This is the final part of the series:)
Part 1
Part 2
Pairing: ellie williams x fem!reader
requests are always open! feel free to send one:)
Warnings: HUGE warning for this one: detailed descriptions of torture, death, murder, blood, knives, body mutilation
Summary: maybe she should've killed you
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Abby Anderson. Ghostface’s most brutal kill yet. Everybody knew Ghostface was a violent killer, but fuck this was on a whole other level.
Abby Anderson, aged 21. Eyes missing, fingernails pulled off. Almost every fucking bone in her body was crushed. The girl was beaten beyond recognition. 13 teeth pulled out, and her fingertips burned to a crisp. Instead of having the classic 20 stab wounds, Abby had over 100 wounds. It took them weeks to identify her body, and that’s exactly what Ellie wanted. She didn’t want people to know who Abby was. Abby didn’t deserve it in her eyes, and Ellie hoped she was burning in hell for trying to get close to her girl.
The night of Abby’s death, you had walked in on Ellie torturing the innocent girl, when you fainted Ellie had to think of a plan.
You walked in on her. This was bad. What would happen when you wake up? Will you call the cops?. You looked scared. Where you scared of her?
She picked up your unconscious body and gently placed you onto your bed. Ellie ran her fingers across your cheek, and slowly placed a kiss onto your cheek
“I’m sorry you had to see that baby” she whispered “I have to kill her to keep you safe”
And just like that she got up and left your room closing the door behind her. As soon as she stood outside she was filled with rage.
This was all Abby’s fault. Abby woke you up. Abby scared you.
Ellie walked back to where Abby sat and smiled at the sight: Blood dripping onto the floor, Abby’s entire body swollen and bruised, her wounds looked infected already.
She slapped Abby across her face and she let out a muffled cry.
“You woke her up” Ellie practically screamed “you-you fucking made her hate me” Ellie said as she slapped Abby on the other side of her face.
Ellie sat on the cold floor breathing heavily. If she didn’t stop herself, she would kill Abby. That was the plan, but not yet, not now. To Ellie’s irritation Abby wouldn’t shut up. She just kept crying and begging.
“Jesus fucking Christ can you shut the fuck up” Ellie yelled.
She needed to think. She needed something that would hurt her. And her eyes landed on her favorite knife. A smile grew on Ellie’s face as she got up and picked it up.
“She’s a pretty girl” Ellie started as she brought the knife up to her face “she’s my pretty girl and I don’t like it when dirty sluts like you look at her”
And without a second thought Ellie brought the knife into Abby’s right eye. The pure shock in Abby’s remaining eye made Ellie chuckle. She slowly wiggled the knife out of Abby’s eye socket and she pulled out the entire eye ball, blood seeped from the empty eye socket, and Abby was screaming. Ellie removed the eyeball and took it between her two fingers.
“I thought it would be squishier” she said as she examined the eye, she threw it behind her “lets see if the other one is softer”
Tonight was going to be a long night
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“That’s not true” you whispered in disbelief.
“It is” Ellie said trying to convince you.
When Ellie was eventually done with Abby, she wrapped Abby’s body plastic wrap and she cleaned your floors.
“can’t let my girl wake up to a dirty house” Ellie thought.
Ellie didn’t mind being all bloody, because this was a part of her plan. She would tell you she came over to thank you for the other night, and Abby attacked her.
Ellie was the victim. She killed Abby in self-defense.
She hoped you believed her
“No” you shouted “Abby would never do that” you cried tears running down your cheeks.
Why the fuck were you crying for someone who was only going to hurt you?
“I’m sorry baby” Ellie whispered, “but she brought it upon herself”
Ellie moved closer to you, bringing you in for tight embrace, she felt how tense you were but she still continued hugging you, taking in your scent.
This is everything she’s always wanted.
“Ellie” you whispered
With a content smile she pulled away “yeah baby”
“I’m going to fucking kill you”
“What?”
And everything went black for Ellie.
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Ellie had a pounding headache when she woke up. She couldn’t move. She was tied up?
“You know” she heard your voice say “it’s not nice killing people”
Ellie watched your movements in silence. In shock.
How could someone so pretty be so evil?
“You killed my best friend” you continued as you held the knife Ellie used to gauge Abby’s eyes out. The blade still wet with her blood. You brought the knife to your lips, and licked the blood off. If Ellie wasn’t tied up right now she would be turned on.
You were doing this for Abby. You weren’t going to let her die without justice.
You walked over to her, dragging the knife down her left thigh.
“it’s time to give you a taste of your own medicine” And with that you brought the blade down stabbing Ellie in the thigh, Ellie let out an ear piercing scream.
“That’s it baby” you whispered with a wicked grin “scream for me”
Ellie let out another painful scream at the feeling.
She should’ve fucking killed you.
Ellie Williams. Aged 23. Her body was found brutilized, with over 43 stab wounds.
This was a new era of Ghostface. People thought Ghostface just became more violent, more sadistic. But little do they know, the pretty girl the real Ghsotface fell in love with took her place.
And she’s worse than Ellie.
Authors note: Thank you so much for the support on this series! Remember you are loved, and to always be kind:)
Yours truly,
Zia <3
My pookies <3 (the tag list): @macaroni676 @mqddieas @uraesthete @igoferalforelliewilliams @ellieseyesonly
them having a baby was sososososo cute 😭😭 i would like to know what their daughter would be like entering elementary school
Headcannons: professor!ellie williams x reader
masterlist
professor ellie masterlist
☆ Aurora’s first word is “Mama,” but she says it while looking at you—Ellie is fake-offended for weeks.
☆ She has Ellie’s intense green eyes and habit of staring too long when she’s curious.
☆ Aurora clings to you constantly; even as a toddler, she whines when someone else holds her.
☆ Ellie builds her a mini bookcase for baby board books—and Aurora immediately organizes them alphabetically (with help).
☆ Aurora is the kind of baby who needs a strict routine—if you’re even five minutes late for nap or cuddle time, she notices.
☆ She hates when you leave the room. Ellie jokes that you’ve got two wives now.
☆ She calls Ellie “Mama” and you “Mommy,” but if you’re upset or sick, she calls both of you “Mommy” in solidarity.
☆ Aurora shows signs of hyper-intelligence early: solving puzzles meant for kids twice her age.
☆ She loves bedtime stories but gets frustrated when you skip a word—she’s memorized the entire book.
☆ Ellie reads her scientific journals out loud like bedtime stories, and Aurora actually listens.
☆ She mimics Ellie’s mannerisms—crossing her arms, frowning when she concentrates, pacing.
☆ You catch her “lecturing” her stuffed animals in Ellie’s exact voice.
☆ Aurora draws family portraits every week—and you’re always in the center.
☆ She panics if you’re not there to drop her off or pick her up.
☆ Ellie tries to be logical about it but secretly loves how attached Aurora is to you.
☆ Aurora shows early signs of perfectionism—she erases drawings over and over if they’re “not good enough.”
☆ When she throws tantrums, only your voice calms her down. Ellie has to tag you in.
☆ Aurora is incredibly picky about her routine—she wants the same food in the same bowl with the same spoon.
☆ Her favorite word is “actually,” and she uses it to correct adults constantly.
☆ She collects facts like trophies—Ellie makes her flashcards and they study together for fun.
☆ Aurora tests into the gifted program in her first year of school.
☆ She doesn’t like group projects—she prefers doing everything herself because “no one gets it right.”
☆ Teachers say she’s “brilliant, but intense.”
☆ Aurora only talks about two things at school: science and you.
☆ She makes laminated labels for her school supplies like Ellie does with her stationary.
☆ Every art project is somehow about you—she brings home a clay mug with “Mommy #1” carved into it.
☆ She corrects her teacher once in class and becomes slightly feared. Ellie is so proud but warns her to “maybe chill a little next time, baby.”
☆ Aurora wants to skip recess so she can stay in and read.
☆ She keeps a picture of you in her backpack—pulls it out when she gets anxious.
☆ Ellie and Aurora have “study nights” where they work quietly side by side—same posture, same concentration.
☆ Aurora watches you cook and scribbles notes like it’s a culinary lecture.
☆ She insists on helping you clean the house but gets mad if things aren’t organized to her standard.
☆ You call her your “tiny professor” and she beams every time.
