebag Ellie who watches you smile with other people but when it comes to her you walk past her. And as much as she likes to pretend it didn’t make her feeling anything, she felting something. It hurt.
☆ Douchebag Ellie who feels a pit grow in her stomach when she saw you walking hand in hand with another girl.
☆ Douchebag Ellie who knows it’s not normal to get jealous when you see someone you know walking with someone else.
☆ Douchebag Ellie who realizes she’s in love with you and that she’s fucked.
☆ Douchebag Ellie who becomes worse after that. Harsher insults and snarkier comments.
☆ Douchebag Ellie who’s mad at herself for not talking to you sooner.
“Dude it’s my fault” Ellie sighed one afternoon.
“if you weren’t such a pussy maybe you could talk to her and ask her out” Jesse spoke as he tried comforting his friend.
“she was so rude to that poor girl; I don’t even think she stood a chance” Dina added
☆ Douchebag Ellie who grew quiet and less bitchy.
☆ Douchebag Ellie who stopped making fun of you and completely distanced herself.
“Ellie are you ok?” her eyes snapped open she was met with the girl she was so deeply in love with.
“why do you fucking care?” Ellie snapped.
“I don’t” you answered. “it’s just you didn’t call me stupid of failing my test”
“well you aren’t stupid” Ellie muttered
“what?” You asked “I didn’t hear you”
“Nothing” Ellie muttered.
Ellie brought her hand up to her face as she rubbed her eyes and she let out a sigh. “Look- can I ask you something?” Ellie hesitantly asked.
“sure”
if I- if I wasn’t such a bitch would you like me? Like- you know.. like like me?” Ellie looked at you sheepishly.
“who says I don’t already?” Ellie started at you with wide eyes as you just winked at her,
“see in class Williams!” you said as you walked away
☆ Douchebag Ellie who got hope that she did actually have a change with you.
☆ Douchebag Ellie who made it her mission to make you hers from that day on.
Can you do a fic off the song poison by brent faiyaz
𝐏𝐨𝐢𝐬𝐨𝐧: 𝘦𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘢𝘮𝘴 𝘹 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘳
This is my first requested story and it’s based off the song Poison by Brent Faiyaz if you can please listen to the song as you’re reading:)
Pairing: ellie x fem!reader
Requests are always open, feel free to leave one or send me a song and I’ll take it from there!
Warnings: sexual themes, there will be mentions of smut and sexy things, mentions of toxic relationships, obsession, cheating and murder, drugs, dismembering of a body and violence
Summary: Ellie knows your relationship is toxic, but she can’t help but go back to you.
Know you ride it right
I might just die tonight
But you know I'm still coming through baby (through baby)
I know it's bad for me
And you know it tastes so sweet
I think I need your abuse baby
A relationship filled with jealousy, possessiveness and obsession isn’t really healthy. And Ellie knew that. And since she was a little girl Ellie decided that she would never be in a toxic relationship.
“as soon as I see some toxic shit happen I’m leaving” she used to say.
But Ellie was a hypocrite. Telling people to leave their toxic situations because it wasn’t healthy, but Ellie herself was in one of the most toxic relationships in the whole of Jackson.
Ellie and y/n started dating exactly two years ago, and from an outsider’s perspective the relationship seemed healthy. Many people would even describe the two as the perfect pair. A couple that was a good example of a healthy relationship, so you could guess everyone’s surprise when the two of you broke up. But in reality no one knew what happened behind closed doors.
Behind closed doors your relationship was anything but healthy. Argument after argument and instead of sorting things out like a normal couple Ellie had you moaning her name, and begging her to give you more. You made each other jealous on purpose, you argued, you fucked and then you pretend like nothing happened. You both manipulated each other. You both hurt each other. But for some reason you stayed together. For two whole years the two of lived a life of jealousy, anger, and sex.
Ellie shouldn’t be here. She shouldn’t be standing outside your house. She should be at home with her fiancé Dina, celebrating their engagement but yet she was at your house. She let out a sigh as she brought up her hand to knock. Ellie waited exactly two minutes -not that she was counting or anything- before you opened up the door. The two of you made eye contact, before you said “what the fuck are you doing here-“ but before you could even finish Ellie walked forward cupping your cheeks, as she brought her lips down to give you a kiss. Instinctively you kissed back, your lips locking with the women that broke your heart. It didn’t take long for Ellie to deepen the kiss. This is what she’s been thing of for the last year since the two of you broke up.
Ellie walked you into the house, without breaking the kiss she closed the door behind you, pushing you against it soon after.
