❛ is this what you wanted to see? ❜ / also grimm to ulqui....
🐝 * ― 𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑷𝑯𝑨𝑵𝑻𝑶𝑴 𝑶𝑭 𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑶𝑷𝑬𝑹𝑨 𝑺𝑬𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑵𝑪𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑹𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑺. // @chipen
he knew better than to taunt. but this is not taunting: it’s exploration, it’s mindplay, the sort of dynamics that only the espada found delight in, and while delight itself is not a source of pleasure and much less what he seeks, ulquiorra would be concealing the truth if he’d denied that seeing grimmjow this exposed, open and raw like fresh-cut meat didn’t gnaw at the corners of his mind with new-found curiosity.
‘ if i say yes, will it change anything? will it make you cover the scar again?... or maybe you will mirror shame as humans feel when their most vulnerable sides are exposed? ’
arrancar flesh didn’t bend, hard like a carcass. even more difficult it is for it to scar, to leave behind traces of soul energy that isn’t your own — for grimmjow’s body to have patched itself up like molten stone on a crass surface, that must mean the boy drove him into a position where it was either stay and fight or early suicide. grimmjow is strong, so it ought to be the former.
there’s only a brief fire in his eye, like the sharp flutter of a candlelight before it’s blown out. his hand moves slowly, pointedly reaching its destination atop grimmjow’s bare chest, where skin meets tissue, muscle and whatever else their bodies are made of. cold, hardened — the quartz trees on the outside would bend beneath his touch, yet this body doesn’t.
ulquiorra glances up, surprised to find a vacancy of fury in his features. where there should be anger, there’s only an unwavering gaze thrown back at him. ulquiorra is patient, far too patient, and albeit only momentarily, ulquiorra has the sinking feeling that something is amiss, that the longer his fingers remain static it would only give grimmjow another reason to gloat, same as he always did, always expectant that ulquiorra will react in kind. ( he didn’t - on most occassions. )
he knows it’s inevitable, so his hand is withdrawn, back into his pockets.
‘ it’s pointless. i’m merely assessing the damage on lord aizen’s orders. ’
small musing but the way i write kogami he doesn't feel anything remotely romantic for akane, he simply respects her and the bond shared with her is that of a person who aside from makishima has managed to take a dive into his mind and figure out the inner machinations, though her approach is less damaging and there's mutual respect where with makishima there was violent impulses. anyway, kogami doesn't really have a preference and doesn't really think about romance in general, there's a lot going on in his head for it to be at the front of his mind.
🐝 * ― 𝑳𝑰𝑵𝑲𝑰𝑵 𝑷𝑨𝑹𝑲 𝑺𝑬𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑵𝑪𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑹𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑺. ( all of these are taken from the album ‘meteora’ released in 2003. feel free to adjust to better fit your muses. )
❛ sometimes i need you to stay away from me. ❜ ❛ just give me myself back and don't stay. ❜ ❛ sometimes i feel like i trusted you too well. ❜ ❛ somehow i need to be alone. ❜ ❛ i don't need you anymore. ❜ ❛ i wanna heal. ❜ ❛ i wanna let go of the pain i've felt so long. ❜ ❛ i wanna find something i've wanted all along, somewhere i belong. ❜ ❛ i've got nothing to say. ❜ ❛ so what am i? ❜ ❛ i will never know myself until i do this on my own. ❜ ❛ i wanna feel like i'm somewhere i belong. ❜ ❛ but i can't pretend this is the way it'll stay. ❜ ❛ i can't pretend i'm who you want me to be. ❜ ❛ no, no turning back now. ❜ ❛ the very worst part of you is me. ❜ ❛ this isn't what i wanted to be. ❜ ❛ you think having the upper hand means you gotta keep putting me down. ❜ ❛ so many people like me put so much trust in all your lies. ❜ ❛ i'll never trust a single thing you say. ❜ ❛ i would retrace every wrong move that i made. ❜ ❛ if i could stand up and take the blame, i would. ❜ ❛ sometimes i remember the darkness of my past. ❜ ❛ pretending i don't feel misplaced is so much simpler than change. ❜ ❛ it's like no matter what i do, i can't convince you. ❜ ❛ but i'll be here 'cause you're all that i got. ❜ ❛ don't turn your back on me. ❜ ❛ you're gonna listen to me, like it or not. ❜ ❛ sometimes i wonder why this is happening. ❜ ❛ you've become a part of me. ❜ ❛ i don't know what's worth fighting for. ❜ ❛ i don't know how i got this way, i know it's not alright. ❜ ❛ i don't know who to trust. ❜ ❛ i won't trust myself with you. ❜ ❛ so i suppose that it gets to a point where feelings gotta get hurt. ❜ ❛ but you don't want to hear me. ❜ ❛ i'm tired of being what you want me to be. ❜ ❛ all i want to do is be more like me and be less like you. ❜ ❛ can't you see that you're smothering me? ❜ ❛ you were just like me with someone disappointed in you. ❜
i never considered us to be friends. ( Gojo and Nagumo )
‘ hate the game, not the player. ’ satoru says, matter-of-factly.