☆ Aurora and Ellie both hover when you’re tired or sick—like you’re the sun and they’ve lost orbit.
☆ They fight over who gets to sit next to you on the couch.
☆ Ellie gets petty when Aurora gets more cuddles. Aurora gets smug.
☆ Aurora likes brushing your hair—she does it methodically, like a ritual.
☆ She sleeps best when curled up beside you, even at age 7.
☆ She draws up “mom schedules” to divide your attention fairly—Ellie cheats her way into extra time.
☆ Aurora reads scientific textbooks for fun.
☆ Ellie teaches her how to use a microscope at age 6.
☆ She becomes obsessed with astronomy after you buy her a star chart.
☆ Aurora cries when she gets a 98 instead of 100.
☆ Ellie talks her down using logic. You soothe her with affection.
☆ She keeps a journal with facts about her “favorite person” (you).
☆ Aurora can’t stand when someone is wrong—she has a meltdown if the teacher mispronounces a word.
☆ She gives book reports like she’s defending a thesis.
☆ Her handwriting is meticulous, just like Ellie’s.
☆ She wins her school’s spelling bee and dedicates the win “to my mommies.”
☆ Aurora doesn’t handle change well—moving a couch makes her cry.
☆ You’re the only one who can help her calm down when she spirals.
☆ She leaves sticky notes with “I love you” on your bathroom mirror.
☆ Ellie keeps a stash of emergency snacks and plushies for when Aurora gets overstimulated.
☆ Aurora talks to you about everything—even stuff she hides from Ellie.
☆ She always wants to know where you are—calls you if you’re late home.
☆ If you travel, she leaves voice memos asking when you’re coming back.
☆ Aurora once stayed up crying because she thought you wouldn’t love her if she failed at something. You reassure her constantly, even years later.
☆ Ellie hugs you tighter at night after watching how much both of you mean to each other.
☆ Aurora and Ellie gang up on you in debates—but it’s always playful.
☆ They both get quiet when they think you’re upset—like they can’t stand disappointing you.
☆ Aurora wears a matching lab coat on Ellie’s “bring your kid to work” day.
☆ She calls the three of you “the brain squad.”
☆ Your fridge is full of Aurora’s detailed school projects—Ellie annotates them like a proud academic.
☆ Aurora copies how Ellie kisses your temple when you’re working.
☆ They both wait up for you if you’re late—even if it’s past bedtime.
☆ When Aurora gets awards, you’re the first person she looks for in the crowd.
☆ Family movie night has to be educational and cozy or she gets annoyed.
☆ You are the center of their universe—both of them would burn the world for you without hesitation.
Hi I’m the person who requested Ellie x read based on Mary - Alex g u don’t have to answer this ask I just forgot to specify in my previous one if u could write it like “Mary” in the song is reader and Ellie is the person who’s singing? Tysm again!!
Mary - (ellie williams x reader)
hi pookie! I did exactly what you asked I just added twist! If you don't like it, just pm me and I'll write you a new story! I hope you enjoy <;33
Pairing: ellie x fem!reader
requests are always open, feel free to leave one:) or just send me a song and I'll take it from there. Remember if you want something specific to happen, please indicate it in your request.
Warnings: mental illness, mental hospitals, manhandling and mentions of pills, medication, injections and brief mentions of violence
Summary: In which Ellie wrote you a song.
Mary is the girl that I wanna kiss
She's got big red eyes and big red lips
She's got big sharp teeth and big fat hips
Mary is the girl that I wanna fuck
She's got leather heart and leather gloves
She's the only girl that I wanna love
Ellie has always referred to you as Mary. She never knew your real name.
All the times she'd beg you to answer her you'd simply giggle and say: "it's better being a secret"
You were everything Ellie has always wanted. The girl she was so madly in love with, and she didn't even know your name. You were the only thing keeping her sane at this point.
The night Ellie had met you, you sat alone outside on a bench, singing the nursery rhyme Mary had a little lamb over and over again. And the name Mary just stuck with Ellie since them.
You were her Mary. The only girl that she ever wanted to love.
Ellie liked to imagine that in a perfect world it would just be the two of you.
One where she doesn't have to stay in a mental institution. And where you don't have to sneak in every night.
Ellie was sick and tired if this place and truly doesn't know why Joel would send her here.
The walls were painted white, and all she had in her room was a bed.
"Mary is the girl that I wanna fuck?" You raised your eyebrows slightly at Ellie's vulgar lyrics.
Her cheeks turned a slight shade of pink when you brought it up.
"Yeah" Ellie spoke softly.
"You wanna fuck me?" You asked Ellie with a smile on your face.
"I mean yeah-"
The sound of keys jiggling could be heard from down the hall. Ellie let out as quick gasp at that.
Fuck it must've been time to take her meds.
Ellie watched as you quickly jumped out the window, the paper containing the song Ellie wrote dedicated to you slowly falling to the ground. In an instant Ellie jumped up quickly picking up the paper and she stuffed it into her bra.
The door opened as Ellie casually sat on her bed waiting for the nurse to arrive. Nurse Elizabeth walked in with a huge smile on her face.
Ellie rolled her eyes as the nurse, who walked towards her trying to make small talk.
Who the fuck is this happy while working in mental institution?
Ellie took the pills from the nurses hand before, she put it into her mouth. Ellie drank the water that the nurse gave to her, wishing all of this was over and that you'd just come back.
"Open up" the nurse spoke as she put her finger into Ellies mouth.
The girl gagged slightly as the nurse reached her finger further and further down her throat.
"Sorry" the nurse spoke "I have to make sure you take your meds" she finished as she gave Ellie an empathic smile.
All Ellie did was hum and lay down. The nurse soon left and Ellie heard the door lock.
She sat up immediately spitting out the pills.
"Do they really taste taste bad?" Ellie heard your voice.
"How did you get back here so fast?" she asked.
All you did was give her a wink before you walked towards her, opening your hand.
Ellie stared down confused before she realized that you were looking for the song. She quickly pulled the note from her bra as she handed you the paper.
A smile took over your face as you continued reading the lyrics.
And all Ellie could do was smile and enjoy the final moments she has with you for that day before you would disappear again.
Listen to me, baby, I don't mind
I wanna be with you and waste my time
Give it to me, baby, I feel good
I wanna feel whatever you think I should
Sing it for me, baby, play my song
I wanna hear your daddy singing along
5 more months.
5 more fucking months, Ellie had to be in this fucking hell hole.
As Ellie walked down the hall she gazed into the other people's rooms. There were some really messed up people in here.
Truthfully Ellie doesn't know why she's here. She doesn't deserve it.
She wonders why you were here. She wonders why you only come at night. She wonders why she never sees you when she's with people. She wonders in which room you were staying.
So many questions so little answers.
Today was Wednesday. Which meant that they had a talent show. Every Wednesday all the different wards would come together and each patient could show their talent.
Ellie never participated. She always thought it was cringe and stupid. But today she wanted to do something she wanted to sing you the song she had written for you.
As Ellie sat in the room she watched different patients go up to front to do their thing. Some would sing, some would dance and some would just stand there awkwardly.
When Ellie raised her hand to go next, the nurse called out her patient number as she got up and walked towards the front.
Ellie shakily held the paper as she looked up to the crowd.
She saw you standing at the back, giving her a huge smile and a thumbs up.
God you were beautiful.
She could do this. She was doing this for you.
Ellie closed her eyes as she started singing the song.
She sang about your eyes, and how your lips were painted red with lipstick the night you met. She sang about your hips and how she so badly wanted to hold you. How badly she just wanted a taste.
You were only girl Ellie wanted to spend the rest of life with and yet she didn't even know your name.
But you'll always be her Mary.
As Ellie finished her song, the crowd clapped their hands, and a small smile appeared on Ellies face.
Her smile soon disappeared when she saw you weren't in the crowd anymore.
Where were you? Didn't you like her song? Do you hate her? What happened?
As Ellie was thinking she felt a hand on her shoulder. Ellie turned around, and her eyes met with one the the nurses.
"Doctor Bernard wants to see you"
Mary is the girl that leaves you to rot
She says, "I am real and you are not"
She says, "I am real and you are not"
"Ellie how long have you been seeing this girl?" Doctor Bernard asked her.