Hesitantly Ellie pulled away from the kiss looking into your eyes, before she could go back to kissing you, you said:
“Ellie go home”
Ellie didn’t say anything, as she run her fingertips over your arm, eyes never leaving your lips
“No”
“Ellie-“ you said, your voice suddenly disappearing as you felt Ellie’s hand dropping lower and lower, getting closer to your core
“Fuck” she breathed “I know I shouldn’t be here but you’re the only one I want”. Looking away from your lips to look you in the eyes “you fucking ruined me but I can’t stay away from you”
“Ellie what about Dina?” you breathed as Ellie brought her lips closer to yours, her hand already working on unbuttoning your jeans.
“Dina isn’t that important right now” she hummed at her own statement, “let me do this one more time before I have to get married”
Ellie looked into your eyes “is that ok with you?” she asked, she needed your consent before she did anything to you. And when you nod your head Ellie had a wicked grin on her face “fuck yeah” she breathed as she locked your lips once more. The kiss was filthy, teeth clashing, spit connecting, Ellie was practically tongue fucking you at that point. Ellie pulled away slowly, a string of spit connecting to the two of you. You gave her a small smile, lips swollen from the fiery kiss you both just shared.
“I’m going to fucking ruin you”
Girl, you do damage to me
You know I love it, yeah I love you
Ain't nothing better for me now
Girl, you do damage to me
You know, I love it, yeah I love you
Ain't nothing better for me now
Than your poison baby
God she would do anything to be with you again. The way you moaned her name, the way you tasted, the way your eyes closed in pleasure, she missed all of that. She’ll forever have the memories of it, and while Dina is asleep she touches herself because you were her girl. And she needed to have you. She needed to hear you chant her name over and over again. She needed to wake up, and roll over, to find your naked body laying with her.
Just the thought of you already had an effect on her, Ellie let out a quite fuck as she got out of bed, trying not to wake Dina up. She walked to the bathroom, quietly closing the door, hand immediately reaching into her boxers to sort herself out. Now Ellie knew what people with drug addictions meant when they said they can’t quit or leave the drugs behind.
Dina would never be you, Dina will never sound like you, or taste like you. And fuck Ellie doesn’t know how she’ll get married to Dina without thinking of you. Most of the times, to make sex with the poor girl bearable she would imagine it’s you laying there, gripping her hair and crying for Ellie. But every time she opened her eyes she was always met with disappointment. Dina. It’s not you. Its fucking Dina.
Ellie would do anything for you. She would die for you. She would kill for you. But after spending that one night with you, Ellie realized she would much rather die than marry Dina. She had to think of something before she got married to her. Ellie wants you. And she didn’t want to ruin her reputation and leave Dina, no- she needed to think of something else.
Ellie knows there was someone out there for her. Someone she could share a healthy relationship with, but she doesn’t give two fucks. You were dirty, manipulative, and so fucking toxic but you tasted so good. You were like a weed that hurts and poisons everything around them, but Ellie doesn’t fucking care.
Your poison has seeped into her veins, and damaged her beyond repair. And you knew what you were doing, she could tell. At times Ellie wonders who else fell victim to you and your poison, but she tried not to think about it too often. Because she wants to be your one and only. She would kill anyone, who even looks at you if she had the chance. But you weren’t hers anymore. And she wasn’t yours anymore.
Ellie soon reached her release, and she quickly washed her hands, deciding to let her hands air dry. As she walked out of the bathroom, she saw Dina lay there, sleeping peacefully. And blissfully unaware that she wouldn’t wake up the next day.
Mh-mh-mh-mh, oh
Angel of the night
Drown between your thighs
I'm still here, ain't no excuse baby (excuse baby)
“Ellie” you moaned her name like a mantra. Like it was the only word you knew, and Ellie felt her chest fill with pride as she continued fucking her fingers into you.
“Yeah, you like that?” she breathed needing more confirmation from you, and you just let out a pornographic moan and just by the sound of your moan Ellie knew she was doing good.
Ellie killed Dina that night. Grabbing her hunting knife and slitting Dina’s throat as she was sleeping. Dina opened her eyes grabbing onto Ellie’s arm mouthing words. No sound came from her mouth but her lips were moving. Ellie watched as Dina slowly bled, the blood dripping onto her bed.
“Why aren’t you fucking dying?” Ellie asked aloud out of frustration, when she saw Dina’s eyes still moving. She hopped onto the bed straddling Dina, stabbing her in the chest over and over again. Ellie blacked out at some point imagining you telling her how proud you were of her for doing this. For you. Ellie was doing this with you to be with you again.
Soon after Ellie killed Dina she hoped into the shower, leaving Dina’s body there, and she went to you. The only person she truly found comfort in.