there would be more seriousness to his voice, had it not been muffled by the noodles hanging from his mouth, twisted into a hungry pout. the bowl is nearly empty, chopsticks slide across the edge and fall together with a chirp as satoru swallows his last mouthful of spicy ramen (watered down especially for him, mind you). running a thumb across his lower lip, he continues, ‘ is it that hard to make cohabitation? genuine question though. ask me about my opinion and i’d say we’re better off splitting responsibilities than leave it all to the maids, assuming there’s any that can put up with our little job. ’
it’s only a flash but he notices nagumo’s smile twitching, all humor fading out and replaced by a more cynical something that he can’t put a finger on but he knows for sure skirts around mild irritation. what’s stopping nagumo from lashing out? easy: these are his favorite bowls. satoru decides that’s a small victory worth celebrating another time.
‘ anyway, that’s not my problem. never asked to be anything more than your handsome coworker. ’ a wink, finger-guns.
‘ oh by the way... can i have seconds? ’
@tearenere
🐝 * ― 𝑺𝑷𝑰𝑹𝑰𝑻𝑬𝑫 𝑨𝑾𝑨𝒀 𝑺𝑬𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑵𝑪𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑹𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑺.
❛ we'll just have to make do. ❜ ❛ come on, it'll be fun. ❜ ❛ wait, where are we going? ❜ ❛ you can't be here. go now! ❜ ❛ it's just a dream, a stupid dream. ❜ ❛ don't be afraid. i'm a friend. ❜ ❛ i can't stand up. what should i do? ❜ ❛ now listen, i'l tell you what to do. if you stay here, they'll find you. i'll distract them while you get away. ❜ ❛ you have no choice if you want to survive here ... and save your parents, too. ❜ ❛ why do i need a weakling like you? ❜ ❛ trembling, aren't you? still, i'm impressed you made it this far. ❜ ❛ what a pain. you're gonna pay for this. ❜ ❛ keep your wits about you. if you need anything, ask me. ❜ ❛ hey, are you okay? don't fall apart on me. ❜ ❛ listen to me. i'll promise i'll save you. ❜ ❛ what did you expect after all that rain? ❜ ❛ i'm gonna get there someday. i'll get out of here for sure. ❜ ❛ i was just coming to wake you up, look! ❜ ❛ what should i do? he'll die! ❜ ❛ what's so funny? wipe off that smile. ❜ ❛ don't do anything stupid until i get down there. ❜ ❛ you see, someone i really care about is badly hurt. i've got to go right now. ❜ ❛ this is our little secret. if you tell anyone ... i'll do the same to you. ❜ ❛ what are you going to do? he needs help. ❜ ❛ becoming a sorcerer's apprentice is dangerous business. ❜ ❛ well, getting there is one thing. getting back's the problem. ❜ ❛ [name], i promise i'll be back. please don't die. ❜ ❛ don't you understand? it's love. ❜ ❛ what took you so long? this is a total disaster! ❜ ❛ what do you want? you can tell me. ❜ ❛ what, you're still alive? ❜ ❛ you still don't see it? she's played a trick on you. ❜ ❛ since when do you talk that way? ❜ ❛ you held this, and nothing happened to you? ❜ ❛ i'd like to help you, but there's nothing i can do. it's one of our rules here. ❜ ❛ but can't you even give me a hint? ❜ ❛ everything that happens stays inside you ... even if you can't remember it. ❜ ❛ see? you have a talent for this. ❜ ❛ [name], i no longer blame you for what you did. but be sure to protect this girl. ❜ ❛ will we meet again somewhere? ❜
This isn’t how you’re going to die! I won’t let you!
I’m so glad you’re okay, Ogata! I’m gonna fucking kill you!
→ Sugimoto and Ogata in Golden Kamuy chapters 188 and 309, written by Satoru Noda.