"Her name is Mary" she replied not answering his question.
"Mary isn't real"
"she is"
"Ellie you're seeing things" The doctor started. "That's why you're here, that's why you take medicine-"
"no you're lying" Ellie yelled as she got up from her chair. Her arms were quickly grabbed by the staff as they lowered her back down into the chair. The autumn brow haired girl started screaming as she was forced to sit down again.
"She's fucking real" Ellie yelled as she lunged forward, another nurse ran from the side holding an injection to Ellie's throat.
Doctor Bernard raised his hand telling the nurse to move away.
"Ellie calm down so we can talk about this"
Heavy breathes fell from Ellies lips as she looked to the floor, saliva started dripping from her lips. The room felt hot.
"She's real" Ellie breathed almost in tears. Why aren't they listening to her?
"it's ok I believe you"
And as soon as he said that Ellie looked up with her eyes wide.
"You believe me?" She asked in genuine shock.
They always told her she was crazy. They always told her there was something wrong with her, but now he believes her?
Ellie felt relived. She really wasn't crazy.
"I do" he said.
"How did she get in?"
"You won't hurt her if I tell you?" Ellie asked.
Your safety was the most important, Ellie didn't want you to end up in solitary or worse, a higher dose of whatever medication they were giving you.
"I won't he promised, now tell me"
"She comes in through the window"
Ellie watched his facial expression closely. She watched him look up to the staff as he gave them a nod. Ellie felt the nurses holding her, gripping her even stronger.
"what the fuck-" Ellie cried as she felt them hold her harder. Ellie felt a cold metal against her neck as she she screamed.
"you said you believed me!"
She kicked, she cried, she spat and she swore but nothing helped.
Soon the drug kicked in and Ellie felt her whole body go limp. She felt them lower her to the floor and she felt very sleepy.
"You said you believed me" Ellie breathed one more time as she looked at doctor Bernard standing above her.
"Ellie there isn't a window in your room"
Ellie felt tired, it was as if everything around her was slowing down.
"Mary isn't real, she never was"
Ellie opened her mouth to talk but no words came out.
The last thing Ellie heard that day was: "you are real and she is not"
Authors note: this one was quite short but it still fucking hit dude... remember my requests are always open and that you are loved...
Yours truly,
Zia<3
i love emily im sorry soo much,, do you think u could please write an ellie x reader based on the song night shift by lucy dacus?? i think is a good song to make a fic <3
night shift - (ellie williams x reader)
hi anon! thank you sm for the compliment! And yes it's literally is an amazing song for a angst fic! I hope you enjoy:)
This story is based off the song Night shift by Lucy Dacus, if you can please listen to the song as you're reading:)
Pairing: ellie x fem!reader
Requests are always open feel free to leave one or just send me a song and I'll take it from there:)
Warnings: sadness and cheating
Summary: In which you were the other women
wc: 1.8k + the lyrics
The first time I tasted somebody else's spit, I had a coughing fit
I mistakenly called them by your name
I was let down, it wasn't the same
I'm doing fine, trying to derail my one-track mind
Regaining my self-worth in record time
But I can't help but think of your other in the bed that was mine
The day Ellie Williams asked you out was truly the best day of your life.
It all started with small smiles, gentle touches and loving gazes. You knew from the first day you laid eyes on Ellie, that you wanted to be with her. And never in a million dreams did you think that you stood a chance with someone as beautiful such as Ellie.
You didn't regret asking her for her number. You didn't regret saying yes when she asked you on a date that day. But the more you think about it, the more realized maybe you should’ve said no.
"Hi I'm Ellie’s girlfriend, is she here today?" The girl asked with a smile on her face.
oh.
Girlfriend?
Ellie was never mentioned anything about a girlfriend to you.
Fuck.
"Oh hey Cat" you heard Ellie’s voice from behind you. You turned around and you and the autumn brown haired girl made eye contact.
Ellie’s eyes widened when she saw you were talking to Cat, but her shock was soon replaced by her signature smirk.
"Hi babe" Cat greeted Ellie cheerfully "can we talk?" She asked. Ellie gave her a quick nod as she walked out from behind the counter. As Ellie and cat walked away she reached down to grab the girls hand and if felt like you've been stabbed.
You quickly excused yourself and you ran down the hall in the storage room where you and Ellie would always meet each other.
Holy shit.
She had a girlfriend? What? You thought she liked you?
You and Ellie were never official, but you went on dates. You held hands. You kissed her for fucks sake. You were the other women. Ellie didn't care for you as much as you thought. She was using you.
You heard the door handle of the storage room rattle. You looked up and you quickly wiped away your tears: "Ellie?" You questioned, with a hopeful voice.
"No it's me!" You heard Dina’s voice yelled back. "Ellie went home with her girlfriend so you'll have to take her shift"
You let out a sigh as you felt the tears flow freely once again.
You were supposed to be mad at her. You were supposed to hate her. But you called out for her? You would never admit it out loud but you were actually waiting for her. You were waiting for Ellie to come and apologize and to say that this was all a misunderstanding. You silently sat there crying.
You were the other women.
Am I a masochist, resisting urges to punch you in the teeth?
Call you a bitch and leave?
Why did I come here? To sit and watch you stare at your feet?
What was the plan? Absolve your guilt and shake hands?
If you truly hated Ellie like you claimed you did, you wouldn't have opened your apartment door that night.
That one faithful evening in September, when you heard a knock on your door.
“Who the fuck could that be?” you muttered to yourself as you got up from bed rubbing your eyes.
You look over to your phone if see it's 1:00am. You yawned as you walked to the front door. You opened it and your eyes were met with the girl who broke your heart all those months ago.
The girl you thought you would be spending the rest of your life with.
She looked at you, her normally neat hair was a messy, dark circles under her eyes.
god you thought you looked bad.
"What are you doing here Ellie?" You asked.
She could've come to you a long time ago and suddenly she shows up? What does she want? Does she want to get back together? Is she here to beg for forgiveness?
"Jesse told me that you were serious when you said you wanted to work the night shift" she spoke, as she brought her right hand up to awkwardly scratch the back of her neck.
You didn’t know if you wanted to punch her or kiss her.
Ellie’s gaze fell down to her feet and the two of you were surrounded by silence.
Since when is it so quite at 1 in the morning?
"Why are you here?" You finally asked again.
Ellie looked up at you once again. She hesitated. She opened and closed her mouth a couple of times. The words weren't coming out.
‘she's so fucking pathetic’ you thought to yourself.
"Are you here to apologize? To make yourself feel better?", you spoke again.
Ellie looked taken aback, her facial expression morphed into a face of confusion? Hurt? You couldn't tell.
"I love you-" Ellie started, you let out a laugh even before she could finish.
"If you loved me, why was I the other women?" You questioned.
Ellie fell silent. She stared at you. She was at a loss for words. How could you say such a thing? You knew nothing about her situation. You didn't know that she can Cat had been in a loveless relationship for years. You didn't know how much she loved you. You didn't know how alive you made her feel.
Ellie was brought back to reality when you spoke: "You can't even fucking speak to me".
You let out a sigh as you took a step back to close the door. Ellie’s large hand reached out to try and stop it, but you were too quick. You closed the door in her face. Ellie put her forehead against your front door as tears streamed down her cheeks. She heard your voice from behind the door:
"You are such a fucking bitch Williams"
Ellie turned away from your door, her hand gripping her shirt as she started sobbing.
Loud sounds of crying filled the quite streets of Jackson as Ellie stood at your door realizing that she lost you.
I feel no need to forgive, but I might as well
But let me kiss your lips, so I know how it felt
Pay for my coffee and leave before the sun goes down
Walk for hours in the dark, feeling all hell
"I think I should start working the night shift" you told Jesse one morning.
"dude I thought you hated it"
You went quite for a moment. You did hate it. But you couldn't stand working another shift looking at Ellie. Even being in her presence made your heart yearn for her. If feels like you've been starved for years without Ellie’s touch. And you fear that even if your finger just lightly touched her you'd lose your mind.
You already felt guilty enough when you found out Ellie had a girlfriend, you didn't want to make a fool out of yourself by confessing your undying love to her.
You walked out of Jesse's office and into the locker room. Ellie was in there. You walked right past her, going to your locker you quickly pulled out your bag.