And that were she was right now, fucking her ex-girlfriend after she killed her fiancé. Ellie couldn’t be happier, she was with you again, she was between your thighs doing what she loved the most. And this time Ellie doesn’t have to worry about going home to Dina. Now she can finally plan on getting back together with you. She would ask you out in a romantic way, but first she had to sort out her little Dina problem.
As soon as you fell asleep Ellie, slipped out of the room going back to her and Dina’s house. Ellie didn’t even flinch at the scene before her. She effortlessly lifted Dina’s body off the bed groaning when she realized she needed to get new bedding after this.
She put Dina’s body into the bathtub as she started dismembering the body. Cutting off piece by piece, Ellie sighed at the amount of work she still had left. Dismembering a human is similar to an animal. Ellie was thankful that Joel taught her how to cut animals up, otherwise she wouldn’t have been able to get rid of Dina.
When Ellie was eventually done she put Dina’s limbs into a freezer, deciding that the best way to dump Dina’s body, would be next time she was on patrol. Ellie cleaned the bedroom and the bathroom, and when she finally finished she had a small smile on her lips.
She was free. No more Dina. Now she could finally focus on you.
I see you in my sleep
I'm scarred beyond belief
Ain't nothing you can't make me do, baby (do baby)
Ellie had to act as a girl that was grieving. Her story was that she and Dina had an argument and Dina just left and never came back. And everyone believed it it. On the outside Ellie had to force herself to cry and to be sad, but on the inside she was celebrating that Dina was gone.
Every time she enters her room, she can’t help but smile, remembering the moment she killed Dina. She was happy. But she was even happier that you came over and told her everything was going to be ok.
Nobody needed to know, what happened to Dina. Nobody needed to know that it was Ellie who got rid of her. Nobody even suspected that Dina died.
Ellie doesn’t care how long she needs to play as this grieving women, that lost “the love of her life” because you would come around and comfort her. And you would cook for her. You’re taking care of her. Just like she always wanted. You were like her little housewife.
If Ellie could she would go back in time and she would kill Dina all over again. There was nothing you would say that she won’t do. Yes, you didn’t tell her to kill Dina but Ellie assumed that’s what you would have wanted from her. Remembering a time that you said “If you end up with anybody else I’ll fucking kill them. You only need me. You’re fucking worthless without me” And Ellie didn’t want you to get your hands dirty to kill Dina so she did it for you. At the time she didn’t believe it when you said she was worthless without you, but you were right. You were always right. She was worthless, useless without you. She really needed you to live happily.
Anything it takes. No matter how messy the situation got. Anything for you.
Girl, you do damage to me
But I love it babe
Oh, you're poisonous baby (oh-oh)
Now Ellie lay next to you. Enjoying the comfort, you gave her as she still continued to be “sad” about Dina.
Ellie knew her obsession was bad. She knew her behavior was not healthy. She knew she had to stop before she killed someone else. But it was you. Who wouldn’t be obsessed with someone like you?
You poisoned Ellie, you broke her, but she really doesn’t care. As long as she’s with you, she doesn’t feel the damage your poison brings her.
Authors note: Thank you to whoever requested this! Remember my requests are always open, feel free to leave one! Remember you are loved, and to be kind with everyone
Yours truly,
Zia:)
Hello can you do a fic based on the song “the cut that always bleeds” by Conan gray ? Thank you <3
The cut that always bleeds - ellie williams x reader
Hi anon!! I loved writing this, i was chanelling what happened between my ex and lmao. I hope you like it:)
This story is based off the song The cut that always bleeds by Conan Gray. If you can please listen to the song as you're reading:)
Pairing: ellie x fem!reader
requests are open! send me your silly thoughts
Warning: emotional manipulation, abandonment, grief, mentions of depression
Summary: in which she left you bleeding
authors note: sup babygirl
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“Every time I think maybe this time it’ll be different.”
You always swore you wouldn’t be the kind of person to beg for love.
But Ellie Williams makes you forget that.
She walks into your life already in pieces, smelling like old blood and regret. And somehow, you make yourself believe that if you hold her long enough, she’ll stay.
She never does.
You know her patterns now: The way she disappears for days without explanation.
The way she shows up at your door at 3 a.m., soaked in sweat and shaking.
The way she never says your name like it means something—but touches you like she’ll die if she doesn’t.
You should walk away.
But the truth is—you need her.
And that’s the worst part.
Because even after everything, after every goodbye that wasn’t really a goodbye, you still hope.
Hope that one day, she’ll look at you and finally say it.
Not I’m sorry.
Not I didn’t mean to.
But I love you.
She never does.
And the more you wait, the more it eats you alive.
“I don’t love you. But I don’t want you to love anyone else.”
Ellie is selfish. She knows that.
She tells herself it’s because she's lost too much. Because she doesn't know how to be good for anyone—not anymore. Not since Joel. Not since Seattle. Not since the blood, the screaming, the way Dina looked at her like she didn’t recognize the person standing in front of her anymore.
Ellie was never meant to find someone else.
But there you were. Soft. Kind. Safe.
She told herself she wouldn’t get close. That she was just tired, just lonely, just... fucked up.
But you looked at her like she was worth something. Like there was a version of her that wasn’t just made of scars and anger and ash.
So she let you in.
Just enough. Just enough to feel real.
She came back to Jackson after one of her episodes—days gone, no explanation.
She automatically made her way to your place. She quickly knocked at the door, almost excited to see your face. When you opened the door Ellie didn't expect to see you in the state you were in.
She didn't expect the silence. She didn't expect the tension. She didn't expect you to look the way you did.
You'd normally be angry. But this time was different.
You were not angry.
Not even hurt.
Just... empty.
“You always come back,” you say, looking at her “But you never stay.”
Ellie tried to tell you the truth—that staying feels like suffocating. And she's not ready to stop running, because if she does, all she hears is the sound of what she's lost.
“I don’t know how to love you the right way, I'm trying my best.” Ellie admits, and it’s not enough. She knows it isn’t. It never has been.
You laugh, bitterly. “Trying isn’t enough anymore, Ellie.”
And Ellie don’t have anything left to give.
Because you're right.
Later that night, Ellie sat on the roof of the old church where the stars peek through cracks in the clouds. She smokes a little. And Ellie thinks of the way you looked at her. The disappointment in your eyes, the way your voice cracked, your honesty.
“Every time I think maybe this time it’ll be different.”
Ellie remembers how you looked sleeping next to her. Peaceful. Trusting. Like you believed—really believed—she wouldn’t break you like she broke everything else.
She did anyway.
She thinks she pushed you to your limit. She knows she broke you.
You’ll move on one day.
Someone else will pick up the pieces.
Someone who doesn’t flinch in the night or run at the first sign of quiet love.
And Ellie will be alone again.
But safe.
Because if no one gets close, no one can leave.
No one can die.
No one can love you just to stop.
Ellie didn’t mean to keep cutting them open.
But that’s what she does
She's the cut that always bleeds.
And you're just another scar that never gets the chance to heal.
“You break me, just to fix yourself.”
The first time you kiss someone else, it feels wrong.
You think about calling her. Just to hear her voice. Just to remind yourself why you held on so long. But you don’t.
Because this time—maybe—you’ll let yourself heal.
Maybe the cut can finally close.
And maybe, when she knocks on your door again, you won’t open it.
You’ll listen through the wood. You’ll hear her whisper your name.
And you’ll stay silent.
Because love shouldn’t be something you survive.
It should be something that lets you live.
And Ellie Williams never gave you that.
<3
First time using this so sorry if it’s worded weird I’d love if you did a fic with in hell by Japanese breakfast
Also she kinda sounds like Ellie if that makes sense
𝐈𝐧 𝐇𝐞𝐥𝐥: 𝘦𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘢𝘮𝘴 𝘹 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘳
This story is based off the song In Hell by Japanese breakfast, If you can please listen to the song as you're reading:)
Pairing: Jackson!ellie x fem!reader
Requests are always open, feel free to leave one, or just send me a song and I'll take it from there:)
Warning: murder, blood, violence, revenge and death
Summary: in which ellie had a taste of what hell felt like
Also this story was requested by the beautiful @iceylemonqueen ! Thank you so much for requesting it (and yeah I agree it does sound like Ellie)
With my luck you'll be dead within the year
I've come to expect it
There's nothing left to fear, at least there's that
Face to face, and at my hands
I snowed you in with hydrocodone
Layer by layer, 'til you disappear
Loosing Joel was one of the hardest things Ellie has ever experienced. Watching him get brutally murdered traumatized her. After Joel’s death Ellie’s obsession with killing Abby took over her life. Ellie became heartless, more brutal, cold. Abby consumed her thoughts.
“Abby Abby Abby Abby Abby Abby” kept on repeating in her head like a mantra. Her goal in life was to kill Abby. Get rid of the person that caused her so much pain. She had to get rid of the person that took Joel away.
Her Joel. Her father figure. Her best friend.
On her journey in search for Abby, she come across you. She should’ve killed you. But no. Something inside her said keep her. And that exactly what Ellie did. She kept you. You had gotten lost from your group, and you begged Ellie to help you back to them, and instead of leaving you or killing you like she normally would, Ellie said yes.
The voices in her head that keeps on telling her to kill Abby, get her, make her pay for what she’s done- went silent. When you were with her she was at peace. She could sleep for the first time in months because of you. She felt like she could live a normal life with you. You were someone worth fighting for, someone to protect and look after. Everything that Ellie has done, the amount of people she killed didn’t matter because when she was with you, her dark thoughts and guilt went away.