"Wait our shifts are starting right now, where are you going?" She questioned.
"I'm working the night shift from now on" you replied as you made your way to the door. You felt so cold hand grab your wrist and when you turned around and you were met with Ellie’s pleading eyes.
"If you work night shift I won't be able to see you" she spoke softly.
You forcefully removed your arm from Ellie’s grip.
"go see your fucking girlfriend"
You turned away from Ellie, walking to the door and you stopped. It was as if your feet were glued to the floor. You slowly turned around to face Ellie once again.
"I'll never be able to forgive you" you muttered softly and you looked at the girl you had so much love for.
"Please try" Ellie begged.
"I'll leave her" Ellie quickly reasoned with you, to make you stay.
You shook your head as you dropped your bag onto the floor. You made your way towards Ellie as you once again muttered “I can't fucking forgive you" as you wrapped your arms her neck, her lips soon crashed into yours.
The kiss was intense. You've been starved from Ellie, and this was your first taste in months.
Teeth crashing into each other, heavy breathes filled the room, and hands were roaming.
You pulled away and you looked at Ellie for the last time.
Her eyes blown wide, her lips swollen her chest rapidly rising.
You once again moved from her grip as you picked up your bag.
You stood the door once more. Before you walked out the door you turned to Ellie one last time, giving her a small "I love you" was the last words she ever spoke to you.
Don't hold your breath, forget you ever saw me at my best
You don't deserve what you don't respect
Don't deserve what you say you love and then neglect
Now bite your tongue, it's too dangerous to fall so young
Take back what you said
Can't lose what you never had
You don't even know why you're upset. Why were you so fucking depressed over a relationship that never even happened?
All you do is fantasize over a relationship that wasn't even real.
What you could've been. And you know you were being delusional when you thought you had a chance with her, and yet you still fell for her.
But we all learn the hard way don't we?
You can't be sad over something that wasn't even yours to being with.
All you had to do was suck it up and get to work. You'd eventually get over Ellie. And you'd be happy again, right?
As much as you try to convince yourself, you aren't so sure you can see a happy life without Ellie.
The girl you thought was your soulmate.
You got a 9-to-5, so I'll take the night shift
And I'll never see you again, if I can help it
In five years, I hope the songs feel like covers
Dedicated to new lovers
"Are you sure you want to take the night shift?" Jesse asked you one last time.
"I'm sure" you replied
Even though you hated the night shift it got you away from Ellie. You didn't have to see her at your workplace. You don't have to constantly be reminded about what the two of you could've been.
"Remember Ellie will come in at 9 tomorrow" Jesse yelled as he walked out the front door of the Café. He gave you a small wave, as the bell chimed when the door finally closed.
"yeah I know" you yelled back.
You hoped that one day you'd stop working the night shift.
And maybe, just maybe you'd be able to move on from Ellie.
But till then you'd rather torture yourself than to be in the same room as Ellie fucking Williams.
Authors note: guess who disappeared and whos suddenly back again? obviously me.... remember you are loved and to always be kind, my requests are always open
yours truly,
Zia<3
PLEASE continue ‘her sweet girl’ but make it where Ellie sees the reader with another person and loses it😢
Hi anon! I really had so many ideas for part 2, maybe i should make this a series??? I hope you enjoy!!
Pairing: ellie x fem!reader
requests are open! send me your silly thoughts
Warning: toxic relationships
Summary: in which you had enough
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part 1
Ellie wasn’t looking for you. Not really. She’d said she needed air, mumbled something to Dina, shrugged on her jacket like it didn’t matter. Like you didn’t matter.
But she was lying.
She always ends up where you are, even if it hurts. Maybe especially when it hurts.
She spots you across the street near the stables—laughing. That laugh she used to pull from you with nothing but a dumb smirk and a too-obvious comment. Now it’s aimed at someone else. A girl with soft eyes and hands that brush yours like it’s easy to touch you. Like it’s allowed.
Ellie freezes. Then burns.
You’re smiling. Really smiling. And worse—you’re letting her touch you. Her fingers graze your wrist, and you don’t flinch, don’t yank away, don’t do anything.
Ellie’s jaw tightens. She’s already crossing the street before her mind catches up.
You don’t notice her until she’s close—too close—and suddenly your smile is gone.
The other girl glances up, startled, and Ellie doesn’t even look at her. She’s locked on you like you’re the only oxygen she knows how to breathe.
“What the fuck is this?” she spits, low and sharp.
You stiffen. “Ellie—don’t.”
The other girl opens her mouth, but Ellie finally turns, snarling, “I don’t remember talking to you.”
“Ellie, stop,” you snap, stepping between them.
She laughs—empty and wounded. “Right. Of course. Gotta defend your new girl, huh?”
“She’s not—” you start, but Ellie’s already unraveling.
“Is that all it takes? A few dumb jokes and someone who actually sticks around?” Her voice cracks, and she hates herself for it. "i thought you loved me"
“I did,” you whisper. “I do. But you keep leaving, Ellie. And coming back like I’m just supposed to wait.”
Ellie flinches like you slapped her. “You were supposed to wait,” she says, almost childlike.
Silence chokes the air between you.
“I’m not yours anymore,” you say, and you sound so tired.
But Ellie steps forward anyway, eyes wild and aching. “Yes, you are.”
You shake your head, but she’s already cupping your cheek—roughly, desperately—and her voice is barely above a whisper now.
“Please. Don’t make me watch you with someone else. Don’t—don’t do that to me.”
And it’s there, that Ellie-thing you used to know. The trembling lip. The stubborn tears. The girl who would rather tear the whole world apart than let herself be left behind again.
“Come home with me,” she says.
And you hate her for it. Because you’re going to say yes.
<3
If you were to ever do a part two, to any of your stories which would it be?
ohhhhh I'd probably do a part two of she calls me daddy! Like it does have potential for another part... Maybe Ellie and reader kill her husband and they run away together or maybe Ellie loses her mind and breaks into their house and just watches them live or something else even more messed up:)
See the potential dude...….. But idk if people want something like that tho lmao
ellie x reader who are dating and reader is doing her makeup while sitting in ellie’s lap and it’s all cute and fluffy and sweet???
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☆ Ellie always pulls you into her lap the second you pick up your makeup bag.
☆ She nuzzles into your neck like a clingy cat while you’re trying to blend foundation.
☆ “You’re so pretty it actually hurts,” she mutters against your shoulder.
☆ Her hands never stay still — they’re either around your waist or tracing slow circles on your thighs.
☆ She watches you do your eyeliner like it’s a live performance.
☆ “Can I kiss you now? Wait, will I mess up your lipstick? Damn it.”
☆ Ellie offers to hold your mirror, just so you’ll look at her more.
☆ She steals kisses in between products — always careful not to smudge anything.
☆ “Babe, don’t move. I’m committing this to memory.”
☆ You’re halfway through applying mascara when you feel her squeezing your waist tighter.
☆ Ellie gets pouty if you start your makeup without calling her over first.
☆ “I’m your makeup chair now. No returns.”
☆ She takes photos of you mid-process because she loves every stage.
☆ “You’re hot with half an eyebrow done. That’s talent.”
☆ Ellie keeps kissing the back of your neck and whispering compliments.
☆ She gets genuinely offended when you say you're "just doing a light look."
☆ “You’re not even trying and you look better than anyone ever has.”
☆ She tucks her chin on your shoulder and watches you in the mirror.
☆ “God, look at you,” she says for the tenth time in five minutes.
☆ If your brush drops, Ellie grabs it immediately like your personal assistant.
☆ Ellie insists she can do your makeup one day, just to be close to your face.
☆ She acts like your biggest fan and cheerleader while you do your look.
☆ “If I ever lose you I’ll die, just so you know.”
☆ She doodles hearts with your eyeliner on the mirror when you’re not looking.
☆ Ellie knows all your favorite products by name and shade.
☆ “Wait, don’t start without me!” when she hears the makeup bag unzip.
☆ She likes when you use her thighs as your table.
☆ Ellie traces the curve of your cheek with one finger while you apply blush.
☆ “You don’t need any of this, but damn it’s hot watching you do it.”
☆ She holds her breath while you do winged liner like it’s a high-stakes operation.
☆ Ellie’s proudest moment was the first time you let her apply your lip gloss.