For the first time since going on this journey Ellie felt fear. Riley, Sam, Tess, Joel- they all died because of her. At this point Ellie waited for you to die, because every time she gets close to someone they leave. But you didn’t. You stayed with her for months. Not judging her when she brutally kills someone.
What is she going to do if something happened to you?
One night when you and Ellie lay under the starts, Ellie realized that you weren’t going to be with her forever. She remembered that you wanted to get back to your group. A small pout formed on her lips, her brows furrowed she quietly said:
“you know you can stay”
“huh” you questioned raising a brow at what Ellie said
“what are you talking about- “
“with me” she said quickly. “You can stay with me I’ll keep you safe” As soon as those words left Ellie’s mouth she regretted them, fear settled in her stomach:
What happens if she can’t keep you safe?
You sat up giving her a small smile “I’d like that Ellie”. As soon as she saw you smile all fear she felt went away.
“With my luck I thought you’d be dead in less than a year” Ellie laughed, you let out a small chuckle “I’m not leaving anytime soon els” you promised.
If only she didn’t believe you
Hell is finding someone to love
And I can't have you
Hell is finding someone to love
And I can't see you again
Ellie sat in the cold water as she watched Abby push the boat. Tears ran down her face.
She couldn’t do it. She couldn’t kill Abby because it will never bring Joel back. She wasn’t worth killing. “Just go” Ellie sobbed as she continued to sit in the water. Everything was quite for a while, and as Ellie looked up she saw Abby standing in front of her, holding something. Ellie’s eyes landed on the small piece of silver jewelry and she felt sick. It was yours.
After you agreed to stay with Ellie, the two of you found a farm house. And Ellie couldn’t be happier. You were with her, living the life she had dreamed of for years.
“You know our life is like those cliché romance books” you said one night. Ellie would never admit it but she liked living this cheesy cliché life with you.
When Tommy came around and told Ellie about Abby’s whereabouts, she knew she had to go. And that was her biggest mistake.
She left you alone.
As Abby stood in front of her holding the silver necklace you wore Ellie knew something happened to you. She gently took the chain, and started up at Abby, her eyes filled with guilt.
“What did you do to her?” Ellie asked, trying to stay calm. Abby opened and closed her mouth a couple of times before she let out a quiet “I’m sorry”. And Ellie saw red.
Soon after Abby’s screams filled the quiet air as Ellie punch her. Blood filled the water and Ellie’s hand felt numb but she didn’t fucking care.
Now here she stood in front of the farm house the two of you shared. She doesn’t know if she killed Abby, she could care less. She wore the necklace rushing back to you, to make sure her worst nightmare didn’t come true.
And as soon as Ellie opened the front door the smell of a decomposing body hit her. “No” she whispered. “Please baby, please be ok” she begged as she searched around the house for you. And when she found you, she wasn’t met with the beautiful girl she fell in love with, she was met with a corpse, a room filled with blood splatter and bugs.
This is why Ellie doesn’t fall in love. This is why Ellie doesn’t trust anyone. Because every time she finds some they die.
And most people deserve death, but you didn’t. Ellie let out a scream as she grabbed you, not caring for the smell, she brought your cold lifeless body to her chest hugging you, “I’m so sorry” she spoke into your hair.
Wheeled you in, laid on your side
I cried and cried and at my signal
They stopped your heart and then you died
And under the fluorescence, into this still room
Where no-one ever tells you just how clinical death looks
And I can't unsee it, the two shots it took
Ellie went back to Jackson. And she took your body with her. As soon as Maria and Tommy saw her limping back with a girl’s dead body they were concerned.
“Ellie-“ Tommy started but Ellie extended out her arms to Maria , giving your cold lifeless body to her
“please” she whispered, “please bring her back”
Maria and Tommy looked at each other knowing, by the looks of your body you’ve been dead for months. But still Maria took you to the clinic and fulfilling Ellie’s wishes.
“Ellie what happened” Tommy asked
“I want to see my girl” Ellie said completely ignoring the question Tommy had just asked. And with a sigh Tommy took her to you.
“Ellie we tried” Maria started “but she’s not coming back”
“Leave” Ellie said. And as soon as they left loud sobs filled the room. Elle walked over to where you lay, climbing into the bed next to you.
“I love so much baby” she said over and over again. And for hours Ellie spoke to you, telling you stories, telling you her hopes and dreams. She knew you were never going to wake up again, so she had to spend as much time with you, as she possibly could.
She’ll never be able to unsee you, she’ll never be able to move on.
“If I ever lose you, I’d surly loose myself” Ellie sang as she gave you a kiss on the forehead. She picked up her backpack walking out of the clinic. No one warns you about death. No one warns you about the pain of losing a loved one.
After losing Joel, Ellie though she experienced pain but after losing you, Ellie had a taste of what hell felt like.
Authors note: Once again thank you for requesting this fae! I love you sm! Remember you are loved and to always be kind.... feel free to request anything!
yours truly,
Zia<3
𝐈𝐧𝐟𝐚𝐭𝐮𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐝: 𝘦𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘢𝘮𝘴 𝘹 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘳
This story is not based off a song! It’s my own little idea:) This is a very dark story, so please read the warnings to make sure you’re up for it…
Pairing: modern high school au!ellie x popular fem!reader
Requests are always open feel free to leave one! Or you can just send me a song and I’ll take it from there!
Warning: stalking, obsession, kidnapping, violence, death, mentions of lying next to a dead body and mass shootings, blood and suicide
Word count: 3.1k
Summary: In which Ellie’s “small crush” turned into an obsession.
Ellie’s heartbeat raced, her palms suddenly felt sweaty, she felt dizzy. Her vision focused on the girl she was hopelessly in love with. Every time Ellie saw her, it’s like she falls in love all over again. Her name was y/n. A beautiful y/h/c, she had the prettiest y/e/c Ellie had ever seen. She was perfect in every way. Ellie was one of the many men and women that liked y/n. Why would someone as perfect as y/n ever look at someone like her. An autumn brown haired girl with freckles? You would never look at her. To say Ellie was in love with y/n was an understatement.
Ellie was infatuated with someone she could never have.
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Ellie Williams. Many people would describe her as a loner. “She’s a weird kid” someone once said “she doesn’t even interact with any of us. I didn’t even know she existed” and truth be told Ellie was a quite kid. A very quiet kid. She never spoke or interacted with anyone because she can’t stand most people. Due to Ellie’s unusual silence, many rumors were spread of the poor girl. The rumors were people’s way of trying to figure out who Ellie was, Ellie’s favorite rumor about herself was, that she was a mass shooter at her previous school. Today was like no other for Ellie. As she walked down the halls people were staring and whispering. She was used to it at this point. She walked into her first class of the and once again all eyes were on her.
“You’re late again” her teacher grumbled. Ellie rolled her eyes as she walked past her teacher. As she sat down, she flinched a little due to how cold her chair was. Ellie didn’t even take out her school books because she didn’t care. She propped her head up with her right hand- trying not to fall asleep. Ellie soon zoned out staring at the two posters in front of the class. The posters were for the class presidents voting, that was happening in a few days. The only two people left in the running were Abby Anderson and y/n y/l/n. If Ellie had to be honest Abby’s poster looked way more professional yours. She started at your poster that was decorated in pink and purple flowers. There was no way y/n was going to win with a poster looking like that.
“Hey” a voice whispered
“Hey!” the voice said once again.
Ellie turned around slowly, hoping to scare away whoever this person was. And to her surprise her eyes met with y/n.
‘since when does she sit behind me?’ Ellie thought to herself.
“Sorry to bother you, but can I please borrow a pencil? I promise to give it back” she asked in a hushed voice. Normally Ellie would turn around and ignore them, but for some odd reason she bent down to grab her bag and she pulled out a pencil. As Ellie reached out to give you the pencil, her fingertips slightly brushed against yours. As soon as Ellie felt your fingers, the hair at the back of her neck stood up, goosebumps arose on her skin. It felt like her hand was on fire. Ellie’s mouth went dry; her breathing became uneven. She looked up from her hand to meet your eyes. ‘‘Thank you” you said softly. You offered her a small smile “I’ll give it back soon”
Ellie sat in the school bathroom in awe. Even though the bathroom stall was small and it stank, Ellie sat there in awe. y/n. y/n y/l/n touched her hand. For the first time since she’s moved to Jackson, Ellie finally got a good look at you. Ellie saying you were beautiful was an insult. You were more than breathe taking. And your perfume- god your scent was intoxicating. Ellie’s mind was filled with many thoughts as she stared down at her hand. Once again the thought ran through her mind: y/n touched her hand.
Ellie let out a deep sigh as the bell rang. She threw her green and black backpack over her shoulder as she started walking to her class.
“There you are” a voice said, Ellie immediately recognized the voice. y/n. Her y/n. When Ellie turned around she saw you walking towards her. You weren’t walking to anyone else, you were walking to her. As you were walking towards Ellie- as cliché as it sounds- everything around her went silent. She couldn’t focus on anything else but you walking towards her.