☆ She gives a dramatic gasp every time you finish your look. “ART. LITERAL ART.”
☆ “Can I be your next canvas?”
☆ She takes pictures of your vanity setup because “a goddess deserves an altar.”
☆ Ellie keeps one of your used makeup wipes because “it smells like you.”
☆ She rubs your back absentmindedly while you blend concealer.
☆ “You have no idea how hot you are, huh? Let me remind you every second.”
☆ Ellie talks about your highlight like it’s a scientific phenomenon.
☆ She gets super jealous when someone else compliments your look. “I said it first, okay?”
☆ Ellie gets genuinely emotional watching you feel confident in your skin.
☆ Ellie fake pouts when you won't let her kiss you because you're not done yet.
☆ “If I mess up your lip liner I’ll cry,” she says before kissing you anyway.
☆ She refers to your face as her “favorite view.”
☆ Ellie has a playlist called “Makeup in My Lap” just for these moments.
☆ She insists her hoodie is the only one you’re allowed to wear while doing makeup.
☆ “Do you even understand what you do to me when you sit like this?”
☆ She whispers how lucky she is the entire time.
☆ Ellie always tries to sneak her fingers under your shirt while you’re distracted.
☆ She lets you use her lap for hours even if her legs go numb.
☆ “I’ll be your chair forever. Just don’t stop doing this.”
☆ She brags about how she got to watch the transformation happen in real time.
☆ Ellie posts mirror selfies of you two with “my muse” in the caption.
☆ If someone asks why you’re glowing, Ellie says, “It’s me. I’m the reason.”
☆ She gently removes your makeup for you at night, smiling the whole time.
☆ Ellie buys you makeup organizers even though you already have enough.
☆ “You looked like an angel in my lap. Not even being dramatic.”
☆ She reenacts your whole routine with exaggerated impressions just to make you laugh.
☆ Ellie keeps your favorite lip balm in her jacket “just in case.”
☆ “Do your makeup on me again tomorrow. I’ll cancel all my plans.”
☆ She watches GRWMs with you and pretends to understand the terminology.
☆ Ellie tells strangers “my girl’s better at eyeliner than anyone else alive.”
☆ She tries to learn all the steps just to feel closer to you.
☆ Ellie talks to your reflection in the mirror. “She’s perfect, huh?”
☆ “I want to be reincarnated as your beauty blender.”
☆ She once got aroused just watching you blend your foundation.
☆ Ellie memorized your makeup scent and goes breathless when she smells it anywhere else.
☆ “If loving you while you do makeup is wrong, I don’t wanna be right.”
☆ She always gets quiet and soft-spoken during these moments — completely in awe.
☆ Ellie says she’d let you contour her whole face if it meant you’d sit on her again.
☆ She ends every makeup lap session with: “You're art. And I’m the luckiest bitch alive.”
Headcannons: professor!ellie williams x reader
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☆ Ellie knows she’s going to marry you long before she tells you. She buys the ring three months into living together. Keeps it hidden in her desk drawer beside annotated books and letters from you.
☆ She proposes on the floor of your shared office. Not at a dinner, not with a crowd—just soft music, ink-stained fingers, and a whispered: “Be my always. My only. My mind, my muse, my wife.”
☆ The ring is engraved with a quote from your writing. Not hers. Yours. "You make knowledge feel like coming home."
☆ She asks your opinion on “proposals in literature” a week before. You think she’s researching. She’s just trying not to cry at the idea of you saying yes.
☆ When you say yes, she buries her face in your neck and shakes. Not from nerves. From relief. From awe. From the raw ache of being loved back.
☆ She starts referring to you as “my fiancée” constantly. In grocery stores. On campus. During panels. “My fiancée’s theory on this is actually quite relevant…”
☆ She changes your contact name to “Almost My Wife.” With 3 hearts and a lock emoji.
☆ She sleeps with her hand resting over yours every night. On your ring finger. She checks it like it’s her most sacred relic.
☆ She updates her entire academic bio to include you. “Currently lives with her partner, her muse, and greatest intellectual influence.”
☆ She teaches a lecture titled: “The Intersection of Intimacy and Intellectual Devotion” She’s talking about you. The class has no idea.
☆ Ellie wants a tiny wedding—just you, the vows, and a quiet lake. But if you want more, she’ll plan a thousand-guest celebration without blinking. “You say the word and I’ll build the world for you.”
☆ She insists on writing her vows by hand. In her favorite pen. On pages she slips under your pillow the night before.
☆ She practices saying “wife” alone in her car. Wife. Wife. Wife. She can’t stop smiling.
☆ She hides love notes inside the wedding checklist binder. You find one labeled: “Stop reading this and come kiss your future.”
☆ When you choose your dress, she sketches you in it from memory that same night. Adds it to her journal. Dates it. “The day I saw her and forgot how to breathe.”
☆ Her friends throw her a chill night in. But she sneaks off to call you every hour. “I can’t even pretend to want to be anywhere you’re not.”
☆ You write each other letters to read before the ceremony. She cries through hers. Has to reapply mascara. Still keeps the tear-streaked one folded in her breast pocket.
☆ She makes a playlist of songs that remind her of your earliest days. Plays it while getting ready. One track in, she’s sitting down, hand over heart, whispering: “Holy shit. I’m marrying her.”
☆ She starts dreaming of your last name beside hers on academic papers. No hyphen. No division. Just unity.
☆ You give her a watch as a pre-wedding gift. She whispers: “I’ll count every second I get with you.”
☆ When you walk down the aisle, Ellie mouths “mine.” Once. Quiet. Like a prayer.
☆ She cries when you hold her hands. Not one tear. A whole storm. Her lips tremble when you say her name.
☆ Her vows start academic and crumble into desperation. “I thought I understood devotion—until you. You rewrote me. I’m yours now. Completely.”
☆ Her fingers shake when she slips the ring on yours. But her voice never falters: “With this, I give you everything.”
☆ She kisses you like no one is watching. It’s not performative. It’s urgent. She’s been waiting forever.
☆ She refers to you as her wife every chance she gets. Out loud. On paper. In conversation. She beams every time.
☆ She can’t stop touching the ring on your hand. Kisses it. Spins it. Holds it during dinner. “Still feels like a dream.”
☆ She hangs your wedding photo above her desk. Right beside her degrees. “My greatest achievement.”
☆ She uses your wedding date as her new password. She’ll never forget it. She couldn’t.
☆ She journals the first 365 days of your marriage. Every little thing. Every breakfast. Every smile. Every time you say her name like it means everything.
☆ She changes her legal name just to have part of yours. No one expected it. But she wanted it.
☆She introduces herself at lectures as “Dr. Ellie Williams—but more importantly, a wife.” Every time. Her proudest title.
☆ She builds a library with your last name engraved at the entrance. It’s her gift to the university. Her devotion in bricks.
☆ She keeps a framed note that says “You said yes.” Next to the ring box. Beside her bed.
☆ When you fall asleep first, she whispers: “Married you. Won.”
☆ She keeps your wedding vows on her desk at all times. Reads them when she feels lost.
☆ She starts calling you “my forever” in texts. Even to herself. Especially when you're not around.
☆ She wears her ring when she lectures. And if she forgets it? She’ll cancel class. That’s how wrong it feels.
☆ She celebrates every mini-anniversary. First date, first kiss, first “I love you.” “Why wouldn’t we honor our history?”
☆ Her phone background is a photo of your hand in hers. Wedding rings shining. Sunlight catching on your fingers.
☆ She saves every note you leave her, even grocery lists. “Married girl handwriting,” she says with a grin. She signs every card, “your wife, your fool, your scholar.”
☆ When she wins awards, she thanks you before anyone. “For keeping my soul fed while I chase knowledge.”
☆ She keeps your last name on her lips like a spell. Soft. Reverent. Yours.
☆ She reads your vows aloud every year on your anniversary. Her voice always cracks by the second paragraph.
☆ She builds you a bench at the lake where you married. With a plaque that reads: “Where I became hers.”
☆ She keeps your bouquet dried and shadow-boxed in her office. Next to a note: “Every day since has been full bloom.”
☆ She still asks you to dance in the kitchen. Same song. Same rhythm. Same girl.
☆ She rereads the proposal letters every winter. Wears your old hoodie and says: “Still can’t believe.”