“Thanks for the pencil! You saved my life back there!” You said with a laugh
“She has a pretty laugh” Ellie thought to herself. Ellie stared at you with no emotion. She wasn’t trying to scare you away; she was trying to memorize your features. The way your lips curled when you laughed, the was your eyes closed, the way your laugh sounded. Normally Ellie would walk away. But she didn’t. She couldn’t. You said a quick goodbye and walked away. And Ellie stood there in shock. y/n spoke to her. You laughed at her. You touched her hand and you used her pencil.
And in this very moment everything began. The beginning of the end. This was the moment when Ellie Williams became infatuated with y/n y/l/n.
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It’s been 3 months since Ellie and y/n interacted for the first time, and Ellie has been smitten ever since. Ellie’s little crush on y/n soon grew out of control. It wasn’t even a crush. It was an obsession. An addiction. Ellie started off small, with quick glances from across the classroom or the cafeteria. Then Ellie memorized her class schedules and followed her to every class to make sure she got there safe. But suddenly everything became worse. Her obsession started to grow. Ellie started following y/n home, breaking into her house, stealing small things, watched her sleep, and stared at her from her window. Ellie became a stalker. In Ellie’s eyes what she was doing wasn’t wrong, because she wasn’t hurting anyone. Ellie saw her behavior as normal. When you’re in love, it makes you do crazy things, right?
Ellie was content with following y/n around until she found out there was another guy inserted in her. Her y/n. Her girl. And Ellie soon realized if she doesn’t do anything shell loose y/n to someone else. She had to get rid of him. Ellie once again sat in the small, stinky bathroom stall and thought of ways she could rid of him. Murder? Ellie could kill him. But what happens if she got caught? If she gets caught shell never be able to see y/n again. She was definitely not going to kill anyone. Her only solution was, was to ask y/n out before anyone else could.
It had been a few days since Ellie decided she would ask y/n out on a date. Ellie planned exactly how she was going to ask you. So when everyone was in class Ellie went to your locker, and left a note saying “meet me on the rooftop at 3 pm”.
Ellie has never been more nervous. She felt nauseous. Her hands were shanking as she stood on the rooftop watching all the students walk home.
“Ellie?” She heard her girl call her.
Ellie took a deep breath as she picked up the flowers she put on the ground. You walked closer to her, and Ellie turned and quickly you the flowers without saying anything. You have her a questioning look, confused on why she just gave you flowers. Before you could ask anything Ellie quickly said the words: “will you go on date with me?” Ellie closed her eyes tightly in fear that you might reject her. Ellie felt your soft hand touch her face, her closed eyes immediately opened and widened at the gesture. And to Ellie’s surprise you said yes.
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In all her years of living Ellie never thought she would be sitting across from you. Her girl. The prettiest girl she had ever seen. The love of her life. You wore a pretty pink dress that Ellie had seen in your closet the last time she was there. She has dreamed of seeing you in this dress now you were sitting across from her wearing it, just for her. Ellie was in awe of how beautiful you looked.
Your date went well. You told her things about yourself that she already knew by following you around and by breaking into your house- but you didn’t need to know that. You seemed happy and comfortable around her and that made Ellie happy. She didn’t want you to be scared of her like the others.
And at some point during the date you reached across the table to grab her hand. Ellie was on cloud 9. Butterflies erupted in her stomach. She felt like she was going to pass out. With her palms sweaty, heart racing and high on the scent of your perfume, Ellie got up to pay the bill. Ellie’s plan was to take you on a nice walk through a private park, and she’ll ask you to be her girlfriend. And hopefully you’ll say yes. Ellie prayed to whichever god there was to: please let her say yes.
As Ellie and y/n walked to the park a cool breeze filled the air. y/n let out a shiver, and Ellie immediately took off her jacket and gave it to the girl walking next to her. Even after all y/n’s protests, she finally took the jacket and put it on thanking Ellie for the kind gesture. And a huge grin appeared on Ellie’s face. Her girl was wearing her jacket. When they finally reached the park Ellie realized that her shoe lace was untied. Ellie quickly apologized to her girl, and she bent down to tie it.
Ellie suddenly felt a warm liquid ran down the back of her head. Ellie fell face first into the ground. Her vision was blurry as she tried turning around. The last thing she remembers was your voice saying “its ok Ellie, just close your eyes” and suddenly everything went black.
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Despite y/n’s popularity she always felt alone. Yes, she had many friends and yes, she was constantly surrounded by people but she felt alone. But then she met Ellie Williams. Ellie was attractive, no one could argue with that. Ellie was quite, and weird and y/n has heard all the stories that were spoken about Ellie, but she never believed it for one second. But that one faithful day when she borrowed a pencil from Ellie everything changed. You were in love with Ellie even when she didn’t utter one word to you, you were head over heels for this girl.