☆ And when she’s asked what love is, she says: “It’s when you look at someone and think: If I never wrote again, I’d still have said everything I ever needed—just by choosing her.”
Pls my wife may we get some desperate lesbian content about friend (wife) reader ignoring abby after what she did to joel because she was scared, so abby just gets all teary eyed and just starts to try to please her sexually
pairing: abby anderson x fem!reader
requests are open again! send me your silly thoughts:)
warnings: MDNI 18+ Explicit sexual content (fingering r receiving), themes of trauma and grief, emotional and psychological tension, references to violence and loss (Joel’s death), guilt, anger, and forgiveness struggles, raw emotional vulnerability and confession
summary: You and Abby were close—more than friends, though no one dared to say it aloud. But after Joel's death, you went quiet. Abby thought you'd never forgive her. That silence breaks one night when guilt, rage, and buried desire finally ignite.
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You hadn’t said a word to her in weeks. Not since Jackson. Not since the blood. Not since you found out what she did.
Abby thought she'd be ready for the aftermath—Joel’s face haunting her dreams, her name spat like venom in town. But your silence? That hit deeper than any wound she’d ever taken.
You avoided her at base. Eyes down. Steps sharp. Not a glance. Not even hatred—just absence. It made her sick.
She knocked tonight anyway.
“Just talk to me,” Abby said through your door, voice low and wrecked. “Please.”
Nothing.
Abby stood there for minutes. She turned to leave—then froze when the door clicked open behind her.
Your eyes met. And it was like the air shattered. You were still wearing his jacket.
“Why are you here?” you asked, voice even but barely holding together.
Abby swallowed hard. “I didn’t come for a fight. I just…” Her voice cracked. “I miss you.”
You didn’t speak. Just stepped aside. Let her in like a storm you were too tired to fight.
She lingered by the table, arms stiff by her sides. “You won’t look at me,” she said. “You won’t yell. Won’t curse me out. Just… nothing.”
You sat on the couch. “What do you want from me, Abby?”
The name was a blade on your tongue.
She moved closer—slow, uncertain. “I want to explain.”
You let her. And she told you everything. Her dad. The Fireflies. Joel’s choice. Her own rage. When she finished, the silence was worse than before.
You stood. Crossed the room. She flinched when your hand brushed her cheek.
“I hate what you did,” you whispered. “I hate that I still want you.”
And something in her shattered.
The first kiss was desperate—salted with tears, teeth, regret. You shoved her back against the wall, hands tangling in her hair, lips fierce and unforgiving.
Abby groaned, fingers digging into your waist like she was scared you’d disappear. You bit her lip hard. She moaned.
“This doesn’t fix anything,” you hissed.
“I know,” she breathed, eyes dark. “But let me try anyway.”
You didn’t stop her when she sank to her knees. She tugged your pants down slowly, reverently, like she was asking for permission with every touch.
“I’m sorry,” she said against your inner thigh. “I’d take it back if I could. I’d undo all of it.”
You didn’t answer, but you didn’t push her away either. Her mouth was soft. Skilled. Every flick of her tongue was a plea for forgiveness.
You gasped, fisting her hair, thighs trembling.
“Fuck—Abby—”
She moaned at the sound of her name. You could feel her trembling too. She didn’t stop until you were wrecked—legs shaking, breath gone, body arched against the guilt and the heat between you.
And when you pulled her up and kissed her again, she cried into your mouth. You dragged her to bed. Tore her clothes off. Took your time making her fall apart—over and over again.
The air was thick with sweat, shame, and the unspoken truth that this might never be enough.
But it was something. It was real.
You woke tangled in her arms, her face buried in your neck like she couldn’t bear to let you go. You watched the sunrise in silence.
Then finally, softly: “I still don’t forgive you.”
Abby nodded against your skin. “I know.”
You turned to face her, touched her jaw.
“But I think I want to try.”
Nora told you exactly what she did. The brutality. The violence. You were disgusted despite knowing why she did it.
You don’t want to let her in. Not really. But the moment the door clicks shut behind you, every sharp edge of your silence softens—just a little.
She stands there, all tension and regret, like she’s trying to hold herself together for both of you. Maybe she’s the only one doing any holding right now.
“I didn’t come to make it worse,” Abby says, voice low, raw. “I just need you to hear me.”
You look away. “You don’t get to ask that. Not after everything.”
Her eyes flick down. “I know. I’m sorry. More than you can imagine.”
"You killed a girl's father Infront of her. You made her watch"
"He killed my dad"
Something twists inside you. You want to yell, to tell her to leave. But you just swallow and keep looking at the floor.
“I hate what you did,” you finally say, voice steady but cold. “And I hate that I still want you. It makes me sick.”
Abby’s breath catches. She takes a step closer, but you don’t flinch.
“why are you still here?” you ask, voice barely above a whisper.
She swallows, eyes searching yours like she’s trying to find a place to land. “Because I’m not ready to lose you.”
You don’t move. You don’t want to give her the satisfaction of seeing you crack. But inside, the walls are trembling.
“Why should I believe you?” you whisper, voice rough like gravel. “After everything you did, everything you took from her? Violence doesn't solve anything”
She steps closer, and you feel the heat of her breath. “Because I’m drowning in the same guilt. I carry it every second. Joel’s face, your silence... I don’t deserve you.”
You close your eyes for a moment, swallowing the lump in your throat. The truth is, you’ve missed her—the way she looked at you, fierce and broken all at once. But that only makes the ache worse.
“Maybe I want to hate you,” you admit, voice barely audible. “Maybe I want you to hurt like I do.”
Abby’s hands reach out slowly, trembling. “Then let me in. Let me be the reason you don’t have to carry it alone.”
Your heart is pounding, a wild, desperate rhythm that betrays your cold words. You push her hand away, but your body betrays you—your fingers twitch, wanting to touch her.
Her lips brush your neck, soft and tentative, and the ache spirals into something darker, something desperate.
You catch her mouth with yours, rough and urgent, like you’re trying to reclaim the pieces of yourself she holds hostage. Your hands thread through her hair, pulling her closer as your lips clash.
The taste of her—salt and something bittersweet—makes your knees weak. You break the kiss, gasping. “This doesn’t fix anything,” you choke out.
Abby’s voice is a whisper against your skin. “No. But maybe it’s a start.”
Her hands explore, tentative but hungry, trailing under your shirt like she’s memorizing every inch. You let go of some of the bitterness, the anger. Let the heat flood in and drown the cold for just a moment.
And when she sinks to her knees, the guilt and desire twist into a single, fierce need that can’t be denied.
Your breath hitches as she lowers herself, hands trembling but steady, like she’s asking for forgiveness with every touch. You don’t stop her—not because you forgive her yet, but because a part of you aches for this connection, this dangerous comfort.
Her mouth finds your skin, soft and worshipful, tracing a path that burns and soothes at the same time. You close your eyes, biting your lip to hold back a shudder.
“I don’t deserve this,” you whisper, voice rough.
Her hands clutch your hips tighter. “Maybe not. But I need this. Need you.”
You grip the back of her head, pulling her closer, desperate for something real in the chaos of guilt and rage. Her tongue flicks against your skin, and it’s like a spark igniting a wildfire beneath your ribs. You’re trembling, torn between pushing her away and pulling her deeper.
When she finally parts your clothing, her fingers brush over your skin like a promise — fragile but fierce. You gasp, caught between shame and want.
“Please,” she breathes, voice thick with need and regret.
You tremble but don’t say no.
Her mouth moves with reverence, worshipping every inch, every scar, every broken piece. You’re lost in the sensation, in the desperate heat that roars through you.
Your hands clutch her hair, pulling her up into a harsh, ragged kiss.
“I’m scared,” you confess, voice breaking. “Scared that I’ll never be okay. That I’ll never forgive.”
She kisses you harder. “Then I’ll keep fighting. For you. For us.”
The room hums with tension, desire, and the fragile hope that maybe, just maybe, you can find a way through the wreckage — together.
Your breath is ragged, heart pounding like it wants to break free from your chest. Every touch from Abby feels like fire and ice all at once—burning away the walls you built, but freezing the parts of you that still ache with pain. You pull back slightly, eyes searching hers, desperate for something to hold onto.