Y/n knew Ellie followed her home. She knew when Ellie was in her house. When most people would be afraid, y/n loved it. y/n loved it when Ellie was in her house because it felt like Ellie was closer to her. Y/n has never met anyone as dedicated to her as Ellie was. When Ellie finally asked y/n out on a date the girl was over the moon. As she was getting ready for the date, she spoke to the pictures she had of Ellie. Pictures she took of Ellie while Ellie was asleep, and pictures she paid people to take of Ellie. She spoke to the pictures telling them about how bright of a future the two of you had together.
Y/n knew the hold she had over Ellie but she wanted to take it to the next step. She wanted to keep Ellie all to herself. She didn’t want to risk Ellie getting bored of her and finding someone else. y/n already saw the waitress stare at Ellie, and in that moment she knew she had to do something. And that something was capturing Ellie. As Ellie bent down to tie her shoelace, y/n quickly grabbed a rock and hit her over the head, making Ellie fall to the ground.
Now y/n stood across her unconscious body, tied up to a chair in her basement and she couldn’t be happier. Ellie was here, with her. Forever. Ellie. Her Ellie. The love of her life, would stay with her forever.
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Ellie stared at the ceiling with a small smile on her face. She had a pounding headache, but she kept on smiling. Ellie first freaked out when she woke up. Being tied up to a chair in a basement with a dim light shining over you wasn’t an ideal situation to wake up to. But after a few minutes she realized in who’s basement she was. y/n’s basement. Ellie was tied up in y/n’s basement. That could only mean one thing. You liked Ellie back. You liked her so much that you kidnapped her and tied her up. She was just as messed up as Ellie was, and Ellie was happy. She was happy that you liked her back. Ellie had somehow managed to untie herself, and she just sat there waiting for you. She waited for her girl to come get her.
It felt like hours went by before Ellie finally heard voices. She frowned when she heard there was someone else with you. The basement door opened and Ellie ran to hide under the stairs. Ellie peaked through the wooden planks as she heard you call out her name softly. Ellie loved it when you said her name.
Before Ellie could reveal herself, she saw a man walk down the stairs to talk with you. Her girl was talking to someone else. Ellie was suddenly filled with a blinding rage, Ellie immediately came out of her hiding spot, she heard you say her name, but she walked straight to the man and tackled him to the ground. As soon as Ellie tackled him she heard her girl let out a scream but she couldn’t stop herself from getting rid of this man. Ellie grabbed a chunk of his hair and hit his head reputably into the floor. Blood splattered everywhere, his brains soon poured out.
The room was filled with Ellie’s grunts, your cries and the sound of bones breaking. When Ellie finally decided she has had enough of beating the man her attention turned to you. Your eyes were puffy and swollen from the screaming and crying. You looked at Ellie fear all over your face and Ellie hated herself for what she was about to do.
“I’m sorry” Ellie whispered as she picked up the chair. She walked over to you.
“Ellie please don’t do this” you begged looking into her eyes.
“I’m not going to kill you baby” she promised “you just have to sleep for a while, while I clean this up, ok?”
Ellie raised the chair over her head and you let out a whimper. She swung the chair at you and filched when your body fell unconscious onto the cold floor. She turned her attention back to the other body on the floor.
“looks I have my work cut out for me” she chuckled as she looked at the blood and brains splattered everywhere. Ellie turned back to you and left a quick kiss to your forehead
“don’t worry baby I’ll be quick”
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Ellie looked at herself in the mirror. She was very nervous. She put on her best suit and sprayed on her most expensive perfume. She held the flowers tightly in her hand as she walked over to her bed, where you were laying. Your face was pale, your skin cold to the touch. Your skin was probably this cold because you’ve been dead for a couple of days, but you were still beautiful.
After the incident in the basement, Ellie had actually hit you a little too hard, which had led to your death. And now you lay here, on Ellie’s bed wearing a white dress, and an engagement ring. You were finally hers, and Ellie couldn’t be happier.
Ellie gently placed the flowers on your chest, and she slowly laid next to your dead body. She breathed in the scent of the body wash she used on you, to prepare you for this day. Ellie played with your hair while she thought of everything that happened these last few days. The good memories and the bad. But what ever happened doesn’t matter anymore because she lay next to you. The love of her life. You lay with her and no one else.
And Ellie was ready to join you. She wanted to spend the rest of eternity with you. You’ll be with her forever in the fare life. Your souls will be together forever and always.
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Authors note: Thank you so much for reading! I really hope you enjoyed this one. Remember you are loved, and to be kind with everyone… requests are always open, feel free to leave one.
Here is a cool ass edit to make up for the trauma I've caused you through this story<3
Yours truly,
Zia:)
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