“I’ve been so angry,” you whisper, voice raw and cracked. “Angry at you, at him, at myself. Angry because I thought if I stayed furious, I could protect what’s left of me.”
Her hands tremble as they cup your face. “I never wanted to take that from you. I wanted to be the one you could lean on, even if you didn’t believe it.”
Tears sting your eyes. You don’t wipe them away. Letting them fall feels like admitting you’re human—broken, hurting, but still here.
“I hate what you did,” you confess, voice breaking, “but I hate carrying this anger even more. It’s like poison, and I’m tired of being sick.”
Abby leans in, her lips brushing yours with such gentleness it makes your chest ache. “Then let me help you heal. Let me be the cure, even if it takes forever.”
You close your eyes and let yourself believe it—for just a moment, you let the weight of the past fall away.
When you open them again, you’re quiet but sure.
“I forgive you,” you say, barely above a whisper. “Not because it’s easy. Not because I forget. But because I don’t want this anger to own me anymore.”
Abby’s breath catches. She pulls you close, arms wrapping around you like she’s never letting go.
In that moment, broken and whole all at once, you realize forgiveness isn’t a clean slate. It’s a choice. A hard, painful, beautiful choice to let go and try again.
And you’re ready to take it.
The morning light filters softly through the curtains, casting a warm glow over the room where you lie tangled in Abby’s arms. It’s quiet, but it’s not empty anymore.
You trace lazy circles on her back, feeling the steady rise and fall of her breath. The weight of yesterday’s confessions still lingers, but it’s lighter now—less a burden, more a fragile thread holding you both together.
You don’t pretend the past is gone. You know the scars remain, invisible to others but etched deep inside. But for the first time, those scars don’t feel like walls. They feel like part of the map—proof of how far you’ve come.
Abby shifts, resting her forehead against yours. “Thank you,” she murmurs.
You smile softly, heart swelling with something you thought was lost—hope.
“Thank you for not giving up.”
You don’t know what the future holds. Maybe there will be more pain, more fights, more moments where forgiveness feels impossible.
But right now, wrapped in this fragile peace, you decide it’s enough.
It’s enough to try. To live. To heal.
Together.
Brooklyn baby - (ellie williams x reader)
based off this request, but I had to post it separately cuz Tumblr is glitching again:(
This story is based off the song Brooklyn baby by Lana Del Rey, if you can please listen to the song as you're reading :)
Pairing: band!ellie x fem!reader
requests are always open, feel free to leave one, or just send me a song, and I'll take it from there or it can be headcannos! Or whatever you're thinking about! Just a reminder if you want something specific to happen, please indicate what you want in your request:)
Warnings: toxic relationships and manipulation
Summary: In which you were dating the world famous Ellie Williams
Well, my boyfriend's in a band
He plays guitar while I sing Lou Reed
I've got feathers in my hair
I get down to Beat poetry
And my jazz collection's rare
I can play most anything
I'm a Brooklyn baby
I'm a Brooklyn baby
Ellie was bound to be a star.
When Joel first taught her how to play guitar, he knew.
She was going to do great things, and everyone knew it too.
Ellie's first school concert was when she was 7 years old. She had guitar classes and her teacher was so impressed with her that she had Ellie do a solo.
As soon as Ellie got on that stage, it was as if she took control of the room in an instant. Everyone was so enchanted by her and everything she did.
Ellie was 17 years old when a producer reached out to her. Joel wasn't surprised because he knew his girl, and he knew one way or another that she would be a star.
And a star she became.
As soon as she turned 18, Ellie immediately signed the contract and she climbed the ranks in the music industry very quickly.
Within 3 months Ellies first single reached over a 100 thousand listens, and she was in high demand.
Everyone wanted her for brand promotions, they wanted the use her music.
Ellie was taking the music industry by a storm.
As the years went by, Ellie went from a solo artist, to being in a band with 2 best friends, Dina and Jesse.
They were called the golden trio, and because Ellie was the face of it they surpassed massive artists within days.
Now six years later, Ellie sat in her dressing room, as she heard the crowd chant her name.
Ellie! Ellie! Ellie!
She heard a knock on her door and she yelled a quick: "come in!"
As the door opened you walked in, and you walked towards her giving her a quick peck before whispering "you're on in 5 babe".
Ellie gave you another kiss, as she got up, walking to the mirror quickly fixing her outfit for a second.
"Do I look ok?" Ellie asked as she looked at herself in the mirror.
She was wearing a white wife beater, and a pair of black jeans, her hair was in a ponytails and her fingernails were painted black.
Ellie felt your arms wrap around her from behind.
"You look great, now go break leg baby!" You whispered before giving her a kiss on the side of her neck.
Ellie pulled away with a smile before she reached down to grab her guitar.
"Let's go!" She heard Jesse yell.
As she stood backstage, the chants grew louder and louder.
Ellie! Ellie! Ellie!
They repeated her name as if it was a prayer. Her fans worshiped the ground she walked on.
Even though they were the golden trio, Ellie would always be the one that out shines everyone.
Ellie walked onto the stage, the bright lights were shining into her face as the crowd erupted in screams and cries.
Ellie walked to the microphone with a massive grin, as she slinged the guitar to her front. She held the microphone as she spoke.
"Good evening Brooklyn!"
The crowd was yelling as if it was their last night alive.
Ellie yelled a quick "let's fucking do this!"
As the she brought her fingers down the strum the guitar.
Jesse started playing the drums, and Dina, her backup singer started with the back up vocals.
The crowd sang along and Ellie couldn't help but smile as she saw all that she had accomplished. She was thankful for everything that everyone had done for her over the years.
But she knew she wouldn't have come this far if it wasn't for you.
They say I'm too young to love you
They say I'm too dumb to see
They judge me like a picture book
By the colors, like they forgot to read
I think we're like fire and water
I think we're like the wind and sea
You're burnin' up, I'm coolin' down
You're up, I'm down
You're blind, I see
When you and Ellie fell in love, the two of you were only 15. Everyone always told you that you and Ellie would never last. That you were too young. But yet the two of you stayed together years later.
You were never as talented as Ellie.
Where she could flourish in room filled with people, you would shy away and hide a corner.
You've always wanted to be famous. You remembered when you younger you used to watch people blow up, and wish it was you.
You wished that you could be in the spot light. But for some reason you couldn't do anything to achieve that.
You were the complete opposite of Ellie. And because you were so shy you missed so many opportunities, and you hated yourself for that.
You met Ellie when you were 9 and you fucking hated her. She was everything you were not.
She was attractive, good at playing multiple instruments and she could sing. There was no way you would be able to beat or to come close to the Ellie Williams.
But where Ellie failed, you excelled. Ellie wasn't good with organization, or management. She was quite clumsy, to be honest.
And as soon as you guys became friends you helped her. You helped her make a schedule, you helped her make posters, you helped her with everything.
The two of you were an unstoppable duo.
Where Ellie was on fire or nervous, you would always calm her down, and put out whatever she got herself into.
When Ellie told you she liked you, you knew this was a way to get in. A way to get into the industry. Ellie was your key to success, and when you agreed to date her everything became better.
She hired you as her manager, and you had control over everything.
Her reputation, what she posted, who she saw, her finances. You were in control of Ellie and she didn't even realize.
You were going to be successful, and Ellie was the perfect person to use for your plan.
I'm talking about my generation
Talking about that newer nation
And if you don't like it, you can beat it
Beat it, baby
You never liked the way I said it
If you don't get it, then forget it
Cause I don't have to fuckin' explain it
Your plan started as soon as Ellie signed the contract.
The first step was for you to become her manager and that was the easiest thing ever due to Ellie always choosing you.
She would've left that company if they didn't let her have you.
As soon as you were in control, you realized that you had to get Ellie as out there as possible.
You arranged photoshoots, and interviews and you pushed her to the limit.
At some point in Ellie's career, she took a dip. She struggled, to write songs, she struggled to do anything.
You were loosing money and you hated that.
And on one random winter night it hit you.
You needed to hurt Ellie.
You loved her, but you were never in love with her. You cared, but you loved money more.
It started with small comments, such as:
"work harder" and "you can do better" and soon after you realized that manipulating her was the best way to about this whole situation.
You convinced her, that all her friends apart from the golden trio hated her.
"Ellie they are just using you. They'll never support you, like I do"
She cut ties with all of them and she wrote beautiful songs from the heartache, of loosing her dearest friends.
You made hate accounts on social media that focused on making fun of her insecurities. And with that more and more songs came out.
You were hurting her, but it was only temporary. Hurt is temporary, money will last you a lifetime.
You'll do anything to get what you want, and nothing and no one suspected you.
How could they? You were the love of Ellies life. The person she wrote most of her songs about.
But little did Ellie know you were the reason most of her songs even happened in the first place.
Without you, Ellie would've been nothing.
And you thank god that he gave you such an easy target.
Yeah, my boyfriend's pretty cool
But he's not as cool as me
'Cause I'm a Brooklyn baby
I'm a Brooklyn baby
"Did I do good?" Ellie whisperd as she lay on your chest.
"Could've been better" you lied. She was brilliant as always. But you realized that if you break Ellie down, her music would be better.
She would have more drive, to record and to sing, and to make money. Her hurt is what made you money.
More money, and more recognition for you as her manager.
Ellie let out a sigh.
"Are you sure I should continue singing? Recently you've been disappointed in me and I don't think that's good from a professional point of view" she admitted.
Ellie would always say things like this. Sometimes, the things you would day does get to her. And I hurts, it fucking hurts. But she never saw you as bad person. You were only there to help she would say.
"Don't be sensitive Ellie" you said as you pushed her off your chest.
Ellie sat up immediately with her eyes wide.
"If you stop singing who's gonna pay the bills?" You started.
"Do you want me to end up on the street..? Remember it'll be your fault I something happens to me"
Ellie quickly shook her head.
"No, god- no,... I don't want anything to happen to you" she said.
"Then you better stop thinking about quitting, and so as I say. After all I'm you're manager-"
"and you know what's best" Ellie finished your sentence with a smile.
You gave her a smile back before you opened your arms towards her, gesturing, with your hands that she lay down.
Ellie quickly crawled back into your lap, as she lay her head back down onto your chest.
"Sorry" she spoke softly.
"Don't be sorry" you muttered as you ran your fingers through her hair.
"Just go out there and make me proud... i love you, ok?" You spoke gently as Ellie closed her eyes and hummed.
Yeah, you might been dating a superstar, but she would never outshine you.
You would always be better than Ellie. Even if it wasn't on stage.
Authors note: thank you sm for all the requests! My inbox is full of them so just know I'm working harder than the devil himself to get all of these out! Remember you are loved and to always be kind!
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☆ Milf Abby who’s literally the sweetest girlfriend ever. A little old school, but she’s still cute.
☆ Milf Abby who buys you weekly flowers, and who packs you lunch.
☆ Milf Abby who helps you plan lessons and sometimes comes and helps you teach.
☆ Milf Abby who gets baby fever if she sees you with kids.
☆ Milf Abby who said I love you after 3 days of dating.
☆ Milf Abby who has you as her lock screen.
☆ Milf Abby who plans family dates for you and her daughter.
☆ Milf Abby whose heart clenches when she sees how much Aubrey talks about you.
☆ Milf Abby who feels like a teenager because of you.
☆ Milf Abby that’s confused when you text her slang
Abby: ill come pick you up later?
you: yeah baby, I have to go now ttyl
Abby: what is that
☆ Milf Abby who finds pop culture drama interesting because she’s never really took interest in it till you appeared.
☆ Milf Abby who discovers so much and she feels old, but you never judge or make fun of her for it.
☆ Milf Abby who knows you’re the one.
☆ Milf Abby bought you an engagement ring after 2 weeks of dating. It was a simple ring because she knew you didn’t like big and extravagant things (unless it’s her dick-)
☆ Milf Abby who wants to propose to you at a family BBQ
☆ Milf Abby who takes you to meet her family after 4 months of dating, and she knew that this was the weekend she was going to propose.
☆ Milf Abby who held your hand the entire time, when you were being introduced.
☆ Milf Abby who tried staying by your side, but then you snatched away by Aubrey and her cousins.
☆ Milf Abby who stared at you with a smile as you were playing with the kids because you were just that pretty.
☆ Milf Abby who gets cocky when her family tells her she made the right choice.
“You got yourself a pretty girl abs”
“I know”
☆ Milf Abby who was having a good night till her ex-wife showed up.
“What are you doing here?” Abby asked through gritted teeth.
“it’s a family event, can I not be here?”
“you aren’t family”
“Abby she barley sees her mother:
“did you forget we have a child together?”
☆ Milf Abby who wanted to leave but you convinced her to stay for the sake of Aubrey.
“but she’s a bitch”
Aubrey grabbed onto your hand and she ran to her mother. You watched the women’s face drop at the sight of you
“Abby please”
☆ Milf Abby who wanted to slap her ex-wife every time she gave you a dirty look.
“mom this mommy’s girlfriend! isn’t she pretty?!”
The women stared at you with hatred in her eyes. She extended her hand out to grab your other hand in a tight handshake “I’m Kimberly” then you told her your name. The two of you fell into a awkward conversation, until she brought up Abby.
“how long have you been together?” she asked
“4 months” you replied with a smile.
“isn’t it too early to be meeting the family?” she asked, and you rolled your eyes before you responding: “isn’t it too bitchy to judge what I do in my relationship?”
Kimberly stared at you with wide eyes.
☆ Milf Abby who was listening to the whole interaction and she had the biggest smile on her face. That her girl.
☆ Milf Abby who was glued by your side the entire night, but you somehow got lost.
☆ Milf Abby who saw Kimberly walk up to her and she knew this wasn’t going to end well.
“What do you want?” Abby groaned.
“Look I need to say something”
“then talk”
The women took a deep breath before she started spewing nonsense: “I think she’s too young for you! She’s childish”
“that’s your opinion, you know nothing about her”
“well I don’t like her” Kimberly went on.
“that’s ok, but she’s my girlfriend so I don’t know why its bothering you”
“I don’t want her around Aubrey”
that was Abby’s final straw.
“Listen here, you’re barley present in our daughters life. She’s been a better mother to her that you, ever were! You know shit about Aubrey”
“I do” she tried arguing.
“if you did you would’ve know she doesn’t like the nutty chocolate you brought for her”
Kimberly went quiet. Abby continued on to talk.
“You are a shit person. You were a shitty wife, and a shitty mother. My daughter doesn’t deserve that. She needs someone like her. She’s my everything and I would fucking kill for her, so I suggest you stay out of my family’s life”
“but she’s still my daughter”
“she might be but I have full custody” Abby chuckled. “And besides not everyone was made to be a mother, especially you” Kimberly stood there quietly, and she left the party soon after.
☆ Milf Abby who was relieved that she was finally gone.
☆ Milf Abby whose family knew about the proposal and they were helping her plan it.
As the party continued to go on you stood at the table, helping Abby’s aunts with making salads. It was odd, everything became more and more quiet.
You felt arms wrap around you and you knew it was her.
“Hi” you giggled
“hi” she replied. You could practically hear her smile.
“You having fun baby?” Abby asked.
“yeah”
You noticed her sudden silence before you asked: “are you ok?”
Abby took a deep breath. She was nervous. You could tell.
“Yeah, I’m just thinking”
“about?”
“I want this”
“Salad?”
“no” she chuckled.
“A life with you”
Your heartrate increased.
“I want us to grow old together and throw family BBQ’s. I want us to have a big house, so Aubrey can bring her kids over one day. I want to spend forever waking up next to you, and I want to grow our family….”
During her speech you didn’t notice that she let go of you. You were too busy processing her words at that moment.
“Baby look at me” Abby spoke. You slowly turned around to see Abby’s family surrounding the two of you and her on her one knee, with a delicate ring in her hand.
“Will you marry me?” She asked unsure.
You looked at her with wide eyes, no words were coming out out.
“Say yes! please I can’t wait any longer” Aubrey yelled from the sidelines. You saw Abby chuckle.
You fell down onto your knees before you grabbed her face for a kiss.
“I guess that’s a yes” Abby chuckled when she pulled away.
“fuck yes”
She slipped the ring onto your finger before she got up and yelled “she said yes!” The crowd erupted in screams and cries.
☆ Milf Abby who kissed you passionately as tears flowed from both your eyes.
This was true love.
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